The world's most heartbreaking crush

The light beams spread and gather, and the colorful fluorescent sticks are waving, adding various fluorescent colors to the darkness.

Yu Yang said hello to the students under the stage, and then bowed deeply.

There were waves of applause and cheers, and the atmosphere of the audience was very warm.

Accompanied by the fading applause and fading lights on the stage, Yu Yang turned his back and walked through the night to the piano opposite the band.The butterfly bones on her bare back trembled slightly, but her slender neck was proudly held high, like a black swan in the dark night, noble and elegant.

Bian Li licked her lips, she had no time to withdraw her warm eyes and met Yu Yang accurately.

There was a smile in the woman's eyes, alluring, she hurriedly lowered her head, not daring to look at such an alluring Yu Yang.

Bian Li squeezed the bow tightly with her fingers, repeatedly telling herself to calm down.She adjusted her breathing, and after a while, her throbbing heart finally returned to silence.

Bian Li closed her eyes lightly, letting her whole heart float in the melodious and slightly gloomy music.

At this moment, she has also become Chi Lei, a melancholy Chi Lei who lost her lover and stepped into the embrace of the blue sea step by step.

Bian Li remembered the letter that "Chi Lei" wrote to "Feng Kou". At that time, Yu Yang wrote a full three-page letter while drinking wine and crying.Wine mixed with salty tears fell on the letter paper like a poppy in bloom.

——Isn’t this kind of love that is not recognized by the world, hated by parents, and that crosses the line but makes people addicted repeatedly? Isn’t it just like poppy?

Chi Lei said in the letter:

Feng Kou, your figure jumping off the school roof is too much like a butterfly with half of its wings folded, and also like a dead leaf.Suddenly, the already dry life was completely shattered at the last moment.

It even took away a broken heart of mine.But you can wait until I make a lot of money to fulfill those desires that I talked about repeatedly in high school.

When we were in school, we always quarreled. You always said that I was too unambitious, and I didn’t have the slightest courage to deal with life... After graduation, I even got into fights because of the idea of ​​polarization.This love seems to have nothing to pin on.

The fish tank we bought out of college after graduation was broken in a quarrel.

——That was our only trip and the only souvenir we bought.

The sound of glass falling to the ground is very similar to the sound of our love shattering.

Whether the relationship maintained by love is too fragile, I always wonder.

But you didn't even give me a little time to react, I didn't even have time to feel regret in this relationship, pain replaced all reactions and overwhelmed me.

I often think, if only I didn't know you in the summer when I was 16 years old.

That would be great, we will be like two two-way lines, never crossing the end.You will always belong to Feng Kou, a gentle southern girl, and I will always be Chi Lei, a wild boy in a small town.

……

Bian Li suddenly pressed a wrong note, she thought, fortunately, she and Yu Yang are two people, one is neither Feng Kou nor Chi Lei, the trajectories of the two are winding and intertwined, and she is also very young , very courageous, their future is far away.

She still has a long time to grow into the appearance Yu Yang likes, and she also has many opportunities to understand Yu Yang's thoughts, and she can rely on various choices in life to keep Yu Yang by her side.

There are too many forks in life, she can choose the shortest one to stand beside Yu Yang.

Bian Li's brows and eyes are silent, and her long golden hair makes her extra soft and warm, like the warm sun rising in winter, even in the darkness, she is the most dazzling existence even sitting behind the piano Yu Yang couldn't help but keep looking at her frequently.

The piano version of "Mercury" is adapted into a piano version, and the emotion contained in it is as gentle and restrained as flowing water, with a touch of sadness, but it gently touches people's hearts.

The music is melodious, and the moonlight outside is also quietly flowing.Bian Li bit the tip of her tongue, and the pain burst out in her cerebral cortex. She pulled out of the emotions bound by the vines, and her voice was perfect.

The students below were silent for a moment, applauding especially enthusiastically.

The same-sex film "Tropical Fish", which was not favored at the beginning, has become a classic in this age that has advanced a lot.

It was a very literary film, the change of light and shadow marked the flowing and sublimated ambiguity between the two heroines, the emotions between the same sex are both taboo and exciting, and similarly, there is also an indescribable youthfulness in the student days. Astringent and throbbing.

