Water lanterns and dreams in 1 nights

Tell me what I heard from the refugees who fled to Jiaqing.I never expected human life to be so cheap that it can be harvested in units of thousands.From now on, the familiar personnel and affairs will be enlightened. The artisans who walk around the streets and yell to repair ironware and ceramics are gone. The noisy children on the street and the people sitting in rocking chairs in front of the yard or enjoying the shade or sunbathing may never be seen again. The pictures in my heart can be clearly recalled one by one, as if as long as I go home, everything in the past will still exist forever, but the accident happened so suddenly.

I asked Xiuyi to inquire again and again to see if I could get more news about Qiming, preferably to find out the whereabouts of Liangzi.

I went with the show to see those refugees. Those who had relatives and friends in the local area had already gone to their relatives and friends’ homes. The rest were unaccompanied old people, women and children. They didn’t care where they were going.But even if these people escaped, all of them were physically disabled. Some lost a leg, some lost half of their stomach, and some lost their unborn and dead fetuses and wombs. Reluctantly reached a safe place due to quick wit or luck.Their gazes are uniformly numb, like a frightened bird, revealing distrust of human beings, and most of them don't even have the power of hatred, but just fear, the most natural fear from the bottom of their hearts.

I feel more and more that Liangzi may have encountered misfortune, and the only consolation is that when the enemy invades, Liangzi's snake wound will almost heal, and if he really wants to run or hide, he will act like everyone else; Thinking, how many healthy and strong people lost their lives forever in this bloodshed, let alone a woman who has no strength to protect herself.At this time, I hoped that she would not be born beautiful, because that would bring disaster to her.I want her to meet us alive, she is so afraid of being separated from me, how can she get herself into death first.

Xiuyi's complexion hadn't looked better since the day he heard the news, and his sleep quality took a turn for the worse. He often woke up in the middle of the night with a startled cry, and lay down beside me quietly. When I woke up in the morning, I saw him curled up facing me Under the quilt, her lips were pressed together uneasily, her brows were frowned, and her fists were clenched tightly, as if to fight, pray or confess.I asked him what kind of dream he had, and he kept shaking his head and responded silently.

I am determined to write an article to let everyone know what happened in Qiming. Some people may retreat, but more people will burn their integrity because of grief and anger. Patience cannot be exchanged for peace, only strength can.I can collect the testimonies of refugees, but it is not enough to make things big. I need more evidence, photos, and records of foreigners, so that they can rise to international heights and contain enemy countries in public opinion.From this point of view, whether it is public or private, once the situation is settled, enlightenment is imperative.

I have something to do in my heart, so I naturally ignore the pretense of appearance, this is the problem that Yoshiko often scolds me when she is around.When I have a goal, if others hinder me, I will not be angry, but I am more indifferent than usual, and I will ignore everyone as if I am not interested in it.In the past, Yoshiko cooperated with me with great patience and urged me to take care of the trivial matters of life, but without her, Xiuyi had nothing to do with me.

There was a hole somewhere in the hem of the blue shirt I was used to wearing, and I didn't notice it myself. Xiuyi discovered it first, and he insisted that I take it off and let him mend it. I couldn't resist, so I had to do it.He tried his best to mend it, but he was not skilled enough, the mended part looked abrupt and not very good-looking, he stared at it himself, and became more and more dissatisfied.Seeing that he was annoyed, I said casually: "It's okay if you don't mend it, the worst is to buy a new one." Xiuyi annoyed himself, and said in a low voice: "It's a pity that I can neither mend clothes nor buy a new one for you." A new dress."

Without raising my head, I said indifferently: "You are still a child, why should you care?"

Xiuyi didn’t say anything on the surface, and from that day on, she no longer just waited on me every day, and started going out occasionally, sometimes empty-handed, and came back with a full load, with the things she bought in her hand.

I originally thought he was doing odd jobs to earn money, until one day he couldn't hide his joy, pretending to be mysterious, and asked me to close my eyes and open them again when he was ready.After playing this set of tricks, I got a well-made and valuable mechanical watch as a gift. Xiuyi wanted to put it on for me personally, but I refused.

"Where did you get your money from?" I interrogated him.

Xiuyi defensively replaced his answer with a rebuttal: "I didn't hurt innocent people." But he exposed himself unintentionally.

"Who did you hurt to get the money?"

"It's not hurt." Xiuyi said, "Be happy, I gave you a good gift." He pretended to be pitiful, put his hands together to show me that he was good, "Say something nice anyway."

"Where did it come from?" I insisted.

