Are you a woman today?

On the day of her mother’s birthday, Pan Su brought back the cake, and the family sat together. The table was full of dishes as in previous years. There were also a family of three. Nothing had changed, but the atmosphere was not so beautiful. A silent face, dull and boring.

Mother Pan stood up, and it was the first time in so many years that her birthday was so uncomfortable. Her husband was sullen, and her son bowed his head and did not speak.She knew that a major change had just happened at home, and no one would be in a good mood at this time. She originally wanted to skip today, but her son bought cakes and gifts. If he deliberately ignored it, it might make him sad and run away .

Pan Su quietly raised his head and aimed at his father.Although his mother's attitude towards him has improved, his father is still as cold as ever, with a stern face and unwilling to say a word, he didn't even mention the night when he went to a friend's house to stay overnight.

Pan's father sat there, like a cold-faced general, and Pan Su said in a low voice, "Happy birthday to you, Mom," without opening his mouth again.Mother Pan stood up and blew out the candles, and patted Pan Su on the shoulder: "Susu buys cakes every year. Your dad never remembers my birthday, and he didn't prepare any presents this year, did he?"

Papa Pan didn't say a word, took out his wallet, wrapped a red envelope on the spot, and handed it to his wife.

Mother Pan was a little embarrassed holding the red envelope: "Look, you don't even know what I like, all you know is that it's my son's kindness to let me buy it myself."

"If he is caring, he won't be so ignorant."

Mother Pan kicked her husband's leg under the table and reminded her in a low voice, "Didn't you just say it? Let's have a happy meal today."

Pan Su touched the tip of his nose, almost buried his face in the bowl while eating the rice.Anyway, he just listened to what his parents said, and the quarrel was a matter of slapping the palm of the hand. He didn't say a word, and it is estimated that his parents would not be embarrassed anymore.

Mom took Pan Su's food and cut the cake, and Dad kept drinking wine, glass after glass, as if trying to drown his sorrows with Pan's mother. He didn't give up until Pan's mother covered the wine glass.

At this time, Papa Pan was already not sober, and he was sitting on the sofa resting with his head down.Pan Su helped mother clear the table, poured a cup of tea for father, and put it on the tea table.

Papa Pan looked up at him, and suddenly said, "Susu."

Pan Su stood obediently: "Dad."

"Sit down and Dad will talk to you."

Pan Su sat beside his father, Pan's father was a little drunk, looked at his face, and asked, "Does it still hurt?"

Pan Su shook his head, feeling nothing for a long time, and the bruises disappeared in the past two days, leaving no marks on his face.

"Father has never hit you. The weather was too bad and I couldn't hold it back." Father Pan lowered his head and looked at his hands. "When you were just born, I held you in my arms and thought to myself, why is this child so cruel?" He is beautiful and cute, and if he does something wrong in the future, I will not bear to lift a finger from him."

"But I didn't expect that you would like men after more than 20 years."

Pan Su looked at his father, with deep crow's feet around his eyes, red nose, and gray hair on his temples. He felt much older in an instant.He always felt that his parents got married early and had children early, and they were still young when he grew up.But so many years have passed, the burden of the family has bent their backs, and the years have quietly stolen Qingsi away. In the blink of an eye, he has not grown up to be able to be independent, and suddenly finds that his parents are old, and the figure who can shelter him from the wind and rain is here. Become a little bit bent.

Pan Su grabbed Dad's arm: "Dad, I'm not born gay, and I never thought of being unfilial to you, but the person I like happens to be a man."

"Why do you look down on so many girls, but why do you want to be with a man?" Papa Pan sighed, "Your mother saw you running around on the street that day, and she cried all night after she came back. What she loves the most is You don't want anything in this life, as long as you are safe, healthy and happy."

"This is also my wish, but I can't accept that you want to be with a man. A good son, if you don't pass on the family line, what can you do with a man?"

Papa Pan stroked Pan Su's hair, with a hint of hope in his eyes: "So Susu, you can be well, don't let us worry about it? Break up with that man."

The slap that day made Pan Su stunned, and today's heart-breaking made him feel like a knife. Pan Su lowered his eyes, as if he was struggling with great thoughts.After a while, he let go of his father's arm and took a step away from him.

