Put on a vest for a better world

This is Archmage Merlin who temporarily lives in Avalon, the best astrologer and prophet in the mage world. "

"O holy Lamb of the Lord, what can I do for you?"

Merlin, with white clothes and white hair, intends to give a little guidance to the lost lamb.

At this time, Shirley in the main world was answering the phone, listening to what might be the last voice of a life.

"I want to disappear."

"I want to die."

"I want to die."

"I feel so tired of living."

"I'm so useless."

"No matter what I do, I will fail. I have no confidence at all."

"Please, can you die? My mother told me so."

"Tired, just being alive is already very tiring. There is no joy, and no money. After finally mustering up the courage to throw away the body, the soul actually needs to pray for real peace. So tired! So tired."

"This world is really unfair. Some people can do everything smoothly, but no matter how hard they try, the loser is the loser. My life has always been like this."

"Ditch the name and everything, live like a bug, and I know I'm done for."

"You're the one who wants to live, and I'm not, that's all."

"I can't change anything while I'm alive."

"As long as you cross the limit that you have been patient with, you will immediately lose your patience."

"No, I can't hold on anymore."

"Why is there a story called "Ferrandez's Dog"? It's better if it didn't come to this world."

"Man is simply a sad creature. He was born for no reason, and then he lived. He didn't know why he lived, but he was still alive. He knew nothing about everything..."

"What is tranquility? What is...freedom?"

"We just said goodbye a little earlier."

There are men and women, old and young, who say these words, some cry, a little smile, some can't hear the emotion, listen to these, remember these, do your best to keep them, it is the suicide intervention hotline volunteer Shirley choose.

Ahh~ Why do you want to restart the reincarnation?

Xue Li felt that she was a little arrogant, and actually felt that as a mortal, she understood the god who turned into reincarnation. Is it gentleness, or love?

The light female voice comforted Shirley, different from the voices confiding to her, this female voice said: "I love you ~ Ishitab loves you deeply."

"I've been hearing hallucinations for more than ten years, and I haven't been able to develop hallucinations. 'Ishitab' must be the most discerning person in the world, because she likes me~ Hehe, I really want to know what you look like, but there is The disease still needs to be cured, and it’s time to take medicine again, and the auditory hallucinations are more frequent.”

Shirley in the main world is doing the work of discouraging suicide, and her life is completely opposite to another timeline.

After leaving the mage's tower where Merlin was, there was only a short distance away from Avalon's exit in the country of water. Francis and Elton walked one after the other.

"So, why do you, an official knight of Avalon, follow me?! Do you think I am too old? Do you think I am too poor?"

He thought he would be able to get rid of this big white tooth right away, but in the end he wanted to come over to help?Hmph, I resigned from the British government without any hesitation, and I also rejected all the funding from the Holy See. Do you think I still have a salary for you?

"Mr. Elton, don't dislike me so much. Although I am not a titled knight, I have tried everything in order to get the title, so I can do everything. It is super cost-effective to take me! Merlin prophesied that I will only be able to come out this trip. Find your true self, so help me~"

Francis has always been an excellent knight in everything he does, but he has worked hard for so many years, but he has never been able to have his own title... and he always feels that Merlin, who raised him, is remembering him through him. Others, please, I don't want to be someone else, isn't the stand-in still useless?I hate Merlin the most, I don't want to see him again for three months, hum!

After walking for a while, Elton suddenly asked Francis: "Do you understand the prophecy that Lord Merlin gave me?" The long journey to annihilation, the apple is like a big Falling like dewdrops, crashing through oneself, to make an exit, from the fallen self...'What the hell does that mean?"

Elton memorized Merlin's prophecy like a long poem, but...is it difficult for a prophet to speak human words?

"How can an astrologer speak bluntly, especially an astrologer like Lord Merlin who has become a benchmark, but, hehe." Francis raised his chin like a peacock with its tail open, and then suddenly approached Elton, He whispered, "I know the human language version. As long as Mr. Elton promises me not to activate the Holy Spirit to get rid of me after leaving Avalon, I will tell you."

Although he is a fool who doesn't listen to others, Elton also knows that Francis is indeed a good man who abides by the rules of the knight. After a lot of thought struggle, Elton finally agreed to Francis... ····When the paladins offered by Avalon to serve our lord are ready.

