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14.

This is the first time Lu Ming knows that this city has the habit of going to the riverside to watch fireworks during New Year's Eve.Yu Beilian never took him to see fireworks, so Lu Ming's memory of fireworks still stays in his childhood.He has also been a mischievous child, stuffing small firecrackers into all dangerous places, and then hiding far away, waiting for the earth-shattering explosion.The fireworks are set off by the adults at night, and Lu Ming, his family and friends all looked up at the gorgeous firelight in the sky.After the beauty passed, thick smoke was left behind, but Lu Ming didn't care.Every year, he makes a wish by using fireworks as shooting stars, praying in his heart for God to give him a normal body.Although the grown-up Lu Ming knew that there would be no miracles in wishing on fireworks, the moment they bloomed in the sky still made Lu Ming full of hope for the future.

Lu Ming regards the New Year's Eve very solemnly and looks forward to it, so it is difficult to choose the clothes. He almost spends the whole day in his free time to match.The wardrobe full of clothes made it difficult for him to choose.

Lu Ming, who was stuck in a difficult choice, spent too long in the bedroom, which aroused Yu Changan's curiosity.Yu Changan asked Qingqing Luming what he was doing, and Qingqing quickly replied that Mr. Xiaolu was struggling with what to wear at night, Mr. Yu, please help him.

Since Qingqing made the decision for Luming, Yu Changan readily agreed.He stood at the door of Lu Ming's bedroom, knocked on the door three times, and Lu Ming said please come in.Yu Changan could even hear Lu Ming's boredom and entanglement from these two words.

Lu Ming turned his back to Yu Changan, wearing only a thin white shirt.There were several clothes spread out on the bed, and he looked down at them, as if he couldn't do anything with them.Yu Chang'an snickered, it's a good thing that Lu Ming has such troubles, Lu Ming shouldn't suffer materially.

"Do you need help?" Yu Changan asked.His voice startled Luming.

Lu Ming needed help very much. He knew almost nothing about matching. When Yu Beilian was still alive, he would set everything up for him in advance. After Yu Beilian passed away, he had to rely on his intuition to dress.But what Lu Ming is looking forward to is Qingqing's help, Yu Chang'an's arrival makes Lu Ming feel deeply disturbed - all the expensive clothes seem to spread out Lu Ming's past again, Lu Ming is too afraid that Yu Chang'an will think that he is obediently staying in Yu Beilian Surrounded by "selling one's body for glory", although to a certain extent Lu Ming is indeed for money.

Yu Changan glanced at Lu Ming's closet, and saw several pieces with big logos of luxury brands printed on them, all fancy but not cheap.It seems that Yu Beilian is not willing to give Lu Ming money, but he is willing to buy him luxury clothes.The styles spread out on the bed are all simple and low-key, without any logos, so Yu Changan couldn't tell what brands they were.In the end, he chose a dark sweater and a white Canada Goose down jacket for Luming. He said, "Wear more, it's cold at night by the river."

Lu Ming replied yes.

Yu Changan asked, "Do you like watching fireworks?"

Lu Ming said he liked it, and he told Yu Changan that when he was a child, his hometown set off firecrackers and fireworks every year, and he would make some small wishes for the fireworks.Yu Changan asked him what he wished for, and Lu Ming lied without changing his face: "I promise to be healthy, and I will test [-]% of my wishes."

Lu Ming said again: "I haven't seen fireworks since I came here."

Only then did Yu Changan realize that the "childhood" Lu Ming mentioned was only three or four years ago.

After dinner they set off.Yu Changan first went to the parking lot to wait. He saw Lu Ming walking towards him in the suit he had chosen, holding a child in his arms, which could be called a costume, and Qingqing was pushing a stroller beside him.A sense of jealousy rose in Yu Chang'an's heart—they were so like a family.

After being attacked by this jealousy, Yu Changan asked Lu Ming to sit in the passenger seat next to him.He stepped over Luming to pull the seat belt on Luming's side, almost sticking to Luming's body. He vaguely explained that the car was old and the seatbelt was not easy to pull out.Lu Ming nodded.At this moment, Yu Changan smelled the milky fragrance wafting from Lu Ming's body.He hurriedly fastened the seat belt for Lu Ming, and said endlessly that the clothes suit you very well.Lu Ming lowered his head and whispered, "Thank you, Mr. Yu." It was Xie Yu Chang'an who chose this suit for him that suits him very well.The profound meaning contained in this simple question and answer was beyond the comprehension of Qingqing sitting in the back row.So Lu Ming glanced at the back seat from the inner rearview mirror as if guilty of guilt, Qingqing was adjusting the safety seat for Xiaoguo, and didn't have any spare time to gossip about the undercurrents in the words of the two employers in the front row.

On the way to Jiangtan Park, we stop and go, the car is quiet, only the radio and children make noise.Lu Ming still kept looking out the window. He lived in this city for several years, but he never came in this direction once.

While waiting for the red light, Yu Changan looked at Lu Ming, who had half of his small face buried in the camel scarf.In fact, the down jacket didn't fit Lu Ming's body well, it was a little too big, making Lu Ming look like a young deer, and Yu Changan could easily control it.