He said sorry, Dad, I can't do it.

Perhaps expecting this kind of result, Dad didn't get angry again, but showed an extremely tired expression, and waved his hands: "Forget it."

In the next few days, the relationship between Pan Su and his parents remained stalemate.His mother treated him a little better, but it was far from the kindness he had in the past; not to mention his father, who at most greeted him when they met, and the family often couldn't say a few words in a day.

The cheerful and kind father has become introverted and silent, and the always strong and optimistic mother is also frowning now. The suspicion of coming out of the closet is getting thicker and thicker in this small family.Pan Su knew very well that this would be a protracted battle and would require a long process, and he always believed in his heart that one day he would be able to see the light of the moon when the clouds opened.

Halfway through the holiday, Pan Su lived at home like a year, which was even more difficult than attending classes.He stays at home every day without going out, and he doesn't want to play games. When he is bored in the house, he is either in a daze or reading a book.It was rare to go out, because Liu Zui was afraid that he would be suffocated, so he got him out to let the wind go, and took him to his home to play games to relax.

"To be honest, your parents' situation is considered good. They didn't accept it, but they didn't object, right? If you just turn a blind eye and close one eye, it will be over." Liu Zui sat cross-legged on the floor, holding Take a bite out of the watermelon.

Pan Su was drinking milk tea, sitting opposite him with his back against the bed: "Who said there is no objection, my dad said it himself, and he couldn't accept it. Although my mother didn't say it clearly, if she really made her attitude clear, she would definitely be against it. "

"This kind of development is already very good. How long have you been out of the closet? After a long time, they will feel nothing." Liu Zui was a little curious, "Hey, your parents never doubted that Han who lives with you Is the teacher actually your man?"

"...They'd better not suspect it." Otherwise, Pan Su's clumsy acting skills would definitely reveal his truth in a second.

"Look, you disappeared, your mother was the first to call him, how trusting is that?" Liu Zui held his chin and raised his eyebrows, "Perhaps your mother never thought that the teacher she trusts is The chief culprit who broke his own son."

"...Don't talk about it." Pan Su had a headache. How to get his parents to accept Teacher Han as his significant other was an epic task.

In mid-August, the big case that Han Qi had been working on for several months finally came to an end.He has never had time to come to Pan Su, and it has been more than a month since we last met. When Pan Su heard that he had won the lawsuit, he asked excitedly, "Do you have time to come for dinner? It's fine if you don't. I'll go back to school early." alright."

"Stay at home obediently, I'll go and see you," Han Qi paused, "Is that okay?"

Now that Pan Su's identity is sensitive, parents are prone to criticize the men who appear around their son, even Teacher Han, they must prevent them from thinking too much.

"Uh..." Pan Su couldn't answer, hesitated, and said to ask.

At dinner in the evening, the atmosphere at the dinner table was still dull, Pan Su put down his chopsticks, and carefully mentioned about Han Qi's vacation.Mother Pan looked as usual: "Mr. Han is done with work? It's really hard work, have you made an appointment?"

Pan Su shook his head. He hadn't asked his parents how dare he make an appointment with Han Qi.Since he came out of the closet, his parents regarded his male friends as scourges, and he must have said hello in advance.

Mother Pan had no objections, and Pan Su was waiting for her father to speak.I saw Papa Pan holding the bowl, and nodded slowly after a long time: "Okay, you live there, you have been taken care of all the time, and you often bother Mr. Han, so I want to thank you very much."

Pan Susong breathed a sigh of relief, feeling slightly relieved that his parents' attitude towards Han Qi hadn't changed much.He hid under the quilt, called Han Qi, and told him the good news: "Come over this weekend, my parents agreed, and they will stay at home for rest."

Han Qi agreed, Pan Su looked forward to it eagerly, and finally waited until the weekend, got up early in the morning and took the initiative to tidy up the room, and helped his mother take the quilt out to dry.

Mother Pan came in and saw that the room was neat and tidy, she said with a smile: "Look at you, you only know how to clean up your kennel when someone comes, are you afraid of showing Teacher Han a joke?"

Pan Su rubbed the tip of his nose, a little embarrassed: "...he is a clean person, the house is so tidy, if he sees my room is a mess, he will definitely educate me."