——Just a restrained kiss made the witnesses hold their breath, and their hearts also twitched and ached.

The film is already a classic, and although the 3-minute erotic-desire scene is quite topical, people are more willing to focus on the editing and the acting skills of the actors.

Although the film won awards abroad, it was a pity that it was taken off the shelves in China at that time, and even became a banned film, resulting in a lack of discussion.

Until today, it was repeatedly used by many film critics, and they have seen Yu Yang's talent from it——

The hysterical lines and ferocious expressions did not damage her beauty, and the broken and fragile beauty made the audience feel a desire to care for her.She was not born in a major, as if she was born to be an actor. Although Chi Lei was her first role on the screen, she became a classic.

But it's a pity that the road became narrower and narrower because of her, and now Yu Yang completely lost the unrestrained spirit and vigor in Chi Lei's eyes.

"I feel a pity for a Chi Lei whose sharp corners have been smoothed out, and a smooth Chi Lei." Someone said so.

Everyone sighed, but everyone wished they could step on it.

……

Closing call.

Yu Yang made a move that surprised everyone, she walked out from behind the piano, walked into the darkness in the corner, and took Bian Li's hand.

——She still has the courage to fight against the world.

The cheers of the boys in the audience became unexpectedly loud, and some even whistled.

Yu Yang didn't want to confess.She said: "After the release of "Tropical Fish" the response was overwhelming, but I have always had deep regrets about one scene. Now that I am back in high school, I am very eager to make up for the regret that the scene could not be filmed."

Wen Rui stood under the stage, smiling kindly.Yu Yang, has always been the willful, immature child in her eyes, never changed.

In the movie, in the third year of high school, Chi Lei and Feng Kou, just like now, performed a performance on the school's small stage.

After the curtain call, the two jumped off the high platform, walked hand in hand among countless students, ran past several teaching buildings in three and a half minutes, and stood panting heavily in the middle of the playground, smiling at each other.

They kissed in the pouring rain, to the sound of their hearts beating like drums.

According to film critics’ guesses, the reasons why the film failed to film this scene at that time were: first, not so many students could be invited to perform as a group;

Yu Yang took off his high heels, pulled up the hem of his skirt, took Bian Li's hand and jumped off the stage.This seems to overlap with Chi Lei from many years ago, but the mood is quite different.

At that time, it was sour with a little bit of pain, but now it is completely free and easy.Yu Yang smiled wide-eyed.

The students were also excited, and even raised their arms in greeting. Over-pitched whistles and fierce shouts hovered over the entire gymnasium, but when Yu Yang led Bian Li to run, everyone gave way one after another, enough to Accommodates two people.

Of course it wasn't raining outside, the moonlight was clear and clear, Yu Yang stopped when she stepped out of the hall, she took a breath and smiled wantonly.

The girl next to her grabbed her wrist tightly, like a drowning person holding tightly to an orange life jacket.

Bian Li's eyes were illuminated by the moonlight, "Yu Yang." The sudden helplessness in her heart almost made her feel like she was dying.

——This feeling, Yu Yang, who is at the other end of the emotional scale, actually gave her some illusory illusions that she couldn't grasp.

"In this way, will you be happy?" Bian Li's voice was very soft, and the sentence was broken by the wind without any attachment.

Yu Yang smiled, her long hair was disheveled by the night wind, her normal side face was immersed in the darkness, "I'm not Chi Lei, I feel happier now than ever before. It's been a long time since I've tried to be so courageous thing."

"Thank you, Bian Li." Yu Yang turned his face sideways, looked into the girl's eyes, and said seriously.

Bian Li rubbed her long golden hair, the brilliant color didn't look dull even in the dark night, it still brightly illuminated Yu Yang's heart.

"I'm not Feng Kou either." She said.

"Of course, you're not." Yu Yang said, and then added, "You're also not Chi Lei."

— so our story will be better than theirs.There are countless possibilities and gaps in our stories for us to fill in and paint over.

The next day, that is, the second day after the party ended, there was an uproar in the school's forum.

A post titled "Bian Li's Homosexuality" received countless replies, and it was on the top of the forum for more than nine hours.From one o'clock in the middle of the night until ten o'clock in the morning - until the moment He Feifei saw the post.

