Heart distance

Han Ziqi held his mobile phone, and his hands fell on the soft sofa next to the VIP gate.

This person has never changed, and even the routine is exactly the same as before.But she was like a fool, foolishly thinking that Lu Tinglan would not lie to him twice about the same thing.

But Lu Tinglan will continue as before, which doesn't mean that Han Ziqi will stick to it.

He acted calmly, put his phone back in his pocket, and said to the two men who were extremely vigilant beside him, "I want to go to the bathroom."

The two men in black looked at each other.

"Why, you don't follow me? Are you not afraid that I will run away?" Han Ziqi looked like he knew everything.

"Sorry, Mr. Han, we are also under the instructions of Mr. Lu."

Han Ziqi spoke softly, "I don't need to explain, I know everything. Come alone, I won't embarrass you."

Lu Tinglan leaned against the bed in the bedroom. On the bedside table was an old mobile phone that had been turned off earlier, and the high-concentration empty wine bottles scattered on the ground were enough to help him enter a state of darkness.

He held a photo taken with Han Ziqi at Disney, his vision was blurred, but he slid the boy's facial contours over and over again according to his memory.

The bodyguards accompanying Han Ziqi will report Han Ziqi's situation to him by text message every 10 minutes.

The bodyguard had just reported safety 10 minutes ago, and they had boarded the plane smoothly, and the plane took off immediately.

The stimulation of alcohol made his stomach convulse and the pain was unbearable, but Lu Tinglan delusionally tried to use alcohol to numb himself.

Until the thin boy who kept him awake at night kicked open the door of his bedroom.

Even the dim night light in the bedroom could not hide the radiance of the young man.In those dark and boundless years, this boy was the only driving force for him to live.

If even he is gone, no one can love and protect this sensitive and fragile child.

He has to work hard to survive in order to protect him.

For a moment, Lu Tinglan suspected that he was hallucinating.But he woke up immediately in the next second. He raised his wrist to confirm the time, "You, shouldn't you..."

Han Ziqi held a mobile phone that didn't belong to him, and threw it beside Lu Tinglan.

"Lu Tinglan, is this what you call asking me to wait for you?" Han Ziqi's voice was so cold that it made people tremble.

About an hour ago, Han Ziqi secretly took away the mobile phone used to communicate with Lu Tinglan, and continued to communicate with Lu Tinglan as a bodyguard.During the period, he escaped from the window at the end of the bathroom on the grounds of going to the bathroom.

Under the double torment of abdominal pain and drunkenness, Lu Tinglan couldn't even speak a word.

"How long are you going to lie to me?" Han Ziqi hissed, "Lu Tinglan, have you ever liked me?"

The most obvious question and the answer without thinking, became the most frightening answer of the man sitting paralyzed by the bed.

The shameful sense of evasion, haunting this outstanding and proud man, turned out to be the perfect solution.

"Lu Tinglan, answer me!" Han Ziqi tugged at his collar, his eyes were bloodshot, and he refused to let go.

"Probably." The man peeled off the collar of the boy's tight grip, with a nonchalant look on his face.

"Probably?" Han Ziqi sneered, "It doesn't matter, or even doesn't like it, does it?"

"Lu Tinglan, answer me!" Han Ziqi's piercing pain hurt Lu Tinglan's eardrum.

"It's what you say it is."

"Okay, that's why I don't like it." Han Ziqi frantically held Lu Tinglan's right wrist, "Then what is this, tell me what is it?"

In Lu Tinglan's hand, he still held a photo with the boy.

"You didn't take anything back then, but you specifically took a photo with me." Han Ziqi was angry, "What do you mean? For reminiscence? I've been reminiscing for so long, and I haven't reminisced enough?"

"And these, what are they all about?" Han Ziqi opened the locked drawer of the bedside table, took out all the small objects inside, and threw them on Lu Tinglan's face.

"This is the Band-Aid I put on you when your hand was scratched by a knife. The little red flower painted on it was painted by myself, and you treasure it."

"This is the pig's head portrait I drew for you when I went to Disney. You said you would treasure it in a pure gold frame." Han Ziqi picked up the heavy pure gold frame and ruthlessly dropped it to the ground, "You treasure it."

"There are these, these, these." Han Ziqi grabbed out the neatly arranged candy wrappers from the drawer, and threw them all on Lu Tinglan's face, "You can't even bear the candy I gave you, and the rest of the candy wrappers leave!"

