look sideways

My arm started to hurt, but how could this compare to the pain of being betrayed by the last person close to me in the world, his pain was so painful that I couldn't breathe...

Su Mu thought: How long has it been since I faced this kind of pain? Was it when I was raped/raped by an old man who was more than 40 years older than me, or when I was rejected and slapped by my own sister, or when I faced the person I liked and other people? The woman kissed me, and later got engaged, married and had children?I don't know, anyway, Su Mu knew that it had been a long time.

He's used to it...

Habits are sometimes a nuisance...

Just like now...

27. Twenty-seven

◎◎

"Zhou Sheng! I let others sleep and earn money for you. Can you not hurt Jiang Ce and Jiang Ling? Treat her well... I can give you all the money for Jiang Ling's medical treatment, and treat her better... ...She likes you, you don't know it..."

Zhou Sheng nodded: "But I won't agree to her, because I can't have weaknesses!"

Su Mu smiled and asked, "Then... as I said before, your father is also..."

"Yes, I'm a liar, my father is of normal sexual orientation."

"Normal? So it's not normal for men to like men?"

"No, Mu...you misunderstood me..."

Su Mu shook his head: "Forget it, we don't know each other well, you can call all the people who want to marry me, and I will earn money for you non-stop for a month, can you help me pay off the usury first, I can't let them Affected my sister..."

"Why? Why, Jiang Ling has treated you like this, but you still think about her? Why?"

"How can there be so many reasons? Because I owe her this, she is my sister... Well, Zhou Sheng, I am not your weakness, so Jiang Ce's... brother? Should you leave?"

Zhou Sheng took a deep breath: "Sure enough, I can't hide anything from you...I'm leaving." Zhou Sheng opened the door and was about to leave when he heard Su Mu's voice: "Zhou Sheng, can you get me some bottles of wine? If the degree is higher, I don’t want to face those people.”

"Drinking is not good, Mu..." After Zhou Sheng left, wine was delivered in a short while. Seeing the extremely high alcohol in the wine plate, Su Mu couldn't help thinking that when Jiang Ce quarreled with himself, the reason was because of Su Mu. Mu agreed to the classmate's invitation and was still at that classmate's house. When Jiang Ce arrived, Su Mu was already about to leave. He had just been made things difficult by his classmate's family, and Su Mu was in a bad mood. Jiang Ce saw him coming out. Asking questions quickly, the quarrel broke out immediately.

Seeing that the atmosphere was getting more and more intense, Su Mu interrupted: "Brother Ce... we are not in the right mood right now, let's calm down first..."

When he got home, Jiang Ce used wine to relieve his emotions. One glass after another, the alcohol content was extremely high. Su Mu looked at Jiang Ce's appearance and was a little worried. He wanted to apologize.

But he was afraid that if there was another quarrel, Jiang Ce would abandon him.

Su Mu walked over slowly. Jiang Ce glanced at him and didn't say anything. He just sat down to the side to make room for Su Mu to sit more comfortably: but Su Mu would be wrong. I thought Jiang Ce didn't want to sit with him.

Su Mu looked at Jiang Ce, pursed his lips and approached Jiang Ce's wine glass, took a sip, choked, Jiang Ce laughed when he saw Su Mu's appearance, Su Mu was delighted, and took another sip.

Jiang Ce watched Su Mu take another sip, didn't say anything, just finished the glass of wine directly, he knew what Su Mu was thinking by looking at Su Mu's expression, so he said something when he stood up : "Don't worry, I won't leave you behind, not to mention this is my home, what are you worried about, I'll go get something, I'll be back soon..."

Su Mu nodded.

Jiang Ce came back without keeping Su Mu waiting too long. When he came, he held a bottle of wine in his hand and handed it to Su Mu. When he met Su Mu's suspicious eyes, he turned his face away: "Hey, aren't you I want to drink, but my bottle of wine has a high alcohol content. If you want to drink it, you must drink the bottle I just took. The alcohol content is low, but you should drink less if it is not too low. In addition..." Jiang Ce paused : "I was wrong... please forgive me... I shouldn't be unable to control my emotions without understanding what happened, and quarrel with you. For the sake of bringing you wine, please forgive me..."

Su Mu burst out laughing, Jiang Ce accused Su Mu with his eyes, very sad, Su Mu laughed loudly: "Okay, I also made mistakes, I shouldn't stop arguing with you, I'm doing something I should have told you before, so I won't worry you anymore..."

"Hmph, it's good that you know you're wrong, I've already forgiven you, and besides...you have to make it up to me, my young heart."

"Okay, it's up to you."

