Water lanterns and dreams in 1 nights

restrained. "

"You haven't taken me to see the maple leaves this year." Since Xiuyi came here, every autumn, we went to the nearby Chenopodium Mountain to view the maple leaves. Usually, three of us went together. Only two years ago, Yoshiko was involved in affairs, and it was just the two of us.

"It hasn't been very peaceful recently. I heard that there was a small-scale exchange of fire in the southwest last week. This battle may not start at any time. If you can't go out, you should go out less."

After listening to my advice, he was inevitably disappointed, and said willfully: "As long as I am with you, I have nothing to be afraid of."

"About life and death, there is no small matter, not paying attention."

He didn't want to talk about this topic any further, so he asked for something else, "Can you sleep with me tonight?"

I turned my head to look at Liangzi Anran's sleeping face. She was sleeping soundly. Our whispering didn't wake her up for the time being. If the conversation continued, it would definitely disturb her.It's nothing to sleep in a different position, I thought, so I agreed, let Xiuyi get up from me, get off the bed lightly, take my pillow, and Xiuyi pulled me into his bedroom.

We didn't turn on the light, otherwise the sudden glaring light would sweep away the drowsiness, even though I haven't seen a trace of sleepiness in Xiuyi so far.

Xiu adjusted the pillow to the side, and I put the pillow beside him, "I remember there is a quilt in the closet."

"Why bother, it would be fine to sleep with me in a quilt." In a relaxed tone.Xiuyi didn't seem to care about it, but I had my own concerns, "It's cold, two people covering a quilt will get wind from the middle."

Actually, I was thinking of Ryoko.Vaguely, I can feel that she wants me to keep a little distance from Xiuyi, she is more humane than me, she has such an idea, presumably it is not good for me to be too close to Xiuyi, we might as well do as she wants.

Xiuyi's mood plummeted suddenly, he couldn't be called angry, but he could hear gloomy, "Are you so unwilling to get closer to me?"

Of course I deny it.He insisted on sharing a quilt with me. I don't know why he was so stubborn, but out of unwillingness to argue, I agreed.

Now we are lying side by side, I am on my back with my eyes closed, and Xiuyi is lying on his side facing me, with one arm wrapped around me.

"Are you still used to studying in middle school?" I took the initiative to ask.

"It doesn't matter whether you are suitable or not, it's just a little bit of learning."

"If you have enough energy to study, you can properly allocate your energy to consider which path to take in the future and what kind of abilities you should develop so that you can leave home and stand on your own when you become an adult." I heard him say it easily, and suggested.

Xiuyi raised his voice irritably: "I don't want to learn, and I won't leave!" His voice echoed in the dark room, as if echoing on the cold wall.

I am calm, and some things cannot be avoided by avoiding them, especially in the era when people are often involved in the whirlpool and it is difficult to get out. "These things should be prepared early."

"If I never learn and stay by your side forever, will you drive me away, like a tired dog?"

His temper came without warning.

"I don't mean to drive you away." I said, "You have to know that nothing lasts forever, everything is eternal. The sooner you understand this problem, the better you will be when the time comes." Respond quickly."

Xiuyi made a quick movement, opened her arms and hugged my neck from top to bottom, "You said it was for my own good, but would you say such a thing to Aunt Tan? Do you dare to tell her that you will definitely separate from her and not grow old together?"

"Such a concept replacement is meaningless. Parents and children are not the same as husband and wife."

He hugged me even harder, and my neck was tightened by him so that it was difficult to breathe, "You are not my father, and I am not your child."

"Even so, the pattern is not too different. I raise you, teach you, let you go, and form a new family to continue the cycle." I grabbed his arms with both hands, separated them slightly, and lifted his hysterical hug, back I don't want to ignore it, "Everyone has their own role to play, and they must be in their proper position, make timely actions, and act according to the established trajectory. This is a set of ways in which the world operates."

At this time, I suddenly realized that I had said too many inexplicable and indifferent words, and I was a little vaguely uneasy, wondering why I said these words to Xiuyi.I fell into silence because I realized that my words and deeds were inappropriate, and I hope I didn't hurt Xiuyi's feelings, but in my heart I know what kind of child Xiuyi is.Sensitive and sharp, self-esteem and despicable, weak and powerful, he is a combination of contradictions, you never know what kind of thoughts are surging in his intelligent and silent head.

My hurt has already been engraved, and it is wise to stop the conversation here. When the warm light of the morning sun swims into the room, all the stagnation of the night will be dissolved, and once again wrapped in the positive and noisy atmosphere of the day.

