growing up porcelain doll

◎In fact, their life is no different from ordinary couples. They will eat together, go home together, and occasionally squeeze out some time to sneak out to watch a movie and make an appointment...◎

Their days are actually no different from ordinary couples. They will eat together, go home together, and occasionally squeeze out some time to sneak out to watch a movie and make a date.When Gong Qing was in class, Cheng Yu would occasionally come to the classroom as an auditor, although most of them were doing their own things with a tablet.

They appear together more and more times in everyone's field of vision, but they have never been criticized. Everyone knows that they are brothers. It is not surprising to see them going out together everywhere. On the contrary, I feel this from the bottom of my heart. The relationship between the two brothers is really good.

After finally surviving another five busy working days, it came to a rare relaxing weekend. Gong Qing nestled in the warm blanket and refused to get up. Cheng Yu pinched his face and said, "It's already ten o'clock. rise?"

Gong Qing took Cheng Yu's fidgeting hand and stuffed it back into the quilt, yawned and said, "I'm sorry!"

Cheng Yu smiled and said, "When did you become so lazy?"

Gong Qing narrowed her eyes and said, "Maybe it's because you've been taking care of me seriously since we moved in, which aroused my inertia."

Cheng Yu clicked his tongue and said, "Is it wrong to take care of you?"

Gong Qing put her arms around the man and smiled lightly, "There's nothing wrong with you, I'm so happy." He took Cheng Yu's hand to touch his stomach, and said, "If you touch it, I've been fattened by you."

Cheng Yu pressed Gong Qing's abdominal muscles, and suddenly said hooliganically, "It feels so good!"

Gong Qing's originally squinted eyes suddenly opened. He looked at Cheng Yu with raised eyebrows, and said, "Is it easy to touch?"

Cheng Yu nodded and replied honestly, "It's easy to touch!"

"Then tell me when you've touched it enough." Gong Qing couldn't help laughing.

Seeing this familiar smile, Cheng Yu immediately felt his acupoint tighten. The pain from the entanglement the night before still left him with lingering fears, so he said vigilantly, "What are you doing! We have to go out this afternoon, don't mess around Come!"

Feeling Cheng Yu's tense body, Gong Qing couldn't help laughing. He leaned close to Cheng Yu's face and kissed him, and said with a smile, "Of course you have taken advantage of me, and I have to take it back too." , Reciprocity!"

Cheng Yu hurriedly said, "I just touched you, nothing else."

Gong Qing said: "That's right, I didn't say I wanted to do anything else, can I touch you too?"

For a while, Cheng Yu felt that he was really cheap, and he didn't know how he did it. The longer he was with Gong Qing, the less he could resist him. He was obviously not a person full of lust//thoughts, But Gong Qing is like his aphrodisiac, a casual touch can make him go off.After a long time, he really loves and fears Gong Qing's touch, and he also despises his own reaction. How did this body become what it is now!

Gong Qing is well aware of the sensitive areas of Cheng Yu's body. In fact, Cheng Yu's shameful reactions are sometimes deliberately teased by Gong Qing. He seems to like to see Cheng Yu's shy and annoyed but helpless look, because only he can see it. Seeing this big brother's unknown side, and only he can tease the big brother's reactions, this is a secret that only belongs to the two of them.

Now Cheng Yu is prone to blush when Gong Qing teases him, which is completely different from the cheeky look of pretending to apologize when he did something bad when he was a child. Even Cheng Yu himself feels that the shame of his life may be used in front of Gong Qing.

He coughed twice to cover up his inner panic, and said to Gong Qing: "That's fine, you can touch it, after you touch it, get up and go downstairs to eat!"

Gong Qing obediently put her hand on Cheng Yu's stomach, and said, "Okay!"

Gong Qing's hand lay on it without moving, and it rose and fell with Cheng Yu's breathing.But it's better to just grope casually and let everyone finish the trouble if they stop still like this.No one spoke in the room, Cheng Yu could only feel the temperature of the abdomen rising little by little, and the ups and downs of breathing became more obvious, the increasingly ambiguous atmosphere made his breathing almost out of rhythm, what a crime!

Cheng Yu endured it for a while and finally couldn't take it anymore, and asked a little annoyed, "Have you touched it yet?!"

