Then he became my boyfriend

As soon as Jin Yu's voice fell, Shen Yi's face froze instantly.

His heart then sank down, into a dark and bottomless place.

The hand hanging empty by his side curled up slightly, as if it had been stung by something.

In fact, when standing outside the door, Shen Yi was prepared for this.

He knew that if he wanted Xiaoguai to accept his overture, he would inevitably need to explain the initial question.

Because Xiaoguai will definitely ask.

He didn't know how to explain it. Although he was worried, he still took a chance and avoided this question when he first spoke, hoping that Xiaoguai would not bring it up so soon.

But what was supposed to come would come after all, and what he feared the most in his heart still happened.

He looked at Jin Yu, his face turned slightly pale. Even though he was mentally prepared, he still didn't know how to answer Jin Yu.

How to give a reasonable explanation that Xiaoguai can accept?

Tell him that he was confused at the time, and his thoughts went wrong for a while?

Or tell him that he doesn't know?

Either way, it's not a good reason.

He wasn't even sure how Xiao Guai would react after he spoke.

At this moment, Shen Yi seemed to be standing on a thin thread hanging on the edge of a cliff.

On both sides of the body is a bottomless abyss, and under the feet is a string that will break at any time.

Do you choose to jump down now and be smashed to pieces, or step on the string and continue to linger on for the last pointless struggle?

This is a difficult choice.

Jin Yu stared straight at Shen Yi, waiting for him to give an explanation.

But Shen Yi didn't answer immediately.

There was an eerie silence in the room.

There will be no one to interrupt, everyone is very quiet, watching him and the other quietly.

Even the foreign doctor who was eating the food put down his chopsticks, and was affected by the atmosphere and only dared to observe them quietly from the sidelines.

It's almost the end of August, and the weather is still so hot.

The air conditioner was clearly turned on in the room, but the temperature was not high.

But for some reason, in the box, people feel a little sweaty on the back for no reason.

Sitting next to him, Shen Xi looked left and right, looked at Jin Yu and then at Shen Yi, feeling that the atmosphere between the two had become inexplicably stiff, and felt nervous for a while.

In the end, he pursed his lips, and exchanged a glance with Li Ye at the door of the box, wanting to get comfort from Li Ye.

However, Li Ye just slightly raised his head and looked back at Shen Xi, and soon, he withdrew his gaze and looked at Jin Yu again.

Li Ye was also a little nervous, he always felt that Jin Yu still wanted to run.

Inexplicable feeling.

In fact, Li Ye already understood Shen Yi's thoughts very clearly.

Although he was not very sure when he first returned to China, he just guessed that way.

But in the recent period, too many things happened to these two people, and Shen Yi's various performances were too obvious, which made him sure that his previous guess was correct.

Shen Yi's thoughts on Jin Yu surpassed the feelings between brothers.

He didn't want to continue to be Jin Yu's brother at all.

The reason why he cared so much about Jin Yu's life, cared so much about Jin Yu's condition, and was so careful was that he was afraid of offending the other party, and every move was a prison.

To put it simply, it's just because of a word of love.

The person who falls in love first is destined to bow his head first and become humble in front of the person he loves.

It's just that Li Ye didn't know when Shen Yi's thoughts started to become like this.

Back then, when we first met when we were abroad, he didn't realize that Shen Yi had such thoughts at all.

Speaking of which, it was only after he was seriously injured that time that he became suspicious.

Li Ye looked at Shen Yi's secretly curled hand, and sighed softly in his heart.

He now suspects that the boss had such thoughts in his heart when he pushed Jin Yu's hand away.

It's just that he was too young at the time to know his own thoughts at all.

That's why it didn't appear as obvious as it is now.

If this is the case... the boss probably won't be able to explain it.

That would be bad.

Li Ye thought about it and felt that the situation was not good.

Because there is a worse situation - from his observation of Jin Yu, no matter how much Jin Yu hates the boss, it is obvious that Jin Yu does not have that kind of affection for the boss.

Jin Yu still only stays in the original brotherhood towards his boss.

If Jin Yu knew that the boss sent him to the Jin family for that reason, I'm afraid...

Li Ye looked at Jin Yu's indifferent expression, his eyelids twitched, and suddenly he didn't dare to think about it.

Shen Xi didn't get eye feedback from Li Ye, so he had to brainstorm by himself.

He couldn't help but secretly glanced at Shen Yi, his eyes hovering over Shen Yi's slightly pale and stiff face for a while.

In fact, he didn't quite understand what Jin Yu said about pushing his hands away, and he was always vague about what happened between the two brothers back then.

He is also curious about the truth of the matter.