The title is simple and rude, and the central content is highlighted in just five characters.

A photo is attached at the beginning of the chapter—a back view of the two holding hands.Bian Li could tell at a glance that it was Yu Yang and herself.

The post is full of hundreds of words, starting with last year's incident, and sensationalizing: [Everyone should have heard of Bian Li from the second class of the third year of high school, and there were constant scandals with Zheng Xiqiao in the second year of high school.

Bian Xinghai doesn't value her and doesn't treat her as a daughter. I think a big reason is her mother Liang Jin.Liang Jin climbed to the high branch of Bian's family by virtue of her beauty, but couldn't bear the loneliness, and got involved with the owner of the piano shop in the town, so Bian Xinghai naturally didn't want to see her.

Bian Li fights, smokes, swears, skips classes, and has all the bad habits of bad students. Now she is deviant and embarks on the road of "homosexuality", and talks about forbidden love with actor Yu Yang.

By the way, Yu Yang is the actor who plays Chi Lei in "Tropical Fish".

It's hard to say why Bian Li developed a love relationship with the other party out of what psychology.

A daughter who has fallen out of favor and a past actor, the transaction relationship between body and money is self-evident.

The reason why I wrote this post is very simple, I don't want to stain our school.Yu Yang was once a heavy stain on our school, and I don't want to see Bian Li tarnish the school's innocence. ]

The comments in the front row below echoed like headless chickens:

— Shameless homosexuality.No wonder, it's exactly the same as her cheating mother.

——Let me just say, she looks coquettish, Zheng Xiqiao really gave her face when she saw her.

……

Bian Li let out a foul breath and continued to look down.

——It’s 2020, and there are still people who discriminate against sexual orientation?The coffin board was lifted?Don't post such nonsense in the school forum!

—— Zheng Xiqiao's father is in jail, and there are still people who speak up for him, is the post master stupid?

——As far as I know, isn’t Liang Jin a famous pianist? ?The authenticity of this post needs to be verified!

It is still a discerning person, and those who follow the post are basically scolding the whistleblower.But Bian Li was still unhappy, those dark pasts that she didn't want to mention were exposed naked like this, she seemed to be stripped naked and stood in front of people, and was commented on indiscriminately.

Such a metaphor is really rude, but it fits Bian Li's state of mind very well.

He Feifei called and asked, "What are you going to do? How about I find someone to delete the post—"

Bian Li said, "No need, I know who did it."

Bian Li hung up the phone and suddenly thought, maybe what Yu Yang said was really right.

——Sometimes you just stand at a certain height, and you will attract countless eyes. There is no lack of envy in the envy, and there is no lack of contempt in the contempt.

Bian Li felt that a direct positive response was more effective than deleting a post.

She needs to write a clarification post to refute it as soon as possible, otherwise it will be too late when this post goes out of the school forum, spreads on Weibo, and even affects Yu Yang's career.

But she bit her thumb and suddenly didn't know what to do.Afraid of writing a wrong sentence, it will lead to unpredictable consequences.

In a daze, he let go of his hand, and the phone fell to the ground, and the sound of hitting the plush blanket became softer.Bian Li didn't bother to pick it up, but unexpectedly it kept buzzing.

She bent down to fish it, and said without looking at it, "He Feifei, leave it to me. It's fine."

The woman on the other side gave a suspicious voice, and then explained in a soft voice, "It's me, Yu Yang."

Bian Li was stunned for a few seconds, and quickly replied: "Sister, how are you?"

Yu Yang: "I saw the post on the school forum. My agent called me seven or eight times in the early morning." She said with some distress, "I'm sorry for my outrageous behavior last night. It's causing you so much trouble."

"Bian Li, if it's inconvenient for you, I can take the lead in speaking."

"No need," Bian Li tapped the phone with her fingertips, "You know, I won't let you stand in front... Don't say anything, just hang up."

Pressing the tip of Bian Li's tongue against the palate, she opened the forum, and the content following that post still praised her and Yu Yang for being sweet.

Really, quite ridiculous...

"Brother, I want to lend you a favor." Bian Li thought for a while, and called her brother Bian Chi anyway.

"Lend me, lend me this person?" Bian Chi smiled, "Will you pay it back in the future?"

