fall in love too early

The author has something to say: approaching the abyss bit by bit

Qi Jia tried every means to bring Lu Baifei home this time, but he actually had other plans, but he didn't tell Lu Baifei.

On the second day of the long vacation, they took a plane to Haishi.The Qi family sent a driver to pick them up, and took the two of them from the airport all the way back to their villa in Linpu District.

Because the next day is the golden wedding celebration of the two old people, Qi Jia's father, Qi Zhaoheng, is still handling business at the company, while his mother, Zhou Yixin, is busy with the banquet outside, so they are not at home.

Qi Jia and Lu Baifei got out of the car, and a servant was already waiting for them in front of the door.

Qi Jia himself hadn't come back for more than two years, the servant was newly hired not long ago, he looked at him strangely, gave him a few simple instructions, and then led Lu Baifei upstairs.

Lu Baifei followed Qi Jia into his bedroom on the second floor. The room was very large, with a bathroom and a cloakroom with an estimated area of ​​[-] to [-] square meters.It could be seen that it had just been carefully tidied up in recent days, and the whole room was spotlessly open before their eyes.

"Have you ever lived here?" Lu Baifei asked with a smile, but frowned.

Qi Jia walked into the room, ran her fingers along the back of the couch, and said, "The total time I've lived here is more than 100 days."

Qi Jia boarded with relatives in elementary school, lived in middle school, and studied abroad in high school. The time spent with his parents may only account for one-tenth of his life.When this house came under the name of Qi Zhaoheng, Qi Jia was already studying in a private junior high school. In his impression, he only spent two summer vacations with his parents, and the rest lived here sporadically when returning home.

Every time he meets his parents, it is a reunion after a long absence.As his parents got older, their affection for him seemed to grow deeper, but Qi Jia only felt alienated from them as always.

About Qi Jia's experience, Lu Baifei once took the initiative to ask his mother Baisha.

When Baisha heard him ask about Qi Jia's childhood, she didn't hide anything. She sighed and said, "Your Aunt Zhou and Uncle Qi started their business from scratch and started a logistics business. It was hard work, and they really didn't care about their children. Qi Jia lived alone for a long time. , the relationship with them is unavoidably unfamiliar, Yixin feels very regretful when talking about this matter now."

At this moment, when Lu Baifei thought of what his mother had said, he felt very uncomfortable, but Qi Jia suddenly turned around and smiled at him, "There are all the certificates I have won in that cabinet, do you want to see it?"

As he spoke, he raised his finger and pointed to a showcase standing against the wall.

Lu Baifei followed the direction of his fingers and looked over. Although it was a few meters away from the cabinet, Lu Baifei was stunned for a few seconds by the layers of awards and awards inside.

Qi Jia walked over and opened the cabinet door, picked up one casually, and said, "This is the first prize in the National Olympiad I won in the fourth grade of elementary school, and this is the first prize in the National Chinese Competition..."

Before Qi Jia finished speaking, Lu Baifei walked up behind him, holding the door of the cupboard with both hands, this posture seemed to hold Qi Jia in his arms.

The bedroom door was still open, so Lu Baifei couldn't do anything.

Qi Jia put the trump cards in his hand back into the cabinet, and slightly raised his head to look at Lu Baifei standing behind him.

"Qi Jia, you don't like coming back here, do you?" Lu Baifei looked down at him, and spoke in a soft voice, like coaxing a child.

Qi Jia would have a very special smile when he was in a bad mood, Lu Baifei had been with him for a long time, and slowly figured it out.For example, now, Qi Jia seems to be pursing the corners of his mouth tightly, but there is a faint smile on his face. There is a dimple on his left cheek, which is usually invisible, but now it can be clearly seen.

This is the expression that a person has when he is about to show negative emotions, but he holds back and replaces it with an indifferent, self-deceiving smile.Qi Jia may have practiced countless times to make this insincere smile so natural.

"I don't like it, and I don't hate it either." Qi Jia said in a relatively light tone.

Lu Baifei kept silent and asked him, "Can I ask? Why do you have a bad relationship with your uncles and aunts?"

Qi Jia laughed again, then turned around, put two thin white arms on Lu Baifei's shoulders, and said, "Brother, why do you ask this?"

Qi Jia was taken by his grandparents for several years when he was a child. Later, when the two old people were not in good health, he went to a full-time kindergarten, and he could only spend a day or two with his parents on weekends.

After she was six years old, Qi Jia was sent to her aunt's foster care. Because of her clever mind and long-term memory, she got straight A in the exam every year, which aroused the jealousy of her aunt's son. Since then, she has been often bullied by this cousin.Qi Jia wrote homework for her cousin in various subjects for three years, and the pocket money given by her parents was taken away by the other party, and she was also subjected to physical violence from time to time.One year during the summer vacation, Qi Jia was intentionally locked in the car by her cousin, and almost passed out due to heatstroke due to the high temperature. Fortunately, she was rescued by a neighbor who discovered her.

