Dazai said he wanted to marry me after amnesia

"It's useless for me to refuse."

After walking for a while, Osamu Dazai suddenly spoke.

"?"

"This kind of uninhabited place, most people think it's just a battleground, and they will leave after the end, but we are going deep."

Osamu Dazai stared ahead.

"You didn't ask anything, which means you already know that I live here."

here--

The containers were stacked to form a small maze, the light was blocked, and it was dark everywhere.Occasional white bones protruded from the soil, mixed with illegally dumped objects that did not know what harm would be done to the body... it was creepy.

Dazai turned his head.

The darkness in those eyes was deeper and thicker than the darkness that haunted the dump.

Kotoko Iwanaga had a strong premonition that Osamu Dazai was waiting for her to say something.It is impossible to guess how the other party will react to her words, and it is not certain that the death penalty will be pronounced.

The reason why the black/hand/party will live in this kind of place is very simple: to avoid the government's search, the pursuit of hostile forces, and so on.

but not.

There must be something deeper.

"Mr. Dazai forced himself to live here."

Iwanaga Kotoko chose to speak out what she saw directly.

"Mr. Dazai has created huge benefits for the port gang/hand/party, but he doesn't like this feat. But what you do is just push yourself into a dark corner, continue to slaughter the enemy, and indulge your own sadism and self-abuse want."

"At the same time, you feel pain and confusion because of it."

"Cycle, repeat."

Self-abuse, suicide, self-destructive hesitation.

Only for a moment, a quick moment, Osamu Dazai stopped breathing.

It was this moment that made Yan Yong Kotoko feel like being hit, as if he had caught something.

Osamu Dazai walked forward quickly.

Yan Yongqinzi chased after him.

"And, how should I put it?" She decided to adjust the atmosphere, gesticulating in the air with her hands a few times, "living in a container, it feels like a cat living in a cardboard box."

Osamu Dazai was a little surprised.

"Is it actually such a remark?"

"Is it the pursuit of a special interest, or is it to save fixed property taxes? If you marry me, this money is not worth mentioning, and the interest is also... Ah, wait for me, Mr. Dazai."

……

The large shipping container where Osamu Dazai lived was originally built to transport cars exported overseas.The container is clean, with simple equipment such as bedding, tables and chairs, and ventilation fans.

"excuse me."

Iwanaga Kotoko walked in.

Osamu Dazai pulled the switch, and the small light bulb on the top glowed dimly.

He took out a medical kit.Yan Yong Qinzi leaned over to take a look, and it was full of bandages.

How many years has this been stockpiled?

Osamu Dazai rummaged for a long time, and dug out the crushed alcohol and wound medicine at the bottom, which seemed to have never been used.

"Take care of it yourself."

"Ok?"

Osamu Dazai pointed to her forearm.It was only then that Yan Yong Qinzi realized that there was a scratch on the outside of the elbow, which was probably caused when he fell to the ground, and the sleeve was torn.

"you……"

Iwanaga Kotoko followed the prestige, Dazai Osamu stared at her, his eyes full of inquiry.

"Accidentally insensitive to own danger and injury."

"Maybe. Helping monsters to arbitrate danger is inevitable, and the more times you do it, the more likely you will become dull. I was often taught before—"

She stopped suddenly.

be taught.

Being taught by... who?

"It's nothing."

The forearm was not easy to bandage, so Iwanaga Kotoko simply let the monster do it for him.Osamu Dazai can't see the youkai without showing their appearance.So she guessed that in the eyes of Osamu Dazai now, it should be a magical scene in which a cotton swab moves by itself, the wound medicine is applied by itself, and the bandage is wrapped by itself.

Fang Yuan's pupils widened slightly, as if a cat had discovered something curious.

"You said that it was the monsters who asked you to be the God of Wisdom. Then why don't you let the monsters fight?"

"The truly powerful monsters will not use the power of the gods. Those who need my wisdom are mostly those with low intelligence or strength."

Iwanaga Kotoko let the huge bone spirit entrenched here stretch his fingers in, his fingertips appeared, and then poked with his cane.

Crash, the bones are broken.

Bone Demon: "Woo..."

A smile flashed across Dazai Osamu's eyes: "I see."

Kotoko Iwanaga picked up the bandage enthusiastically: "Let me help you treat the wound, Mr. Dazai."

She smelled blood before, and the other party was probably injured in the battle.

Osamu Dazai did not respond to her "considerateness".

He even stretched out his hands to tighten his clothes.

Do you need to be so vigilant?The lonely man and the widow live in the same box, so the only thing to be wary of is whether she is good or not.

"You're not a big girl with yellow flowers," Yanyong Qinzi couldn't help complaining, "Don't worry, I will definitely do something to you."

"...You spoke from your heart."

Finally, Osamu Dazai took off his shirt.

