give me a hug

When Xie Jiaran returned to the dormitory, Liang Suinian hadn't come back yet.

Shen Xuehao was wearing earphones and was busy writing homework, while Li Tang was sitting cross-legged on a stool with his computer on, watching the live broadcast of the game, shaking his head and chatting with his girlfriend Lianmai.

Xie Jiaran didn't disturb them, went in quietly to put down her things, took clean clothes and went to the bathroom.

Water was poured from the shower head, and the wet hair was dripping with water on the forehead, and the body was also soaked quickly. The cool water temperature did not make the cold white skin faint pink.

He finished washing in silence, turned off the water, the eyelashes were stained with water, and the movement of raising his eyes became a little heavy.

The person in the mirror was also looking at him, and the drops of water from the eyelashes seemed to fall on his heart, and it also weighed heavily on his chest.

Will it be too far away?

he thinks.

It was the first time he liked someone, and he didn't know how to keep a reasonable distance, so he could only practice from his poor understanding.

He didn't know what to do if he went too far, because as long as he got closer, he couldn't help but want to get closer, and get closer...

Until the distance he opened was completely crushed, he would turn back into that clingy spirit again.

It's actually not too sticky.

...Do you want to go on like this forever?

Then he will definitely have an emotional breakdown one day because he can't stand it.

The boy in the mirror frowned sadly, his brows and eyes were sparse.

I never realized that my feelings can be so warm.It's only been a day, and he feels that he can't bear it anymore.

I can't bear it, obviously I have finally become the closest person to him, and finally I can justifiably hold hands and hug him in the most intimate posture, but I still have to be restricted by the so-called "extending the shelf life of love".

However, he was also reluctant to part with him.

If because of his clumsiness, their relationship returns from lovers to friends, to roommates, to the same position as him and other good brothers...

Just thinking about it made him feel so uncomfortable that he couldn't breathe smoothly.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, and when I opened them again, it seemed that I had finally made a decision.

She stopped blowing her hair, and reached out to take off her clothes and quickly put them on.

He doesn't want to be so ignorant all the time!

He's going to find Liang Suinian, and he's going to ask him personally how far he can keep from the bottom line, and where is the limit that he can accept being approached by him.

When Liang Suinian gives the standard, he can carefully draw a circle along the standard, and he can always stand on the edge of the circle, no matter how much he thinks about it, he will never take a step closer.

But it won't back down.

He won't accept any further distance.

The November wind has quietly carried the bitterness.

He opened the door, and the cold wind that had been squatting at the door for a long time couldn't wait to rush in, domineeringly squeezing the warm air in the bathroom to the corner.

Subconsciously shivered, but the hurried steps only lasted until he stepped out of the bathroom.

——But he was shocked to find that the person he was thinking about was on the balcony, leaning against the railing facing out, his face buried in the palm of his hand, and the night couldn't hide the frustration revealed from him.

The well-thought-out draft was messed up again.

He froze in place: "Brother..."

Liang Suinian raised his head and glanced at the darkness in the distance.

Then he took a deep breath, put down his hand, turned around and strode in front of him.

Xie Jiaran looked up at him, before he had time to think about what to say, Liang Suinian had already bent down to hold his cheek, lowered his head and kissed him quickly on the lips.

"..."

Xie Jiaran's heartbeat seemed to have missed half a beat.

Subconsciously taking half a step back against the wall, Liang Suinian followed, holding his shoulder with his palm, easily trapping him between himself and the wall.

The door of the bathroom is open, which is the boundary line between cold wind and warm air. They are slowly but forcefully merging with each other, colliding with another unique temperature.

Liang Suinian pressed his forehead against his, and his appearance was reflected in his eyes, just like his mood at the moment.

"Of course, are you angry?"

He spoke in a low voice, revealing a sense of loss and grievance.

Xie Jiaran's eyelashes trembled, before he could speak, he was kissed again.

It wasn't the usual aggression-filled kiss, it was just the purest lip-to-lip touch.

The other party is like a big dog that has made a mistake and begged for mercy. It wants to get closer, but it is cautious not to dare to get too close.

"Is it because I've been so stupid and failed in love that you don't want to talk to me anymore?"

They were so close that they seemed to touch each other's eyelashes with every blink.

It's just that the light in his eyes dimmed a lot.

The big boy who is always sunny and cheerful and free from worries is also experiencing the ups and downs of love at this moment.

"Why...don't you cling to me anymore?"

Xie Jiaran almost emptied his mind to accept his guilt and disappointment kisses again and again.

Emotions continued to accumulate and swell in the chest cavity, until hearing Liang Suinian's last words, an unspeakable sourness quickly flooded the nasal cavity.

Xie Jiaran's eyes turned red.

Before Liang Suinian could say the next word, he sniffed, raised his arms around his neck and kissed him forcefully.

The teeth collided recklessly against the lips, causing a dull pain.

Liang Sunian's reaction was only half a beat late.

In the next second, she grabbed the back of his head and kissed back without hesitation.

Just like recovering a lost and recovered treasure, one's heartbeat also has a tendency to be noisy.

Fortunately, he can still get the response from his beloved, he is so happy that he likes it and doesn't know what to do.

The corners of Xie Jiaran's eyes were moist, Liang Sunian's movements gradually froze when he rubbed his fingertips inadvertently.

He carefully backed away a little distance, and met the other's still moist red eyes.

Carefully kissing away the tears from the corners of his eyes, Liang Suinian felt distressed: "What's wrong?"

"Did I hurt you?"

"elder brother."

Xie Jiaran's voice was a little nasal.

He is like the last one in a group of children to receive candy.

Even though the candy he got was the sweetest and the biggest, even though he knew that he was still the one who was favored, he still couldn't help but feel aggrieved by his previous experience.

