give me a hug

"Jiaran, is your competition work finished?" Sitting in the studio, Lin Shan asked while grading.

Xie Jiaran shook his head: "There are only a few drafts, but none of them are very satisfactory."

"Is it so difficult?" Lin Shan was surprised: "Tsk tsk tsk, even you find it difficult, so what about other contestants?"

"My level cannot be used as a benchmark for the public. There are many people who can draw better than me." Xie Jiaran said: "Maybe this difficult subject for me is just as easy as pie for others."

"Hey, isn't it "Youth"?"

Lin Shan actively helped him with ideas: "Just think about what memorable things you had during your adolescence, or whether there are any iconic characters that can represent your entire youth, and draw them when you are done combining them."

"This is the most basic method of abstracting entities, you should be better than me."

Xie Jiaran was a little confused: "Adolescence means high school?"

"Well...Although most of them are, but not necessarily." Lin Shan thought for a while, and asked him: "Well, tell me what you were doing in high school, and I will help you refer."

Xie Jiaran: "Take classes, take exams, and draw."

Lin Shan: "Other than these?"

Xie Jiaran: "Eat, sleep?"

"..."

Lin Shan clicked his tongue: "It's not these, it's something special, something with a deep memory."

Xie Jiaran said, "The college entrance examination?"

Lin Shan: "?"

Xie Jiaran: "There is also the entrance exam. At that time, a student forgot to bring the admission ticket and cried outside the exam room for 10 minutes."

Lin Shan: "..."

Xie Jiaran asked earnestly: "So do you think I should draw a test room for the entrance exam?"

"........."

After a long silence, Lin Shan decided to keep smiling.

What is wrong with the child?He's just missing adolescence.

"Bao, I don't mean these."

Lin Shan calmed down and guided patiently: "Adolescence, as the name suggests, is the most restless period in your teens and 20s. You will be full of desire to do something or meet someone, and feel that life is extraordinarily beautiful and the air is extraordinarily sweet. Even the sun is shining brightly.”

"Throb, throb, understand?"

Lin Shan made a heartbeat gesture: "Will the entrance exam make you throb? Obviously not."

"Throbbing..."

"Yes! Think about it carefully, is there any one of your manuscripts that you drew with a throbbing heart?"

Xie Jiaran was silent, her eyelashes trembled twice.

Lin Shan knew there was something going on at a glance: "There is, right?"

Xie Jiaran nodded hesitantly: "Maybe it is, but I always feel that something is missing."

And he didn't tell Lin Shan that the draft was not his draft for the competition, but seriously, it was just a sketch on the field.

As for throbbing or not...

He himself was not sure.

"Hey." Lin Shan sighed with a complicated mood.

After thinking about it, he reluctantly took out his mobile phone: "Come on, I'll let you feel the throbbing mood right now, in case you find inspiration."

Xie Jiaran looked down at him opening a picture: "Who is this?"

"My No. [-] male god." Lin Shan shook his head and happily shared with him: "How is it, isn't he handsome?"

Xie Jiaran looked at it for a while and asked him, "Can I tell the truth?"

Lin Shan didn't believe that someone could make any unpleasant criticisms to such a perfect face: "Of course, please."

Xie Jiaran "lived up" to his expectations, and said to the point: "The face is too big, the eyes are too small."

Lin Shan: "?"

Xie Jiaran: "The eyelashes are too short and the mouth is too big."

Lin Shan: "??"

Xie Jiaran looked around again: "The profile is too flat, the outline is not deep enough."

Lin Shan: "???"

"No, no, wait." He was in a hurry: "Speak carefully, are these eyes small? Are these eyelashes not long enough? Isn't this side face handsome enough?"

Xie Jiaran nodded honestly, it was indeed not enough, she looked at nothing in her heart.

Lin Shan: "Did you compare it with the paper man?"

Xie Jiaran saw that Lin Shan's tonsils were about to burst out, so she thoughtfully said nothing.

But looking at the so-called No. [-] male god again, it really didn't catch his eyes very much.

He also didn't compare the paper man with him, after all, no matter from which point of view, Liang Suinian is much better-looking than him.

