growing up porcelain doll

◎Gong Qing has never seen a girl who can drink alcohol so boldly, and this person is actually Xiaoya, which is completely different from her usual quiet and restrained personality

Gong Qing has never seen a girl who can drink alcohol so boldly, and this person is actually elegant, which is completely different from her usual quiet and restrained personality. The girl in the house was so different, he couldn't help but doubt whether this was the girl he knew.

Seeing that he hadn't spoken for a long time, Xiaoya asked, "Why didn't you speak?"

Gong Qing looked at her with raised eyebrows, and said with a smile: "I feel that you are quite different now, and you have changed a lot from before."

Xiaoya chuckled twice, her eyes moved to the ground, and she said in a low voice: "How long have we been at the same table?" She didn't wait for Gong Qing's answer, and said to herself: "It should be a year and a half. , It took only a year and a half, and I have changed so much.”

She seemed to be talking to Gong Qing, but more like muttering to herself.

Gong Qing felt that Xiaoya might be drunk, so she wanted to take her back to the restaurant, but before he could stand up, Xiaoya put her hand on his arm.He only felt a sudden numbness in his scalp at that moment, and his arm jerked back violently like a conditioned reflex.

Xiaoya was taken aback by his huge reaction. She stared at Gong Qing with her drunken eyes for a moment, and then slowly shifted her gaze to the hand that was too late to let go. In just a few seconds, His drunken eyes were clouded with mist.

Gong Qing has become more sensitive to capture emotions since she opened her eyes. Having been at the same table with Xiaoya for so long, it's not that he is ignorant of Xiaoya's thoughts like a mallet, but he understands her own thoughts. , so she never reacted to Xiaoya's thoughts.

He used to feel embarrassed and guilty when dealing with Hu Cong's confession to him. For a person who values ​​feelings, he cherishes the friends around him very much and hopes that the friendship will last forever. Since then, she has maintained an appropriate distance, and did not break up Xiao Ya's little ripples.

I thought that as long as I controlled my attitude well this time, they would not be as embarrassed as last time, but I didn't expect that Xiao Ya, who was originally quiet and introverted, would be the first to break this balance.He looked at Xiao Ya's wet eyes and flushed cheeks, he stood there and didn't stay or stay, except for his younger sister Cheng Yue, he had never coaxed any girl.

Xiao Ya looked up at Gong Qing, she suddenly felt that Gong Qing was really tall, she even blocked the light of the street lamp, her whole face was hidden in the shadow so that people couldn't see the expression clearly.

Perhaps this is the distance between them. After watching his figure chase for so long, he still couldn't see his face clearly even when he looked up.

Xiao Ya just thought about it, and for a while, she didn't know whether she was more ashamed or more regretful.

"Let's go back." Gong Qing thought for a while, then reached out to help her.

Xiao Ya used her strength to stand up from the curb and then pushed Gong Qing's hand away. She tried her best to bear it for a long time, but her tears still fell down in vain.She said aggrievedly: "I have liked you for a year, although it is not long, but I feel it has been a long time." She lowered her eyes and stopped looking at Gong Qing, as if to hide her sadness.

"I never thought that I would sit with you before." She smiled and said, "You are so dazzling. When I didn't enter Class 1, I knew that there were two great gods in our grade, and Hu Cong was very good. , but you are not inferior to him at all. I have seen you sweating like rain and galloping on the sports field, I have seen you get good grades without being arrogant, and I have seen you work harder even when you are already so good No matter what you look like, I feel that you are shining all the time like a god. Later, I was very lucky to be at the same table with you. At that time, I realized that I was so inferior in front of you. It's good, but I can't do anything in front of you, I feel so stressed, I don't even feel qualified to sit next to you."

Gong Qing didn't know how to feel for a while, he just thought that Xiao Ya was very quiet and didn't like to talk, but he didn't expect her to be so inferior, not to mention he didn't think Xiao Ya was bad, after all, someone who can enter Class 1 They are all capable and powerful.

He said: "You don't have to think about it, you are just as good."

