Water lanterns and dreams in 1 nights

. "His embrace is getting tighter and tighter, it's like shackles trapped me in his body. I struggled twice, but he exerted more strength. I began to regret my curiosity. He was right. , I shouldn't have opened this door.

"Will you go crazy like this when you are with your mother?" I struggled to say, trying to regain his reason.

"I don't love her."

"You said you loved her."

"She only makes me sick," said the prince coldly. "Andrei, if there is such a dead gardener between the two of us that you don't know about; if I tell you that I never touched She; if I say that you have never been my blood child, will you believe it?" He asked me a question, and answered himself, "Or not, in that case, I'm afraid you will leave me immediately. I must Let me tell you one thing: It has nothing to do with gender, I have nothing against women, it's just her, doing dirty things against her appearance, she is no longer clean, I feel disgusted for ever believing her."

"She is your wife, what's wrong with wanting to have skin-to-skin contact with her husband?"

"But I don't want to, and that's the problem."

"Your pursuit of cleanliness is beyond reason."

"You can say what you want." The Duke finally let go of me with a gloomy expression, "You hate me?"

"No, I love you."

He looked at my face carefully, showing a mocking smile, "Lie."

"I do not have."

"You think I don't know you?" the Duke asked displeasedly, not allowing his understanding of me to be underestimated. "My dear child, I know everything about you, your likes and dislikes. The more I pay attention to you, the more I know." Can clearly see one thing, you never care about what other people say and do, but only care about your own heart, mentally separated from people. Your performance follows a sense of responsibility that comes from nowhere, thinking that You should love me, just show it like that, if it weren't for such a tight identity connection, you would immediately hide away and have fun on your own. Do you love me? You don't love anyone, even Myself. This is what I love about you and what I hate about you. Because of this, you become the most special person in the world."

"At least I care about myself and you." I defended myself weakly.

The Duke didn't listen to my excuses, "You know what," he asked a question that didn't need an answer, "If you want to stop the wheel of fate, no, if you want to prevent you from being stolen, I have a way."

I have a bad feeling in my heart.His sudden change of subject didn't make sense to me, but he seemed to have made an incredibly difficult and important decision.

The Duke strangled my neck violently, and used his utmost strength to attack me fatally. I couldn't compete with him without exercise. My throat was immediately blocked by the huge force, and the pain and suffocation came together. The senses make it impossible for me to tell which is more powerful.

He was literally going to kill me.

This thought flashed through my mind with incomparable clarity.

The Duke is strangling me to death. Even though the force in his hands is fierce and deadly, his expression is so calm, and there is still a residual love, which contains not only the love of a father for his child, but also the excitement of the perpetrator for the victim. His eyes were gentle and sad, completely inconsistent with his actions, and even a little fascinated.Feeling so out of control about me, about death, or about my death.Is this the end?For opening a door, an inexplicable secret.The breath of death is so close and real, but even if my life is dispensable, I don't want to die in pain in vain.

The air in my lungs thinned rapidly, my throat was sore, my chest was almost torn apart, my body struggled unconsciously, I tried to push away his iron-like hands, but they didn’t move at all, my body moved with his strength It fell down on the window sill, and the whole thing was pressed against the glass window. The sunlight blinded my eyes, or this was just a normal manifestation of lack of oxygen.

The strength of my struggle became weaker and weaker, my body kept sliding down, my eyes opened wide and I looked at him, I moved my lips and finally called out, "Father." No sound came out, but all the movements stopped at once, and I finally After realizing that the restraint on the neck disappeared, the body suddenly fell limp, kneeling on the ground, breathing and coughing like asthma, and had no time to think about anything else.

"I'm sorry." I heard the Duke's voice.

I raised my head with difficulty and met his eyes.The gentleness and calmness on his face disappeared, and if I read correctly, I saw a fleeting weakness on his usually cold face.I lowered my head, and there was a drop of water next to my kneeling knee.

