Water lanterns and dreams in 1 nights

They cannot be swept lightly into the dustpan like dust. They collide with each other under the shaking of the metal dustpan, making a crisp noise. "I'm such a fool," Xiuyi muttered in a low voice, "I actually thought that..."

"Why?" I didn't catch the second half of his sentence.

"Nothing." Xiu stood up all the time, returned the broom and dustpan to the clerk, and then returned to her seat. She didn't move a bite for the rest of the journey.

After that we stayed for another day and took Xiuyi out for a stroll, but he lacked interest, as if he had lost the good mood he had on the way forever.

Pushing forward, what was his happiest time during this trip?Maybe it was in the compartment of the train. Halfway through the journey, there were only the three of us in the small and airtight workshop. The same seat for four people, Xiuyi was in a row by himself. In the afternoon, he asked one of us to go and lie down, and he sat here. We didn't lie down because he was young, so we let him fall asleep by himself.

Xiuyi lay down obediently, with her feet facing the window, her head resting on her arms, and she opened her eyes to look at the flowing green mountains outside the window, and the dazzling and high summer sky.He looked at it, and said to Ryoko and I who were reading separately: "Clouds are melting icing."

Ryoko laughed and said he was childish. I looked up at the window, and there was only a long, special cloud track in the as-washed sky, mottled and close to solid white, as if knotted on the glass. Uniform, semi-set caster sugar.So I said, "It's pretty similar."

Xiuyi smiled and tilted her head, facing the back of the seat, closed her eyes and began to rest.He was wearing a white loose shirt, the fine fluff on his face was reflected in the sunlight, and he looked very obedient and cute all of a sudden.

Maybe it was at that moment that he got the peace of mind and peace he was looking for, so he was satisfied and went to sleep peacefully.

On the third day of the trip, the weather was calm and nothing happened.

Speaking of vacations, fun, relaxation, things like that, it steals one's vigilance and instills a hidden shame in one's heart, because the joy of idleness and doing nothing is also accompanied by guilt and an unspeakable sense of urgency , so it's hard to say whether relaxing play is actually pure joy.

Xiuyi's bad mood is different from the one described above. His mood drop is as sudden as a cliff, and you can tell at which point he completed the unhappiness transformation; or his happiness is diminishing, just At that critical point, it suddenly emerges from the surface, allowing people to read it.

But in either case, I can articulate that point.It was when Yoshiko kissed me.That's when she left a brilliant red on my lips.

25. Bad boy 11

"You" are in the deep sea.

Light cannot penetrate, darkness, dead silence, plankton suspended quietly. "You" feel cold, numb, scared, alone, and "you" know almost instinctively that these emotions are not yours.In the vast and dark bottom of the water, occasionally, strange and faint calls of creatures can be heard from extremely far away, spreading with the waves in the lifeless waters.Without fear, "you" know that "you" is the "thing" that scares them the most.The light is fleeting, and "you" wake up.

I woke up.

Facing the blank ceiling in a daze for a while, trying to recall the dream just now, but couldn't remember any sporadic ones. After stopping for a while, even the remaining feeling in the dream dissipated, leaving only a little bit of lingering rhyme, resentfully unfinished.My thoughts slipped to reality, and I gradually reflected what was happening around me.

The low-volume whispers came from the other side of the corridor one after another, like a quarrel, but not so intense.I tried to distinguish again, and found that there was almost only one person's voice chattering.It was the sound that woke me up from my dream.

Ryoko was not by my side, so I touched the quilt on her side, and it was cold to the touch, it seemed that I got up for a while.It's definitely not that I overslept, the time is only [-]:[-] in the morning, even if Yoshiko is used to getting up early, this hour is too much.

I put on my woolen coat and followed the voice.There were no lights in the corridor, and the voice of the conversation kept going, high and low, as if the speaker's mood was fluctuating greatly at this time.Getting closer, I recognized Xiuyi's voice.

I stopped at the end of the corridor close to the living room. I had no intention of eavesdropping. When he was expressing his emotions, his sudden appearance would definitely make the situation awkward. When I was about to turn back, I heard Ryoko say, "This child will be born anyway, Xiuyi .He'll be your brother or sister, and he'll be a lovely little thing."

"Uncle told me there would be no other children."

"That was a few years ago." Liangzi's voice was ethereal, with a tinge of pity, "No one can say for sure now."

