give me a hug

Xie Jiaran was in the dormitory brushing the formal logic test paper.

It's just that I didn't concentrate very much, my eyes continued to pause on a question for a long time, and I didn't know what I was thinking in a daze, and the tip of the pen drew a crooked mark on the scroll.

Li Tang and Shen Xuehao were in class, and he was the only one in the dormitory, so quiet that he could hear the sound of the wind flowing.

But even so, he didn't hear the sound of the door opening which was almost close to his ear, until someone dragged a chair and sat down next to him, he turned his head belatedly.

"Why did you come back?"

He looked at Liang Suinian in surprise: "Aren't you playing ball?"

"Xiao Chi hurried back to the dormitory to feed his son, and the show ended."

After Liang Suinian finished speaking, his eyes fell on the test paper he hadn't moved for a long time: "Can't do it?"

Xie Jiaran hesitated for a moment, then nodded: "En."

Liang Suinian raised the corner of his mouth, his eyes were filled with amber light: "Then do you want one-on-one tutoring?"

A "temporary teacher" came, and Xie Jiaran's inability to concentrate not only did not improve, but became more serious.

All he heard was Liang Suinian's voice, but he couldn't receive any of what the voice said. All he could hear were the answers given to him by Chen Wenyao in the gymnasium not long ago.

Teacher Liang was also a little distracted, and he ran wildly on the wrong train of thought for a long time before realizing that he had made a mistake long ago.

Reluctantly clicked his tongue, trying to correct it in time, but found that the people beside him did not respond.

Looking up, he saw that his only student had already lost his mind, his eyes were lowered, and the pen in his hand fell on the table at some point, but he didn't notice it.

Two absent-minded people got together, one was talking nonsense, the other was not listening, and they didn't know who was perfunctory whom.

"Student Xie, what are you thinking?" Liang Suinian tugged at the cloth on his arm, bringing him back to his senses.

Xie Jiaran's eyelashes trembled twice, his eyes quickly refocused, and he said in a low voice, "Sorry."

Liang Suinian turned his pen and tapped lightly on the test paper, smiled and said nothing.

After Xie Jiaran said that sentence, he didn't speak again, the atmosphere quieted down, and the ear-piercing wind became dominant again.

Xie Jiaran lowered her head, pinched the ring finger of her left hand with her right hand, twisted it, and then let it go.

Repeat this back and forth.

After a while, he suddenly asked, "Have you had a girlfriend before?"

At the same time, Liang Suinian also asked, "Do you want to introduce someone to me?"

"..."

"..."

The two voices overlapped, each distinguishing each other's words, and their expressions were tacitly stunned.

Xie Jiaran was the first to react, his eyes filled with confusion: "I want to introduce someone to you?"

who said it?

He himself is still worried about how to win the person, how could he want to introduce someone to him?

Liang Suinian: "Didn't you go to Chen Wenyao to find out if I've ever been in a relationship and what kind of girl I like? Didn't you want to introduce me?"

This misunderstanding is a bit big.

Xie Jiaran immediately shook her head: "I'm just curious and just asking casually, I don't want to introduce you to someone." After a pause, he added: "I don't know any suitable girls to introduce to you."

The speed of speech was half a beat faster than usual, as if he was afraid that he would chase him and ask him to help introduce.

Liang Sunian was amused by him, and the backlog of boredom in his heart was swept away: "Don't worry, I'm just asking, I don't mean to ask you to introduce me."

Xie Jiaran said dryly, and after waiting for a while, he couldn't wait for him to return to the original topic, and couldn't help but ask again: "So have you really had a girlfriend?"

Liang Suinian snorted, "Chen Wenyao told you that?"

Xie Jiaran: "He said he didn't meet you in college, but it seems that you did in high school."

"High school..."

Liang Suinian clicked his fingertips on the table as if he was thinking, and seemed to accidentally glance at Xie Jiaran who was waiting for his reply with his eyes slightly wide open, like a cat with its head upside down waiting for its owner to open a can, it still smiled uncontrollably.

"Student Xie, why are you suddenly gossiping?" He asked with a smile.

Although Xie Jiaran was at a loss for words, he still tried his best to organize his words calmly: "No, I'm just asking casually. I'm trying to find some reference for my quick practice in painting recently."

Liang Suinian was curious: "What speed training needs love history as a reference? Are you drawing girl comics?"

"..."

Xie Jiaran couldn't find an excuse anymore, and her eyes began to dodge guiltily.

Fortunately, Liang Suinian did not insist on getting an answer.

Seeing his embarrassment, he turned the topic back to himself, thinking about the appropriate way of expression: "Is it love... To tell you the truth, I might, barely, be 'talked about'?"

Xie Jiaran immediately turned her gaze back to him, not noticing some of his strange words, and only focused on what she wanted to hear: "Is the other party a girl?"

Liang Suinian felt that he was a little bit cute today: "Of course, you're talking about girlfriend. If you're not a girl, can you still be a boy?"

Xie Jiaran's expression froze.

The mood is like being fished out of the soy sauce jar and then wrapped in chili noodles and stuffed into the vinegar jar, with mixed flavors.