"But now you tell me that you don't like me that much!"

"Lu Tinglan, are you stupid or am I stupid!"

"What the hell are you hiding from me? Why can't you tell me? Why!" Han Ziqi was sobbing, almost collapsed, "It seems like the whole world knows, but I'm the only one kept in the dark!"

"If you don't like me, can you please let me go?" Han Ziqi choked with sobs, "Why should a person who doesn't like me receive a fortune of [-] million yuan, and why should he go to the world's top schools? And why should he be favored by you?" !"

"What right does he have to accept a hug and kiss from someone he doesn't like, Lu Tinglan, tell me!"

Lu Tinglan was crazily pulled from the head of the bed by Han Ziqi to the ground, where she sat paralyzed.

"If this is all your dislike, then I'm sorry, your dislike is too heavy, I can't accept it." Han Ziqi snatched the group photo from Lu Tinglan's hand and tore it hard.

"Don't! Don't!" Lu Tinglan rushed over frantically, held Han Ziqi down, and prevented him from moving further.

"Lu Tinglan, why should I be dominated by you and kept in the dark." Han Ziqi tugged at his collar, "Why don't you say anything? In your heart, am I so unworthy of knowing your past? ?”

Lu Tinglan's eyes turned red, and he roared, "Do you know what my past is all about?"

"Whatever it is, I don't care!"

"But I care!" Lu Tinglan's eyes dimmed, and he just let it go, "I don't want you to be implicated because of me."

"I'm not afraid." Han Ziqi tried to wrap his arms around his neck.

"But I'm afraid." Lu Tinglan's eyes were full of fear, "I'm afraid that you will be like my brother and sister-in-law. Someone will use a blade to peel off the flesh layer by layer, and then throw it into a meat grinder and grind it to pieces."

"Watching them crying and wailing in front of me, but still screaming hoarsely, telling me over and over again, Ting Lan, don't be afraid, you have to live well."

"I was afraid of being injected with anesthesia, so I could only watch them being tortured to death with my own eyes, and seeing the blood staining my clothes red along the ground, but it was so sad that I didn't even have the strength to bite my tongue and kill myself."

"My sister-in-law was five months pregnant, but they cut open her stomach in front of me, and threw the formed child into the meat grinder together."

"I don't regret dying, I don't deserve to live." Lu Tinglan trembled all over, "But I'm afraid he will treat you in the same way. You shouldn't be punished because of me, so just ask you to live."

"And your brother, if it wasn't for me, he wouldn't be lying in the hospital. It's my fault, all my fault."

"I beg you, please stay away from me, okay?" Lu Tinglan was tortured to a shattered state, "I just want you to be okay and live a good life, that's all."

Han Ziqi had never seen Lu Tinglan so vulnerable. The man he thought was strong enough to cover half of the sky needed protection more than anyone else.

At this time, he just wanted to go forward and hug this person, like this person once protected himself, protect him in a safe territory without wind and rain, comfort him, and kiss him.

But he didn't dare, and couldn't.Compared with the reality, Han Ziqi's body is skinny, and when the strong wind blows, he will be scattered in all directions.

He hated himself for being vulnerable, so weak that he didn't even have the courage to go forward and hug his lover.

Han Ziqi stood up from the ground where he was slumped, supported the table and talked, and forced a hoarse voice, "Okay, I understand."

After finishing speaking, Han Ziqi turned and left.

Even if there are thousands of words in my heart, so what.

At this moment, Lu Tinglan only wanted to hear one sentence.

I will go away from you.

Forget it.

tired.

So be it.

On a deep winter night, the biting cold wind can blow away all the courage in a person, not to mention that he is already vulnerable.

Han Ziqi took out his phone and sent a message.

"Professor Fu's saliva or MIT's hot pot, which one is more unbearable?"

Lu Tinglan recovered from the muddy dream when Situ Jing broke into his house the next day.

"Old Lu, are you tired of living?" Situ Jing looked at the embarrassed man leaning on the bed with disgust on his face, "Look at your virtue."

Situ Jing looked at the mess on the ground, and Lu Tinglan was still holding the pieced together photos in his hand, which basically restored the general outline of the story.

He took out the drawer of the bedside table and squatted on the ground to help clean up the mess.