Gong Qing smiled and saw that Cheng Yu didn't say a word, her hand slid down a little, and when Cheng Yu was about to dodge it, she quickly let go and lifted the quilt to get up. , I'm all up!"

"Ah!" Cheng Yu curled up and panted softly. He glared at Gong Qing and said, "Childish!"

After laughing and laughing, the two of them washed up and went out. Originally, they planned to go for a walk by the moat, but unexpectedly, it started to rain halfway, so they took a taxi to a nearby shopping mall. It was going to be winter anyway, so they went shopping. The clothes are also pretty good.

They were all young men in their twenties, with tall legs and long legs, they were like walking clothes racks.The same type of clothes looks ordinary on others, but they look good no matter how they are worn, and they are suitable no matter how they are worn. The two of them tried on them several times, and the clerk's eyes were staring straight. She couldn't help thinking Sigh: "Sometimes it's really not the person who chooses the clothes, but the clothes who choose the person!"

There is a gap between Cheng Yu and Gong Qing in terms of clothing aesthetics. He knew this very clearly when he was younger, so when he went shopping with Gong Qing to buy clothes, he obediently tried on whatever Gong Qing chose for him.Gong Qing took a light gray woolen coat and said to him, "Brother, try this."

Cheng Yu frowned, and asked a little hesitantly, "Is this color too light?" The main color of his clothes is black, and he feels that the visual impact is quite big when he wears a light gray dress all of a sudden.

Gong Qing pushed him into the dressing room and said, "Hey, why don't you try it, if it doesn't look good, let's choose something else."

As soon as Cheng Yu came out of the dressing room, the clerk's sister didn't look down on him. After a while, she might have realized that she was offended by staring at him like this, so she quickly coughed twice and looked away.

Gong Qing turned to look at Cheng Yu, and suddenly felt an indescribable heartbeat.His brother wears too many dark-colored clothes, and he usually doesn’t pay attention to them, but now he finds that his brother is really suitable for this kind of light-colored clothes. Without losing his stability, if coupled with his status as a "lawyer", he will have a rigorous temperament when he goes there. Although he is young, he can still give people a sense of security.

Cheng Yu waited for Gong Qing to comment, but didn't hear a voice for a long time, so he asked directly: "Is it not good-looking? Is the color too bright?"

Gong Qing seemed to have just recovered, and said with a smile: "It's beautiful, it's beautiful."

The clerk sister also said at the right time: "This handsome guy, this dress is just right for you, and you are very suitable for this color of clothes. Young people should wear clothes of brighter colors to look more energetic!"

Gong Qing nodded and said, "Well, that's right. Why don't you just take this one?"

Cheng Yu looked at himself in the mirror, and really felt that he looked like two people with his usual self. He couldn't help but sigh that Gong Qing's eyes were really good, and said, "Okay." He turned his head and looked at Gong Qing again, and asked: "how about you?"

Gong Qing asked the clerk with a smile, and said, "Take two of the same style."

The clerk said with some embarrassment: "Uh, this is the light gray one. Would you like to see other colors or other styles of coats?"

"What color is there?"

"Smoky gray and navy blue."

"Then take the smoky gray one size up and wrap it directly with this one."

Cheng Yu looked at Gong Qing and asked, "Wrap it up directly? Why don't you try it first?"

Gong Qing curled her lips into a smile: "No need to try it, I know it will look good on me! Good! Look!"

"..." Cheng Yu cut out, punched Gong Qing on the shoulder, and said, "You were never so narcissistic before, what happened to make you like this!"

If it was before, he would definitely think that narcissism is a disease, no matter who it is, it must be cured!But now, he feels that he has learned to be thick-skinned without a teacher. The good-natured teenagers who used to be good-natured can now say "hooligan talk" and flirt. Looking back on these few short months, he has nothing to do I did, what is narcissism now?

Although Cheng Yu knew that the narcissistic words were true, seeing his embarrassing appearance, he still gave him a blank look, and said speechlessly, "Oh."

When the two of them came out of the shopping mall, the rain stopped. The two of them were walking in a small alley where there were not many people. Gong Qing took Cheng Yu's hand and asked suddenly, "Brother, are you happy?"

