Dazai said he wanted to marry me after amnesia

Rules,? Order, jurisprudence, boundaries.

Iwanaga Kotoko sees such a world,? These intangible things all turn into tangible walls, good people and bad people, good and evil, all live in their own grid, without intrusion or interference with each other.

It is her ideal world.

She sits on the clouds overlooking all this, just like a real, high god.

But both humans and demons have their own thoughts and feelings, and it is impossible to keep order forever.

Someone tried to climb the high wall,? Someone tried to break the wall, causing disaster.

A bewitching voice rang in his ears.

【Those people want to break the order...】

【Kill them, kill them...】

A force tried to lift the scepter in her hand.

【You only need to use a cane to lightly...they will disappear from the world from now on, and no one will find out that something is wrong.You don't even need to make up assumptions to cover up the truth. 】

【With your current ability, it can be done easily. 】

[In this way, order can be maintained most directly and efficiently. 】

"Who are you?" Yan Yong Qinzi looked down and said calmly, "What's the intention of bewitching me?"

She is definitely not someone who can be easily fooled.

[I am your 'self'. 】

That voice was like tulle in the morning wind, fluttering and dancing, as if away from each other.

[Rooted in your heart, you who are absolutely rational and absolutely divine. 】

While they were talking, a grid wall was broken, and monsters poured into human society, just like ink being poured into clear water, causing violent chaos.

In the end,? That small world flowed like a river of blood, from red to black, and quickly dried up.

[Look. 】

The voice floated to her ears again.

[If you hesitate because of human relations and relationships, the order will be destroyed, but it will have more serious consequences...]

The voice suddenly changed.

【what. 】

[The man got the "key". 】

In a certain cell, someone got the key that can open the door in the wall.Once the door is opened, the whole world will be affected and withered just like the small world before.

[This person wants to commit suicide. 】

【But at the same time as he committed suicide, he also wanted to implicate the whole world... What should we do? 】

The voice asked and answered itself.

[The answer is to assist him. 】

[Anyway, he already has death intentions, so why not push him ahead of time and let him die before opening the door.In this way, the order will not be disrupted by him. 】

Yan Yong Qinzi did not speak.

The voice became impatient.

【What are you still hesitating about? 】

[Is it because of your lover, because he also has a habit of committing suicide, so you can't attack similar people? 】

"wrong."

Iwanaga Kotoko shook his head.

"That's different. Dazai's suicide was never about taking revenge on society. Even if he committed suicide, he didn't want to cause trouble for others."

And his suicide, didn't he just want to say - come and save me.

Please let me see something of value in this oxidized world.

She denied the voice, but did not say the real reason.

In fact, she is not particularly able to figure it out.

The voice sneered, and the force exerted on Yan Yong Qinzi's scepter was getting stronger and stronger.

【Abandon your ridiculous feelings. 】

[This kind of thing is not needed to maintain order. 】

【Look, he's about to open the door—】

Hearing this, the knuckles of Yan Yong Qinzi's knuckles that were holding the scepter turned white.

[In a chaotic world, do you still want to see a second one? 】

[If the order is broken because of consideration of human morality, the existence of you, a god, will be meaningless. 】

moment.

Iwanaga Kotoko nodded.

"……you're right."

She slowly raised her scepter, aiming at the person below——

Then--

Release your hand.

The scepter falls.

【? 】

"—If it was me before I met Dazai, I might say that."

"But it's different now."

Dazai's tenderness and affection let her see the beauty of human beings.

The love pointed out by Natsume-kun became the rein to hold her, so that she would not deviate from the extreme direction on the road of maintaining order.

"I, who was changed by Dazai, will not do this. And I know that he will not agree with this approach."

Yan Yongqinzi made the final decision.

"I will come up with a way that won't break the order even considering human morality."

【…】

The voice seemed to be silent, and it didn't sound for a long time.

Fragmentary applause suddenly sounded in the clouds.

A man stepped out from behind, his figure changed from blurred to clear.

"Congratulations, Qinzi."

"You defeated your divine side."