Of course, in his heart, he didn't feel that Shen Yi couldn't explain the situation, he felt that his cousin must have a reasonable reason to explain it.

Now he saw that Shen Yi seemed to be in a daze, and it happened that Jin Yu couldn't see him with his back turned, so Shen Xi desperately gave Chen Yi winks——

Cousin, tell me quickly!Not to mention Xiao Yu is about to run away again.

If they run away this time, they have no reason to keep anyone.

Maybe it was because Shen Xi winked his eyebrows so eye-catchingly, he finally reminded Shen Yi, Shen Yi stopped silent, the corners of his mouth twitched, and he was quiet for a while, until now he could barely say one sentence: "That day... My brother was wrong."

In the end, the balance was still in favor of lingering.

In the end, Shen Yi still had no choice but to jump down the cliff now.

The way Shen Yi spoke seemed to be very difficult, and he almost jumped out word by word: "...Brother thought that you would have a better life if you went to Jin's house, so he pushed your hand away at that time, thinking that only then Only then can you leave the Shen family."

After Shen Yi finished speaking, he clenched his fingers tightly.

Still holding onto Jin Yu's hand, he didn't dare to let go, and even exerted a little force.

He looked at Jin Yu carefully, not knowing how he would react, waiting while being afraid.

Jin Yu stared at him expressionlessly, and he didn't say anything after hearing this sentence.

He just looked at Shen Yi, seeing his guilty expression, and a flash of absurdity flashed in his heart.

Laughing at Shen Yi, he also laughed at himself.

Fortunately, he really wanted to believe in Shen Yi just now, and believed that Shen Yi really cared about him.

He thought Shen Yi would give him a reasonable reason to push his hand away.

But I didn't expect to hear only such an explanation.

Sure enough, he still thought too much.

This is why Shen Yi pushed him away?

So unfeeling, so indifferent, to let him go to Jin's house to live a better life?

Knowing that you don't want to let go, that's why you're so unfeeling?

Shen Yi is really amazing, to be able to give this reason so high-sounding.

Feelings, in the end, everything is for him, okay?

Did Shen Yi think he would believe this?

Could he believe it?

Obviously I said at the beginning that I would take good care of him for the rest of my life and be his brother for the rest of my life.

At that time, you pushed his hand away in this name, saying that it was to make him live a better life?

This is how he believes, and he cannot accept such a reason.

This is simply nonsense!

It would be better to admit directly and plainly that he just doesn't want his younger brother anymore.

I just don't want to continue to take care of myself, I just feel that I am a burden.

Then he felt that he was sincere enough.

Jin Yu didn't open his mouth and continued to question, those doubts in his heart were not important anymore.

He doesn't want to know anymore.

Pointless.

Jin Yu couldn't help chuckling, he lowered his head and stopped looking at Shen Yi, but took a sip of water from the cup and didn't answer.

Hearing this laughing voice, it was clear that he didn't believe it at all.

Shen Yi looked at his profile, lowered his eyes, and didn't dare to continue speaking.

Shen Xi who was at the side didn't expect to hear such an explanation, her eyes widened for a moment, she looked at Shen Yi in disbelief, and even wanted to go forward and shake Shen Yi's shoulder crazily.

bro!What are you talking about? !

Shen Xi next to him was anxious like a monkey scratching his head. If he wasn't the person involved and didn't know the real reason and process of the matter, he would have opened his mouth to explain instead of Shen Yi.

He didn't understand why Shen Yi said that in the first place.

Like Jin Yu, he didn't believe this statement at all.

Isn't this funny?

As far as Shen Yi was being kind to Jin Yu at that time, where would it be better for Jin Yu to leave him?

Impossible, there won't be a better life by his side.

It's not about money at all.

What's more, the Jin family is only because of their high social status in politics, but the Shen family does not lack money to raise their children in Nancheng.

No matter how you go to Jin's house, you will have a better life.

This statement does not hold water.

But now they are trying to ease the conflict between the two of them, even if Shen Xi feels something is wrong in his heart, he can only bite the bullet and help Shen Yi speak up.

After thinking about it, Shen Xi looked at Shen Yi who probably didn't intend to continue explaining, and couldn't help but speak to ease the atmosphere, he said: "Xiao Yu, what my cousin said is also right, think about it, my uncle and aunt at that time With that attitude, you will definitely suffer if you stay in the Shen family, and my cousin probably did it because of a momentary delusion, and he must have regretted it immediately."

"Cousin, right?" After Shen Xi finished speaking, she lightly kicked Shen Yi, reminding Shen Yi that she felt coaxing.

Now that everything has been said so far, it can only be explained in this way at this moment.