Qi Jia was too close to her parents, and always thought that she was an abandoned child, and she didn't even have the courage to leave her aunt's family, worrying that if she left her relative's house, she might only have a worse place for herself.

He has lived for nearly 20 years, and for the first ten years, he has been living in self-doubt and self-disgust because of the lack of protection from his relatives. The emotions accumulated over the long years cannot be explained clearly at once.

Qi Jia has Qi Jia's pride, so she may not want Lu Baifei to see it all.

He used the intimacy to change the subject, thinking that Lu Baifei would push him away and order him to stand still.Unexpectedly, Lu Baifei just turned his head and glanced at the corridor where no one was passing, then put one hand around Qi Jia's thin waist, and answered his question, "I always wanted to ask, but I was worried that it would remind you of something, Then it's even more unpleasant."

Lu Baifei is a careful person, especially when getting along with Qi Jia, he will pay special attention to some casual details.They watch TV or movies together, and once there is a plot involving school violence, Qi Jia will choose to fast-forward, or leave the sofa to drink water or grab a mobile phone, in short, he does not want to watch more.

Qi Jia's close friends are all international students from the University of Chicago, and he hardly had any classmates who kept in touch with him before high school.

Lu Baifei guessed what these meant, but he didn't know that the harm Qi Jia suffered was not limited to the campus.

Qi Jia seems to have received the best favor and the worst curse at the same time. On the one hand, she has an enviable family wealth and smart mind, but on the other hand, she has experienced twists and turns in her growth, and she has not even received an ordinary family relationship. caring.

In the end, Qi Jia didn't answer Lu Baifei's question about family relationship. He didn't know where to start, and he was afraid that it would be hypocritical if he said it.

Lu Baifei didn't force him to say anything, but just stayed with him in this big house that was so empty that Qi Jia felt a little disgusted.In the evening, Qi Zhaoheng and Zhou Yixin came back one after another, and brought a cousin of Qi Jia home together.

Whether it's chatting with the elders, or being pestered by the little girl to play together, Lu Baifei's attention is always on Qi Jia.

When eating fruit, he first handed Qi Jia a copy. Zhou Yixin asked him about his travel plans for the next few days, and he said, "Let's see what Jiajia means." Jia, looking through his old accounts of beating people in bars, Lu Baifei stepped forward to protect him, saying, "Some white people always look at Chinese students as easy to bully, and Qi Jia was also reacting out of self-protection at that time", but Qi Zhaoheng had nothing to say. said.

Qi Jia's little cousin probably thinks that Lu Baifei is handsome and good-looking, so she always wants to get close to him after dinner.Lu Baifei first played games with Qi Jiaguan in the study for a while, and then the little girl knocked on the door and asked to play together, Lu Baifei said, "I'm sorry, now your brother is going to teach me English CET-[-], we will meet again tomorrow Let's play."

After finishing speaking, he went to turn on the laptop, immediately adjusted a set of real questions, sat at the desk with a serious face, and said to Qi Jia, "Today we will do listening."

The little girl got bored, closed the door embarrassingly and went out.

Qi Jia was so unsteady from laughing at Lu Baifei's unchanging acting skills, he walked a few steps while supporting the wall, and finally sat on Lu Baifei's lap presumptuously, and was about to kiss him immediately.

Lu Baifei was not willing to let him get up, and took him and the swivel chair to slide two meters on the ground, reached out to close the study door, then hugged Qi Jia, and whispered to him, "...you used to No, I'll make it up for you later, okay?"

Qi Jia's lips were almost touching Lu Baifei's, but at this moment she froze for a moment.

He is a person with a hole in his heart, like a bottomless pit, in which there is a whirlpool of madness.Countless times, he almost sucked himself in, smashing him to pieces.

But Lu Baifei gave Qi Jia all the love and warmth he had obtained before, wanting to help him heal those icy cracks, hold his hand to prevent him from falling, insist on protecting him even in front of others, and use The most gentle and sure way to fill his heart.

Qi Jia turned her head slightly, and finally leaned on Lu Baifei's shoulder, refusing to look up at him.

Qi Jia tried her best to hold back her tears, and calmed down her breathing under Lu Baifei's gentle stroking on her back.

Lu Baifei rubbed his head and coaxed him, "Let me see your face, be good."

Even after many years later, Lu Baifei still remembers the moment when Qi Jia raised her eyes, those eyes were full of passionate love for him, and she also remembers Qi Jia saying word by word, "Brother, I hope you will always love me forever." Belongs to me alone, and will always be so good to me."

But Lu Baifei replied without hesitation, "Then let's turn our hopes into reality."

Young people are fragile, they don't understand at this time.

Promises cannot be held tightly, and scars cannot be healed after all.No matter how real the love is at this moment, once the deep vortex in the bottom of my heart starts to spin, neither Qi Jia nor Lu Baifei will be spared.