For a moment, he didn't know whether he should be sad about the girl he liked, or whether he should be jealous of the girl who once gave Liang Suinian the title of boyfriend.

"Oh."

He clenched his palms tightly, and said in a calm tone, "It was in high school, right? How long have you been talking, and why did you break up again later?"

That memory was so deep that Liang Suinian didn't even need to spend time recalling it: "It was indeed in high school, the third year of high school. It's actually not appropriate to say we broke up, because it's a bit complicated."

How complicated is it?

The romantic kind?

Xie Jiaran had a cold face, her chest was so stuffy.

He began to regret why he wanted to make himself unhappy.

Let's talk about it, it's normal to have a puppy love, which high school student doesn't have a puppy love, maybe he has kissed and hugged others, it's no big deal——

"But if it really counts as a conversation, then I talked with her for about... more than half a minute?"

Liang Suinian guessed and said, "Well, maybe it should be shorter, 20 seconds?"

Xie Jiaran's sour thoughts were interrupted at once, and his expression froze: "Huh?"

20 seconds?

What's the meaning? ? ?

Liang Suinian said: "From when I knew I was in a relationship with her to when I was dumped, the process lasted about 20 seconds."

This can be regarded as a big oolong incident in his high school days, and now thinking about it, it is still hard to describe.

It all started on an afternoon in the summer of his third year in high school.

Chu Sisi, his neighbor and the only girl in their brotherhood, gave him a black hair rope on a whim one day for him to wear on his left wrist.

Liang Suinian was stupid back then, studying all day long, brother, he played basketball, never played with girls, let alone what it meant to wear the rubber bands given by girls.

Seeing that several boys in the class were wearing them, he thought it was some popular decoration, and because he had to rush to the equipment room to get the equipment, he really put it on.

That is, from that day on, things became a little weird.

Chu Sisi suddenly doubled his kindness towards him, and began to bring him food every day, sometimes it was all kinds of sweets and desserts, and sometimes it was bread, egg tarts and biscuits that he baked himself.

But Liang Suinian didn't like to eat these, in the mind of sharing the blessings, after receiving it, he turned around and distributed all the fancy food to other brothers.

Chu Sisi sent him a message and made a video call in the middle of the night, but because he was used to going to bed early, he didn't receive it. The next day, he asked her why she didn't tell her something at school, and staying up late would affect her study the next day.

Chu Sisi said that the cafeteria was too crowded and didn't want to go, so he asked him to bring her food back. He nodded, but in the end, he only brought back one meal.

Chu Sisi was stunned looking at it, and the corner of her mouth twitched and asked him what share?Liang Suinian replied as a matter of course: "I, I ate in the cafeteria, so hurry up and eat while it's hot, I'm off to play."

Chu Sisi was left sitting alone in the classroom with a livid face.

Chu Sisi asked him to go out to play on weekends, but he couldn't figure out what fun it would be for the two of them, and he felt that it was only lively when there were many people, so he asked all the other brothers out.

When a group of people gathered at the entrance of the Internet cafe with their ID cards in their hands, Chu Sisi gritted his teeth and stood aside, his face was too dark to look at.

The matter continued without embarrassment, until Chu Sisi asked Liang Su Nian to spend it alone on her birthday, but when he asked the gang of brothers to buy cakes and enter the KTV surrounded by cakes, her endurance finally reached its limit and she broke out.

"Liang Suinian, can you figure it out, I, Chu Sisi, am not your brother!"

She stood behind the standing microphone, her voice echoed loudly throughout the room: "I just want to ask you now, are you fucking serious about dating me?!"

The voice was loud and deafening, at that moment Liang Su Nian was stunned, as were the few brothers who only knew how to speak.

The atmosphere fell into unprecedented embarrassment.

After brainstorming for a long time, and barely digesting the information in this sentence, Liang Suinian's head was full of question marks: "Brother Chu, when did we fall in love?"

Chu Sisi: "..."

Everyone: "...?"

Liang Suinian: "OoO???"

Similar to the emotions of the characters in the story, Xie Jiaran's ups and downs are like a roller coaster.

From jealousy, to bewilderment, to weirdness, and then to speechless, it only took a few minutes.

After a few years, it is still embarrassing to mention it now.

Liang Suinian sighed, and reflected on himself: "Actually, I knew I had said something wrong when I asked this, because her expression at that time almost wanted to swallow me whole."

"Then what happened later?"

Xie Jiaran finally recovered her voice: "You know what she means, you are not officially together?"

Liang Suinian shook his head: "Of course not."

After being yelled at at the top of his throat, he finally understood what the headband on his wrist meant, even though he had only worn it for less than half a day.

Unfortunately it was too late.

At that time, Chu Sisi was a giant fire-breathing dragon, with angry fire in his eyes.

Liang Suinian was inexplicably involved in a relationship, and his face was bewildered.

Those silly brothers didn't even dare to speak, shrank in the booth and shivered, with their mouths tightly closed, pretending to be quail.

Chu Sisi tried her best to calm down: "Well, I didn't think about it properly. I thought that boys all over the world knew what it meant to wear a headband. It didn't count that you slipped through the net."