"It's right to educate you. You won't take it seriously when I tell you." Mother Pan poked her son's forehead, and suddenly murmured, "Mr. Han is really nice. If you like such a man, I will also acceptable……"

Pan Su froze for a moment: "Mom, what did you say?"

Mother Pan realized that she had said the wrong thing, and quickly waved her hands: "It's nothing, nothing, you go and hang your clothes out to dry."

Pan Su was absent-mindedly drying the clothes on the balcony, shocked in his heart: I heard absolutely right just now, my mother said that if it was Teacher Han, she would accept it.

That is to say... the object of his coming out became Mr. Han, so it is not so difficult for his parents to pass the test?

It's understandable if you think about it carefully. It's normal for a foul character like Han Qi to be envied by his peers and liked by his elders.It was also because the other party was Han Qi that he was willing to be bent, and he would not be able to replace it with anyone else.

After ten o'clock, Pan Su went downstairs, and when he came back, he led Han Qi in. The two chatted and laughed, and had a very good relationship.

Mother Pan wiped her hands and came out of the kitchen: "Mr. Han, you are here. You have worked hard on such a long journey."

Han Qi came to visit and brought gifts, which were placed in the entrance.When Pan's mother saw it, she was even more flattered: "Oh, what did you bring with you? We're really embarrassed. We should thank you for taking care of our Susu all the time."

Han Qi smiled softly: "It should, Auntie, please don't be polite."

Papa Pan personally brewed a pot of tea leaves from his collection to entertain Han Qi.He and Mr. Han sat on the sofa and chatted. Pan Su always felt that sitting there was in the way, so he went to the kitchen to help his mother cook together.

"What is your father talking to Teacher Han?"

"It seems to be tasting tea, I don't understand, the two of them are talking clearly and logically."

In fact, Han Qi has been living abroad, and before returning to China, he always drank coffee as water.Fortunately, the influence of the past few years in China will not appear too superficial in front of the future father-in-law.Father Pan chatted with him very well, with a smile on his face all the time, as if he hadn't been this happy for a long time, Han Qi also smiled: "If uncle likes it, I have several kinds of Dancong with different fragrances, next time I will bring it to you." You try it."

Papa Pan quickly waved his hand: "No, no, Mr. Han, the tea you drink must be quite expensive. How can I accept it. Susu has been taken care of a lot, and our family feels very embarrassed."

"Susu is very obedient, lively and cute. In fact, I should thank him. He often helps me walk and feed the dog, otherwise I won't be able to take care of it when I am busy."

Papa Pan leaned on the back of the sofa chair, put his hands on his stomach and patted on his stomach: "This child...everything is fine, it's the one that's made us worry recently..."

He seemed to suddenly think of something, sat up straight, approached Han Qi, and said in a mysterious tone, "Mr. Han, Susu lives over there with you. He... Has he gotten close to any male classmates?"

Han Qi was startled, and pushed his glasses: "Male classmate? No, Susu's best friend is his roommate, and they often play games together. I haven't heard of anything else."

"Oh...that's it." Papa Pan looked suspicious, "This kid can't be lying, right? It doesn't make sense... such a big thing..."

Han Qi guessed what he wanted to ask, and smiled slightly: "Actually, from ancient times to the present, no matter what species, no matter what kind of species, they will not only limit their feelings to the opposite sex. This is neither a physical disability nor a mental illness. It is a very normal feeling. Orientation. They are often classified as a small group of abnormal groups. Modern society is becoming more and more open, and activities for equal rights for these small groups are gradually increasing. This just proves the progress of thinking. It’s just limited to passing on the family line.”

"I don't think it's necessary to have a child. The main reason is that we will be discriminated against here. After decades of living like this, it's too painful." Papa Pan shook his head slowly.

"But his feelings are more important, aren't they?" Han Qi picked up his teacup and said in a calm tone, "If it's my child, I will definitely put his feelings first, and if there is no violation of law and discipline, I will make all the choices I make. respect."

"All children are individuals with their own thoughts and lives. They are not appendages of their parents. There is no need to follow the route planned and paved by their parents. As long as they can be happy, isn't it The greatest expectation of parenthood?"