Are you a woman today?

Two hours later, Yibitu Sutang's birthday party was over, and Pan Su downloaded it amidst the voices of fans.He was not in a hurry to remove his make-up and change his clothes, but stared at the starry sky on the table with long and deep eyes.

Tao Linlin softly whispered to Xu Ke, "It's started, I'm in a daze in meditation, it's been like this all the time recently."

Xu Ke sat in the back all the time, taking all of Pan Su's anomalies into his eyes.After receiving the starry sky, his condition was not quite right, and in the next ten minutes, he managed to pull himself together to complete the live broadcast.

"Senior sister, I'll change my clothes." Pan Su finally stood up to remove his make-up, changed his clothes, and put on his big and spacious T-shirt, then clicked on the game and prepared to rank.

Xu Ke put away his clothes, took a stool and sat beside him, and closed the game interface with the mouse: "Susu, let's chat."

The last time we talked on the phone, this is face-to-face.She sat with Pan Su, Pan Su kept his head down, glanced at her and then lowered his eyes.

"Susu, do you think you're okay?"

Pan Su shook his head: "Not good."

He himself can feel that every time Teacher Han is mentioned, he starts to think wildly, two villains are fighting in his mind, one is rushing forward bravely into the darkness with an uncertain future, and the other is dragging him to the bright Zhuangkang Avenue , causing Pan Su to be extremely entangled, not knowing what to do.

Han Qi didn't send him any text messages recently, Pan Su didn't want his tip, and he just dived and squatted in the live broadcast room, and didn't set off fireworks as high-profile as before.He was quiet, conscious that he didn't bother Pan Su, and seemed to be giving him a period of time to think about it.

Pan Su thought that by avoiding and reducing contact with Han Qi, he would be able to return to the straight man's demeanor, but he didn't know that a handful of stars immediately knocked him back to his original shape, making him dazed and confused again.

At that moment, he suddenly understood that Han Qi's liking for him was not just a talk, and even a casual remark could be remembered to this day, so there is nothing wrong with his sincerity.

"Senior sister, what do you think I should do?" Pan Su lowered his head and was depressed. "I'm really conflicted. It's not an option to hide like this now. I'm in pain and I can't make a choice."

Xu Ke held Pan Su's hand with a serious expression that he had never seen before: "Susu, I still say the same thing, the door of reality is very narrow, if you really feel that you can't get through, then don't try, you will be stuck. Between relatives and lovers, only yourself will suffer."

Pan Su remained silent, Xu Ke stroked his hair, and pulled him into his arms: "No matter what decision you make, I will definitely support it. If you want to give up Teacher Han, I will stand by your side."

Pan Su nodded slowly, and hugged Xu Ke back: "Thank you, senior."

On Saturday afternoon, Pan Su put aside his worries temporarily and went to the Internet cafe of the University of Finance and Economics to finish the last game.There were so many people who came to watch the game today, the first floor of the Internet cafe was already packed, and both colleges made banners to support their teams, waiting for the final battle of the first "Financial Cup".

Ximen and the others were full of momentum, and they had already thought about how to distribute the scholarship. Pan Su leaned against their fists and tried to win three rounds in one go!

After losing the first game, Ximen said carelessly that it was all right, there were still four rounds to come, and three more rounds would be enough for us!

After losing the second game, Ximen's expression was a bit uneasy, and he forced a smile, saying that the second was chasing the third.

Pan Su pinched the center of his brows, he felt that the blame was all on him, that he hadn't performed well, and a huge pressure enveloped his whole body.Pei Luran saw that he was dignified and nervous, so he patted him on the shoulder and told him that he was fine. He didn't make any mistakes today, it's just that the other side cooperated better.

At the match point of the third game, the School of Finance team finally won a game, and the whole team's momentum increased greatly; after winning the fourth game, Ximen's hands were trembling with nervousness, muttering to himself: "The last game, the last game ..."

Pan Su also frowned, playing the final life-and-death round very cautiously, just like when he entered the quarter-finals, every operation was cautious.Unfortunately, the goddess of luck did not favor them this time. In the final, the School of Finance team lost to the School of International Trade team 2:3.

Opposite is the carnival of five people, and there is silence here.After taking off the earphones, Pan Su seemed to have lost all strength, and smiled helplessly at Ximen: "Sorry, I can't help you."

Simon woke up like a dream, and put his arms around his shoulders: "Hey, look at you, what are you talking about, if you didn't come, we would have fallen in the group stage!"

He stood up and patted each team member on the back: "It's okay! If it doesn't work, we can fight again next year. For the first time, we can win the runner-up. It's an honor! Boss, don't you think so?"

Pei Luran also nodded, and called everyone up to say "Thank you".The eyes of the two men on the bottom lane were already red, and they kept apologizing. Pei Luran told them to calm down. Winning or losing is a common matter in military affairs. Next time, just try to win it back.

Pan Su was in a low mood, not because he didn't get the bonus, but because he finally got to this point without a happy ending.

It's like he and Han Qi, walking and walking, are close to each other, and what they may face in the end may not be a happy ending.

If you lose the game, you still have to eat, and you still have to live your life.Ximen asked Pan Su to have a rub together, but Pan Su refused and wanted to go back to study and take the exam tomorrow.

Pei Luran picked up his coat: "I'll give it to you."

This time Pan Su did not refuse, the two walked all the way to the station, Pan Su kept his head down and kept silent, Pei Luran asked in a low voice: "Are you okay?"

Pan Su shrugged: "Fortunately, it's just a pity that it's come to this point."

"I'm not talking about the game."

Pan Su was stunned for a few seconds: "Oh, it's nothing, I'm under a lot of pressure from studying."