As Yu Changan said, the riverside at night is indeed very cold.Lu Ming wrapped the scarf tightly, and hugged Xiao Guo tightly.They walked through the crowd with difficulty, Yu Changan walked behind Lu Ming, holding Lu Ming with half-raised arms, for fear that he would be squeezed.They stood in a not-so-crowded place. Yu Changan took out a glowing hairpin from his pocket and put it on Xiaoguoqun/687⑤09⑦21's head. However, the kid didn't like foreign objects in his hair, so he pulled it off.Lu Ming panicked and put the hairpin back on the child, softly coaxing the child to stop making trouble, but the child was still disobedient, with his head writhing around and his whole face wrinkled, showing signs of crying.Yu Changan smiled, took the hairpin from Lu Ming's hand, and said, "Don't force the child if you don't want to." Then he pinned the hairpin on Lu Ming's black hair, and touched Lu Ming's hair when he retracted his hand.Cold and smooth.Yu Changan went on to say, "It looks good on you."

Those were a pair of clips in the shape of small antlers, which Yu Changan bought specially for Lu Ming, and wearing them for children was just an excuse and cover-up.Lu Ming touched the small antlers on his head and said, "Thank you, Mr. Yu."

At this time, the sky exploded the first firework.Luming made a little "wow", quickly grabbed the child's hand and pointed to the sky, and said to the child: "Look, Xiaoguo, those are fireworks." The child screamed excitedly in his arms, and Luming smiled and said Kissed the child on the cheek.

During the countdown to zero, Lu Ming closed his eyes and made a wish for the beautiful fireworks just like when he was a child.This was the first time he made a wish other than "becoming a normal person". He prayed in his heart that God would allow him to stay by Yu Chang'an's side forever.

When Lu Ming opened his eyes, his gaze met Yu Changan.People shouted "Happy New Year", and Lu Ming followed suit, adding "Mr. Yu" at the end of the sentence. This blessing was only for Yu Changan.Yu Changan also said: "Happy New Year, Lu Ming."

I don't know if it's due to the atmosphere or something else, but Lu Ming had the courage to keep looking at Yu Chang'an like this. He unabashedly and almost nakedly conveyed his admiration for Mr. Yu through these eyes.Every time the fireworks bloom, his heart beats violently. He doesn't know if it's the explosion or the heartbeat in his ears. At this moment, he loses all perception of the outside world, and his whole body is pinched by Mr. Yu. In the palm of my hand.

Yu Changan asked: "What wish did you make?".

"I can't say it, it won't work if I say it."

Yu Changan smiled: "Even I can't tell?"

Lu Ming showed a sweet and coquettish smile: "Even you can't say it."

Yu Chang'an's heart suddenly beat fast because of such a bright deer cry, it even made him feel a little pain, as if he would spin around in the next second and lose consciousness.He realized that the conversation between him and Lu Ming had changed a bit.In fact, the conversation between the two of them tends to turn sour every now and then these days, like a kind of tacit flirting.The flirtation was sweet, intimate, with a sudden racing heart and uncontrollable flushing.However, after the initial sweetness, Yu Changan felt the pain from it again. There was a little deer bumping around in his heart, it was the little deer named "Luming", but he could be bumped by anyone, but it couldn't be Luming.

The image of Lu Ming in his "childhood" and Yan Ruyu's last appearance entered Yu Chang'an's mind together.

His greatest indulgence to himself is that he can only have desires for Lu Ming but not feelings—Lu Ming cannot be victimized by two surnames Yu consecutively, and how can he love his father's step-wife, how can he betray his mother.

Yu Changan withdrew his gaze from the stares.

The beautiful atmosphere that was rarely created between the two was shattered by Yu Changan.

Lu Ming had no choice but to straighten his body and look up at the sky.The enthusiasm and sweetness that remained in the air were gradually cooling down, Lu Ming thought, the precious few minutes just now might just be because Mr. Yu was infected by the happy emotions of the people around him, and he couldn't be sentimental because of this.

On the way home, the two of them stopped interacting frequently, and the occasional one or two sentences were very blunt.Lu Ming had deep doubts about Yu Chang'an's change of attitude in his heart, and the night scene outside the window seemed different to him.

After arriving home, Lu Ming still said good night to Yu Chang'an as usual, but he no longer dared to say "go to bed early" to him. Lu Ming's sensitivity let him know that such kind words would become out of bounds after this night.Without any warning, Lu Ming, who has always been good at watching his face, can consciously retreat to his rightful position.

After coaxing Xiaoguo to sleep, Lu Ming didn't feel sleepy. He stared at the window—it was the only light in the darkness.From time to time, there were one or two firecrackers outside.He held the child's little hand, and once again saw clearly his isolated and helpless situation in this city.

At this time, the phone vibrated, and it was Qingqing who sent him a photo.It was probably taken by Qingqing at the end of the countdown just now. In the picture, Lu Ming was talking to Yu Changan, the corners of their eyes were crooked.There are so many people in the photo as the background for their heartbeat at this moment, and the fireworks in the sky are also embellishing them.It's just a pity that the quietly sprouting feelings can't last for 5 minutes.Lu Ming kept this photo and thanked Qingqing.Qingqing Hui: Mr. Xiaolu, go to bed early, wake up to a new year and a new day, leave all your troubles in last year.

Lu Ming thanked him again.

He gained some encouragement and strength from Qingqing's blessing.Lu Ming made up his mind, if Mr. Yu didn't ask him to leave, he would never offer to move out like before, and he would stay even if it was a shameless act.Lu Ming knew that if God did not help him, then the only one who could help him was himself.

Lu Ming closed his eyes and fell asleep with such determination. From then on, he had a wish that was more eager to realize than "becoming a normal person".