whale killer

The wind became fiercer as he went to the top of the mountain, and Xiang Qifei followed behind, out of breath, wishing he could stick out his tongue like a dog.The plastic bag hanging on the wrist creaked, urging people, and the stairway could no longer see the end, and he bent his knees against the wind and complained: "I'm tired."

Chi Yan raised his head to drink water, and came over with a flashlight: "It's almost here, let me pull you."

Xiang Qifei believed that this trip had exceeded the mission, so he couldn't figure out what other plans Chi Yan had.Unable to free his hand, he shook his head and refused, and climbed two steps up with the trekking pole, but felt that it was better to hold it, and called Chi Yan, etc., put away the stick and stuffed his right hand into the opponent's pocket, and clasped his fingers, secretly feeling rustic and romantic .

When listening to the confession in the middle of the mountain, Xiang Qifei was fully prepared, but he couldn't help but blush.And dare I say it, you know how I imagined it?You will be scared to death if you speak out.

I remembered that when I was a teenager, I found snacks or breakfast in the desk, and there was also an envelope with perfume. It was not signed, and I was booed by my deskmate. I went home and hid in the room and opened it carefully. The paper was full of blue and black hero ink, with fonts It is small and elegant, and the choice of words is also subtle, and it is only in the last line that I like it.The letter is stuffed into the bookshelf, and there will be no intersection in the future. When I think of it occasionally, the boy's heart is pounding, but nothing else, the temperature is 20 degrees Celsius, the temperature of the mind is constant, and the memory is like the smell of grass.

Listening to Chi Yan say that love is different, and it's obviously nothing earth-shattering, but I can capture the deep affection in it, and I can receive other signals, the undercurrent is surging, I want to be kissed and hugged immediately, if I don't stop it, my mind will be full of dirty and dirty, I actually also It's unbelievable that there is so much love.I cursed myself in my heart, and replied seriously!In fact, he bit his lower lip, fearing that the atmosphere would be bad, and fearing that he could only speak the vulgar truth, but at the same time, he was inexplicably at ease, fed the dog decently, and only shouted: I am going to have sex/love with you right now.

The bad thing is that he climbed the mountain and confessed to half his life.At the top, it was nearly midnight, and the lights of the scattered small tents around were all extinguished.Xiang Qifei paralyzed in front of the summit stele, half of his desire evaporated with sweat, and the other half was filled with a sense of accomplishment.

"Where's our tent?" He squatted beside Chi Yan, looking eager to try, "I don't know how to pierce, you teach me."

Chi Yan unloaded his bag, and was not in a hurry to take out his equipment. At the highest point, he opened the black bag that he had brought all the way up the mountain.Xiang Qifei picked up the flashlight from the ground and helped him light it up.

The knot is tied tightly, and three dead knots are tied.Seeing Chi Yan's explanation layer by layer, Xiang Qifei found a stone to support the light, and suggested: "I will help you, I will do this."

Chi Yan refused and insisted on coming by himself.

Unable to figure out what sense of ritual it was, Xiang Qi sat down on the ground with his knees hugged in disobedience, and then helped him wipe off half a drop of sweat on his chin that hadn't dried yet, then leaned over, leaned on his shoulder to look at the sky, and seized the opportunity Escaping from light pollution, when bored, count the constellations by comparing the pictures stored on your phone.It's not good to be too dense. I was dizzy after seeing it, and I barely met the two claws of the giant crab. I wanted to call Chi Yan to see him. Seeing that he finally solved the three knots, the removed fabric was blown away by the wind and fell into the mountain stream.

And in front of the two of them was the lacquered gold birdcage that they hadn't seen for a long time, half of which was destroyed by the fire, creating a huge permanent gap.

Xiang Qifei suddenly calmed down, thinking that this thing had already destroyed the corpse in the fire scene, why did he suddenly cheat the corpse?And I really don't understand why this link continues after what I said just now.Chi Yan is really difficult to understand and has a headache.

"Amo bought it," Chi Yan explained, "It burned out that day."

Xiang Qifei stretched out his hand to push the cage door that hung loosely on the side, and the buckle was deformed, so he couldn't close it no matter what: "It's good that it's broken. We will raise some small animals together in the future, kittens and puppies, anyway, we don't raise birds."

"Isn't it enough to raise you?" Chi Yan shook Qifei's wrist: "He and I have never raised birds."

"Then why do you buy this thing?" You have a bad problem with art.

Chi Yan chuckled this time as if mocking himself: "To mock me."

Only then did Xiang Qifei stop fiddling with the door that couldn't be closed, and looked up to see Chi Yan's hair was tangled by the wind, so he helped him straighten it out.The man was coming out of the flip Nokia from his inner pocket. With the backlight, he could clearly see that the buttons and the coating of the shell were worn to varying degrees.Open your inbox and swipe through a series of text messages from Xiang Qifei.One line of preview can be glimpsed in each article, which is messy and unnutritious. Further down, the date suddenly jumps to 2014, and the sender has no name, only a string of identical numbers remains.