She asked him seriously, "So now that you know that I like you, let me ask you formally, what do you think in your heart, do you want to be my boyfriend?"

The word "formal" is well used.

Inexplicably, Liang Suinian, who had been a good brother and boyfriend for a while like a playboy, was blankly silent, speechless.

how to say?

There is nothing more brotherhood can do than Jin Jian, after all, this kind of thing is the most taboo to procrastinate.

Liang Suinian thought hard about the wording of the refusal, but before he opened his mouth, Chu Sisi had already got the most direct answer from his expression.

"Okay, okay! Don't talk, I know!"

Chu Sisi gritted her back molars and took a deep breath, waved her hand boldly, and said loudly: "Listen Liang Suinian, I am announcing the cancellation of this relationship now! We have never talked, and you have never been my boyfriend."

"I don't want to throw my precious first love on you, an idiot!"

Apart from Liang Suinian, there is probably no other candidate for talking about love as brotherhood.

It would be a lie to say that he doesn’t feel guilty, even though Chu Sisi had emphasized eight hundred times that “I’m so generous and too lazy to argue with you” when she hated to instill in him the little knowledge about “hair rope” and other girls afterwards, he still felt so heavy I can't wait to help Chu Sisi go to the college entrance examination room and give her a full score in all subjects to make up for it.

Of course, from that time on, he no longer dared to take things from girls casually.

Although classmate Chu Sisi was pitiful, and even though Liang Suinian was innocent, Xie Jiaran couldn't help but turn from low to high and joyful.

"Then you haven't been in love, have you?"

He said: "The girl said that she wants to withdraw, you are not qualified to have an ex-girlfriend."

"really."

Liang Suinian smiled: "Although only a few of us know about this, there are quite a few people who have seen me wearing a headband, so at that time, when anyone with a half-knowledge asked me, I would claim that I was unilaterally raped by a girl. Dumped, anyway, they don't know who the heroine is, so if they want to talk about it, talk about me, I have a thick skin and don't care about it."

Xie Jiaran asked: "Do they all know about Xiao Chi?"

"I don't know the specifics." Liang Suinian guessed, "I probably just picked up some rumors while visiting my high school forum."

Xie Jiaran blinked: "Since you didn't tell them, why can you tell me?"

In fact, Liang Suinian couldn't give a specific reason for this question, he just instinctively felt that this matter could not be kept from Xie Jiaran.

Otherwise, there may be some strange misunderstandings.

"Because Xiao Liang's quality is relatively high."

He made a measuring gesture with his palms pressed down, and boasted immodestly with the corners of his lips curled up: "I don't lie to good children."

Xie Jiaran smiled.

The corners of the mouth curved into a shallow arc, and most of the cold air accumulated between the brows was dissipated. It was a ray of light soaked from the sky at the dawn of the coldest and cleanest dawn.

He seldom smiled, almost no one saw him, including Liang Suinian.

It's really beautiful, and it hits the beauty in my heart.

His heart was scratched by a feather light enough to float.

Liang Suinian couldn't help moving his fingers, as if he wanted to touch something: "Xie Jiaran, do you know that you have stars in your eyes?"

It was as if the vast Milky Way had been shrunk billions of times and fell into his eyes, so brilliant that people couldn't move their eyes away.

Xie Jiaran shook his head.

He doesn't know what stars are not stars, and now he only has one important thing to decide: "Liang Sunian, do you think homosexuality is bad?"

Liang Suinian asked: "Is this also a reference for speed painting practice?"

Xie Jiaran nodded along the way: "Yes."

Liang Suinian thought about it seriously, and when Xie Jiaran was so nervous that his heart was suspended, he asked him rather puzzled: "Why do you use the adjective 'bad'?"

Xie Jiaran was taken aback.

Liang Suinian said to himself: "There is no such thing as good or bad, I should just say what everyone thinks about it."

Xie Jiaran tried his best to restrain his eagerness, and pretended to be casual: "What about you, what's your opinion?"

"My opinion, um... I don't think there should be gender differences in liking or not."

Liang Suinian tried to express his point of view with his knowledge of advanced Chinese phrases, which he is not good at: "From a certain point of view, this is like family affection. You will naturally like your father and mother, otherwise why should you consider whether they are Whether it's a man or a woman, decide whether you want to like it or not?"

This analogy seems a bit nondescript and strange.

But forget it, science students, as long as you think about it.

"Don't worry about those messy things, liking is just liking, it will vary from person to person, but it has nothing to do with gender."

"You look like me."

He pointed to his nose and said solemnly: "I can't guarantee that the person I like in the future will happen to be a girl, anyway, the decision is up to him, so no matter whether he is a man or a woman, as long as he is him, I will like him."

Xie Jiaran stared at him for a long time.

Then, pursing the corners of her mouth and retracting her gaze, her long eyelashes lowered in time to cover up the flashing brilliance.

"Oh," he said, "I see."

The traces of distortion drawn on the test paper are still there.

Xie Jiaran took a second look, picked up the pen again, and drew a rose in full bloom at the end of the trace with three or two strokes.

I see.

Then Liang Su Nian, I'm going to start chasing you.