"Yes." Bian Li said, "I need you to help me clarify one thing. Through your means, let everyone in the school see the facts before public opinion ferments."

"Actually, Bian Li, even if you don't ask me, I will take the initiative to help you." Bian Chi paused, and quickly said, "You are my sister."

"No, I owe you this. Brother, I will send the manuscript to you when it is finished."

……

That afternoon, things calmed down just in time.A flood of clarifications and a video was released to replace the unclear post.

In a short essay of only [-] characters, Bian Li explained her life experience clearly, and mentioned Liang Jin's ambiguous love affair in just a few words.

She pointed out that since Bian Xinghai had never fulfilled his responsibilities as a father and husband, she and her mother Liang Jin and Bian Xinghai could only be regarded as having a legal relationship.

Liang Jin and Bian Xinghai played their own games.

She also laughed at the person who posted the post for being too shallow and underdeveloped.

The relationship between her and Yu Yang is also very innocent.Artists under her own company are in trouble, why can't she help?She is the daughter of the Bian family, so she can do whatever she wants, even if Bian Xinghai doesn't spoil her, she still can't get rid of her identity.

Viewers were shocked by her frankness and boldness. The post implicitly mentioned the filth and smell of the upper class. Bian Li praised Yu Yang as a clean and holy gardenia. She doesn't like to make friends with people in the circle, but she is willing to Talk to Yu Yang about friends.Yu Yang is beautiful and smart, why can't she like him.

——The kind of liking out of "appreciation".

In the end, Bian was willing to provide resources to Yu Yang.

Bian Chi glanced at the clarification article and found it unpleasant.

"You haven't spoken for me like this before... Before we went to the street together, I drove you by bicycle, but you fell into the mud and rolled all over your body. When you got home, you watched me being beaten by my grandpa. The old man spanked," he gave Bian Li a sideways look, and complained, "You're still laughing."

"Delete the last sentence," he discussed, "I didn't say to cover Yu Yang."

"But," Bian Li smiled and shook his head, "Brother, you promised me that you will lend me your whole body for a day today. The power behind you, the company has to be mine at present."

"Little brat," Bian Chi said helplessly, rubbing the other person's hair, "Your brother was tricked..."

Bian Li just smiled.

The wind direction was quickly corrected.Meng Xiaomeng kicked the dead computer in front of her feet, and the interface was stuck at 28 seconds into the video.The video is an interview with the director of "Tropical Fish". He pointed out that it is a pity that a scene between Chi Lei and Feng Kou was not filmed.Then he changed the subject and began to praise Yu Yang's explosive acting skills.

Meng Xiaomeng spat, and a chill suddenly rose in her heart.Bian Li's family is clear, so she naturally knows that she must have done those things.

She didn't expect Bian Li to choose to fight back. She thought that the other party would block the post or threaten to delete it in private.But wonder why Bian Li takes Yu Yang so seriously?When clarifying, I have to pull someone to help, obviously I am too busy to take care of myself.

Meng Xiaomeng gritted her teeth and thought, anyway, she has already reached this point.If you don't bring Hu Tian and Zheng Xiqiao in, it's really boring.

Zheng Xiqiao sent a text message yesterday to blackmail her, and if she didn't give out 20 yuan, she posted her photo on the forum.Meng Xiaomeng smashed down the table, her eyes were dark and fierce, if he wanted to kill himself, then don't blame her for being cruel and merciless for killing someone with a knife.

She immediately sent a text message to Zheng Xiqiao:

[If you want 20, come and get it yourself.At seven o'clock this Saturday night, I will wait for you at the hotel on Kangbu Street]

They used to go to that hotel on Kangbu Street. Who would have thought that Zheng Xiqiao, a scumbag who pretended to be affectionate on the surface, actually installed a camera in the room to threaten her.

Meng Xiaomeng sneered, this time, he must pay the price.

The computer finally stopped freezing, and the video on the screen had finished playing. Meng Xiaomeng scrolled down to the post to read the comments.

She felt that Bian Li's words were still quite controversial, with a bit of arrogant arrogance.

——The child of the Bian family has the capital to be proud.But she really hates whether a person's fate is decided at birth.