After class, it was rare for Lin Shan not to invite Xie Jiaran to dinner: "Jiaran, today is my boyfriend's birthday, come to pick me up to go to the world of two, so I won't be with you."

"it is good."

Xie Jiaran happened to have something to do, so he nodded and said, "Help me say happy birthday."

"no problem."

The two packed up and went downstairs together. Lin Shan complained to him about her boyfriend: "He doesn't know what's going on recently, but he suddenly becomes weird. He always has a straight face for no reason, yes Me too, and the people around me too, I don’t know why I’m sulking.”

"Did you quarrel?" Xie Jiaran asked.

"No." Lin Shan said: "The strangest thing is this. Not only did he not quarrel, but he is even more clingy to me than before. He texts me in class and calls after class. As long as there is no class, he must get together with me. Why? He didn't say what happened to him."

"Hmm. That's kind of weird."

"Really? Are you saying that he has menopause? It shouldn't be, he is only in his twenties, and the onset is too early..."

Lin Shan muttered distressedly, seeing the person waiting for him standing on the steps in the distance, he immediately smiled again: "Hey, my boyfriend is there, I'm leaving first, Jiaran, see you tomorrow!"

"See you tomorrow."

Xie Jiaran watched Lin Shan bouncing up to her boyfriend and said something with a bright smile, then pointed at Xie Jiaran.

The latter looked over here and nodded politely as a greeting.

Xie Jiaran nodded back, blindly guessing that Lin Shan was introducing herself to his boyfriend.

The young couple walked away holding hands, Xie Jiaran checked the time, went to the nearest cafeteria to have dinner, and arrived at the student activity center on time before seven o'clock.

He stopped at the door for a while, and the people inside were busy with their own affairs, and no one noticed him.

But he saw Liang Suinian standing next to the stage at a glance in the crowd.

Because he was about to give a speech on stage, it was rare for him not to dress so casually. The well-fitting white shirt set off his clear complexion and clean temperament.

Her forehead hair was combed to one side, exposing most of her forehead, and she was wearing a pair of thin silver-rimmed glasses. She held a manuscript wrapped in a tube in her hand, and her lazy, bookish look attracted the eyes to the extreme.

A girl next to him was gesturing to tell him something about the direction of the stage. He tilted his head slightly and listened carefully, probably because he was not used to being ridden by glasses on his nose, so he would raise his hand to support him every few minutes.

Xie Jiaran looked at him for a while, then turned his gaze around.

Many people who had already taken their seats in the auditorium were also looking at Liang Suinian.

Most of them are girls with bright eyes, and some will take out their mobile phones to secretly take two pictures, and then lower their heads and discuss with friends around them with a smile.

Xie Jiaran was inexplicably uncomfortable.

Withdrawing his gaze, and was about to step in, Liang Suinian happened to turn his head as if feeling something.

When I saw him, I smiled.

He bowed his head and said something to the girl beside him, then turned around and strode towards him.

"Why don't you call me when you come here, what are you doing here?"

"you are busy."

"I'm not busy." Liang Suinian adjusted his glasses again, the corners of his eyes curved beautifully behind the lenses: "No matter how busy you are, you have to settle down my little audience first, right?"

Liang Sunian led him in, found a relatively quiet corner with few people and settled him down, and after he was not in a hurry to leave, he sat down next to him.

"Have you had dinner?" Liang Suinian asked.

Xie Jiaran nodded: "get out of class ends early today, so I came here after eating."

Liang Suinian felt a little regretful: "I also want to say that I can take you to eat delicious food after a while."

He adjusted his glasses again, and Xie Jiaran's attention also shifted to his glasses: "Are you very short-sighted? I don't usually see you wearing glasses."

Liang Suinian smiled and said, "Let's not talk about whether I'm nearsighted or not, just say whether I'm handsome or not?"

Looking at it from a distance is pleasing to the eye, but being looked at and laughing at it at a close distance is a critical blow to its appearance.

Xie Jiaran got stuck in the shell, but fortunately it was not obvious, and was not discovered by the instigator.

"Handsome." He gave a sincere evaluation.

Liang Suinian's smile immediately widened.

He took off his glasses and put them on for him: "Look, are you dizzy?"

