Water lanterns and dreams in 1 nights

The people swept in, the mist was blown away in an instant, the sun briefly appeared, the branches nearby were shaking and dancing in the biting wind as if alive, everything around became extremely bright, so bright that it brought With a sense of memory.At this moment, I realized that I was dreaming. This paragraph is only about the memory of the day Jin Dongshu gave me the watch.At that time, she was injured in an undercover investigation and had just been discharged from the hospital to go to work.

November 11 now

I swayed, woke up from sleep, I was still sitting in the chair, Elo was leaning on the kitchen door with those familiar headphones on, watching me, holding a hot dog in his hand.I pressed my sore temple, "When did you come back?"

"While you're sound asleep," Elo said, chewing on a hot dog.

"Is the watch fixed?"

Elo looked at me cautiously, and wiped off the salad dressing on the corner of his mouth with his fingers, "Honey, are you sure it wasn't a gift from someone else?"

"Nonsense," I said, "I bought it myself and got used to it."

Elo finished the rest of the food in two or three bites, and smiled, "That's good, otherwise I'll be jealous."

"So, how?"

"It's not easy to fix," Elo said. "There's a part that's out of stock. It has to be ordered from the factory. It's going to take two or three days."

"Okay then." Anyway, I just wanted to give the watch away.I've been stuck here for so long, if Jin Dongshu is still alive, she will definitely come to find me, if not, either the signal here is bad, or Ello has tampered with it.Seeing that his performance is not like the latter, otherwise he probably won't agree to my request.

"Corpse, how did you deal with it?"

"Stones, in the sea." Elo briefly described, "Are you hungry?"

"I don't eat raw." I said wearily, "Humans have a history of learning how to use fire."

"Okay," he said, offering me a salmon sushi.

"The rice is cooked." He told me hypocritically.

Better than nothing.It's just that I can't figure it out, "Why do you have to make me eat this kind of thing?"

"Honey, raw food helps you stay wild and not get too assimilated by the 'civilized people' out there."

His words inexplicably coincided with Jin Dongshu's in the dream.Kind of makes sense, I gotta say.But very torturous.

When I was almost finished eating, he put the earphones on my ears mysteriously, saying that there was a surprise.Sometimes he was childish like a teenager, and I was ready to hear him screaming from a thriller, or music full of desperate wailing that I would never appreciate, but there were only vague clips of two people arguing.A man and a woman, hysterically accusing each other of their negligence and absence, not being by their side at important moments.

"what is this?"

"Listen again."

The vague voice became clear, the dispute seemed to be happening beside me, and the ominous voice was surprisingly familiar.

The man's weary voice declared lifelessly, "I don't think we'll ever be together."

Then came the woman's sharp, cold voice: "You must talk to me about this at this time, our child is still missing."

"Listen, I want to find him as soon as possible, too. It's just times like this when we don't have to torture each other."

"We have tortured each other for decades, and we have never heard you say this before. In the end, it is because of a woman who gave you the courage to show me. Otherwise, you are such a waste, and it will take another 30 years And I only dare to engage in dewy love in a sneaky way."

"Yes," the man said, "there is such a woman. I love you, but falling in love with her is a completely different emotion than loving you. She makes me feel special."

"Is she the one who made you feel like you're finally a man?" the woman said contemptuously, "With your salary, can you afford another woman? You want to live with her, go ahead, I swear you will Make you pay the price."

"We don't need to be so stiff, you know I'll still love—"

"Shut up," the woman interrupted sharply, "put away your flamboyant rhetoric. I've been in charge of your expenses, your life for so many years, and you put my dignity on the line for a new bitch If you step on the ground, don't want to feel better."

I took off my earphones, unwilling to listen again. "You bugged my parents' house."

Elo put his arms around my shoulders and asked back with a smile, "Is this what you call a happy life?"

"That's their and our business, it has nothing to do with you."

"Don't be so repulsive." Elo gently rubbed my tense shoulders, "Look, you haven't got a shadow yet, they only care about themselves and make a noise like that. Although I have no experience, I know That's not what family should do."

"Don't get involved."

"What if I'm already in it? Remember the puzzle I asked you to solve?"