Broken glass picture frames were all over the floor, and he carefully put the pure gold picture frames and sugar wrappers into the drawer, and finally picked up the pig's head portrait with "I am Han Ting Song" written on it.

"Old Lu, you're just a brat, why did you torture yourself like this?"

Situ Jing didn't expect the other party to pay attention to him, and continued to talk to himself, "Really, in this matter, you are the one who is guilty, and he deserves it for being so angry."

"You clearly know what you are burdened with, so why bother to provoke him." Situ Jing shook his head and sighed, "It's my fault too, I thought you were just playing around and didn't take it seriously, otherwise, I would have stopped you long ago."

Lu Tinglan finally gave some feedback, "What do you mean?"

Situ Jing smiled helplessly, "Old Lu, you don't really think that the things you did there back then can be hidden from anyone's notice, do you?"

"Are you spying on me?" Lu Tinglan suddenly went crazy and grabbed Situ Jing by the collar.However, due to his weak body, he needs to rely on the other hand to support the ground in order to maintain his balance.

The ground was covered with glass stubble from broken picture frames, which directly pierced into his palm.

"Surveillance?" Situ Jing remained unmoved, and said with a sneer, "Yes, if you regard protection as surveillance, then you can think so, I am spying on you."

"Protection? Your protection made Han Ziqi's elder brother admitted to the hospital, where he is still in a coma!"

Situ Jing pulled him away, and said viciously: "First of all, I only protect you, and I have nothing to do with that Han Ziqi and his brother. Also, if my people didn't arrive in time, you think his brother would Is it as simple as lying on a hospital bed?"

Lu Tinglan lowered his eyes and clenched his fists tightly.

"Lu Tinglan, don't pass your mistakes on to others." Situ Jing pointed at his nose, "How many times I urged you to come back, it's because you stayed at his house and didn't leave. That's what happened later! "

"You think you're hiding perfectly, and the whole world doesn't know what you're thinking." Situ Jing sneered, "But you're a fucking idiot!"

"Don't think I don't know. When you saw your brother and sister-in-law die with your own eyes, you didn't want to live. After being taken in by that kid who was stupider than you, you just wanted to indulge."

"You're not even afraid of death, so what do you care about! Looking at that innocent and funny little kid, playing and playing, one day you get tired of it, you'll just die."

"I didn't expect to tease others, and ended up trapping myself." Situ Jing couldn't help laughing, "Lu Tinglan, since you plan to be a jerk, then be it to the end, what the hell do you care about? Aren't you afraid of death? ? If you want to kiss, you can kiss, if you want to fuck, you can fuck!"

"You fucking want to kiss but don't dare, so you finally find yourself a ridiculous excuse to have sex after drinking. Lu Tinglan, don't you know how much you drink? To you, a few bottles of beer are no different from drinking plain water! "

"You never imagined that a little kid would make you lose your principles, and you couldn't control yourself to get close to him. But if this is the case, why are you still struggling? You obviously want to possess him like crazy, fuck him, and want to put him on the bed ravages, ravages, listens to him breathing in your ear, but forces yourself to behave like a gentleman."

"Lu Tinglan, you don't really think that you are a person of high moral character!" Situ Jing pulled away the threatening arm, "Fart!"

"What's the use of your restraint and forbearance, if you don't destroy his heart."

Lu Tinglan sat on the ground slumped with one knee bent, eyes downcast, without even a chance to refute.

Situ Jing stood up, and threw the medicine and rice that he brought with him beside Lu Tinglan, "I can do it myself."

Then, he left Lu Tinglan in the room and left.

There were countless sleepless nights, and Lu Tinglan hoped that Hantingsong really existed in this world.He had nothing, no money, was taken in by a child, and in the days to come he was a rogue, staying in his house without any scruples.

At least he can protect him, even own him.

Yang Xi gave Han Ziqi a detailed list of going abroad, and as someone who has been there, contacted him to buy supplies for going abroad.

Han Ziqi pushed the shopping cart in the supermarket, browsing the detailed list.

But he knew very well that he didn't need to buy these things at all, and Lu Tinglan must have arranged everything for him long ago.

But Han Ziqi is eager to be busy, only in this way can he not have time to think wildly.