The comments under the post hurt Meng Xiaomeng's eyes even more——

"Birth is not something we can choose, and we can't even interfere with the acquired environment. But the direction of a person's growth can be controlled by ourselves.

Bian Li didn't feel superior to others because of her status as the daughter of the Bian family. She didn't ride in luxury cars or wear fancy clothes.

If it weren't for his pretty face, he might not have attracted Zheng Xiqiao's attention.

But I'm quite sorry, since Bian Li has the ability and power behind her, why didn't she teach Zheng Xiqiao a lesson, since the words in this explanation reveal a kind of tough calm between the lines.

She had to do it earlier, so that Zheng Xiqiao wouldn't hurt too many female students. "

School forums can be anonymous or real-named.The word "Lin Mu" was written carelessly on the reviewer's information.Meng Xiaomeng's eyes turned red, and anger formed in his chest.

Lin Mu's words seemed neither yin nor yang, and she didn't know whether they were too weak before praising Bianli or being sarcastic, but she could clearly read from them that Lin Mu thought they were "dirty".

Many people had transactions with Zheng Xiqiao, nothing more than exchanging flesh and blood for money.Bian Li saw it thoroughly and never paid attention to it.She watched with cold eyes.

Lin Mu, what does this mean?Do you think they are dirty?

That's right, his brother-in-law is aloof, what do you know?If you really understand, why didn't he stop Zheng Xiqiao by himself.At this time, it makes sense to pretend to be high?

I'm afraid I hid under the covers one night and watched the video shared by Zheng Xiqiao.

The corners of Meng Xiaomeng's mouth widened.

She laughed so hard that she almost burst into tears, people's hearts are always the most unpredictable in the world, and only money can't lie, she should have understood.

At eight o'clock in the evening, the rumors caused by the post had died down. To the onlookers, it might be like throwing a pebble into a large lake, but to Bian Li, it was like throwing a small stone into the lake. Mountains razed to the ground—

She can finally face up to the complex emotions in her heart about her mother Liang Jin.

Is there any hate?There is, and so is love.

Liang Jin didn't give her much maternal love, sometimes she would even look at her and Bian Chi with mocking and merciless indifference from Bian Xinghai.

But when I was young, when my family was not rich—the combination of two people was not favored by the two families, so the whole family moved to a small town to develop when they were in Bianli Primary School. At that time, the whole family lived happily.

The small town is a turning point in Bianli's life.

There are inevitable ups and downs in life, and Bian Li has long been aware of them.But what she was worried about was that the last gift her mother gave her, which was the first official birthday gift she got, had something to do with that man.

Bian Li hated this woman, her life was at the end, why couldn't she give herself and Bian Chi more love?

In her heart, is unrestrained love more important than anything else?Can you even abandon your family and disregard morality for it?

The violin was destroyed, which actually cut off the last link between her and Liang Jin. Bian Li felt relieved and completely relieved.

Meng Xiaomeng sent her a WeChat message, explaining that her excessive behavior was threatened and instigated by Zheng Xiqiao.Meng Xiaomeng burst into tears in the next few speeches, apologizing sincerely and sincerely repenting.

Bian Li pressed her browbones, laughing until her abdominal muscles throbbed.

This man is ridiculous and stupid without knowing it.Do you think that a few words will convince people of this ridiculous lie?

Bian Li tapped the table with her fingertips, sent a "yes", and said, where is Zheng Xiqiao?She had to give someone a hard time.

Meng Xiaomeng kindly told her the location of the hotel and the appointed time.

Bian Li pressed the corners of her lips and smiled softly, as if thinking of something particularly funny.

She borrowed a few bodyguards from Bian Chi, saying they would use them on Saturday.Bian Chi didn't ask, and ordered a few people to deliver to Bian Li.

Here, Yu Yang's manager, Jin Ou, pressed his thumping temples and said, "Okay, Yu Yang? You've finished everything you wanted to do, so you don't have to go out and stay at home for half a month." Have you memorized the script well?"

Jin Ou paced back and forth, staring at Yu Yang, who was paralyzed on the sofa and pretended to be dead, "I'm going to join the group soon, Yu Yang, can you be sober, thankfully I didn't post what happened last night on Weibo, it's just a group Small fights among students."