Xiao Ya shook her head and continued: "But slowly, I found that you are not as cold as a god, you can laugh and make trouble, help your classmates and take care of others, so you are even more charming. I will firmly remember every question and every method you told me. In my world, you have changed from an unreachable god to a bright lamp, making me I keep wanting to get closer." She looked up at Gong Qing with some disappointment, and said in a low voice, "I've worked very hard, but you are still out of reach."

The surrounding area seemed to be quieter, there were fewer vehicles passing by, and the cicadas gradually faded away as the darkness deepened.

Gong Qing stood firmly beside Xiao Ya, and after taking a deep breath, he suddenly said to Xiao Ya: "You are fine, but I don't like girls."

These words were like a thunderbolt to Xiao Ya, which made her wonder if she was drunk to the point of unconsciousness, she stared blankly at Gong Qing's slender figure under the moonlight.

Carrying a secret alone for a long time will always make people breathless, but Gong Qing is not the kind of person who can't bear the pain. He didn't drink much tonight, but when he saw a little girl who is usually restrained and quiet, When he can bravely express his love to the person he likes, he admits that he really feels uncomfortable.

Just let yourself go this once, don't need to say too much, just one sentence is fine.

Xiao Ya drank a little too much, it took her a lot of time to digest this sentence, but when Gong Qing decided to pull her away, she murmured, "Is it Hu Cong?"

Gong Qing paused with her raised hand, and then said, "No."

Xiao Ya laughed suddenly after hearing this, and she nodded self-consciously: "Oh, then I will feel more comfortable." She didn't know whether it was the effect of alcohol or she was too surprised to know that the boy she liked didn't like girls, she thought I was about to start talking nonsense, so I patted Gong Qing's arm and said, "Let's go."

Gong Qing naturally didn't explain too much, he hummed and helped Xiao Ya back to the restaurant.

A few days later, the students began to fill out their applications. Cheng Yu called Gong Qing several times to ask him what major he wanted to choose, and exchanged with him his experience as a person who has experienced it. For the sake of long-term consideration, he should choose the one he likes. Professional, after all, doing what you like will make you feel very happy psychologically, even if it is hard, you will have the motivation to keep going.

As for which school to fill in, Cheng Yu didn't discuss it with Gong Qing. He felt that this was something that was discussed two years ago. It was an inevitable event for Gong Qing to come to Wu City A University.

Cheng Yu didn't mention it, and Gong Qing didn't say it either. Anyway, the eldest brother will know sooner or later, and this day the eldest brother will definitely be very angry. .

Because Cheng Yue had to participate in the school's summer camp during the summer vacation, he didn't go home immediately after the holiday. After all the school affairs were over, he arrived home in mid-July. However, he stayed at home for a few days. Gong Qing's The acceptance letter is here.

Cheng Yue happily opened the courier, and took out the high-end and high-grade admission notice from inside. Cheng Yu was still wondering when the school's notice became so beautiful, but his sister Cheng Yue shouted excitedly. Said: "Wow! Second brother, you have been admitted to the medical department of University A in Beijing!"

Liu Danqing and Cheng Yan approached happily upon hearing the words, Liu Danqing couldn't stop smiling from ear to ear, she said: "The notice has finally come down." She took the notice and read it carefully, then looked at Gong Qing He added: "I still feel that studying medicine is a bit too hard."

Cheng Yan patted her and said with a smile: "It's too late to say now, when Xiaoqing told us, didn't you say that learning anything is good?"

Liu Danqing: "Our Xiaoqing is so smart, of course he can learn everything, but in the future, he will have to work overtime frequently, which is too tiring."

Cheng Yue looked very excited, and said: "Why are you not tired now? You are not a doctor, why don't you still prepare lessons at home after work every day? My dad is not a doctor, and he always stays up late all day long? My brother didn't become a doctor. Doctor, after becoming a lawyer, don’t you have to work overtime to watch cases? So, it’s all the same.”

Liu Danqing thought for a while, and what he said was correct, so he nodded and said, "Yes, yes."

Cheng Yan smiled and said to Liu Danqing: "Look at you, you are not as transparent as a child when you are older!"

