Miss Tsushima

Even though the cold wind is cold, seamless, and invading the human body, Osamu Dazai still stands motionless, Tsushima Hiiragi has a urging look in his eyes It fell on him, and his face paled.

The cold wind is blowing cold? Not only the body, but even the bone marrow began to feel cold, the chill flowed through the body, only the eye sockets were hot, and he kept blinking, feeling dry and stinging Desperate? Press down.

It was stimulated by the cold wind? Physiological tears. His? Eyelashes were already slender and thick. In the blink of an eye, many tiny? The black is even blacker, like two bright obsidian stones soaked in water.

Osamu Dazai was already much taller than her, Tsushima Hiiragi raised his head, he didn't say anything, just looked at Tsushima Hiiragi with that kind of eyes, no? He stood motionless in the cold wind.

Tsushima Hiiragi couldn't help but think of him when he was ten or fourteen years old. No matter how he grew up at a superhuman speed, he was still a child inside. Even now, he is only eighteen years old, different from her who has lived for not knowing how many years, still immature and childish.

The indescribable loneliness emanating from Osamu Dazai is the most familiar thing to them. They touch each other's soul so carefully.

Osamu Dazai is still too young, does he understand that love will swallow everything and burn everything, Tsushima Hiiragi understood that in this world, some people are obsessed with her skin, some people are obsessed with her talent, some are crazy If you love her, someone is willing to die for her.

There are so many people who love her.

This kind of love is the scariest thing in the world. Putting her in this kind of love, Tsushima Hiiragi will only feel uneasy? Can't breathe, tense, afraid, uneasy, fear, human beings Love made her? Suffocate.

But she is "Dazai", even if the "suffocating" rope is hanging on the top of her head, she will just "wait" peacefully, "Dazai" will not reject others, no matter how unsuitable , also will not refuse.

When she was alive, when people talked about her, they would probably make a cheesy sound from their noses, and say disdainfully, "That's that Dazai." Then attach a heart photo The non-professional smile, as long as there is her place, it is a feast of laughter, noise and wine, without sleep all night.

The king of gold once said to her, "What kind of carnival are you doing? Look at your expression! You've never? never enjoyed a feast from your heart."

Gilgamesh saw through their essence at a glance.

She is afraid of joy and hates excitement, but she always plays the role of a clown in the crowd.

So many people love Tsushima Hiiragi.

Tsushima Hiiragi didn't know how to love.

Osamu Dazai is different, only he is different, he doesn't love her looks, doesn't admire her talent, he doesn't even read Tsushima Hiiragi's books.He understands Tsushima Hiiragi's inside, understands her inner pain, they have similar loneliness.

Only Osamu Dazai is different?This child is her soul.

For a long time, Tsushima Hiiragi has been looking for the phantom of the past in Dazai Osamu, and has searched for the characteristics that "Dazai Osamu" should have.

She watched him grow up little by little, and gradually coincided with the existence in memory.

When she "touched" the "book", she suddenly realized whether she had done something wrong, confining Osamu Dazai in the "frame" called memory, but "never" helped his pain, Instead, he sighed that he was becoming more and more similar to the existence in his memory.

Osamu Dazai is Osamu Dazai, this child is not the same as himself, or that vague existence.

Ever since Tsushima Hiiragi separated Chuya from the Nakahara Chuya in her memory, she should also have clearly separated herself from Osamu Dazai.

They are similar existences, but they are by no means the same. She takes it for granted that Osamu Dazai holds the same emotions as hers, and forgets that people will grow and change. Is it like them? They have long forgotten what it means to be a human being.

They have long been left in place by time, but Osamu Dazai still has the possibility to grow.

When Tsushima Hiiragi thought of the book, the world without her, the life of Osamu Dazai, the world with her, and the final ending.

She's like an old-fashioned cage, because Osamu Dazai's growth has been guarded too much, so he has grown into a cage.

Tsushima Hiiragi hoped to protect Osamu Dazai well, after all the meaning of her existence was for him, so she wanted to leave Dazai and let him find his own life.

No one can't live without him.

A sour pain gnawed at her heart, Tsushima Hiiragi sighed, and looked up at Osamu Dazai.

Osamu Dazai stood in the same place numbly. He saw the irreversible determination in Tsushima Hiiragi's eyes, and his lips turned pale.

His heart trembled, and he lowered his head. After a long silence, Osamu Dazai said dryly, "Miss Michiko, please ask Natsume-kun, I'll just take care of you."

"Ah, okay?."

"Me neither? I won't live in this house anymore. You should find someone else to take care of it."

"it is good."

"..."

"Is there anything else to say?" Tsushima Hiiragi turned around, and the soles of the shoes and the asphalt ground made a soft rubbing sound, "No... let's go back, I'll go first."

Tsushima Hiiragi waited quietly for a while. Osamu Dazai lowered his head and didn't speak, he couldn't say a word, even her "name" was blocked in his throat, and he couldn't call out. Come on, just looked at Tsushima Hiiragi and turned away, ready to leave.

