Unreasonable

Immediately jumped out of the wishing arms and ran towards Youyi, opening his arms to ask for a hug.

Youyi was stunned for a moment, then smiled at Wishing, who was turning his head to look at this side, and then gently rubbed his head.

Younan looked at his smile, his eyes widened, his small mouth was in the shape of an "o" and he almost forgot to breathe.

Feeling the touch on the top of his head, he was sluggish again. He only felt that he was in the clouds, the soles of his feet were soft, and his head was dizzy, as if floating around in heaven.

He looked up at Youyi, and saw a ray of gentle light.

It was a moment of starlight.Afterwards, he spent 14 years chasing desperately, but he couldn't beg for half a point again.

That......

What about Ling?

Those countless sparkling moments, those extremely gentle words, sweet candies to the heart, roses blooming in the wind...

Will these, like Youyi, be annihilated in the dusty disappointment...

He looked down at the sticky residue of orange peel in the cup, and suddenly felt very helpless.

After getting off the car, the two got on the elevator one after the other, neither saying a word.

Younan looked at Zhiling's tall and straight back, and felt that everything in front of him became blurred.

He remembered the last time Zhiling said that homosexuality can be accepted by others, but not himself. He didn't know that if Zhiling knew what he liked and knew that there was something wrong, it would be because he didn't know the filth of not being able to see the light. The mind is blatantly moving upwards.

if he knew...

The unrestrained, shattered cans broke up little by little, and they couldn't catch them back. In the cramped space of the elevator, the fear was infinitely magnified, so that they began to tremble uncontrollably.

if he knew...

Maybe it's not that bad...

Zhi Ling is so good to him, maybe it's not that bad...

Maybe......

Ding-dong-

The elevator door opened, and the two walked in one after the other. Li Ziyang, who was looking unhappy, stared at Younan with the green notebook in his hand.

In an instant, the color on You Nan's face faded, his legs softened, and he almost lost his footing.

Threads of fear crept from the bottom of his heart, entangled him like a spider web, almost suffocating him.

He wanted to grab Zhiling's hand in a panic, but Li Ziyang quickly slapped it away, and pulled Zhiling behind him.

Younan was stunned, trembling all over, not daring to meet anyone's gaze.

Zhiling sighed, walked out from behind Li Ziyang, and said to Younan seriously: "Younan. I don't watch it. I haven't watched it before, I won't watch it now, and I won't watch it in the future. Really. If you don't agree, I won't watch it. won't touch anything of yours."

Younan was stunned.

He raised his head to look at Zhiling in a daze, thinking, yes, Zhiling is like this.

He grew up with thousands of favors, and his journey was full of glory and flowers.He is the proud son of heaven, the ideal of the world, the flower in June, the snow in January, the spark in the night, and the warm sun in winter.

He is so bright and open, how can he pry into other people's privacy at will without permission?

only......

43. No.40 Three unreasonable troubles

◎I don’t necessarily dislike you◎

Younan was suddenly very tired.

Following Zhiling's side is a choice with no tomorrow in itself.

No one can hide anything from the sky, let alone he never hides it from his heart.

So he said softly, "Look. I'll show you."

Li Ziyang's face changed, and he wanted to say something, but finally held back.

Zhiling sat back on the sofa and said, "I... am not used to looking at other people's privacy."

"I'll read it to you."

Li Ziyang cursed for some reason and stood beside Zhiling.

Younan moved his lips, he thought, Zhiling is so smart, he must have guessed it.

He snatched the diary from Li Ziyang, put it on the coffee table, knelt down on his knees, and opened the first page of the essay book that had written a thick stack of pages.

He buried his head very low, not looking at Zhiling directly in front of him, nor at Li Ziyang who was standing with his arms folded and looking down at him condescendingly.

He licked his lips and spoke slowly:

"If anyone can really bear the name of 'Light', it must be you. You are a sharp sword warmed from the warm sun, coming from infinite distance, splitting the cold and long night, and breaking the decadent In the lightless sea of ​​stars, all the endless poems and distant places are advanced in a flash. You are my delusions born out of no reason during my lonely journey. One day you came from a place full of people’s voices, and my delusions came true. From then on, my Life is your narration..."

Thoughts stretched away from the text in front of me, and those pictures that I no longer remembered for a long time climbed up in front of me inch by inch...

The day Younan went down the mountain to elementary school for the first time was very exciting.Others are led by their parents to run up and down, but he is different. He is led by three good-looking little brothers to run up and down.

Xia Jiu's skin was as white as bone china when he was a child, and his personality was lively. Younan unconsciously got closer to him and followed him in everything.