"Will you not like me clinging to you?"

"...?"

what?

Liang Suinian's expression turned into astonishment in an instant.

This... who put the hat on him?

He had never felt so wronged before.

Really, he wasn't so wronged even when he took the blame for his cousin when he was a child and claimed that he broke his aunt's high heels.

"Who told you I don't like it anymore?"

He clicked his tongue and explained almost urgently: "I obviously wish I could take you with me everywhere, or if you work harder, you can take me with you everywhere."

"If it weren't for the conditions, I would want to wear your paintbrush, your drawing board, your eraser, and even your 2b pencil refill."

"Ran Ran."

He was very puzzled: "I obviously can't leave you, why do you think I don't want you to cling to me?"

Xie Jiaran couldn't tell what mood she was in right now.

I felt sour and soft on the tip of my heart, as if I had been sprinkled with a glass of sugar water mixed with lemon and honey.

Liang Suinian's words made him want to laugh, but also to cry.

When he asked the question he was worried about before, he no longer felt uneasy: "I'm afraid you think I don't give you private space, and I'm afraid you think I'm bothering you too much——"

He was interrupted by Liang Suinian before he finished speaking.

"Of course, I don't know what it's like for other people to fall in love, but with me, you don't have to be so obedient at all."

Not only is the boyfriend not angry, but he is still thinking about him wholeheartedly. Whenever Liang Suinian thinks of this, his heart becomes so sour.

"We are a couple, not roommates during the running-in period. What I'm afraid of is not that you won't give me my private space, let alone that you will disturb me."

"On the contrary, what I'm afraid of is obviously that you leave me too much private space. I'm afraid that you won't disturb me, that you don't want to stay with me, and that you don't like to cling to me."

His tongue was almost tied up, trying to search for all the words that could express his feelings: "Many times I can't express my feelings, and I don't know how to express my feelings, but I really want to do my best for you."

"I hope you can receive the most love, and I hope you will never be troubled, even the lowest level of troubles such as what to eat at noon, what to eat at night, and what to eat tomorrow."

There was too much to convey, and the vocabulary was too tight. After talking in a mess, Liang Suinian was almost speechless to himself.

"Ran Ran."

He said: "You said that you want to fall in love with me more than I imagined, and I also want to tell you that I like you must be much more than you imagined."

Xie Jiaran lowered her head and buried her in the crescent of his neck, and wiped all the oozing tears on her boyfriend's collar politely.

"Oh."

His eyes were wet, the corners of his mouth were curled up, and he was crying and laughing foolishly, not wanting to be seen, so he only let out a low voice: "Got it."

It turns out that the universal law of love does not apply to everyone, and some of his concerns are unfounded.

Boyfriend, I know you like me so much.

Liang Suinian was relieved.

Relieved, he touched his head, only to realize that he came out without even drying his hair.

Disapproval flashed across his eyes, he bit his cheek and was about to say something, when he heard the little ostrich hiding on his shoulder ask: "Then, what exactly are you trying to tell me these two days?"

He wouldn't have misunderstood him if it wasn't for someone who always hesitated to speak halfway.

After waiting for a long while without any response, Xie Jiaran looked up at him suspiciously, and saw the latter touching the tip of his nose, and sighed resentfully: "Okay, I'm going to have a showdown."

He confessed honestly: "Xiao Chi said that I have a close relationship with you like a brother, so I feel that I have turned love into an obsession again. I am afraid that you will dislike me for not being able to fall in love, but I don't know what to do."

He still feels inexplicable when he thinks about it now: "Tsk, I'm obviously not your brother, I'm your boyfriend."

Xie Jiaran wanted to laugh.

"No one says you are not, and you don't need to do anything special, you have done enough."

Liang Suinian blinked: "Really?"

"Ah."

Xie Jiaran gave him an affirmative answer: "Really."

He looked into his eyes, and laughed at him unceremoniously: "So it's just these things, and Xiao Liang didn't say anything for two days?"

Liang Suinian was silent for two seconds: "No, there is actually one more serious one."

Xie Jiaran: "Huh?"

Liang Suinian said slowly, "Of course, do you like being on top or below?"

"..."

Xie Jiaran's expression froze.

When he realized what he was referring to, his face turned red.

After two days of digestion, Liang Sunian was able to face this matter calmly, but now seeing Xie Jiaran's blushing ears, he couldn't help but feel uncomfortable again.

"It's just... Let me read it on the Internet. This matter is quite serious. For the sake of... the harmony in the future, it's best to discuss it when we first date. Of course I don't care, it's fine, just see—"

"what ever!"

Xie Jiaran quickly interrupted him, after thinking about it, he felt that such an answer would not solve the problem, afraid that he would ask again in the future, so he suddenly added with blinking eyes: "Above...the ones above are too tired, I am too lazy to move."

Liang Suinian thought, this is what it means to let him be on top?

Although he also felt that such a distribution method was more reasonable, in order not to let his boyfriend suffer from too little understanding, he decided to give him a good science on the advantages and disadvantages of the difference between upper and lower.

"Of course, are you sure? Although I'm not tired down here, I heard that it will hurt a little for the first time—hmm"

Xie Jiaran was about to spontaneously combust on the spot.

Unbearable, she raised her head and hooked his neck, and once again blocked his mouth with the quickest and most effective method.

Dang-

Something fell to the ground and made a sudden crisp sound, which woke up the young couple who were kissing.

The two immediately separated and subconsciously looked towards the source of the sound.

Li Tang, who was supposed to have a sweet chat with his girlfriend in the dormitory, was holding a cup and standing at the door dumbfounded.

His right hand remained rigid in mid-air while holding the object, and the spoon was lying not far from his feet, and the reflected halo gave off a sense of serenity.