can you love me today

Name?

Tang Jie.

gender?

Man.

Admitting to murdering fourteen victims between 2087 and 2091?

recognize.

The results of the hospital examination showed that Tang Jie suffered from severe schizophrenia and hypochondria, and had a strong anti-social personality.The court ruled that he would be imprisoned for life!

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I am an illegitimate child, and my mother's status is low. If my father didn't have a son, he wouldn't have taken us into this family.My mother was very strict with me. She often said that my father would think highly of me only if I was good enough.When I first started, I believed, I worked harder than anyone, and I sat at the table while they were playing.

I remember, when I was in the sixth grade, I took a quiz in the class. That time, I lost a point because I filled in the wrong decimal point.The full score of the paper is 99 points, but I only got 1 points.But I am still No.[-] in the class.

I took the paper home and showed it to the woman, and I told her I was still number one, I thought I would get her compliments, but I was wrong, she slapped me across the face and tore it apart Papers, and locked me in the warehouse.The warehouse is very dark, and there are rats squeaking, which is very annoying and noisy.There was no water and no food. I was afraid at first, but then I was not afraid anymore.I don't know if I was locked up for a few days, maybe that woman has forgotten me long ago, and I don't know where to fool around with a man, anyway, this is not the first time this kind of thing happened.

Her father never cared about her, and always followed her.That's right, she is just a tool in his eyes, so why would he care about this.

I don't even know how many days I was locked up.I'm really hungry...so hungry...the rats are really loud, they are screaming in my ears, as if they are laughing at me.In the end... I couldn't take it anymore, so I caught and killed them. I thought it would be difficult to catch, but I caught them in one go.They faded away in my hands, their legs stopped moving, and I drank their blood.That taste... is really something I will never forget.

Later, the door of the warehouse was suddenly opened, facing the light, I saw the man, my father.I thought he would be very worried seeing me like this, and even if he wasn't worried, he would come up and ask me what happened to the blood on my face.I didn't expect it, but I was being sentimental.He just glanced at the mouse at my feet lightly, told me to go down and wash it myself, and then turned and left.At that time, I recognized my status clearly. In fact, I and that woman are the same to him, they are just tools.

I waited for many years, and finally waited until the woman died.She was in a car accident while driving under the influence of alcohol, which is actually not surprising. She already liked to drink, so it is not unusual for her to die while driving under the influence of alcohol.

I went to her funeral, there was no one at the funeral, the man came after a long time, he just looked at it for a while and then turned to leave, before leaving, he turned and said a word to me.He said: You really are a monster.

I'm a...monster?

Haha, this is the first time I heard such words, he said I was a monster, it was really funny, he actually said I was a monster.Yeah, I'm a monster, but it's all because of someone.

The first time I met Bai Yu'an was in that year, that year, my third year in high school.

Because people in the school respected me because of my identity, they seemed to want to curry favor with me.Probably because of my cheap father. At that time, I was thinking, even if we don’t have any kindness and filial piety, but with his status, I still got a lot of cheap, so I forgive him for ignoring me up.We'll be fine as long as we don't interfere with each other.

The first time I saw him, I felt like...he was like a rabbit, obviously terribly scared but still had to come up to me and talk to me, like when I was handing in homework.

He is the representative of the Chinese class in the class. The middle-aged woman who teaches Chinese seems to like him very much, and chose him to be the representative of the Chinese class on the first day of class.

That old woman always assigns a lot of homework, and class representative is not a flattering position, because, he has to collect homework.Everyone's homework is actually very good, of course...except mine.

He shrank his head and lowered his head and walked in front of me, asking me for homework.I didn't write it at all, how could I give it to him.I told him directly that I didn't write it, but he still didn't leave, and even said one more sentence to me.He said: "I can lend you to copy, you can write it to me."

After saying this, I ran away in a hurry. Looking at his back, I smiled. At that time, I felt that this rabbit was really cute.The next day he came to ask me for homework again, and I took out a pile of paper, which was his homework.

He asked me what this is.I smiled, "This is your homework. Didn't you give it to me? Why do you want to go back?"

I saw his eyelashes trembling, and his mouth was bent down, as if he was extremely sad.He piled the pile of papers on my desk into his arms, hugged and left.Although his back was facing me at the time, I could see clearly.

He cried.

I really want to laugh, but the corners of my mouth are raised, but I can't laugh in the end.This is a very strange feeling, I can't explain it clearly, it seems to be the first time...

His figure is very slender, and his appearance is very gentle and small. He is extremely handsome and good-looking among boys, and he is the kind that girls prefer. Unfortunately, his personality is not very good, he is too soft.

I admit that I was really just curious at the beginning, but as time went on, I began to have some different feelings towards him.I always feel like wanting to bully him, every time I see him cry, I always feel a strange feeling, unexpectedly... I feel very excited!

I still remember the first time I pressed him under me. He was so flustered that he seemed to be frightened and stared at me with wide eyes.I was on top of him then, and I saw my face in his eyes, the first time I saw my face in someone else's eyes.This is also the first time that I have been officially put in the eyes of others.

His eyes are beautiful, I like them very much, especially when he is crying, they look even better.

I thought that a rabbit would always be a rabbit, nothing would change, but I was wrong, he actually wounded me with a knife.What kind of feeling was it at that time? It seemed to be a very sad feeling, so sad.

Later, when I went back to school, he changed schools. I always felt empty in my heart and wanted to fill it with something.So I found many similar substitutes. At the beginning, I just wanted to play and didn't think about hurting them. But as time went by, I couldn't control myself more and more, so I cut them apart. They ate their stomachs and looked carefully at the contents of their stomachs, but there was still no result.

I thought we would never see each other again, but I didn't expect to see him on TV again.But... there was another man beside him.

He imprisoned him on the island. At the beginning, I just wanted to have fun. Later, I didn't have any interest in killing him. But I became more and more reluctant. I actually...wanted to spend the rest of my life with him .

But he never has me in his heart, he doesn't like me, he likes that Chu Yu.He followed him.

At the beginning, I was still very sad, but after a long time, I also thought about it. In this world... there is no one who likes me, no one loves me. It's my own thing.

Even so... I really hope to get someone who loves me, but it's good to love me even once.

Being human, I'm sorry.

If I could choose, I would definitely not choose to be a human being.

I have never been expected by anyone, and I have never been liked by anyone. Living like that...what's the point.

Bai Yu'an, excuse me.

Finally, goodbye.