crown of thorns

The author has something to say: double update today.Let me go and cry for a while...

I charge you, if you meet my beloved, tell him that I am sick with love.

……………………………………………………——The Bible Old Testament Song of Solomon

At that time, I mourned day and night on the shore of the Red Sea. My short but beautiful black hair turned gray overnight.Because my pain is so great that even angels have gray hair.It's just that I have a pure body, so I can't grow black and white hair, so I can only change from black to gray, that's all.

By the time the third day fell into the night, I had no strength left to cry.I had a premonition that I was going to die, so I put away my tears and prayed to myself.Because now I don't know anyone else I can trust except myself.

May I lose my breath and die in the ground.

I pray this to myself.

At this time, someone handed me a handkerchief.

This handkerchief is made of silk, but at that time, human beings did not know how to weave silk, so my eyes were dim, no matter how much it was.Maybe I cried too much and felt very uncomfortable, so I didn't care about the reason for this handkerchief and wiped away my tears.

I turned to the owner of the handkerchief, an extremely ugly old woman. She saw that after I finished wiping, she grabbed the handkerchief and was about to run away. Unable to resist my words, they froze there.

"Who are you?" I asked, because I suspected that she had something that was not on earth.

Suddenly she began to sob softly, and there was a whimpering sound from her mouth. As soon as I heard it, I knew that the old woman was dumb.I suddenly remembered what Lucifer had said to me earlier.

"Are you Lilith?"

The old woman stared at me with wide eyes, and suddenly knelt down on the ground with a plop. I knew what she meant even though she begged, because I was an angel. Although she couldn’t say the whole thing, I understood her plea. , she begged me not to kill her.

This mortal!Even after suffering like this, why are you still so afraid of death!

Now that I have nothing to worry about, I am determined to die.

I scolded her: "After suffering, death is the greatest resistance, because I don't give in to life, then let life be destroyed, I don't need eternal life, I don't need to live, if death can give me dignity, I would rather die, you I clearly understand how many tribulations you have experienced, but why do you need to live! Since you left heaven, you have come here for so many days. People from all over the world attack you, insult you, and expel you. Don’t you feel ashamed? Why are you still alive? Increase suffering for no reason."

Her lips trembled, her eyes were red, and she clutched the handkerchief tightly in both hands.

She sat on the ground with a plop, and I seemed to hear the voice of a dying old man full of vicissitudes:

"Because it's love. This handkerchief was the only gift Lucifer gave me back then. As long as I have it on me, I don't want to die. Why don't I want to die? I have been slandered, persecuted, and attacked by countless people. I want to die for the second time, but every time I see this handkerchief, I am satisfied, no matter how much suffering falls on me, I am not afraid. I just want to die in front of Lucifer, who is my waste The only light in my life, although I have never really been with him, I still love him."

At that time, he was described as so handsome, with such an elegant posture.He said to me, you are the only human being I fancy, although your appearance is really ugly compared to angels, but you have humanity, which is the most precious source of life.Although you will die, everything about you will live forever.Although an angel does not die, it is no different from death.

Lucifer told me these things with his eyes, although he squeezed his lips tightly and seemed unwilling to speak.

I am willing to be with you, whether the days are happy or sad.

If you cry in the future, use this handkerchief to wipe away your tears, I don't want to see you cry.

Therefore, no matter how much I suffer, I will wipe away my tears with this handkerchief, and I am still alive.I know that I am hated by the Lord, because I should not be in love with angels, I must die, but my torture is not enough.

Why should it be enough?Let the torture be more!I swear, if I want to die, I will die in front of Lucifer's eyes. This is my last wish.

I was angry, and I scolded Lilith: "Don't you know that your love is controlled by others? You thought you fell in love with Lucifer, but you didn't."

"Is the mind really that easy to be manipulated?" The old woman suddenly smiled and said, "Maybe the Lord is omnipotent, but I think Lucifer and I were indeed in love with each other back then."

"I do not believe."

"Angel! You were born after I left. Maybe you can't understand. If the Lord already knew that I wanted to fall in love with Lucifer, why did he create me? Why did he have to be so angry? Before I met him, He could just let me die."

Because he didn't expect it, he was very angry.

"Maybe." I felt so tired and sat on the ground, "For you humans, this is possible. But for angels, this is inevitable. I am troubled and painful by love, because I know that my love, it turns out Just a dream."

Lilith was sitting next to me: "I see that you have been crying for a long time, you are crying here, is there anything sad?"

I said slightly: "There are too many sad things, the most painful of which is that I no longer believe in love, because it is the product of manipulation."

"Are you in love with humans?"

I shook my head.

"You love an angel?"

I am noncommittal.

"No matter how much you love each other, even all of this is manipulated by others. However, as long as you love each other, isn't this intention sincere?" Lilith thought slowly, she knew that as an angel, I could hear the voice in her heart , even if she can no longer speak.

I was silent.Maybe it was what she said, or maybe it wasn't.