The wine glass knocked on the table, and Su Mu woke up startled. He smiled wryly: "Ah...so...it was a dream."

Headache, that was the only thing Su Mu thought of before falling asleep...

It was night when he woke up again. Su Mu opened his eyes, and his body became more sore from drinking too much wine.

After finally getting used to the light, Su Mu found that this was an unfamiliar room. What was familiar was that the decoration of this room was not much different from that of Zhou Sheng's bar. It might be a new room.

"Mu, are you awake?" The familiar voice made Su Mu frown: "Stay away from me..."

Zhou Sheng stopped by Su Mu's bed: "Ah, how is it possible? I'm your guest today. Don't forget that you still owe me money from usury!"

It's okay not to say, but Su Muliu exploded when he said it: "You still have the face to say that you didn't plan this!"

Zhou Sheng smiled and pressed Su Mu: "But, Mu, I really paid the money... You said that if I lock you here, you can't make money. If I tell those people where Jiang Ling is Hospitals... What do you think will happen to them? Hmm? Those people I found were not good people. At that time, they were willing to leave because I was by your side, but if I don't want to help you and encourage them Go to your sister and tell me if something good will happen."

"Zhou Sheng! You are disgusting! Get out!"

"Fuck? I hate this word the most. If you hadn't avoided me, would I have treated you like this? You hate me just like them, and you can't tolerate me!" Zhou Sheng felt extremely uncomfortable, and his nameless anger rushed into his heart: " You only have Jiang Ling and that Jiang Ce in your heart, and you were still thinking about him when Jiang Ce abandoned you! Am I wrong? Why do you treat me so well, why!"

Su Mu was stunned: "But... Zhou Sheng, I have already put you in my heart..."

"But if Jiang Ce really abandons you, will you forget him? Will you find a new love? You won't!"

"How do you know I can't! Have you ever asked me what I think? Take it out of context! Just rely on your thoughts to mess around, Zhou Sheng, do you think you like me?"

"I like you, I like you very much! But what you mean is that you will start looking for a new love, but if I confess to you, will you agree?"

"Zhou Sheng..." Su Mu wanted to cry but couldn't help but sigh, "You still don't understand what I mean, I meant trying to find someone new but didn't say it was you..."

"You still can't accept me..."

"I... no, I'm just telling you that, you don't need to think about it, your thinking is too extreme now... Zhou Sheng, I said that if there is really this person who confesses to me and at the same time you confess to me, I will To choose you, the premise is that you don't let me find out what you do, I treat me well, and I can accept you. But without such a premise..."

"I'm already trying to accept you..."

Zhou Sheng didn't speak, he felt his temples throbbing as he wrote, and his chest hurt like hell.

"So are you willing to sleep with me?" Zhou Sheng didn't think Su Mu's empty words had any credibility, because Su Mu was extremely smart, otherwise why would he have chosen him among so many people before.

Su Mu looked at himself saying so many heartfelt words, but Zhou Sheng still didn't change his mind, he sighed: "Zhou Sheng...you know I'm dirty enough with your push, you Also..."

Zhou Sheng stared at Su Mu: "If you sleep with me, you will pay me the money you owe me. Besides, they won't trouble Jiang Ling. You are very smart, so you should know that it is not a loss to do this business with me."

Su Mu glanced at the door, and slowly began to take off his clothes: "I was played by someone alone today, and you know what I said yesterday. I'm tired, so take it easy, okay?"

………………

28. Twenty-eight

◎◎

Su Mu has never seen Zhou Sheng since he worked with him yesterday. Zhou Sheng kept his promise to help him attract customers. Su Mu receives customers day after day. To be honest, Su Mu has never met Zhou Sheng, let alone After Jiang Ce, he sometimes had the fluke idea that he could see Jiang Ce come to the bar for a drink, but he didn't want Jiang Ce to come over, he was afraid that Jiang Ce would dislike him and think he was disgusting when he saw him like this.

Su Mu has been working here for two weeks, the usury loan has been paid off, and the money for Jiang Ling's medical treatment is enough. All that remains is to find a matching heart for Jiang Ling.

Originally, Su Mu thought that his life would go on like this, and his illness was getting worse and worse. If it wasn't for the long-term exhaustion, Su Mu felt that he would not be able to sleep all the time.

Snow started to fall.There is a baptism of snow every three days.

On the 15th day of work, Su Mu began to pick out customers. It was still a familiar scene. Su Mu saw Jiang Ce in that slightly dim place.

Jiang Ce just drank in a muffled voice, and the friends and sisters who were talking to him bumped their faces. Su Mu could tell that Jiang Ce was heartbroken.