Han Ziqi went to school yesterday, only to find out that Lu Tinglan had already completed the suspension procedures for him.Compared with MIT's degree, Hunan University is not worth mentioning at all, but Lu Tinglan gave him the greatest respect and did not withdraw from school.

If there is a chance to come back, he will complete the courses and graduate smoothly.

After purchasing, Han Ziqi took a taxi back to school to pack his luggage.

As soon as he walked downstairs to the dormitory, he saw a figure waiting for him.

Although he only met once, Han Ziqi also recognized him as Lu Tinglan's friend.

Situ Jing wore brown sunglasses on the bridge of his nose and was dressed flamboyantly. He walked up to him, "Boy, do you have time for a chat?"

"Where are we going to talk?" Han Ziqi said without emotion.

Situ Jing beckoned, "Get in the car."

Han Ziqi sat in the co-pilot, "What do you want to say?"

"I heard about your flight tomorrow night?"

"Ah."

"Excited? I'm going to study at a top university in the world. You have to know that not everyone has this kind of opportunity." Situ Jing did not forget to tease him.

"What do you want to say?" Han Ziqi was not interested in making friends with him here.

Situ Jing clicked his tongue, "I suggest you go and see him."

"He won't want to see me."

"He is dying now, how can he care about anything else."

Han Ziqi's heart tightened, "Where is he?"

"The small villa in Xihu Lake, Tianshan Mountain."

"Thank you." Han Ziqi opened the car door sideways and left.

"Hey, what are you in a hurry for, I'll see you off."

Han Ziqi closed the car door and fastened his seat belt.

Situ Jing was halfway through the car and tapped the brakes, "Damn it, I forgot the key, that bastard must not have the strength to open the door."

"Fuck, that bastard won't give me a spare key to this villa, and I have to search for another house." Situ Jing got angry.

"No, I have it here."

Situ Jing raised his eyebrows, and immediately realized, "That's right, he prepared this house for you."

Han Ziqi's heart was stabbed again by the speaker, "What happened to him?"

"What else can you do? Since you left his house, you started to have a fever. You didn't eat or drink. I was afraid that he would die, so I went to him twice. The last time, he just drove to the villa and locked me out. .”

Han Ziqi's heart was held by a pair of hands, delusionally trying to separate it from his chest, the pain flowed upstream along the direction of blood flow.

But the heart is gone, why does it still hurt.

The car drove all the way to the front of the villa and stopped.

Han Ziqi unbuckled his seat belt, anxious, "Thank you."

Situ Jing pulled out a bag from behind and gave it to him, "There are medicines and ingredients for making things in it, you can find what you can use."

Han Ziqi took it, "Thank you."

Han Ziqi came to the door of the villa, turned on the key and walked up the spiral staircase. On the bed where the two of them had slept together, he saw Lu Tinglan leaning against the bed.

At this time, Lu Tinglan's face was full of fatigue, and he was no longer as energetic as before.

It wasn't until Han Ziqi stood beside him that the man realized the arrival of the other party belatedly.

Eyes that were bright and bright before have lost their color now.

"Don't chase me away." Han Ziqi handed a glass of warm water to his mouth, "This is the last time I will take the initiative to find you, and I will never do it again."

Han Ziqi helped him back to the bed, comforted him with a cup of warm milk, and handed him a piece of antipyretic medicine.

Lu Tinglan didn't say a word, even though his eyes were already dim, he couldn't bear to move away from Han Ziqi every second.

Han Ziqi helped Lu Tinglan to lie down on the pillow, only to notice Lu Tinglan's palm.

He was still holding the torn photo at his fingertips, and his bare palms were full of scars from glass shards, some of which had sunk into his palms, formed scabs, and merged with flesh and blood.

Han Ziqi endured the pain, took out the medicine box, and gently raised Lu Tinglan's arm.

The palms that wanted to spread out were tightly clasped by the photo held by the fingertips. Han Ziqi tried to break them apart, but found that the man's reverse grip was stronger.

"I'll take a look at the wound for you, and you hold it with the other hand." Han Ziqi tried to comfort him for a long time before the man let go.

Han Ziqi gently spread his palm, and the shocking scars made Han Ziqi unable to breathe.

He took out the tweezers to pinch out the glass shards embedded in the flesh bit by bit, gently applied the medicine on it, and finally wrapped the gauze layer by layer.

It's just that they are no longer an intimate relationship where they can casually blow each other's wounds, even those wounds still hurt his heart unscrupulously.