Xie Jiaran opened his eyes, blinked twice blankly: "I'm not dizzy, nothing seems to have changed."

"No prescription." Liang Suinian said with a smile, "It's our counselor who said that we will take pictures and post them on the school's admissions website. Wearing glasses will make you look more knowledgeable."

Oh, let's put up the admissions website.

Xie Jiaran said in his heart that indeed, Liang Suinian's photo is much more useful than any enrollment brochure.

Liang Suinian sized him up and down, touched his chin and hissed, "Student Xie, do you know that you look good in glasses?"

"……do not know."

Xie Jiaran took off the glasses and returned them to Liang Suinian: "But I know you look good in them."

He always looks serious and focused, and he doesn't mean to be joking when he praises others. He seems to say what he thinks in his heart, and he is sincere and moving.

Liang Suinian put on his glasses again, and suddenly felt that the thing riding on his nose wasn't so annoying anymore.

Someone in front of the stage called him, and Liang Suinian stood up in response: "I have to go first, you wait for me here first, and I will come to find you when it's over."

Xie Jiaran nodded: "Okay."

Liang Suinian took two steps forward, turned around when he thought of something, took out two strawberry jelly candies for him from his trouser pocket, rubbed his head, and told him solemnly: "My child is obedient, there are many people here, remember to stay obedient and don't mess around." run."

"..."

Xie Jiaran turned her head away from his hand with a speechless face, put away her five fingers, and two soft candies filled the palm of her hand.

Liang Su Nian couldn't be happier.

As soon as he walked away, there was no cover, many people around turned their heads to look at Xie Jiaran intentionally or unintentionally.

It's just that Xie Jiaran didn't notice, his eyes followed Liang Sunian all the time.

Watching him standing beside him quietly reading the manuscript, and calmly walking onto the stage after hearing his name being announced by the host, even the simple action of adjusting the microphone makes it difficult for people to look away.

It was very strange, even though the entire lecture theater was brightly lit, Xie Jiaran felt that the light was concentrated on the person on the stage.

It seemed that he was born to stand in such a place where all eyes were on him, his tone was low and gentle, but his whole person showed a casual flamboyance that couldn't be ignored.

When the first round of applause sounded, Xie Jiaran heard the whisper of the girl in the front row:

"He is really outstanding, with good grades, good personality, and good looks. The word perfect is not too much for him."

"Yeah, I don't know why, but I suddenly feel like crying."

"Actually, I haven't been able to say a word to him since I went to college, but I still feel very happy, as if my college life has been lit up."

"Hahaha sister, what's the matter with you, you seem to be chasing stars."

"Where there is, there is still a difference. Fan Xiaocao doesn't need to spend money for free prostitution, and you can see real people up close, and you don't have to worry about the collapse of the house."

"You're right, but it's really hard for someone not to like him."

……

Xie Jiaran caught the phrase "like", and for some reason, suddenly felt a little unspeakably dazed.

The people on the stage looked up inadvertently, and the moment their eyes met, Liang Suinian slightly curled the corner of his lower lip, and blinked at him.

The circulating lights shattered in his eyes, Xie Jiaran only felt at this moment that he was a whale swimming alone in the deep sea, and the moment he got out of the water, he finally saw the vast stars.

"Did he just look here?!"

"It seems so?"

"He is smiling at us, did he hear us talking?"

"Hahaha it's not Shunfenger, what are you thinking, it should be just a coincidence?"

"Then I'm satisfied, I don't care, he just looked at me and smiled at me!"

Listening to their laughing conversation, Xie Jiaran suddenly felt an impulse that she had never had before.

He wanted to cover all their eyes.

Or tell everyone that he is looking at him, winking at him, or smiling at him...

This sudden thought came to mind, Xie Jiaran was stunned for a moment.

But before he had time to think about anything, Lin Shan's news came in.