"The human version is to find the human being loved by the suicide goddess Ishitab, that is the key to open the heaven."

Elton didn't suspect that Francis was lying to him, but was a little surprised: "If I remember correctly, Ishitab is a god of the Mayan pantheon, right? The key to heaven is actually in the hands of a false god."

Francis looked at Elton with a look of "Wow! You are so brave!" Although believers seem to be like this, but in this world, it is really brave to dare to arrange "Goddess of Suicide" like this!Could it be that the way I get the title is to keep Mr. Elton from being sanctioned by the goddess of suicide? ······An anti-god knight or something, a bit handsome.

"Let's go to the Sacred Heart Cathedral first, the person whom the goddess loves deeply, what kind of goddess Maya likes?! Little milk dog? Warm boy?..."

Mr. Elton, who is a former priest, knows a lot. What kind of vague terminology are these?Francis felt that his vocabulary was still too shallow.

Chapter 99

◎Don't come near me, I'm a dangerous woman, light a cigarette◎

Although it feels very secondary to say this, I may be someone who is loved by death.

At the age of six, my father "run away" and his whereabouts are still unknown. At the age of eight, my mother took excessive drugs. In the same year, my aunt cut her wrists and my uncle lay on the rails...

It sounds terrible, but the death of "relatives" made Shirley live in the world instead of falling into hell.

This seemingly harmonious family is a family-style criminal gang. At the age of six, Shirley knew what pedals (tin foil containing drugs), ants climbing trees (injection of heroin), opening skylights (arterial injection of heroin) and flying leaves (Smoking big ma), learned how to shoot at the age of eight, and when she was running wildly on the Kangzhuang Avenue of hell, "death" began to appear around Shirley.

Like a death vortex invisible to mortals, getting close to Shirley is a dangerous thing.

The former business partner who was eyeing the "inheritance" of Shirley's family suddenly became enlightened, knelt down in front of Shirley, who was not as high as the table, and confessed his life, and committed suicide by swallowing a gun.

The church orphanage that took Shirley took pleasure in secretly abusing children. The nun who gave laxatives during the communion cut off her eyelids and jumped off the building because of reasons such as "always feeling that her eyes are too small".

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People who have good intentions for Shirley are not safe. A nun who has been living a strong and optimistic life and working hard for the welfare of the children is easily defeated by a benign tumor that can be completely cured, and she jumps into the river and drowns herself.

There are too many to mention.

Shirley grew up amidst whispers and terrified gazes, and everyone hid it well, but Shirley knew her rather compelling title, "Death's Child".

In fact, this is quite funny, Shirley thought, if I were really a child of the god of death, I would have been taken back by the big shots of the underworld to be a simple "cooker" by now, who would still stay in the human world and be a talking point for you every day, woo Wow, I'm so hungry, I can't, hold back, one piece of bread a day, poverty has given me the capital to lose weight, I have to hold back.

Shirley, who left the orphanage as an adult, donated it without hesitation on the day she took over the "inheritance". She didn't keep a cent. She remembered that she was not eligible to spend the money.

Life is so wonderful, but the tortuous growth process has made Shirley a person who cherishes life and is always committed to saving lives.

"Should I find some clothes to put on first? I hear your voice is a little cold, and I'm a little worried about you."

The average person may think that it is nonsense to say this to a person who wants to end himself, but in fact, this kind of tranquilizer is much more effective than any preaching, Shirley never said "Think about your family, think about life the beauty in" or something like that.

Those who want to end themselves are not ignorant of this, nor can they not see the beauty in the distance, but the suffering near them has driven them to a desperate situation.The more bleak hope is given to him, the more courage to live will be crushed.

The work of the suicide intervention hotline is completely voluntary and unpaid, but Shirley thinks that as long as she can persuade one person, it will be the best reward for her.

After a long day of odd jobs and voluntary work, Shirley stretched out her mind on the bed. As long as she doesn't think about it, she won't feel hungry!

After a while, living alone, she became depressed and said to herself: "The child now~"

Yeah, there are more and more young students calling suicide hotlines these days.

Don't say that students' troubles are not painful or itchy. Self-identity, family conflicts, ignorant emotions, and confused future may not be defeated by themselves.