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"I haven't thought it through yet." Zhou Feng spoke at a leisurely pace, but it couldn't cover up the turmoil in her heart.

"I didn't think about it, but I have a lot to say to me."

"I can't let you down."

Jiang Yinqi chuckled, "It seems that I am very important."

"Xiao Qi, actually I have a hunch that you will call today."

"In other words, you are waiting for my call."

Zhou Feng said angrily: "Don't comment on every word I say."

Jiang Yinqi giggled, Zhou Feng's annoyed expression remained unchanged.

Jiang Yinqi just smiled, and obediently did not answer.Zhou Feng could finally talk without being interrupted.

"I have often been thinking recently that you will definitely call. 2020 has indeed given each of us the opportunity to examine our own lives."

"I used to think that a boring life was not worth living. I thought death was a kind of relief. This year I found that I was actually afraid of death. It's not that death itself is terrible, but that if you look back at life, it turns out to be empty , It would be too disappointing to die like this. I haven’t done a lot of things I like, and I haven’t lived for myself. How can I come to an end? A boring life is not worth living, but as long as you are alive, there is hope for change.”

"The irony is that on New Year's Day this year, I was just about to change, and I made myself a new year's plan to travel alone, but the plan was smashed in an instant. I couldn't go anywhere. I couldn't even visit Meow. "

"Meow? Where did Meow go?" Jiang Yinqi asked in surprise.In her mind, Meow was always just a child, and even she only remembered that it was an annoying little baby who sucked and shit.In fact, this probably proves that Zhou Feng's idea is not wrong, Jiang Yinqi has never been a person who likes children.

"Miaomiao has already gone to college, and is in the United States." Zhou Feng said of Miaomiao, with a more gentle tone.

"Ah, incredible. He has grown up so much. What major does he study? Is it our colleague?"

"No, he majored in museums."

"Interesting, the museum, this major is Zhou Feng. It must be the result of you taking him on a trip."

"This major is not Zhou Feng's choice. He has his own ideas. In his words, an education method like mine that relies purely on language is not attractive at all, and an excellent museum is a more progressive education. strength."

"His ambition is to be a successful "museum teacher", a teacher who does not use face-to-face language communication but uses exhibits and labels to express. Can you see it? He is so rebellious and always uses me as a negative example , a target for his rebellion."

Zhou Feng spoke of Miaomiao in a rather different tone, with irrepressible pride.

Jiang Yinqi was surprised that a child could have such a clear claim, and even for a moment she forgot to be jealous with Miaomiao. "You are really amazing. You have raised such an excellent son. From your description, I can't see him denying and rebelling against you at all. What I see is his love for you and his similarity to you. It looks like He doesn't like to talk, at least he doesn't rely on words so much. He is deeply influenced by you. He is competing with you and making up for your shortcomings. Competing with you shows that he respects you; making up for your shortcomings is because Love and distress."

Zhou Feng's gentle laughter came from the other end of the phone. Children are the tenderest part of every mother's heart, and Zhou Feng is no exception. "So, you and Miaomiao are the two masterpieces of my life."

Jiang Yinqi answered, "Ha, am I also your masterpiece? Indeed, I followed your ideals and Meow Meow expanded your world. With these two masterpieces, how can you deny your life? Is it empty? This is the best reward for your efforts. I can imagine that you must often take Miaomiao on trips and show him museums, right? This education model is very Zhou Feng."

"Yes, I have been taking Miaomiao on trips. I have taken him to see many museums. Sometimes I am very emotional, children grow up so fast."

"At first, he was still young, so I could only hold his hand, not let him be lazy, and explain each painting to him. When he was too tired to leave, I would sometimes put him in the I listened to lectures and graffiti with the children in the studio of the museum. I went to see it alone for a while, and then came back to pick him up. Slowly, he began to choose what to see by himself. He has his own preferences and his own tour route. We can Dialogue can be discussed. Later, I could not keep up with his pace. I would often sit in a coffee shop and he would visit by himself, and then come to pick me up. The greatest feeling of raising a child is that he is growing, and I I'm getting old. It's both gratifying and sad." Speaking of Miao Miao, Zhou Feng was very excited and talked more.

Jiang Yinqi sighed, "You sent Miaomiao to the United States, just like you sent me away back then. You, send all the people you love so far away."

Zhou Feng replied, "If you keep entangled with me, you will stagnate. This is the natural law of human development."

"You're confusing concepts. The laws of nature you're talking about only apply to Meow. Neither of us. Besides, Meow and I are both moving forward, so what about you?"

Zhou Feng said, "So I was thinking, it's time for me to enjoy traveling alone."

Jiang Yinqi couldn't help asking, "Traveling alone? Is I still not in your plan?"

"Xiao Qi, I envy you so many opportunities to travel alone. I want to travel at my own pace and taste. I can walk as I want, rest as I want. It's very comfortable. You know me, alone, it's me One of my biggest dreams. Let me make that dream come true.”

Jiang Yinqi sighed.Such a choice is very Zhou Feng, she has not changed.

The world is full of contradictions, and the most attractive trait in Zhou Feng is precisely the biggest obstacle to the love between the two of them.

Strangely, Jiang Yinqi found that even though he was disappointed, he was not as sad and self-pitying as expected.She was finally able to look at the love between her and Zhou Feng calmly.

"Well, after all these years, I can understand you. It must be easier to shoot a Cupid's arrow than to receive one. It is easier to give love than to receive it."

Zhou Feng paused for a long time before saying softly, "Xiao Qi, thank you."

"no need thank me?"

"Don't ask knowingly."

"So, how would you like to thank me?"

"I will go to Guangyin Pavilion to eat cherries and look at maple leaves."

Jiang Yinqi laughed loudly, "Do you want to live in Guangyin Pavilion for a year, or do you want to come to Guangyin Pavilion many times?"

Zhou Feng smiled without saying a word.That laugh was a relief.Jiang Yinqi has truly matured.

"Xiaoqi, there is one more request." Zhou Feng said, "Don't tell others about the two of us. I have lost you, I don't want to be judged by others, and I don't want to lose my dignity again."

"You said I told Xin Yue about this? No, you haven't lost Xin Yue's respect." Jiang Yinqi argued.

"Then don't tell others about me, I won't allow it." Zhou Feng's tone was capricious and domineering.