Your Shanshan: 【Jiaran!Hahahahahaha haha ​​ha ha ha ha to have a speechless event, I must share it with you immediately! 】

Your Shanshan: 【After a lot of unremitting efforts, I just finally found out where my boyfriend has gone crazy lately hahahahahaha! 】

Your Shanshan: 【Remember the last time I told you that my boyfriend and I went out to play and it rained heavily, and we stayed in the hotel all day? 】

Your Shanshan: 【We went to the ancient town on the first day before it rained. While drinking tea, a little brother stared at me for a long time. Finally, he ran over and asked for WeChat, but of course I refused immediately. 】

Your Shanshan: [Because my boyfriend was there at the time, he saw that I refused, so I didn't take it seriously, I didn't expect him to care so much, being jealous and playing temper for so long hahahahaha! 】

Your Shanshan: [He said that I belong to him alone, no matter how good-looking I am, he can only look at it, and when others stare at him, he just gets upset, just unhappy, and just wants to catch people's eyes.Laughing to death, what's going on when I was in second grade and moved again! 】

Your Shanshan: [What should I do, I’m an old couple, he’s suddenly so possessive, I’m feeling like I was in love again when I first fell in love, woo woo woo]

in love……

Love period...?

Xie Jiaran was completely dumbfounded.

But touching the position of the heart, thumping, is a very fast rhythm, as if celebrating that he has finally discovered some secret that has been hidden for a long time, joyful and happy.

Your Shanshan: 【I have class tomorrow, I will go back to school after dinner, why don’t you go to Ximen to have a late-night snack to celebrate, Xiao Lin’s sweet love has reached a new level~】

X. : [No, I have something to do temporarily. 】

Your Shan Shan: 【Huh?What's up?Do you want to draw a manuscript? 】

X. :【It's not a manuscript, it's something else, sorry, I can only celebrate with you next time. 】

Before Liang Suinian's speech was over, Xie Jiaran put away his phone, stood up, and quietly left the lecture theater through the back door.

There is an urgent matter, and he needs to find a way to verify it immediately.

When I returned to the dormitory, I just received a message from Liang Suinian who had finished his speech:

In the past years: 【Ehhhhh O^O?What about my little audience, why did they run away? 】

X. : [Sorry, I have something to do temporarily, so I'm going back to the dormitory first. 】

In the past years: [revision? 】

X. :【Um. 】

Su Niannian: [Why is it so unfortunate, it seems that I really can't take you out to eat delicious food. 】

X. : [It's okay, next time. 】

Su Past Nian: [Okay, then I won't bother you anymore, just send me a message if you want to eat, and bring it to you when you come back. 】

X. :【good. 】

Li Tang and Shen Xuehao carried the computer to the next door to play games in the dark early in the morning, and now he is the only one in the dormitory.

He turned on the computer, found the encyclopedia forum with a clear purpose, and carefully entered the question in the search box:

【What does it feel like to like someone? 】

The answers that pop up come in a variety of formats:

[When you like someone, you can hear the sound of flowers blooming. 】

[Test if he likes you, click the link, and get the answer! 】

[What does it feel like to like someone?Liver and intestines are broken, be careful! ! 】

...What is this all about?

Xie Jiaran frowned, pulled up and re-entered the question:

[What are the specific manifestations of liking someone? 】

The answer that jumped out this time is similar to the previous one.

But fortunately, there is a similar question and answer on the first one, click in, and there are high-scoring answers on several floors:

[When you like someone, you don't want to see him all the time. 】

[I will do this!When you like someone, you will become very greedy, not satisfied with being his ordinary friend, you just want to be his most precious one! 】

[Another synonym for liking is possessiveness. You will start to want to monopolize him, want to tell the world that he is yours, and want all his good things to belong to you alone! 】

……

Xie Jiaran read each word carefully, and gradually moved his hands away from the keyboard.

He seemed to hit it all.

Is this really like?

He's still not sure.

It's a big thing to like someone, but it's even more important for a boy to like another boy.

Does he really like boys?

But before meeting Liang Suinian, there was obviously no sign of it.

Xie Jiaran doesn't reject homosexuality, but he feels that this is the first time for him, he has to take it seriously, he has to clarify the matter, and he doesn't want to muddle through.