Shen Yi nodded with his neck stiff, his voice sounded a little superficial: "Brother was thinking wrong at the time."

Shen Yi also knew in his heart that Jin Yu might not believe this statement.

But he couldn't give a better explanation at the moment.

He could only hold Jin Yu's hand, hoping that he would not be as angry as before: "Brother was wrong, brother shouldn't have done that at the time. Brother regretted it that night and wanted to go to Jin's house to look for you, but he couldn't find you. I'm sorry. Little boy..."

Jin Yu already felt that the reason Shen Yi said earlier was perfunctory and funny, so he didn't want to talk anymore.

He planned to spend the night with them like this, anyway, the restaurant would close sooner or later.

He didn't believe that they could keep him trapped in this private room and not let him go.

But after hearing such a sentence, he still couldn't hold back the anger in his heart.

He turned his head again, looked at Shen Yi, and couldn't help retorting: "Don't try to lie to me, you said you came to Jin's house to look for me? Why didn't I know? I never saw Jin's house in the first half month. over you."

Speaking of this, Jin Yu's heart was cold, his eyes sank, and his tone was even worse: "Even if you make up a reason, you should make up a better one, something that can be believed?"

He raised one corner of his mouth and asked with a self-deprecating smile, "Do you think I'm still a teenager?"

"How dare you lie to me with such a lie?"

"Is this interesting?"

At the end of Jin Yu's speech, he couldn't control his voice, he raised the volume, and the muscles on his face twitched uncontrollably.

Just now he was thinking of spending time with them, but now he felt that he couldn't stay there for a second.

Jin Yu stood up in vain, shook off Shen Yi's hand, and walked out.

This time Shen Yi didn't hold him back, Jin Yu moved too fast, Shen Yi was thrown away without noticing for a moment.

Seeing that there was no way to control the situation, Shen Yi couldn't care about anything, and couldn't think of anything else, so he could only step forward and hug Jin Yu.

Li Ye and Shen Xi froze in place when they were about to stop someone.

Jin Yu was embraced by Shen Yi, his back fell into Shen Yi's embrace, and his arms were also bound.

Jin Yu was stunned for a moment and did not continue to struggle.

Shen Yi didn't dare to let go, but hurriedly explained in a low voice in his ear: "Brother didn't lie to you, the day after you went to Jin's house, brother went to Jin's house to look for you. But the housekeeper said that you were taken out by Jin Boyang I went on a trip, and my brother didn't go back until he saw you."

Maybe it's because Shen Yi's embrace is too gentle, or maybe it's because Shen Yi's voice is too close to his ear, that voice is too familiar, and the speed of entering his heart is too fast.

So he calmed down quickly, and even started to think about whether what Shen Yi said was true.

Shen Yi said that he went to Jin's house to look for him, but Jin Yu really didn't remember it.

The time when he went to Jin's house was really bad, but his memory was very deep. If Shen Yi went to look for him, he would have no reason not to remember it, but... not necessarily.

Jin Yu was in a trance for a moment, and his memory was suddenly pulled away.

He remembered that the night he had just arrived in the North City from the South City, the first day he came to Jin's house, he had received special treatment that he had never had before.

After Qi Hui and Shen Fangming sent him to Jin's house that day, they took Shen Xi back to Nancheng.

After Jin Boyang sent Shen Yu away, he turned around and went out to have dinner with others. In the evening, he, Xu Yan and Jin Xuan were the only ones at home.

Facing a strange mother and younger brother, he didn't know how to get along with them at all, so he stayed alone in the corner all the time.

During the meal, Jin Xuan did not sit at the same table with Jin Boyang because Jin Boyang was not there.

After Jin Xuan showed him a disgusted expression, he went directly upstairs and returned to his room.

So he still had a good meal that night.

After eating, he was taken to the bedroom assigned to him.

He looked at the strange room, the strange bed and quilt, and for some reason there was a kind of resistance in his heart, he didn't want to go to sleep.

So, he just huddled in the chair beside the bed for a long time, until he was really sleepy in the middle of the night, so he climbed into bed.

But who knows, he was startled when he went to bed.

There was a big centipede in the quilt, which was actually a fake, but he didn't know it.

He was most afraid of this kind of arthropod insects since he was a child. He used to scare him half to death when he saw cockroaches in his classmates' house.

What's more, it's a centipede, even if it's a fake, he doesn't have time to tell it apart.

At that time, he was almost scared out of his wits and jumped off the bed on the spot.

The first time a person is frightened, his brain gives a subconscious reaction.

For a moment, he forgot that he was in Beicheng, in a strange home.