Chi Yan clicked to delete one by one, and Xiang Qifei held his breath to peek at the side. After watching for a while, he suspected that these two people were really in love?Damn, some words are too hurtful, and it is more credible to say that it is a feud.

He failed to snatch his mobile phone: "You just empty the inbox, it's like you're masturbating yourself by deleting one by one."

Chi Yan lifted his wrist and kissed it gently, rolling over the pea bone, "I want to keep yours."

"Then don't delete it," Xiang Qifei said, without confidence: "I really don't care."

But Chi Yan said something else: "Do you still remember the account I gave you to Qin Zhimo?"

"Of course! I almost died of acid at that time."

"The money in it is all for Qin Zheng. In fact, I have thought more than once that when he turns 18, it seems meaningless for me to continue living."

Xiang Qifei grabbed Chi Yan's arm and said nonsense: "Mika Nakajima thinks the same way, she's still alive and well."

"I'm living well too," Chi Yan said, stretching out his hand to touch Xiang Qifei's right cheek. The incision that had been made had healed early, and the new skin and flesh could not be seen to be uneven in color at night, and it was slightly white. Every morning when I was not asleep, I rubbed and kissed countless times: "It's just that if you give up at that time, you won't have so many grievances later."

"Bullshit." Xiang Qifei patted the back of Chi Yan's hand, knowing that this person couldn't always follow suit, and insisted on taking the Nokia, "I want to see and hear, I want to know your past, I'm not wronged. I want you to tell me everything .”

Apart from withering, blindness, blood, etc., how to describe Chi Yan's first love, you have to choose a good word, saying "rebellion" seems to be commendatory.

At that time, Wangjiang Piano Shop was opened next to City Lights, with a large interior, with more than three or five record stores, the floor was neatly paved with beautiful terrazzo, and there were glass windows on the exterior facade.The owner's surname is Li, so he bought the quadrangle courtyard with two entrances and one span passed down from his ancestors. He turned around and became obsessed with self-driving tours. , so that it is convenient to play crazy with A Nao Li Xiaojiu.

Apart from band-related matters, Chi Yan's favorite thing to do on weekdays is to sit on the steps outside the piano shop on Sunday evenings and wait for Qin Zhimo to arrive.When he first met this person, he felt somewhat inferior.Later, I learned that Qin Zhimo's parents started their business and had a lot of savings, so he knew how to write the four characters of class gap early.Although the other party came to visit every week, it was just for the sake of showing off. When buying musical instruments, he usually ordered them from overseas, and he didn't like the most expensive grand piano in the store.In order to leave a more positive impression on Qin Zhimo, Chi Yan often brags lamely, which he is extremely bad at. You can see that there are loopholes everywhere in the other party's frequently suppressed laughter.

"I used to use an LP for my violin, but later I saved up a Mustang. It didn't go well, and I didn't like the tone. It might be better to use a more expensive one, right? I think Cobain's violins are not expensive. Seriously, when will you Come to our show? I'll give you a ticket. Our band is awesome. The name is Pangtuo. It's nice? I named it haha. Who? What does he do? Ahhh, then I remembered, Kafka, I know him. Indoor turmoil? I like the title, and I’ll read it when I have time, but I’m actually quite busy forming a band, you know. The album? It’s coming out soon, and I’ll give you one when it’s out. You don’t have to buy it yourself, I don’t like playing in a band To make money, I don’t care about that, let alone earn your money. Then why play? I think about it, hey, I have to say, I want to change the world.”

There is also the truth, maybe I am used to being poor, and I am not obsessed with making money, and I am responsible for my own profits and losses. Besides, I can't lose much if I do this.Neri still likes it, and naively wants others to recognize that rock music is good, and if there is one more person, it is one person.Later, A Nao repeatedly pointed at the back of his head and scolded you, are you sick?At the music festival, I have to bring two dozen discs of Smashed Melon and Alice in Prisoner. Is it better to sell your own discs?Dare to take the lead?The second brother in City Lights is not enough to recommend you for a single shelf, is it?

That year, Chi Yan was short of two centimeters and rushed 1.8 meters. Chi Yan was free to run around and play with Li Xiaojiu. It cost five yuan a round. If they were lucky, they could earn some dirty money.He has good jumping ability, and he grabs every rebound accurately.Except for touching the drumstick, Li Xiaojiu spent the rest of the time at his leisure, and there was no such person on the court.Chi Yan played two positions by himself, training a shark steak with tendons.But every week when I saw Qin Zhimo, seeing a two-meter-long meat shield behind him staring at his watch to count the time, and respectfully driving the door to persuade the young master to go home when the time came, I was also quite frightened.Don't dare to be too presumptuous in chatting.

So you encouraged him openly and secretly, you chatted with your family members, came out to play and didn't want others to follow, this matter shouldn't embarrass you, right?I completely forgot how to persuade Qiu Yiming to be obedient.Fortunately, communication is not always ineffective.It was the first time Qin Zhimo had tasted sweetness. When Qin Zhimo went to Midi alone, found him in the background through countless tent placemats, wine jars all over the floor, and faces hiding spiritual energy in the desolation, Chi Yan couldn't bear to rush up to him. Put it in your arms.In order to make this hug seem reasonable, he pretended to be friends and punched people on the back.