"Huh? Happy." Cheng Yu raised his eyes to look at Gong Qing, and said, "Why are you asking so suddenly?"

"I just think this kind of life is too beautiful. The beauty makes me feel unreal, and the beauty makes me feel guilty. You have always been taking care of me, accommodating me, and trying to make me happy. I am addicted to your I can’t help myself because I love you so much, I feel sorry for you.” Family issues have always been a topic they keep silent, or they haven’t had enough courage to face this series of practical problems, perhaps because they love this family too much It was like letting the family members bear the mental and psychological impact prematurely, but these problems cannot be avoided. Gong Qing took a deep breath and finally expressed the uneasiness in her heart: "Since my parents passed away, I I don’t like the days at the end of the year even more. The phone call I didn’t make that night when I was ten years old is always a lingering regret in my heart. Half an hour is enough to tell them that I miss and love them very much, enough to tell them They and my life are complete because of them, and there is enough to say a lot, but I let this opportunity slip away, making those unspoken words a lifetime of regret.”

Day after day, year after year, many people say that nothing is difficult, everything will gradually fade with time, and the scars and pains of the past will disappear.This sentence may be right, because the only constant in this world is that it is always changing. Low houses will be replaced by tall buildings, and places that were once deserted will be crowded with people one day, so those things that we once cared about One day, there will be no traces of happy or sad or painful things. Looking back at that time, you may wonder whether those things really happened, whether we really had the original happiness or sadness.

Time seems ruthless, but who is really ruthless?

Time is changing, the environment is changing, and you are also changing.But we are human beings, we can have independent thinking and make independent choices, so some people choose to be pushed by time and accept the catalysis and baptism of time, so that the past sorrows and joys will fade with the passage of time.But some people's feelings are too strong, time can't take away the past that can't go back, and the sorrows and joys they once had will become eternity in this life, and Gong Qing belongs to the latter.

He said: "I often think that I am an unfortunate person, but in every trough in my not-so-long life, I will meet people who are kind to me. My parents are, my aunt and uncle are, you and Cheng Yue Yes, there are also those classmates and friends, so I think I am still lucky. I really want to make myself a better person to repay you, at least let my parents and aunts and uncles feel that I have lived up to their expectations , but I didn't even do that. I dragged their pride into the abyss and kept you from having a full life. I was attached to a relationship that was unethical, but I knew it was wrong but couldn't convince myself to let it go. Brother, I feel guilty."

There was a dull pain in Cheng Yu's heart, not only because of their abnormal and invisible relationship, but also because of Gong Qing's inner wound.The closer the end of the year means the closer the death date of Liu Xiyue and Gong You, he understands all the feelings in Gong Qing's heart. The deeper the relationship, the deeper the guilt towards Liu Xiyue and Gong You, as well as Liu Danqing and Cheng Yan. The four words "I'm sorry" seemed very pale and powerless in the face of such self-blame and guilt. He knew that Gong Qing said Not exported.

Cheng Yu squeezed Gong Qing's hand and said, "As a brother, it is my responsibility to take care of you and protect you. As a lover, I am willing to accommodate you, pamper you and make you happy. I understand how you feel, but I don't I agree with you, pure love may be a matter of one person, but when we are together, love is a matter of two people. If I stay out of this relationship, then you are alone, so remember, it is not you Be sure to pull into the abyss, I jumped in voluntarily, I want to be with you! You have never been sorry to me! What kind of life can be called "complete"? Is it only possible to marry a wife and have children to share the family life together? Maybe such a life in other people’s world is complete, but it’s theirs, not mine. I only know that my world is incomplete without you.”

Such a confession was earth-shattering to Gong Qing. He knew that his brother loved him, but he never dared to think that his brother loved him so much. He couldn't say whether he was more shocked or moved at this time. All the uneasiness and uneasiness that had been moving were all soothed at this moment. The invisible future ahead and the intangible thorns beside him seemed no longer so scary. His brother always had the power to make him feel at ease.

He felt that his heart was surrounded by a warmth, which was enough to melt his whole body.He called out in a low voice: "Brother."

Cheng Yu hugged him into his arms and said softly, "So don't be afraid, okay? Let's face and solve all the problems together, we are inseparable."