Liu Dan rolled his eyes at him, and said angrily, "Fuck you!" She stroked Gong Qing's hair, and said worriedly: "You have never traveled far alone, and you will be the farthest away from home in the future. It’s time to take care of yourself.”

Gong Qing was quiet for a long while, he never dared to look at the elder brother beside him, he knew it was not good for the elder brother to be as silent as him for a long time.But at this moment, he deliberately bumped his elder brother with his elbow, and said to Liu Danqing: "I have grown up, I can take care of myself, besides, elder brother also goes to school alone, and he is fine now. Yes Big Brother?"

Cheng Yu, who hadn't spoken all this time, responded hastily when he heard the words: "Oh, yes, of course a boy has to take care of himself when he grows up, otherwise he's not a man."

Cheng Yue curled her lips and muttered: "If you can take care of yourself, you will become a man? The standard of a man is too low!"

Cheng Yu was in a bad mood and didn't feel like arguing with her, so they sat around and said congratulations before they dispersed.

Cheng Yu walked back to the room absent-mindedly, turned around and saw Gong Qingqi who was following him, and didn't make a fuss.He glared at Gong Qing, and then suppressed his temper for a long time and asked, "Beijing City A University? I am the only one in the family of five who didn't know you were applying for Beijing City A University? I am the only one who is still waiting cheerfully." Are you going to report to school with me?"

Gong Qing felt a little uncomfortable when asked these two sentences. Even though he knew that his elder brother would be very angry if he knew that he had filled in other schools without telling him, he had rehearsed countless times in his mind, but when he really faced In such a situation, I still feel as if a hole has been cut in my heart, and it hurts deeply.

Who wouldn't want to be with the people closest to them all the time?In the past two years, he has experienced countless times of self-denial and diversion, but is it useful?No use, no use at all!Not only did he fail to escape his nostalgia for his eldest brother, but he got deeper and deeper in this deformed relationship.

The room they lived in together is like a nightmare to him now. The warmth of sleeping together in the past has quietly turned into his unspeakable desire//desire. I don't know when it started , as long as he is lying on the bed at home, even if he is the only one on the big bed, as long as he puts his finger on the place where his elder brother used to sleep, his fingertips will feel as hot as when he touches his skin.This hotness made him blush and heartbeat, and he couldn't calm down for a long time, but what accompanied him in his dreams was an imaginary picture that was not controlled by his head. Reason made him stop quickly, but the picture was too charming and lingering, so beautiful that he couldn't bear to give up. , he had no choice but to let them gallop in his heart, so that all the filth that could not be satisfied in reality could be relieved in his dream.

Maybe sometimes people are like this, the more you want to correct things, the more you can’t get rid of them, the more you want to overcome difficulties, the more reality will make you a complete failure.In the past two years, Gong Qing has studied desperately to escape, but the reality is that he has never let him go. He is getting deeper and deeper in his longing for his elder brother, and even feels that he has fallen to the point where there is no cure.

If you don't leave, you really can't leave.

Gong Qing felt extremely uncomfortable, but he still maintained his superficial calm, leaned forward and took Cheng Yu's arm and said with a smile: "I didn't mean to hide it from you, I thought my aunt and uncle had told you. "

Cheng Yu stared at him: "Why are my parents coming to tell me? Don't you have a long mouth? Why didn't you tell me when you filled out the application?"

Gong Qing pretended to be stupid: "Didn't we only discuss majors at that time, and you didn't ask me which school I applied to!"

Cheng Yu was choked with anger, as if what Gong Qing said was right, was what he said in that kind of playful occasion a mature agreement or just a casual answer?Perhaps Gong Qing didn't take the fact that the two of them went to college at the same school to heart, and he really didn't ask Gong Qing which college she liked when she filled out her application a month ago.Gong Qing chose to study medicine. Naturally, A University in Beijing was a better choice, so this result is understandable.

But why is he so angry?What the whole family knows, he doesn't know. When the whole family is happy for his brother's nomination for the gold list, only he cares that his brother didn't apply for the same school as him. He obviously hopes that his brother can go well with himself The road he chose, but when he saw that his younger brother would not have him in the future, why did he feel a little sad?