The word "lover" flashed in my mind, and at this moment, I felt something inexplicably, "The woman who was killed...is my father's lover."

Elo looked at me with a smile and pressed her face to my ear, "Guess what else I did?"

"Don't hurt them."

"I'm afraid I'm already doing that."

I heard my own voice dry out, "Don't do this."

"You don't need them." Elo played with my earlobe, "You said that everything was fine before you met me, but in fact, your parents were divorced, selfish and indifferent; your boss kept squeezing your surplus value; the real You only have one friend, and you often don’t see each other. Besides, you have general relationships with others, and you have no deep interest in it, so your life is dull.”

"Yes, this is me." I confessed to him, "I told you that I didn't have what you expected to see. Resentment, rebellion, your cynical tone, what the world didn't do to me, it gave me It's necessary, that's enough, and I don't want revenge."

Elo didn't seem to hear a word, and continued to explain: "This recording is not a recent event. They had a big fight, and since then your father has packed his bags and gone to the lover's house, that is, the lady we just left. .Not long after, she disappeared from your father's world, not long after your mother spoke of revenge. Who do you think he would suspect?"

I said negative words to him in my mouth, but I was not very sure in my heart.

This is not the first time my father has cheated.This was probably the time when he finally made up his mind to break with his mother.There are cracks in some homes that have existed since time immemorial, that everyone keeps secret about it, and I never mention it, but the memory lives on.When I was young, my mother took me to deliver meals to my father at work. During the lunch break, everyone went out, only my father and a female colleague stayed in the office.They talked and laughed, the father touched the cheek of the female colleague with his hand, and the woman smiled and kissed his hand.Maybe it was just flirting, which seemed harmless to my father.My mother didn't go in to disturb them. She dumped the food into the trash can and led me home with an empty thermos.That night, his mother used scissors to nail through his left hand that had been kissed by a female colleague, then pulled it out and pierced the same place on his own hand.This is what I deduced from the cold atmosphere at home the next day and the hands tied by the two people's backpacks.When I got up that morning, the house was empty and there were scarlet blood all over the ground.They never told me about it.

"Obviously your mother's image in his eyes is more ruthless. It was just a little suspicion at first, and then one day when they met, he tried his best to repair the relationship and make some remedies, so as not to make the atmosphere so rigid, although he had been The lover's disappearance made a mess. Then he saw a silver bracelet on your mother's wrist, which he bought for his lover when he was out with her, and he asked excitedly where he got it. She didn't do well He didn't want to tell him that he picked it up, because he was afraid of lowering his self-esteem, so he impatiently said that he bought it from shopping. This made him more uneasy and restless, and when he asked her lover's whereabouts, she hated her even more, so she just let him go Saying 'you'll never see that bitch again'. The two broke up."

His plans are already clear at a glance. "Let them kill each other, is this your last plan? Did it work?"

Elo nodded with a smile, as if very pleased with himself, "Honey, the same silver bracelet, the wife's hateful eyes, the torn and bloody coat left at the door, plus a picture from a letter written in his horrible wife's handwriting. postcard: You will pay the price. So he believed it and told himself what else could be done. This is the only logical reasoning. After all, a harmless lover will not get into other troubles. Apart from this, he really can't think of it There was something else that would have caused her to disappear."

"Sometimes I wonder," I said earnestly, "whether it would be a good idea to kill you."

"That's great," Elo rubbed my hair affectionately, "It's a good thing for you to have some other thoughts about me." In order to ease the atmosphere, he said that he would take the watch back the day after tomorrow.

I stopped looking at him and turned my gaze to the window, which was tightly closed by wooden boards.

61. Pierrot 20

The concept of happiness is an extremely vague thing to me.Whenever Elo asked, I always retorted that I had been happy in order to make him feel bad, even though he might not have cared at all.Every time he asked, it made me think a little more, and in the end I muttered to myself. Happy people think that life is like sugar and honey, but unlucky people say that life is like swallowing nails to satisfy hunger. The more I think about it, the more trapped I feel. Between the two ends, not knowing the way, not knowing where to go, or dying is the same blindness.

Waking, sleeping, drunk, dreaming, all empty.

Elo forced me to listen with him to the