He registered an account, and tried to ask seriously in the reply with the most likes:

[Hello, I have never liked anyone before, but now I feel like I like him, and I have all the above symptoms, but I am still not 100% sure, what should I do to confirm whether this is true or not like? 】

He thought he would have to wait until tomorrow at least to get a reply, so he didn't want to refresh it, and a new reply came immediately:

[Coincidentally, I just saw you when I was online hahahaha, why am I an emotional expert? I'm just a child who has been in love seven or eight times! 】

【Blank paper?Then it's normal for you to have this doubt. I also had it when I first fell in love. If you ask me, you are asking the right person. 】

[I won't talk about other bells and whistles, I will share with you an immediate solution. 】

[You are not sure if you like him or not, then try to hug him and have intimate contact with him. If you don’t reject him, you don’t feel awkward or uncomfortable. It’s not that there is no wave in your heart, but that your heartbeat is speeding up and your adrenaline is soaring The situation, that is, like not running away! 】

...

Xie Jiaran looked at the other party's reply and fell into deep thought.

Hug, but he has hugged Liang Suinian many times already.

The same goes for skin-to-skin contact, Liang Suinian's upper body was almost touched by him, isn't this considered physical contact——

Wait, no.

They have hugged and had close contact many times, but almost every time it happened when he was suffering from skin thirst.

Controlled by inviolable symptoms, she went back to rely on him, longing for his close embrace.

What if there is no symptom guidance?

When Liang Suinian came back, he passed by 304 next door, saw that the door was open, and heard the messy shouts inside, so he turned in and walked around.

When he came out, he was followed by two internet-addicted teenagers who were flushing with excitement while holding the computer.

"If the one just now hadn't been for our Yasuo to eat too much, it would just rub and fall to the ground, and feed the fox so fat on the opposite side, I would have killed it indiscriminately!"

"Who isn't? If it wasn't for Fengnv who kept blowing the wind in the opposite direction, let me fight against three, and I'll just punch through the bottom lane, okay?!"

"I'm so pissed off! I've been working all night for nothing!"

"It must be that their dormitory has bad feng shui! Let's not go next time!"

"You have a point, and it's hard for me to disagree."

"What are you guys doing now?" Liang Suinian asked curiously, "The chickens are trying to comfort each other?"

Li Tang puffed up his cheeks: "Don't expose it! We can still be brothers!"

Shen Xuehao straightened his chest: "That's right."

The two of them amused Liang Suinian, they laughed, and turned around to see Xie Jiaran sitting in his seat looking up at him.

Blinking at him, he handed over the small key pendant dangling on his middle finger: "Here, I'll give you something."

Xie Jiaran took it over and saw that it was a pendant that looked like a little artist. A little boy wearing a yellow straw hat and overalls was sitting on the grass. He randomly took a few paintbrushes in his hands and rubbed them all over his face and clothes. Both are.

It's very cute, Xie Jiaran spread it out in the palm of her hand and looked at it seriously, she couldn't put it down.

"Oh, it turns out that the little painter was going to give it to the big painter."

Li Tang grinned and tutted twice: "No wonder just now in the dormitory next door, Xiao Zhang wanted to give it to his girlfriend, but Brother Liang was not willing to give it."

Shen Xuehao smiled and joined in the fun: "That's right, I said Brother Liang has always been generous and never cared about these little things, why did he suddenly take care of food today?"

"Your Chinese teacher taught you how to protect food? Be careful, he heard that you bought a plane ticket and came to clean up overnight to paint your face with chalk."

Liang Suinian returned to his seat and put down his things: "Does anyone want to use the bathroom? I'll take a shower if I don't."

"No, no, I want to avenge my shame again! Old Shen, do you want to do it?"

"Come!"

The two quickly returned to their seats, plugged in the computer, and plunged into the canyon.

Liang Su sighed like an old father, admiring the game addiction of the two internet-addicted teenagers.

Xie Jiaran watched as Liang Suinian put on his clothes and went to the bathroom, his figure disappeared behind the balcony and looked away, looking back and forth at the little painter's doll, thinking about everything.

The Internet-addicted teenager can't calm down while playing games, and his mood is extremely unstable. Whether he is killing or being killed, he will inevitably scream.

It was next door just now, and now it is in my own dormitory.

Across a balcony and a door, Liang Su Nian was dizzy from their quarrel, and regretted why he went to wander next door just after he came back, and brought back two scourges.