"Dazai—"

Yan Yong Qinzi got up quickly, trotted over and wanted to throw himself into his arms, but stopped two or three steps away, raised his head and asked, "What did you say to him?"

"I asked him to return the price you paid for the ticket, and lift the ticket restrictions for our two worlds, and there is another..."

Osamu Dazai smiled mysteriously: "Temporary secret."

Yan Yong Qinzi followed his train of thought.

"He agreed, on the condition that we pass the test."

This test seems to be to see how she will react when faced with the choice between humanity and divinity, and at the same time, it is also a test of her feelings for Dazai.

Osamu Dazai shrugged slightly: "That's it."

His expression seemed to say: Gods just love to play with these fancy things.

Yan Yong Qinzi: "That's why you brought me here..."

Dazai nodded.

"This car is controlled by a ghost named 'Nightmare', and its blood ghost spell is on the ticket. After the ticket is checked, the blood ghost spell is triggered, and everyone will fall into a deep sleep."

"We are now in the dream circle created by nightmares. Outside the circle is the "Unconscious Realm", and in the unconscious realm is the "Spiritual Core."

Of course, Iwanaga Kotoko's dreams are manipulated by him behind the scenes.

People can lie.

Once you know it is a test, you will think rationally and make the most favorable choice that may not be sincere.

The dream is linked to the subconscious mind, and only in this way can the true inner thoughts be touched.

The ending is—Iwanaga Kotoko's humanity defeated divinity.

Dazai Osamu's request, he will meet all.

"Congratulations on passing this test, Qinzi."

Osamu Dazai seemed to be in a good mood, showing a rare joy, and took her hand and walked out of the mist, "Find your spiritual core, and we can go out."

"How did Dazai make a deal with him?"

Yan Yongqinzi seemed to ask unintentionally: "I'm afraid it's not that simple to ask him to agree."

"There is a supernatural being named 'Lovecraft' in North America. Well... Although he is a supernatural being, he doesn't use supernatural powers. It is more appropriate to use titles like 'Cthulhu' and 'Old Dominator'." .”

"I woke him up and signed an agreement with him."

Dazai said calmly.

"If he doesn't agree, I will release Lovecraft in this world."

He changed his voice and stared ahead.

"--Coming."

Iwanaga Kotoko suddenly withdrew his hand from his hand.

Osamu Dazai turned his head and looked at her suspiciously.

Iwanaga Kotoko: "Is this the next test, Master Amaterasu?"

The man smiled gently.

"What are you talking about, Qinzi?"

It seems that she needs to tell the reason.

Yan Yongqinzi sighed, then turned serious.

"'Release the evil god' - Mr. Dazai will use this as a bargaining chip, but he will not really do that kind of thing."

She believes in it.

But if you don't know Dazai well, you may be fooled by his deliberate appearance.

Yan Yongqinzi smiled.

"It seems that Amaterasu-sama is unwilling to admit that he lost to Mr. Dazai in the psychological game."

Gods do not have the madness of humans, nor the courage to give it a go.

Compared with people, He can't afford to gamble.

"..."

The expression on the man's face faded.

"Also," Kotoko Iwanaga continued, "When Amaterasu-sama appeared, he said 'Congratulations on passing this test'? It means there may be a next test."

That is now.

Let's see if she can tell the truth from the fake Dazai in front of her.

After a silent confrontation, the man shrugged.

"I thought it looked alike."

His figure radiated light and dissipated into shiny gold particles.

"Then congratulations on passing the test."

"Go on, God of Wisdom."

……

Kotoko Iwanaga walked a distance and found himself still in the fog.

Has she gone out yet?

No... it doesn't seem to be the same as before.

The previous fog was a necessary veil for the gods to appear on the stage, to increase the mystery in the eyes of the world.

The current fog is thinner and sparser, and it looks like the same fog, more like the incarnation of some kind of subconscious, representing confusion and nothingness.

She remembered what he had just called the "field of the unconscious."

But her heart should not be so barren. Compared to her, this unconscious realm is more like Dazai's.

Iwanaga Kotoko took a step forward and heard the sound of the ice being cracked.