"No matter what, the road ahead is long, and there is no greater sorrow in the world than me, but I still insist on living. You describe me as beautiful, why should I be sad about it? I am thirsty for river water and hungry for grass. I stole and ate the lamb sacrificed by the people, and people in many places chased and killed me, because I ate the food dedicated to the Lord, but I didn’t care about it.”

I suddenly felt that she was extremely brave. Even if I was like me, until today, I just wanted to die blindly. However, she survived by relying on such persistence, but she is just a mortal.

She endured disasters, diseases, persecution, and slander.The scorching sun in the sky and the wind and frost on the ground are all things that make her suffer.However, even though she was unclean, smelly and lonely, she still survived.

"I ask you one thing. This foot is always pus and painful. If my feet are disabled, I will not be able to escape people's pursuit in the future. I beg you to give me some herbs that can cure foot diseases and make my feet heal. It doesn’t matter if I have diseases everywhere on my body, but my feet must not be sick, otherwise I will die.” She begged me with her heart in this way, and I saw that her feet were full of foot gas and mixed with various kinds of skin sores, so I used I scooped up some water from the Red Sea, and I cleansed and blessed the water, and dripped the water on her feet, and her feet were as clean as ever, free from disease.I wanted to treat her illnesses at the same time, but she refused, because it was God’s will that she got sick, and if I was completely cured, it would have something to do with me.She doesn't want to bother me.

However, for the cure of her foot disease, she still shed tears of gratitude and blessed me, saying: "Angel, although I don't know your name, I know that you are a kind and lovely person. Your love must be true and reliable. May you be safe." The only blessing Lilith ever gave was this.

I caressed her dirty back. Countless sufferings had made her skinny, and her two eyeballs were deeply sunken.The breath on her body is already quite weak.

Suddenly, a group of people holding torches came from a distance, and they whispered, "Where did you go, that witch, she was still around here just now."

"There is light over there!" Someone pointed to the shore.

"Damn old witch, see if I don't kill you!" The angry crowd raised stones and hit them here.

I spread my wings and wanted to hug Lilith and let her hide under my wings, but she refused to do so: Angel, this is the suffering I deserve, I have to get out of here, thank you for treating my feet sick.

As she got older, she couldn't run fast. When people approached, I stood up and scolded: "Who is it that wants to do ridiculous things in front of me?"

When everyone saw an angel standing by the seashore, they were frightened and threw stones and fell to the ground. I rebuked them and said, "This woman is not a witch. She is the sister of Eve, the mother of all of you. You should always respect her and love her." she."

Lilith cried when she heard this: Angel, angel, if you say this, the Lord will blame you for deceiving mankind.

I ignored her thoughts: "She has lost the ability to speak, and you speculate that she is a witch. This is disrespectful to me. If you don't escort her back, then I will curse you."

All the people were terrified and trembling when they heard this, and the leader said, "Because she ate the sacrifices offered to the Lord, we thought this woman was a witch."

"Is the LORD a God who does not know how to be merciful? You persecute her wantonly, and all the people of the earth hide from her face. She is old and weak, unable to cultivate, and has nothing to eat, so she eats the sacrifice of the LORD. Is this not Are you guilty? Do you want to blame her?"

I know, Lilith was very moved by my words, she knelt down and begged me: Angel, I am old and weak, and I can’t speak, I don’t know what else I can do for you, I just want to spend the rest of my life, pray You are so honored in the sight of the Lord that you will not stumble.Please tell me your name.

I did not respond to Lilith, but asked these people to send Lilith back and give her accommodation, housing, food, clothing, and treatment.

These people are ardently committed.But at this time, a hole was opened in the night, and a beam of extremely bright light shone down. Everyone knelt down and knelt down, not daring to raise their heads, and within this light, Lucifer's figure appeared.

"Lucifer?!" I seemed surprised, and seemed to have expected this level.

Lilith was kneeling on the ground, but when she saw Lucifer's appearance, she was stunned. In an instant, the sorrow and pain in her life were left behind by her, and her tears were like the water of the Nile, which lasted for a long time. interest.

"Lilith." Lucifer's description was full of kindness.

"Lu-xi-fa." Lilith suddenly shouted these three words with all her strength.She was originally a mute girl, and it took so much effort to pronounce these three words, but she shouted them out recklessly, clearly and movingly.Lilith was old and frail, and she staggered towards Him and Lucifer. Her feet were staggering and she couldn't walk in a straight line, but I knew that at this moment, she was the happiest person in the world.

Her body was in severe pain, because God forbids her to get close to Lucifer, but this pain is insignificant compared to the thousands of years of missing, Lucifer opened his arms, Lilith's face began to turn red, and her hair Gradually blackened from white hair, the dirty and aging body gradually filled with blood.

The moment she threw herself into Lucifer's arms, she became the beautiful woman she was then, that was Lilith.

"Lucifer, I love you."

Lucifer placed a light kiss on her forehead.A tear rolled down Lilith's cheek. She turned to look at me and smiled. "Raziel. Thank you."

Lying in Lucifer's arms, she said softly:

"Now my life is full. May those who love me and those who hate me be safe. My Lord, my King, is my beloved light." Lilith closed her eyes, died of breathlessness.