After washing and putting on clothes, I thought for a while what to use to cover those two noisy mouths. I didn't expect that I just opened the door and stepped out, but I was blocked by someone at the door of the bathroom.

The water evaporates and takes away the heat, and the night wind blows, making it extra cool and comfortable.

Liang Suinian couldn't help squinting his eyes, and looked down at Xie Jiaran: "What's wrong?"

Xie Jiaran asked bluntly, "Can I give you a hug?"

Ok?

Liang Suinian raised his brows lightly: "Are you feeling uncomfortable again?"

Xie Jiaran didn't answer him, but took a step forward, and stuffed herself into his arms with ease.

Liang Suinian was caught off guard for a moment, until he backed up and leaned against the wall in the corner, then raised his arms around Xie Jiaran's shoulders and hugged him back.

"Is this better?" he asked.

Xie Jiaran still didn't answer.

He leaned on Liang Suinian's shoulder, tightly wrapped around his waist, carefully feeling his current mood.

The moist air carried a very light and clean fragrance, and the embrace was the spacious warmth he was familiar with, which always made him feel at ease and relaxed.

But something was still missing.

"No, it shouldn't be just like this..."

He muttered so softly that Liang Suinian didn't hear a word clearly, just as he asked "what", Xie Jiaran held a hand.

He took him away from his waist, and hooked up the hem of his shirt with his little finger.

When Liang Suinian was wondering what he wanted to do, the held left hand was drawn upwards, running along the inside of the fabric, until the palm was in direct contact with the delicate and warm skin of the opponent's waist without hindrance.

The hotness came suddenly, I don't know whether it is the temperature of his palm or the temperature of his body.

Both of them were a little stunned.

Xie Jiaran tiptoed uncontrollably and put it down again, the palm on the back of Liang Sunian's hand felt a little weak.

"Could you hug me a little tighter?" He asked in a low voice, pushing the envelope, but it was impossible to refuse.

It took two seconds for the voice to fall before the hand that was attached to the waist began to move along the waistline until it was on the other side of the ring, and then tightened so that the entire arm was attached to the skin on his waist.

The commotion in the dormitory continued.

Li Tang missed a pawn line due to an operation error, and wailed for Shen Xuehao to let him make up for it with a pig.

Only a door away, they hugged each other tightly in the corner of the balcony.

At this time, if Shen Xuehao lifted the curtain on a whim, the two of them would have nowhere to hide.

However, Xie Jiaran couldn't take care of these trivial matters, because he finally confirmed the most important thing.

Without skin thirst, without any objective factors interfering, he still felt extremely comfortable being hugged by Liang Suinian.

It seems that he is a part of his body, and when he is with him, he will feel extremely at ease and relaxed.

He hopes to be held by him, and prefers to be trapped by him like this, preferably until the far end of the future, he can only hold him in his arms.

Enlightenment often only needs a fuse.

Along the lead line all the way up, the unfolding fireworks are bright and brilliant, enough to illuminate everything hidden and ignorant.

He didn't know if his current mood could be linked to restlessness, but he knew that now he would be full of desire to do something, or to see someone.

When you see it, you will not be satisfied with just seeing it.

Because of staying with him, I feel that life is extraordinarily beautiful, the air is extraordinarily sweet, the night style is extraordinarily gentle, and even the sun is extraordinarily bright.

It turned out that I really liked it.

"Your speech was brilliant."

He is like a kite that has finally found its lead, and also like a tide guided by the moonlight. It rises and falls with him from then on, and even if he is tied down, he feels extremely happy.

"I like the doll you gave me too."

Like everyone who has throbbing, he finally felt what it feels like to put someone in his heart at the age of 20. It was so wonderful that he wanted to lock it in the most secure place if he could. The safe is treasured for a lifetime.

"Liang Suinian, thank you."

Liang Suinian, I like you.

Xie Jiaran likes you.

The noise faded away in an instant, and only Xie Jiaran's cold and soft voice was left in Liang Suinian's ears.

He tilted his head, letting the tip of his nose brush against the soft hair.

I don't know why, but I always feel that my breathing is a little hot.