But Xiuyi refused to let it go, wanted to cut his heart clearly, and hugged me from behind, clinging tightly and deeply, as if he would be betrayed the next moment, through the thin pajamas, the pain on his chest The temperature was transmitted to my back very clearly, and I could feel the trembling of my chest when he spoke. For a moment, I thought I didn't hear, but felt his voice.He said: "I will follow you, you guys. I will entangle my life until it rots until you die. If you die and insist on burying your bones together, I will allow it. I will sleep with you." The same coffin, or rotten in the soil between your coffins, this is the consummation, this is the trajectory and destiny I deserve. Uncle, do you understand that the only way to escape from me is to kill me beforehand , otherwise I will always have enough energy to haunt you."

I know what he said is true, Xiuyi never lied to me.He may be cunning, arrogant, or cruel in front of outsiders, but he will always be the most sincere child in front of me, even though I really don't know where his love for me comes from.I stopped responding aloud, closed my eyes and fell asleep, Xiuyi's eyes lingered on my face with nostalgia, and when I didn't look at them, I could clearly imagine his eyes in the dark, they were white mercury The two pure black beads raised in Zhongyang may have a piercing watery light in their eyes, reflecting some inconspicuous light.

"Come and pick me up from school tomorrow." A wish that hinted at the ending.

I understood, but I still refused because I had an appointment first, "I have an appointment with Aunt Tan, and I will leave work early to go shopping with her."

"Are you always the first in her heart, and she is also the first in your heart?" There was an emotion in Xiuyi's questioning that couldn't be concealed, it was jealousy.Oh, this is strange, who is he jealous of, and what position he is jealous of.I thought that He Liangzi was benevolent and righteous to him, and there was nothing inconsiderate, so as not to provoke his overt malice.I was tired of arguing, so I ignored those crazy words and tried to return to the bedroom with Liangzi quietly with a pillow. He really wanted to keep me, but I didn't obey his persuasion.

The moment he was about to step out of the door, Xiuyi sat on his knees on the bed, threw the quilt far away, and angrily checked whether I cared that he would catch a cold. I ignored his childish pampering, just grabbed the pillow and walked away.I heard his gloomy and vicious provocation: "Do you think Aunt Tan is clean? Let me tell you, she is more willing to control you and possess you than I am. I wish you were the only one by my side, but she can do it behind your back." After a lot of things, I can assure you that she wanted to throw me away a long time ago, just to keep a gentle appearance in front of you and not to say anything. I didn't do what she wanted. The more she wants to drive me away, the more I want to cling you!"

He knew that Liangzi had done his best for him and that he loved her too, but he let his emotions get out of control and said these endless crazy words.I felt more and more that he was talking nonsense, and went back to the bedroom without looking back.

22. Bad boy 08

The one thing that is said over and over again is: "Do you love me?"

Use questions to ask for relief, use questions to cover up your anxiety, and conceal the deep meaning of silent pain in it.When you beg for love, you are loving.

Love is not the same emotion as love, which is narrower, more selfish, and more exclusive.The love of the general public is such a thing, fighting for the only position, bitter and sweet.

Invisibly, Liangzi and Xiuyi fell into a dark wrestling, and I was caught in the middle, like the red silk tied at the center of a tug-of-war rope. Once I leaned to one side, the other side pulled me back even harder, and no one took a step back.The tug-of-war between them lasted for a period of time, until the season became cooler and warmer again. However, their disputes were extremely contradictory. They did not love each other completely, nor hated each other completely. They cared about each other, depended on each other, and opposed and conflicted.The winter holidays are approaching, the school is busy with various tests, and the students are so busy, Ryoko takes care of almost all the chores outside of study, not allowing Xiuyi to intervene, and let him concentrate on the test.

"It's okay to say at other times, after all, the final general test must pay attention to one or two." Liangzi said.

As a result, Xiu Yi, who was busy with the exam, was unharmed and even grew a few centimeters taller, but Liang Zi fell ill due to exhaustion.Then it was Xiuyi's turn to prepare medicine for her back and forth, and to share some trivial matters for her during the holiday.

In the eyes of outsiders, how contradictory; in my opinion, what a subtle harmony.Peace is mixed with gunpowder, vying for attention, asking me to be treated commensurately with their respective positions.Hanging out with Liangzi, chatting, and solving his homework problems with Xiuyi in the study, they thought I knew nothing, or knew very little, but to be honest, I knew their contest well, and I was not in the mood to interfere.I see the apprehensive eye waves, pretending to interfere unintentionally, interrupting the topic at the right time, and stopping the progress of intimate contact.