I was baffled as to where the said child had come from.If it is true, it is impossible for her not to tell me in advance, but to tell Xiuyi first.

"I wanted to give him a surprise, so I didn't say it. This matter has been settled, there is no doubt. It is foreseeable that my energy will decline in the future, and I am a new mother. I guess I have a lot to learn. I may not be able to take care of him for the time being." Hello."

"So before that thing in your stomach crawls out, I have to get out of here to make room for him. Aunt Tan, why did you have to drive me away? I never thought you asked too much. In the end, I didn't even have a place to stay. Don't they exist anymore?"

"As I said, it's only temporary." Liangzi calmly advised, "On the one hand, it relieves the pressure at home. On the other hand, you are about to go to school. Living in school is very beneficial to your studies. Why are you so repulsive?"

"Aunt Tan." Xiuyi called out and said after a long silence, "You and I both know very well that you just annoy me and don't want me to be by his side."

Ryoko paused, denying his statement, "No."

"Dare you swear?"

"I could swear."

"Do you dare to swear on your uncle?"

"Stop making trouble." Ryoko sighed, helplessly and sadly, "If you keep making trouble, it will only wake him up."

"I have nothing to be afraid of. Anyway, you are the one who is unreasonable." Xiuyi said, but still lowered her voice, "I can assure you, Uncle has no idea that you hate me so much."

"I don't hate you, I love you."

Xiuyi refused to listen to her, and just poured out her thoughts, as if she wanted to stuff all the thoughts that had been suppressed for several years into Liangzi's heart, until she could understand: "Come on. You guard me as if I am not worthy of love. You are a beast, open your mouth and swallow him when you are not paying attention. Nothing is left for you. But in fact, have I ever done anything to harm you? When you are sick, who is afraid that you will have a fever and sleep Uncomfortable, I don’t rest all night and twist a cold towel to cover your forehead; when you are upset, who listens to you and worries about you?”

"I know everything, Xiuyi," Ryoko said calmly, "You shouldn't doubt that I love you. I love you no less than a mother loves her own child."

"But not as much as a wife loves her husband. You don't know anything about me, you don't care about my thoughts, my character, you love me because I am like him, like you and his children, and when you have If I had a real child, I'd be completely forgotten in no time."

Ryoko tried to interrupt him, but Xiuyi ignored him and told her to be quiet instead, "Shh, shhh, don't talk yet. I know you don't like people approaching him, and I know what you have always done. Since you were young, you Like a lioness who defends her domain, chasing and biting everyone who tries to get near him, every day, until now."

"When he was a student, he must have been favored by some girls. Naturally, he must have easily won their hearts, but he never knew it. You cut and burned the love letter you gave him, and the rose you received was You cut it up and threw it into the trash can first, which is why you would rather sacrifice the time to go to school with him to arrive early. Over the years, you have eliminated all those who have cast admiring eyes on him, whether it is the professor's student , Colleagues who work together are still friends around you. You deliberately ask him to stay away from his hometown and relatives, and even prefer that he has no friends. If it is not for fear that he will resent being restrained by you, I am afraid that you will even follow the school where you work, so be vigilant all the time. Eliminate competitors."

Xiuyi kept talking and talking, throwing all the questions and entanglements in his heart to Liangzi, "I ask you, have all the letters Zuo Linze sent home before been stopped by you, and he didn't write the wrong address at all. ;The former female teaching assistant who confessed to him, you tried to send a letter to her hometown, asking her relatives to discipline her, so she resigned and returned to her hometown in a hurry. Because you love him, I can understand everything, But why do you exclude me and not allow him to be intimate with me for a moment, will I also compete for your position and compete with you? Aunt Tan, why don't you always love me well? "

I leaned against the wall, hiding in the shadows, listening to their argument silently, wondering if what Xiuyi said was true.Vaguely, I understand that it is.As long as I think back, many things can be traced.I still remember Ryoko acting like I was inquiring about students. She considered her my best friend and told me to share everything with her. I didn’t care and answered every question I had.

I don't feel angry because she lied to me so harmlessly, so softly, that I couldn't even feel it.There is only a little emotion, it turns out that people can pretend to be so perfect, it has been the same for decades, her face is gentle and amiable when she smiles, and her words are always fair and credible, making me believe that she really loves me with great tolerance, just want to know about my husband What happened, only to ask in detail.She handles all the details so well, and she is so considerate, which makes people feel