The past that they have experienced together has been engraved in Han Ziqi's heart and placed in a territory that will never be discovered by others.

Going around in a big circle, mustering up so much courage, and finally returning to the original ending.

The love that I tried my best to say, but was beaten back to the original place by reality.

After comforting Lu Tinglan to sleep, Han Ziqi took the ingredients to the kitchen and helped him prepare dinner.

Originally not good at cooking, he once worked hard to cook for that person, just to get a word of his liking.

But after tonight, he won't have to cook anymore.

Han Ziqi came to the bedroom with porridge, and Lu Tinglan was fast asleep.He didn't want to disturb, and sat quietly by the bed.

Even though he was at a close distance, Han Ziqi only dared to maintain a polite relationship.

Lu Tinglan frowned, Han Ziqi really wanted to help him get rid of his troubles, but he didn't dare, and couldn't.

Han Ziqi looked at Lu Tinglan unmovingly, wishing to remember him forever.Han Ziqi didn't know, after tonight, when they would meet again.

It may be one month, two months, one year, two years, or even the rest of my life, but I can't get the chance to meet again.

Until Lu Tinglan opened his eyes, Han Ziqi, who was worried about being noticed, quickly avoided his eyes, got up and went to the kitchen to heat the porridge.

After that, they acted like a silent movie, and all communication was done through mechanical movements.

Han Ziqi held the rice bowl and fed the porridge to Lu Tinglan spoon by spoon.

The eyes of the two people are in the same way, if you look at me, I will pretend not to notice, and when I look at you, you will deliberately avoid pulling.

After dinner, Han Ziqi went to the kitchen to wash the dishes, and then cleaned the already spotless house again.After finishing everything he could think of, Han Ziqi could no longer find an excuse to stay here.

He came to Lu Tinglan's room, and the other person's complexion recovered a lot after taking the medicine.It's just that the bandaged hand was still holding the group photo, and in the dark environment, needle by needle was torturing his nerves.

Han Ziqi took a deep breath, held the key to Lu Tinglan's house, and came to the bedside.

"You rest well, I..."

The "I'm leaving" that is obviously easy to say, in his eyes, is like a child who is just learning to speak, unable to say it with all his strength.

Since you can't say it, it's better to show it with actions, Han Ziqi turned and left.

But in the next second, a hot, gauze-like hand grasped his wrist.

Han Ziqi could feel the opponent's weakness, but he almost tried his best to keep his slender arm.

Maybe it was because the opponent was too strong and he couldn't break free, or maybe it was just the slightest reluctance in his heart.

The two remained in this posture for a while, and Han Ziqi said, "You..."

The organization hadn't spoken for a long time, and without warning, Lu Tinglan pulled him towards the bed.

Han Ziqi's body was weightless, and he fell on the bed and was hugged tightly in his arms.

The other party's hug made him breathless, and he didn't even have the strength to break free.

Besides, he didn't want to break free.

Han Ziqi leaned on Lu Tinglan's chest, listening to the familiar heartbeat.

It wasn't the first time the two embraced, nor did they sleep together for the first time.But only this time, Han Ziqi vainly wanted to remember his breathing, and wished he could lose his memory in the next second.

The young man clung to the man's arms, clutching the corner of his clothes with all his strength with his fingertips, reluctant to let go.

"This is the last time." The boy hated crying, but couldn't help being weak in front of him, "I will never like you again.

That sentence of liking that was never spoken, but a sentence of liking that I will never say again, ended the ending that had not yet begun.

The author has something to say:

I am originally from academic background, but I am soft-hearted and emotional, and I often hate myself for being like this.

When I first wrote this chapter, I was really in pain, and I even wanted to change this ending more than once. I didn't want to give Mr. Lu such a painful past.

But I can't help it, without adding these, all the previous plots will not make sense.If he hadn't been tortured like this, the mighty Mr. Lu wouldn't have become like this, let alone send Xiao Han away cruelly.

After all, he likes it like crazy.

Maybe his way was wrong, but there was nothing he could do.

But it doesn't matter, the next chapter will punish the bad guys, solve the problem, and then start to recover the love happily!

If this chapter makes you sad, then... come here, let me hug you, okay?

感谢在2021-08-1808:51:21~2021-08-1908:48:24期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: Z&W 3 bottles;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!