He also knelt down suddenly, not caring that his clothes were stained with dust, and hugged me into his arms again, as if he didn't intend to kill me, as if the hugging action continued from just now to the present, and will continue.In this tight embrace, I felt the relief of the rest of my life, and the deep exhaustion after that.

14. Duke 13 (final)

"Why did things come to this point?" I asked him this way after being speechless in embarrassment.He himself didn't know the answer either. "If only I could..."

We leaned on each other, like two dying wild geese alone in the ice and snow, with our necks intertwined, and our body temperature was very close. It was strange that he was about to kill me just now, but I was not afraid.To outsiders, he is a decisive Duke. To me, when the murderous intent passes, all his expressions are just grim and inwardly. There is no reason for it. I have such a feeling.

"You let me lose the chance of redemption." His lips quickly passed between my hair, a movement similar to a kiss. "I can't kill you, you win."

"I didn't gamble with you."

"It's not a gamble. It's that as a duke, I've completely lost to you. The only chance to break the ties is gone, and freedom is gone with it. Love for you is a gallows around my neck."

I do not understand.

He saw my confusion, and only asked me: "Don't kiss any woman, or any man in the future. You don't love anyone, or I will destroy him with a knife, with a twisted rope, and with fire. , along with the things you love."

"anyone?"

The Duke pushed me out of his arms, and now I can see his expression.His lips trembled, he wanted to say something but he couldn't hold back his heart, his Adam's apple rolled up and down a few times, like swallowing a glass of bitter wine, and finally warned cautiously: "Anyone."

I stared fixedly at this familiar yet unfamiliar face, strangely, for eight years, I had never really understood him.My eyes suddenly went dark, and some cool and smooth cloth covered my eyes. "Andre, you'd better stay flawless forever. If you have, restrain your emotional fluctuations, and I restrain mine. To be honest, I am very glad to have you back, although you are not very interested in people , but I am not happy to live a mediocre life. I use the wealth, status and blood relationship I have to keep you and embellish my barren life."

"Even if I have a family?"

"Don't be silly, Andrea," he said softly, brushing a feather from nowhere on my collar. "I'm not your only family member?"

"I can't live without hobbies all my life, it's unrealistic, father."

"There is nothing unrealistic." He denied, and denied again. My words were always dismissed by him. I am an animal that cannot have my own opinion, so I fell silent.At this moment, there is nothing that can enter his mind through my expression, and he subconsciously refuses to disobey. I am a sojourner, what can I say?I can't hide from him. He clearly understands that there is nothing in this world that I need, and there is nothing that I don't want. I can try everything in the world, but I don't want to be bound by it.My soul is a handful of water, slipping into this body, and slipping away again at some point.He can't keep me.For some reason, I can be absolutely sure of this.

"I am old and weak, and you are still young, so just accompany me on the last journey, my dear child. After my death, you will usher in a new life, and then nothing will hold you back." The Duke said The words are mixed with gentle love and affection, "I can be sure that no one in the world loves you more than me, even if you don't agree and feel restrained."

I turned my head away uncomfortably.In such a short period of time, it seems that the soul in the Duke's body has also changed. I really can't adapt to hearing such sentences from his mouth. "Stop saying things like that," I begged.

"Don't run around."

"Aside from here, is there any place I can't see?"

"You can go and see anywhere, I just ask you one thing - don't hate me."

"I will not."

"Go, kid." So he smiled, "I'll give you space to think about the road ahead, and tell you about my attitude toward me. I don't blame you if you want to hate me, just don't try to leave ’” His smile turned into a darkly dangerous menace: “Leave me and you’ll die.” I didn’t understand if he meant the outside world would kill me, or he would kill me, or both. .

A period of uncertainty followed.Not only for me, but also for him. It took a lot to get used to the fact that I planned to expose it to me. Fortunately, I was indifferent and he was good at covering it up. It is very different, still living in isolation, and few visitors come to the door.In the past, there were occasional invitations from friends, but now there are none left. I don’t know if they have never been here, or they have been rejected. I haven’t seen them again.I'm not very bored, guess the Duke knows this too, he decided that I don't really care, not angry with him, so he said quietly