She looked down.

There seemed to be pitch-black flames swaying below, and it was only by looking carefully that they could be distinguished as black figures.Some of them were angry, some were bullying, some were calculating, and all of them looked hideous, as if they had concretized a demonized aspect of human nature.

They shook their heads and spread their arms towards her, wanting her to fall.

Every step is like walking on thin ice, and you may fall down at any time. The feeling of fear makes your limbs chill.

——In the end, it still didn’t fall.

It's more like torture with a blunt knife grinding flesh.

Mr. Dazai's feeling of walking in the world...has it always been like this?

Iwanaga Kotoko withdrew her gaze and walked deeper with more determination.

She saw Osamu Dazai.

The young man was half-sitting with his eyes closed, his body changed back to the leader's attire for some reason, and he leaned against a floating ball.

Could this be what he called the "spiritual core"?

In her imagination, the "spiritual core" is something brighter like a small sun, but this "spiritual core" is the same as the surrounding fog, showing a dim grayish white.

"Dazai?"

Yan Yongqinzi called out, but the young man did not respond.

She knelt down beside him, put her hand on his shoulder and shook it lightly twice, but Osamu Dazai still seemed to be in a deep sleep without any reaction.

"Are you the Snow White who ate the poisoned apple," Yan Yong Kotoko muttered, "and you still need to wake it up in a special way?"

She did not act rashly.

There was nothing around except fog and ghost shadows. Since Dazai himself could not wake up, the key was the "spiritual core" behind.

Iwanaga Kotoko took a deep breath, and stretched out his hand towards the ball.

In an instant, a huge amount of information flooded into my mind like a flood burst——

Dazai's thoughts, Dazai's memories, Dazai's feelings.

Bad things Dazai did.

He has killed people, whether it is for the purpose of "observing human nature" or an order of the organization, his hands are indeed covered with blood.

At the same time, there is also the experience of her leaving for the past five years.

Dazai got the [book] and knew the truth.

He decided to inherit her will and protect order.

He made a game pod and sent it to the past to help her in the past connect with the world of magic.

……

Scenes flashed by like a revolving lantern.

"..."

After a long time, Iwanaga Kotoko withdrew her trembling hand.

The expression on her face said she was calm, but rather she didn't know how to react.She hadn't experienced such strong mood swings for many years, which made her more aware that she existed as a human being.

So... was it all for her?

It is because of her that Dazai is so unwilling to be the leader of the underworld/hand/party.

It turned out that he had been by her side and had been watching her.

...why didn't you tell her? !

Why don't you say anything, bastard... don't say what you like, don't say what you hate, don't say anything about happiness, and don't say anything about pain.Who can understand you if this continues, and who will comfort you when you are uncomfortable!

stupid stupid stupid! ! !

Fortunately, everything was in time.

Fortunately she is back.

Kotoko Iwanaga stretched out her hand, cupped Osamu Dazai's cheek, rubbed it lightly with her fingertips, then leaned over and planted a solemn kiss without any lust/sensuality on the young man's lips.

Score at the touch of a button.

She stepped back, stared at Osamu Dazai's sleeping face, and waited quietly.

The man's eyelashes trembled slightly, and he slowly opened his eyes.

Sleeping Beauty wakes up.

Yan Yong Qinzi threw himself into his arms.

"I love you."

"...?!"

Iwanaga Kotoko ignored Dazai Osamu's reaction, and continued to shoot out words like a cannonball.

"Favorite...no, I like Dazai the most!"

"I want to marry Dazai and have many children... Forget it, I want to live with Dazai more. We want to guard order together, travel around together, fall asleep in the moonlight together, wake up in the morning light together. "

"Be together forever and never be apart again!"

Finally, she looked up into Dazai's eyes and repeated, "I love you."

"..."

Osamu Dazai was stunned, his lips fluttered a few times, but he couldn't make a sound, showing an expression as if he didn't know what to make, and finally he could only smile bitterly.

"Even if I...have to face such a passionate confession as soon as I wake up, I'm a little caught off guard."