He opened the door and ran out, up the stairs, calling his brother desperately as he ran.

But he forgot that there is no elder brother here at all, he no longer has an elder brother in this world, he only has strange and serious parents.

His yelling successfully woke up Jin Boyang and Xu Yan who had already fallen asleep.

When Jin Boyang came down the stairs, he was still trembling while clutching the railing of the stairs, with tears streaming down his face.

At that time, he didn't know what would happen to him. When he saw Jin Boyang, he was going to tell him that there was a centipede.

But when Jin Boyang saw him, he thought he was noisy in the middle of the night, so he grabbed his neck and slapped him.

That slap stunned him directly.

Jin Yu had never experienced such treatment before, and tears burst down his face immediately.

But his tears are worthless in the eyes of those who don't care.

Jin Boyang directly carried him out of the house, who was crying like a little tabby cat, threw him on the ground, entered the house and closed the door, and locked him out of the house like this.

Summer nights in Beicheng are quite cold, and there are mosquitoes.

The mosquitoes in the northern city are more poisonous than those in the southern city. A bite is a big red envelope, itchy and painful.

Jin Yu, who was bitten all over his body, huddled in the corner with red eyes, desperately holding back tears, choked up, scratched the red envelope, and called brother in his heart, I'm afraid, I hurt, I feel uncomfortable.

But his brother didn't come to help him.

No one can help him.

The memory was so real, it even reminded him of the pain of being beaten by Jin Boyang and bitten by bugs.

He had no place to sleep that day, so he could only shrink in the corner and look at the moon outside.

Night turned into a terrifying monster that devoured people, but he could only fight the monster alone.

That was the first time he was punished by Jin Boyang.

It was also the first time in his life that he realized his helplessness and loneliness.

The next day, he was brought into the house by Xu Yan, and Xu Yan asked someone to tidy him up, but he didn't dare to sleep when he returned to the house.

It was the weekend, Jin Boyang did not go to work, but rested at home.

In order to avoid Jin Boyang, he stayed in his room and did not go out.

But at noon, he was called down by the servant.

That was the first time he ate with Jin Boyang at the dinner table of Jin's house. The night before, because Jin Boyang was out for a social event, he didn't know what other rules were there at the dinner table.

As a result, he had just sat down to eat lunch, but Jin Xuan put some extras in the lunch, and he couldn't help but spit it out after eating it in one bite.

At that time, Jin Boyang was angered. Jin Boyang stood up, grabbed his clothes and dragged him into the small garden behind.

The mark on his face that was slapped by Jin Boyang the night before hadn't completely faded away. Being dragged by Jin Boyang, he was terrified and didn't know what would happen this time.

He had already been punished to have no place to sleep outside the night before, and now he was disrespectful at the dinner table. God knows how Jin Boyang will treat him.

At that time, a servant ran in outside to talk to the butler, and then the butler came to Jin Boyang.

At that time, Jin Boyang dragged him to the back garden under the sun and made him stand there as punishment.

The butler glanced at him and whispered something to Jin Boyang.

After Jin Boyang finished listening, he also took a look at him, then shook his head, and said to the butler, "No, find a reason to let him go."

As he said that, Jin Boyang also emphasized: "Don't reveal your secrets, it's best not to let him come in the future."

At that time, Jin Yu thought that Jin Boyang was talking about other people who came to look for him at home.

Thinking back now, if what Shen Yi said was true, then the person Jin Boyang asked the housekeeper to drive away at that time was Shen Yi.

"Xiao Guai, trust your brother, okay?" Shen Yi still whispered in his ear, "My brother really doesn't want you."

"Brother shouldn't have pushed your hand away. I'm sorry, everything is my brother's fault." After speaking, Shen Yi started to apologize again, and begged: "Brother knows that he is guilty, can you give him a chance to redeem himself?"

After hearing Shen Yi's words, Jin Yu remained silent.

For some reason, he suddenly felt that all this was very meaningless.

Shen Yi's apologies and prayers were meaningless, and it was also very meaningless for him to be entangled in Shen Yi's abandonment of himself.

Jin Yu lowered his eyes, his eyes fell on the back of the hands that bound him in front of him, and his eyes suddenly dimmed.

These hands used to make him feel so reliable, they could support him and prevent him from falling when carrying him on his back.

He has led himself through many storms and years.

But... what's the use?

When he was beaten, when he was punished, when he huddled in a small corner alone, when he was lying in a dark hut and fainted from hunger... so many times that made him feel helpless, this Where are the hands?

In the end, he carried it on his own.

Atonement?

There is nothing to atone for.

Everything has happened, those pains, those memories are real, no matter how they are, they are unchangeable facts.