The faint? Street lights did not illuminate the road, and the eyes were blurred? In the darkness, Tsushima Hiiragi put his hands in his pockets, and there was a dead silence behind him. It should be over, she? Slowly? Take a step .

Next? Where should I go?Let's first go to Anna's Jack the Ripper who stayed in the Barbara to treat the serious injuries, and then... She was in a trance, thinking about it, emptying her mind to a blank, and just walking forward, That's it? That's it, that's it? It's over.

When Tsushima Hiiragi walked to the end of the street, hurried footsteps suddenly came from behind, getting faster and faster, she turned her head, and a strong force grabbed her. her arm.

Osamu Dazai grabbed her arm, his face was pale,

"You promised? My? You clearly promised? My? You will never leave me alone."

That voice is so weak.

Tsushima Hiiragi didn't look at his face, and it took him a long time to find his own voice, as if saying to himself, "What kind of person am I, you know better than me." She? Smiling, "I can't change it? But you, Dazai-kun."

Tsushima Hiiragi turned his eyes to his face, that eyes contained many complex emotions. "You are different from me, my time has stopped, I have no future, but you have."

"Like what Sakunosuke said? So? Let's go there? One way, you will have companions. Will there be a future? Someone will accompany you. Will you be alone again?" Tsushima Hiiragi is like singing a blessed aria , finished speaking.She took one last look at him tenderly, then turned around and walked away.

"Go, don't look back?, don't look back?."

"Selfish... liar..." Why not? Hear his voice?Why make a decision for him.Why not? Ask his? Opinion?Why should he be abandoned? Where?

What right does she have to control him? She? Is his? Who?

Osamu Dazai wanted to question them loudly, wanted to grab them, wanted to pick up a stone and throw it at her, but he couldn't do anything, he was frozen in place.

He wished he had never met Tsushima Hiiragi before she would disappear in the next second!Never again? to appear in front of?his?!Just evaporate directly from the earth, or blow it away like a dandelion, why is there a person like her in the world, why let him know her?

There are so many people in this world who live in a daze, even if they all die today, it will not affect him in any way. There is only one person in his world, because this person, this world is full of... Is it different?

But if this person wants to leave him now, he will have nothing.

A trace of cool? wetness fell on? his? cheeks, gentle and cold, he blinked and found snow-white?

Is it... snow?

It was snowing, and he stretched out his hand, and the snow-white snow fell on his palm piece by piece, and soon became thin and transparent, melting into small drops of water.

He looked at his palm and held it gently.

winter is here.

In the quiet street, the sound of Xueluo was clearly audible. He could hear his own breathing, heartbeat, the swaying wind and snow, mixed with the lonely lights.

Breaking this quietness is the whistling sound of wind, made of black cloth, and finally the indestructible black thorns rushing towards Tsushima Hiiragi's neck.

That? It was a black beast. Tsushima Hiiragi opened his eyes wide in surprise, staring intently at the dark mass filled with strong blood. The black beast opened its huge mouth in front of her without any hesitation. You entangled her hands and feet.

Even if Osamu Dazai wished that Tsushima Hiiragi would disappear in a second, he couldn't help but grab her wrist at this moment, and drag Tsushima Hiiragi out of the mouth of the black giant beast.

The giant black beast that was touched by Dazai's finger disappeared instantly, and Dazai squinted his eyes and looked forward.

In the deep darkness, a man stepped out. His thin body was wrapped in the night, mixed with a faint smell of blood, and he came out dressed in black. His eyes were dark gray. edge.

His special ability "Rashomon" can turn soft cloth into sharp weapons, but just now... Akutagawa Ryunosuke's eyes fell on Tsushima Hiiragi who fell to the ground. superior.

Tsushima Hiiragi was attacked by "Rashomon" just now, and he was thrown to the ground at once, his neat clothes were dragged out of the creases, and his black hair, which was coiled up, was also scattered, and it was draped in disorder. Over the shoulder, Akutagawa Ryunosuke's gaze swept past her slender ankle tied with a thin red string under her messy dress, and she frowned.

His? power is sharper than a knife, and he has been literally? bitten by Rashomon. How could there be no wound?

Akutagawa Ryunosuke raised his hand and launched another attack.

"Rashomon!"

The black giant beast roared out, but it disappeared before touching them. Dazai Osamu stood behind Tsushima Hiiragi, stretched out his hand, and smiled on his face.

"Akutagawa, after teaching you for so long, you still haven't even learned the most basic thinking. I told you, don't you? Be useless? Attack."

Osamu Dazai withdrew his hand with a calm expression, as if Ryunosuke Akutagawa's appearance was within his expectation.

"Mr. Dazai..." Akutagawa Ryunosuke stared at him firmly, suppressing his own emotions and said word by word, "The leader's order to arrest the traitor who betrayed the organization."

"Akutagawa! What are you doing!" Nakahara Chuya hurriedly ran out of the darkness. Akutagawa Ryunosuke's action was so sudden that even he didn't react. He went crazy. What? I don't care about it, and I can't hold it when I pull it.