And Ah Nao has always been in love with the same gang, and is often teased whether the bass player can only be sold domestically.At that time, I just talked about my new boyfriend and played punk. It was like glue, and I took it with me wherever I went.Even so, in her heart, the band is more sacred, ranked first, and unshakable.Whenever there is a group activity, you can find a place to rest by yourself.As a result, the Dongling Mountain Regiment was established the next day, and Chi Yan brought an outsider here for the first time, and she and Qin Zhimo's Liangzi formed a relationship from this.

But this is where it all began, at the top of the mountain, with the moon rising, the seeds of love, hate, hope, self-destruction, all planted.

I really envy you guys.

So, what can we envy?Eat the last meal without the next meal.

What should I say, freedom?It’s quite embarrassing to say this word, but it doesn’t relate to me anyway.

What's the problem?You can have as long as you want.

Really?

Really, come or not?Our world is always open to you.

But the freedom in imagination often runs counter to reality, and it was the same for Qin Zhimo that year.His father struggled all the way to gain a firm foothold in the capital. Besides being strict, he was suspicious by nature, especially he could not tolerate betrayal.Even that escape was destined to have no escape route, and it was nothing more than a transfer from one cage to another.Far from the tower, poverty becomes the new shackles.

"But I was quite happy at the time, and felt that this benefit was harmless. I like that he has no retreat, which is quite abnormal. I think we are the same now, so we can only rely on each other. Although we did get along well for half a year."

"Afterwards, there were too many differences, and they started to consume each other. At first, there were incompatible styles and he always quarreled, but he has been playing the piano since he was a child, and he is indeed talented. I don't have much confidence in front of him."

"Then there is the issue of money. He wants the best of everything, and the money he brings out is quickly spent. The band alone can't pay the rent, and he moves back to the warehouse. He was locked up when he was a child, and he doesn't like this kind of place. Later, he found someone to connect, and Pangtuo signed RK. The situation improved when he changed to a big company, but it was far from enough. Later, he became addicted to opioids. .But you know what, sometimes I even wish he'd just been drowsy and not sober."

"You can't imagine what we would fight about, maybe I wrote a riff that wasn't catchy, pushed a music festival that I didn't want to go to, or just because a piece of clothing didn't dry."

"I'm not the nice guy you think I am. I keep an eye on him, and you've heard people say... I tie him up sometimes. I was afraid you knew. He'd be acting because of it." I can't press the keys steadily, I'm really bad... Ah Nao asked, I said I was worried that he would hurt me, but in fact, I was just afraid that he would leave quietly one day."

"In the end, it was wrong from the beginning. I didn't want to believe that I failed again, and I didn't want to be given up again."

"That day, he was very calm and gentle, as if we had just met, everything was natural. He said to take a bath, let me wait for a while, and then go to the venue together, and said that he would drink Limande in the evening, cherry flavor, He likes cherries."

"At that time, I thought it was over, but it seemed that I could finally start life properly."

"He drowned in the bathtub, without any signs of struggle, and he wanted to die. A Nao and the others attributed the reason to Yaoyin, but I knew he hated me. I promised him a future that could not be fulfilled floating in the air. Even I I also hate myself for having a second of relief and relief when I saw the corpse."

Like confession, redemption, the past is no longer called love or hate, only I am still persistently hating myself.The moonlight has never been so sacred at this moment, sorry to let you be my temporary master.I am such a person, selfish, hypocritical, incompetent and weak.But even so, I still yearn for you to love me without repentance.

Xiang Qifei was indeed not a particularly good listener, so he hugged him face to face. He interrupted the long confession, and fell on Chi Yan's shoulder and wept away the remaining strength.

Chi Yan pinched his chin and kissed off some hot spots on his face: "I didn't cry, why are you crying?"

Xiang Qifei gasped and said nonsense: "I wish I had met you sooner. I came to Beijing earlier, and stayed by your side earlier. Even if you liked him then, I would like you more anyway, I It doesn't matter if you are snatched away by everyone, you won't encounter those worse things."

He chose a strange focus again, Chi Yan thought, thousands of people despise him, and the words are also very cute. "How old were you at that time? You weren't 14, I would never moleste a child."

Xiang Qifei hammered him: "I'm serious, don't make me laugh!"

Tears and snot wiped Chi Yan's shoulders, and he stood up again in his arms. He watched Chi Yan pick up the damaged birdcage, stared at it for a few seconds, and raised his hand to throw it down the mountain.

Xiang Qifei stopped: "If you really don't want to throw it away...don't throw it away. I'm not forcing you to choose one."

Chi Yan said, "I think so."

He also said, "I wish I could let him go earlier like this."

Xiang Qifei let go of his hand, and saw the birdcage arcing out of sight, and the flashlight chased it down, bumping against the stone wall, and there was an echo.