He doesn't need atonement either, he's already walked that path alone, and now he doesn't feel helpless anymore.

Jin Yu was quiet for a while, and his mood gradually became calm.

As if he had suddenly figured out something, he suddenly didn't want to entangle with Shen Yi about these past grievances.

He lightly patted the back of Shen Yi's hand, and his voice became much calmer: "I see."

Probably because his expression was too calm, and he couldn't see the feeling of anger just now.

Shen Xi heard Jin Yu's words from the side, thinking that he was not angry anymore, and he breathed a sigh of relief.

It can be regarded as persuading people.

A smile appeared on Shen Xi's face, looking at Jin Yu.

Li Ye also let go of the hand that had been holding on to the chair. He was no longer as nervous as before. He even stood up and stopped blocking the door as before.

A thin layer of sweat broke out on Shen Yi's forehead, and when Jin Yu clapped his hands, he secretly let out a breath like he was alive after a catastrophe.

His breath hit Jin Yu's neck.

Jin Yu didn't move at all.

Shen Yi let go of Jin Yu, feeling a little uneasy for a while, so he showed a little smile and asked him: "Then, little boy, can I let the doctor see the situation for you?"

Shen Xi turned her head away, and said to the foreign doctor that it was all right.

The man stood up and walked towards Jin Yu.

However, before he came to him, Jin Yu shook his head calmly and said, "No need."

Shen Xi stood up and didn't feel any difference, and persuaded with a smile: "Let's take a look, my doctor, it's hard to come here, just take a look, it won't waste much time."

Jin Yu turned around and glanced at them vaguely.

This glance was calm, but made Shen Yi's face freeze again.

Jin Yu wasn't as indifferent as before, but he didn't have the slightest enthusiasm either. He just said to Shen Yi calmly: "Thank you for your kindness, I appreciate it, but I really don't need it. Please trouble me, I'll go back first , I've been too busy recently, I'm a little sleepy, sorry."

When he opened his mouth like this, even though his face was calm, even Shen Xi felt something was wrong.

Shen Xi turned pale, stepped forward and pulled Jin Yu's clothes carefully, and asked in a low voice: "Xiao Yu, didn't you just speak clearly with your cousin?"

Jin Yu looked at him very quietly.

"... Do you have any questions?" Seeing that Jin Yu's attitude did not soften, Shen Xi asked again.

"No." Jin Yu's expression was very calm at the moment, he looked at Shen Xi like an ordinary friend who had been separated for many years and had no feelings for him: "I have asked all the questions clearly, and now I don't have any problems."

"I know the reasons for those things in the past, that's enough, I let it go." Jin Yu said to Shen Yi: "That's it, I don't need your atonement, you guys eat well, I'll go back to sleep."

Jin Yu turned around unhurriedly as he spoke, and walked towards the door.

Li Ye was really stunned now, he didn't know what was going on, he looked at Shen Yi, then at Jin Yu, wondering whether he should let Jin Yu go or not.

Shen Yi's face was devastated, the breath of relief just now was like a dream, as if it never existed.

"Little boy..."

Shen Yi couldn't help opening his mouth, wanting to persuade him to stay.

Jin Yu looked at Li Ye who was still standing at the door, and turned back to look at Shen Yi: "I know what you think, I know what I said just now, making you think that I never forget you."

"You guys think too much, I just care about what happened back then, because I don't know the reason, that's why I've been struggling with it, and I've never let myself go, and I won't let you go."

Jin Yu smiled faintly as he spoke, and he seemed to look away, and said, "Now I know the answers to those things back then, and that's all."

Shen Yi looked at him with red eyes.

"I don't need your apology." Jin Yu's voice slowed down, he smiled dryly at Shen Yi, and said, "Actually... think about it carefully, you have nothing to do to me."

"...Little boy...I..." Shen Yi was about to say something, but Jin Yu opened his mouth again: "I am not originally from the Shen family, but I became your younger brother only because I hugged you wrong. I can be in your family It has been a blessing to you to live a good life for more than ten years."

"You have taken care of me for so long. In fact, I should be grateful to you. Thank you for taking care of me like a younger brother in those years."

As Jin Yu spoke, he bent down to him and made a bowing gesture.

Shen Yi's lips trembled uncontrollably.

"Thank you for thinking about me now, and thank you for helping me find a doctor. But, it's really unnecessary. From now on, you can just treat me as a stranger, and you don't have to bother about me, thank you."

After Jin Yu finished speaking, he pushed Li Ye away and went out.

Li Ye didn't dare to stop him at this moment, he looked at Shen Yi with the end of the world on his face.