Passing by the small shop, Pei Luran bought two bottles of water and handed one to Pan Su.Pan Su unscrewed it and took a sip, then suddenly asked, "Are you gay too?"

Pei Luran looked at the street lamp and said softly, "Yes, you know?"

"Oh, just to make sure." Pan Su sat on the seat at the station, staring up at the light on the top of the light box advertisement, "I'm confused now, should I become gay."

"You're not." Pei Luran's tone was very firm, "You're not gay, it's just that you happen to like a man right now."

Pan Su just wanted to refute, but was interrupted by him: "Don't rush to refute, even if you don't like it, you must be moved, right?"

Now Pan Su fell silent, lowered his head and stopped talking.

"Although I hope you like men, so that I have a chance, but..." He rubbed Pan Su's head with his hands, and continued, "But if you are really vacillating, I suggest not to go this way The future of this road is not clear. First of all, if you are not firm, you will definitely be defeated at the level of your family, and you will be the one who collapsed at that time."

This is already the second person to give him this kind of advice. Xu Ke has talked about girlfriends, and there is another gay here, and they all use their own experience to tell Pan Su how difficult it is to deviate from the normal social ethics and how much suffering he will suffer.

He was rubbing the mineral water bottle, fascinated by Han Qi, but he didn't dare to take this step.At first, he regarded Han Qi as a psychopath who was about to go on a blind date when they met for the first time. After getting in touch with him, he realized that he had been silently by his side all the time. Take this feeling.

Pei Luran withdrew his hand, put it in his trouser pocket, and sighed: "So, if you don't dare, it's better to be a straight man, at least you will live a happier life."

Pan Su nodded blankly: "...Thank you."

After returning home, Pan Su turned on the lights and fought at night. Tomorrow, he not only had to face the exam, but also faced Teacher Han. This was a double test.

In the evening, my mother took a photo in the group at home, saying that today she cleaned a set of accessories that she married as a dowry. After washing, it will be as good as new and can be regarded as a family heirloom.

"I want to keep it and pass it on to Susu's daughter-in-law from generation to generation!"

She also circled Pan Su, implying that he should find a girlfriend earlier, so as not to delay his youth.

Pan Su closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, he seemed to have made up his mind.

Pan Su got up early on Sunday morning to read his notes again, and went to the exam with confidence in the afternoon.Han Qi brought the test papers and asked his classmates to distribute them.Pan Su sat in the last row, tried his best to submerge himself in the crowd, and picked up a pen to concentrate on answering the questions.

Facts have proved that Cheng Cheng's senior sister spoke well. Han Qi's papers are not difficult. As long as you pay attention to the class, you can answer most of them. If you don't pay attention to the class, you may not even understand the questions.

Pan Su's eyes were dark at the beginning, but after half a month's hard work, he can basically write 80% of the questions, and passing the passing mark will definitely not be a problem.

In the middle of writing, he looked up at the podium, Han Qi was reading with his head down.He didn't come down to invigilate the exam, but the strange thing is that the behavior of the students is very gentleman, there is no whispering or cheating.

Five minutes before the end of get out of class, the papers were passed forward from the last row. After the papers were collected, before the class bell rang, a female student raised her hand: "Mr. At the podium, I will miss you!"

There was laughter in the classroom, Han Qi also laughed, and said gently: "Then you are welcome to take my class next semester."

"Ah, then don't! If I can still choose next semester, it means that I will fail this time. I'm afraid of endorsement."

Han Qi pushed his glasses, his eyes drifted to the back row, and he met Pan Su.Pan Su suddenly became nervous, lowered his head and twisted his hands together.

After a while he raised his head quietly, Han Qi had already looked away and was talking to other students.

After class, Pan Su sat in the back row of the classroom and waited for the last one before leaving.

Han Qi seemed to know that he had something to say, so he waved to him.Pan Su walked over with his bag on his back, with his head down, a little sullen.

"What's the matter?" Han Qi asked in a soft voice, "Are you still angry? Sorry, I didn't know my mother would go home."

Pan Su shook his head. Han Yixin didn't make things difficult for him, but gave him a chance to sort out his relationship with Han Qi, recognize his mentality, and make a final decision.

No matter how much imagination is lost to reality in the end.

"I have time today, what do you want to eat tonight?" Han Qi pushed his glasses, his tone became softer.In his eyes, Pan Su was like a child who was making trouble. He hid away some time ago. He guessed that he might have begun to notice his feelings for him, and he avoided it as Xu Ke said, so he stood still and waited quietly. He struggles over.

"No need." Pan Su took out a bunch of keys from his pocket and handed them to Han Qi, "I'll return this to you."

This is the key that Pan Su left behind when he agreed to help him walk the dog, but he accidentally left it on him for so long, and now it is returned to the original owner, so he will never use it again.

Han Qi didn't reach out, Pan Su waited for a while, then took out two books from the bag, and put them on the table together with the keys.

He took a deep breath and smiled: "I am very grateful to Mr. Han for taking care of me during this time, cooking so many delicious food for me, and helping me make up lessons. Now that the elective course is over, I haven't skipped it again, and I haven't skipped it even once. No, two credits should be given to me."

As he spoke, his eyes began to turn red. He quickly wiped his eyes and bowed to Han Qi: "I'm sorry, Teacher Han."

"……goodbye."

Pan Su turned around and ran away. As soon as he walked out of the classroom, his nose was sore, and a tear had already fallen.

Han Qi was standing by the podium. He wanted to grab Pan Su's hand a moment ago, but Pan Su turned around too quickly and passed him by. He could only watch him walk out of the classroom.

He looked at his hand and was stunned for a moment before showing a wry smile.

It was the first time that I liked someone so seriously, but it ended in failure.

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This is not abuse, this is a touchstone on the road of love!