Xiuyi closed his hands in frustration, and sighed, "I will send someone to bring the dinner, so you don't have to wait for me." After saying that, she left without looking back.The catkins all over the ground were blown up by the wind behind him.

The author has something to say:

Because the visa application was approved, I started to write passionately in the past two days out of the desire to survive. There should be relatively large changes in the first world...but it will have no effect on the subsequent plot. Comrades who have already seen it can skip it.

The good thing is that if it can be successfully signed, there will be no such frequent and long-term lock-ups in the future.Amen.Happy everyone.

32. Bad boy 18

I am boning fish.

He steamed and ate part of the sea bass bought for Xiuyi, leaving half of it.I removed the fishbone, leaving the fresh, tender and white fish inside. I put it in a celadon tea bowl and put it under the eaves. I went into the back room, and when I came out for a look after ten minutes, there was a tortoiseshell cat squatting by the pillar. , lazily licking his paws.The teacups were empty and there was not a single bit of fish left.

It was a stray cat. I fed it a few times, and then it got to know me and came to look for food occasionally.

"You came quickly." I smiled, and simply moved a chair and sat aside, with a half-read book in hand, squinting to see the willow trees outside the courtyard higher than the wall, two or three birds hidden by the whirling green leaves.

The cotton clothes have long been put away, and light clothes have been put on. Winter is followed by spring, spring is gone and summer is gone, and the days have slipped away. I have written half of the article, and the other half will be filled with evidence.

"Have you seen Xiuyi?" I asked.

The cat didn't speak, but concentrated on washing its face with its paws, and refused to talk to me, so I ignored it, just aimlessly staring at the smoke tree soaked in the crimson sunset at the sunset.

Xiuyi's frequency of leaving home is usually not too high.

Once or twice a month, one time lasts for about three days, go out at about six o'clock in the afternoon, when it is getting dark, and come back silently at eleven or two o'clock in the evening, or later, and will not ask me to leave him a special room The door, even though sometimes I forget to lock the door, he would not knock to wake me, but would rather come in through the willow wall.

I figured out Xiuyi's psychology.fear?I seldom say harsh words to him; guilt?It may have been difficult for him to define sin; shame?I doubt it very much. The reason for his evasive attitude is that it is more reasonable to choose to avoid me because he believes that I will not agree with him than the torture from the heart.

This made me a little curious, what kind of image I am in the show.From the way he treats me cautiously, it seems that he is facing a cruel, hypocritical and hard-to-serve picky ghost.From the attitude of the other party, I piece together a portrayal of myself. If he is humble, then I am arrogant;

"He's gone for a long time this time."

From five o'clock yesterday to today, Xiuyi hadn't shown up, it was the first time in several months.After combing its hair, the cat stretched itself, dexterously climbed up the fence, jumped to the roof, stepped on the tiles and walked away slowly wagging its tail.

"Maybe he's gone too," I said to myself.

Wait until tomorrow at the latest, and don't come back at nine o'clock tomorrow morning. I really have to look for him everywhere.

It was almost three o'clock in the morning that night, when Xiuyi finally came home, her hair was wet, her body was in a mess, she was exhausted, and she looked extremely hungry.I warmed up steamed buns and a bowl of leftover vegetables for him, and he still ate them with gusto, even though the steamed buns were wet with steam, the dishes didn’t look good either.

I leaned against the table and looked down at his shiny black head that was about to be buried in the bowl: "You should explain."

Xiuyi's hands were slow to pick up the rice, "You don't want to know."

"I would like to know."

He immediately changed his words, "I don't want you to know."

"Xiuichi," I said, "I didn't use a joking tone."

Xiuyi put down the bowl, "I'm just doing business. The deal is done, and we won't have to worry about expenses for a long time."

"I never worry," I pointed out, "it's just you who worry and overthink and mess up our lives yourself."

Xiuyi propped his forehead with his hands, blocking my visitation, "I apologize for making you feel uncomfortable." I saw red marks on his wrist, which were obviously strangled, and the skin was torn.

"Can I stop you?"

On the lower half of his face that was not covered, the corners of his mouth were down, showing a paranoid and uncompromising air, "You can't 'arbitrarily demand everything from other lives', I remember your words. If you have to say it, I Give my business partners respect and choice. At least act like that."

"You are putting yourself in danger for no reason."

"I don't think it's dangerous, and I don't think it's gratuitous."

"Stop." I walked around behind him, put my hands on his shoulders, lowered my head and approached him and said, "I don't need your money and your supply."