This greatly pleased Xia Jiu, so the second class that afternoon came to the "big day" that the three of them had agreed to once a week. , with a wave of his big hand, he picked up Younan as well.

Although he didn't quite know where he was going, since Xia Jiu had asked, he must go.However, Younan panicked the moment he sneaked out of the school.Hearing the class bell from afar made him panic even more, and the further he walked, the more panicked he became.

As he walked, Younan stopped.He raised his head and said to Xia Jiu, "I want to go back to class."

He hoped that Xia Jiu would send him back.If it is not possible, Gao Cong can accept it.Jian Ming seemed too unreliable, and he felt that it was difficult for him to take on the task.

But when he heard Xia Jiu's words, he was shocked:

"Then you have to go back by yourself. We all have an appointment with the brothers of Sanxiao, we can't be late!"

?

you?

three brothers?

Let me, a six-year-old child who has been down the mountain for less than 24 hours, go back by himself from a strange place not far from school?

Although there are always people in the world who are not human, it doesn't stop there, right?

But those three really abandoned him.

Looking at Xia Jiu's back, Younan suddenly felt a little lost.

He turned around and walked back slowly, wanting to wait for someone to catch up, but he only heard the sound of laughter drifting farther and farther away.

He bit his lip, tears fell down.

He started to run around in the street, turning around, but suddenly he heard a strange but nice young voice calling out his name:

"Is there Nan?"

There was some uncertainty in his voice, he turned his head south, with tears in his eyes, and saw a boy in a light green plaid shirt.

The hem of his clothes was loosely tucked into black loose straight-leg pants, and he also wore two black suspenders.

He knelt down and looked at You Nan carefully for a moment, as if trying to identify him, and then wondered: "It's really you?"

His back was straight, his shoulders were extremely beautiful, his neck was whiter than Xia Jiu, and he was smiling, looking straight into his eyes.

His eyes are very light in color, very beautiful, like a layer of starlight, and clear and gentle.

Younan still had tears in his eyes, and he stammered: "Ah...I...I am Younan..." Then he added another sentence: "You Can you give me a hug?"

The boy didn't ask why, he just raised his index finger, gently wiped the tear stains on Younan's face, and then gently pulled him into his arms.

Younan's eyes widened slightly, tears streaming down his face.

After Aunt Lin left, the first thing he asked for was a stranger's hug.

"Where do you want to go?" Zhiling asked while touching his head.

Younan blinked and said, "I want to go back to school."

Of course, the school has become a mess.

The child who just entered school disappeared, and the parents couldn't be contacted. The headmaster was so shocked that cold sweat broke out.

So when Younan returned to the classroom, he was dragged to the corridor by the class teacher and scolded him.

Younan blinked, and tears fell down.He really wanted to say, "I didn't want to go by myself", but he heard suppressed laughter coming from the window behind him, groups of childish and sharp laughter.

He suddenly shut his mouth and lowered his head.

It was the boy who had gone and returned to stand in front of him.

The teacher's sharp scolding stopped suddenly, and replaced with a gentle and gentle voice: "Why is Zhiling here?"

Younan didn't dare to raise his head, but he heard the boy say in a voice clearer than Qingquan:

"He didn't want to leave by himself. It was Xia Jiu who pulled him out."

The teacher was silent.

After a long time, she bent down and patted Younan on the shoulder, and said softly, "I'm sorry, little Younan."

Younan turned around and hugged the boy's leg and cried.

After the teacher left, Younan asked, "How do you know?"

Zhiling was surprised at first, and said: "I was talking nonsense. I just don't want to see her yelling at you, you are so obedient...I didn't expect Xia Jiu to pull you out?"

He squatted down, twirled Younan's hair, and said, "I've really wronged you. I'll go back this week and help you clean up Xia Jiu—you should go to class first."

He patted Younan on the shoulder and sent him to the door of the classroom.

Younan walked with one step and three turns.

Younan didn't know how he finished reading that page. His mind seemed to be blank, and it seemed to be filled with pictures. He just knew to read on, word by word.

Tears fell heavily on the paper one after another, slowly bleeding away one by one.

He raised his head, Zhiling in front of him was no longer there, only Li Ziyang next to him was staring at him heavily.

I am done.You Nan thought.

His knees kneeling on the ground were cold and painful, and he read a confession that the client couldn't bear to hear in the most humble gesture and the most pious tone.

He fell on the table and burst into tears, Li Ziyang frowned and walked away.

No one opened the door.

For 14 years, it was like a nightmare that I couldn't get rid of