If you really want to capture Osamu Dazai back, things will be troublesome. Zhongyuan Zhong is also in a hurry. Did the leader explain it privately? The order is not good? I can explain it directly. Osamu Dazai smiled lightly and dragged out the end

"Hey~Mr. Sen actually thinks? Let me go back, okay." He patted the corner of his clothes, "How do you take me back? Are you afraid that I will run away, or will you break my limbs? Or, Are you going to shoot me?"

He smiled and pointed to his temple. Ryunosuke Akutagawa gritted his teeth. Nakahara also noticed that Ryunosuke Akutagawa's emotions were on the verge of collapse, and he tightly suppressed him with his abilities.

"Akutagawa, calm down!" Nakahara Chuya warned him in a deep voice.

If you give him another chance to choose, no matter what, Nakahara Chuya will never bring Akutagawa Ryunosuke again, and now it can't end, Osamu Dazai doesn't want to live at all, and picks Minefield jumping di, Akutagawa hits at one o'clock, why does he have to be caught in the middle, to deal with this kind of thing?Nakahara Chuya's forehead chugs? A jump, now? How to deal with it.

"Hey, Miss Tsushima, don't you have anything to say to Akutagawa?" Osamu Dazai smiled for a while, then turned his head and said to Tsushima Hiiragi, "You said... do I want to go back with him?" ?”

His iris-colored pupils floated lightly on Tsushima Hiiragi, who was still sitting on the ground without moving, staring at the angry Dazai Osamu. Akutagawa Ryunosuke, her eyes were completely focused on Akutagawa Ryunosuke's body, and she seemed to be distracted, just staring at him blankly.

Sure enough, Osamu Dazai thought, he once saw a piece of letter paper in Tsushima Hiiragi's notes, repeated over and over again, filled with words, it was "Ryunosuke".

Ryunosuke.

"Should I go back with him?" Osamu Dazai turned his head to one side and said with a smile.

"Hey, Dazai, you're crazy!" Nakahara Chuya held back the thought of throwing his "fist" while firmly suppressing Akutagawa Ryunosuke. Is Dazai really crazy? Can't he see that? The leader had no idea of ​​capturing him at all, why did he say that on purpose?

If it is true? If he is captured and executed, it is inevitable for him to be executed. Why does he have to be sent to death?

"Come on? Ah, take me back." Dazai Osamu slowly walked towards Akutagawa Ryunosuke, smiled and stretched out his hands, facing the embarrassed Nakahara Chuya, "Or, just kill me? "

"Kill me, come on?"

He smiled, but in the eyes of Tsushima Hiiragi, it looked like a crooked face, the face of a child who kept crying, standing helplessly in the same place, trying desperately to use wordless words This attitude shows his own psychology, he can't say it, but he hopes she can look back at him.

"Sorry to interrupt you at such a sensational..."

A man's voice suddenly came from a distance, "But I still have to say a few words!"

"Hey, wait, Suehiro! In this way, what we are? here? Will be exposed!"

"What exposure?" A black-haired? black-eyed? man came out, "Just take her back? It'll be fine?"

"But, hello! She's surrounded by something like..."

"Mr. Fukuchi told me that I just need to take this woman back." The man called Suehiro took out the photo in his pocket, checked it carefully, and looked back coldly, then... There seems to be a real doubt in the eyes, "So why are you hiding in? there?"

As he spoke, he walked up to Tsushima Hiiragi, "I'm very sorry, please extend your hand, now? Due to the danger of unknown abilities and the possibility of endangering social security, please go for a while."

Tsushima Hiiragi stood up, smoothed the hem of his clothes, and stretched out his hand.

"Hey!"

Nakahara couldn't help but grabbed their wrists, Suehiro Tiechang turned his head and looked straight at them, "I'm in a hurry now, please don't do anything with me."

When Tsushima Hiiragi turned around, Osamu Dazai was still standing there, motionless, and she mouthed to him.

"Let's go back."

She took out a four-fold paper from her pocket, unfolded it, held it between her index fingers, and showed it to Nakahara Chuya and Akutagawa Ryunosuke, "Today, please go back first."

Akutagawa Ryunosuke was pressed down by Nakahara Chuya's gravity, still stubbornly staring at Dazai Osamu, Nakahara Chuya was surprised when he saw that piece of paper.

That? It's the Oracle of Silver, a direct order representing the head of the port mafia. If you violate it, it's tantamount to betraying the organization.

The signature is, Mori Ogai.

The author has something to say: Akutagawa frowned...

I wrote and I laughed

The middle is also miserable, Akutagawa Dazai Tsushima, one is crazier than the other, and he is the only normal person among the four

Chuya: Abnormal?Force suppression is enough (laughs)

Forgot to say, byebyebeautiful is a song by the Dutch rock band nightwish (Nightwish), which contains a sentence, neededtodietofeelalive

I need to die to feel alive

Feels good for Dazai

感谢在2020-10-0802:02:26~2020-10-0918:48:01期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 20 bottles of Arrogant; 1 bottle for making the author cry;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!