"Although you are already confused enough, I can't bear to see you being labeled as a homosexual before falling into the abyss?" She said mercilessly.

"Yu Yang, did you hear that?" Jin Ou lightly kicked his wandering artist.

"Ah," Yu Yang glanced up at her, then said slowly, "Got it."

"The Valley Knife will probably take a year to shoot, right?" Yu Yang asked.

Will the little girl cry if she can't see her... Thinking of this, the woman's brows and eyes stretched, and her heart softened.

Jin Ou nodded, "You chose the script and the route yourself, give me some energy to make it ok?"

"I don't know what to be happy about." She muttered.

It was also a big gamble for Yu Yang to make this movie. She put all her savings for many years into "The Valley Knife". Apart from that, she didn't even ask for a salary.And she signed a 16-year contract with Huatian Media, 16 years spanning the best acting years of an actress, which is equivalent to selling her body.

And the liquidated damages are as high as 6000 million, which is staggering.

Jin Ou laughed that this person was really stupid, but Yu Yang was drinking, tears glistened in his eyes, he had nowhere to go at that time, and he couldn't afford to pay the hospitalization fee that was half a month in arrears, if Huatian Media hadn't pulled her Give it a shot, or no one would know where he is now.

And the luckiest thing for her was to meet such a good partner and guide as Jin Ou during that time.

So even though the two seem to be at odds, they actually have a good relationship.

Jin Ou went to the entrance and changed his shoes, his hands were already on the doorknob, he suddenly turned his head and said to Yu Yang, "You have fallen into a lot of emotional pits, this time, use your big eyes to see clearly... …don’t be the same as before.”

I don't know if Yu Yang heard it or not, she held up the glass, the wine liquid in it glowed with a clear and charming luster under the light, her lips were also stained with wine liquid, charming and breathtaking, like a fairy in the dark night .

Jin Ou looked at it for a while, sighed, and felt that sooner or later he would be out of breath, so he simply locked the door and left.

Yu Yang was half drunk, lying on the table with a blushing face, and called Bian Li with his remaining consciousness.

"I've dragged you down." On the other end of the phone, the woman said in a low voice.

"No." Bian Li said as calmly as possible.Yu Yang's charming and hoarse voice is tantalizing, almost tempting to foul.

"There it is!" Yu Yang, who was drunk, began to play tricks.

Bian Li moved her ears, and the earlobe seemed to be hot from the other party's soft ending, and she asked in a low voice, "Are you drunk?"

Yu Yang didn't answer this, and asked repeatedly: "Don't worry about other people's words. Don't be unhappy, or I will be unhappy too. Yesterday, I should have dragged you to the playground, alas, I regret it a little now." She spoke without beginning or end, but Bian Li understood.

The girl suppressed her bullying breath, and asked softly: "Run to the playground, and then what? Will we hug each other tightly like Feng Kou and Chi Lei, and then kiss?" When he said the word kiss, Bian Li's voice It suddenly became dumb, and it was as silent as an ambiguous murmur between lovers.

Yu Yang hugged the pillow in his arms tightly, lying on the sofa in a presumptuous posture, and said with a smile, "Didn't I say it all, I'm not Chi Lei, you're not like Feng Kou, we won't be like them..."

Bian Li's hot heart suddenly turned cold, she put the microphone away, and asked: "Then... Senior sister, what do you mean by calling me? Is it just to ask me how I am today, or do you want to thank me? "

"No. It's not Bian Li." Yu Yang's breathing was very gentle, like a warm spring breeze blowing on Bian Li's ears, making her heart fluctuate as if soaked in warm water.

There was the sound of Yu Yang turning over, and Bian Li could even imagine her shaking her big fluffy tail like a fox.

"I just want to chat with you, but you don't seem to want to. If you don't want to, just hang up, this time let me wait for you to hang up—"

"Senior sister, can I come to you?" Bian Li couldn't help interrupting her words that seemed to be talking to herself.

"Huh?" Yu Yang seemed to laugh, "Do you want to come?"

"I thought about it." Bian Li licked her lips, her heart trembling.

"That's fine." Yu Yang squeezed the corner of the pillow, feeling drunk, she said slowly, "I'll be waiting for you."

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