He sat on the edge of the bed, blood-soaked bandages falling like snowflakes.There are large and small scars intertwined on his body, some are knife wounds, some are gunshot wounds, and there are thin scratches on his wrists.

It's hard to imagine so many scars concentrated on one body, especially the visual impact.

So, Dazai's hesitation just now was considering whether to expose these wounds to her eyes?

When Kotoko Iwanaga was stunned, Osamu Dazai laughed softly.

"Is it scary? It's scary... These are not caused by others, they are all traces of my suicide."

He turned around, Yuan Tong was like an abyss in the dim light, staring at her quietly, as if observing her reaction.

"Not changing for something, dying only once in a lifetime, this is my wish. Unfortunately, thanks to some guys, I never die."

In the heavy atmosphere, Osamu Dazai's smile widened.

"Are you scared?"

—Look, I am such an abnormal person.

——So hurry up and stay away from me, just like normal people.

Yan Yong Qinzi felt that the other party was conveying this message.

She opened her mouth and was about to say something when Osamu Dazai's expression suddenly changed.

"enough."

As if he didn't want to hear her talk anymore.

Yan Yong Qinzi's eyes were spinning for a while.After reacting, I realized that I was pressed on the bed by Osamu Dazai.

It was said that the bed was not suitable, it was just simple bedding, which was hard, and her back even hurt a little from the impact.

"What's your purpose?"

Osamu Dazai looked down at her.

Shrouded in the opponent's shadow, meeting those cold and dangerous eyes, Iwanaga Kotoko recalled for no reason what the enemy called Osamu Dazai.

- Black Specter of Port Black/Hand/Party.

"If you just want my body, it's not impossible to satisfy you now."

"Really?!"

Dazai Osamu: "..."

Yan Yong Qinzi snorted.

"Didn't I tell Mr. Dazai?" She looked directly into the other's eyes, "The purpose of a relationship that is based on marriage is of course marriage."

Osamu Dazai didn't seem to believe it.

Also, for the mafia/hand/party, intelligence, temptation, assassination...any reason is more practical than something illusory like love.

Dazai Osamu's pupils were deep and empty, and the remaining bandages were about to come loose, and some were hanging down, giving off a sadistic beauty.

Kotoko Iwanaga realized in a flash that Dazai had deliberately undressed in front of her.

Because I have always shown that I am very interested in his body (?) Mr. Dazai thinks this is a cover, and I have a deeper purpose.So he just did what he wanted, trying to elicit this purpose, or know something... Dazai-san, he is really on guard all the time.

Perhaps now is the time to say those words.

"With all due respect, Mr. Dazai, you will never find it in this kind of place."

Iwanaga Kotoko glanced around, and then returned to Dazai Osamu's face.

The opponent's pupils shrank slightly.

"What did you say?"

"Blood, violence, death...Mr. Dazai, do you think that as long as you stay in the mafia and get close to the essence of human beings, you might find a reason to live?"

"But no."

Before Osamu Dazai could speak, she answered.Out of some strange mood, he smiled slightly.

The God of Wisdom could see something wrapped around Osamu Dazai, something invisible like the source of spiritual evil that would destroy everything. *

"There is nothing you are looking for in the black/hand/party, nothing in this world can fill your loneliness, and if you continue to stay, it will only become more and more empty... Isn't this the reason why you forced yourself into the container .”

Few people can understand this emotion.

Iwanaga Kotoko couldn't help but worry.If this continues, will Mr. Dazai's spirit really be able to support it?

"The monster told you again?"

Osamu Dazai's voice was hoarse like a traveler in the desert who hadn't drank water for several days.

"Have you ever thought that I can kill you right now?"

Although he didn't move, Iwanaga Kotoko knew he was telling the truth.The chill on the opponent's body is even more terrifying than a ferocious monster.

No wonder even the subordinates of the black/hand/party dare not approach here.

Even if she can temporarily escape with the help of monsters, as long as Osamu Dazai wants to, he has a way to find himself again.

Dissecting the human heart is a dangerous thing, and Iwanaga Kotoko has seen many examples of becoming angry from embarrassment.Who would be willing to be cut open bloody?

So she also understands that if she doesn't break through this layer, she will never be able to enter Dazai's heart.

That wall is stronger than anyone's.

long silence.

"Mr. Dazai said that I am insensitive to danger, and now it seems to be true."

Iwanaga Kotoko smiled.The pores of his whole body trembled instinctively, but his mood was strangely calm.

"……never mind."

Osamu Dazai returned to his blank expression of not being interested in anything.

He stood up and took a few steps, with his back to Yan Yong Qinzi, there was a slight tremor in his voice.

"Enough...enough is enough."

Yan Yongqinzi sat up and exhaled slowly.

I said it in one breath.

It's not easy to speak out against Dazai's murderous intent, a slight pause may lose courage.

"Is this what the monster told you? Or is it your reasoning?"

"No, don't underestimate how much a girl cares about the person she loves."

Dazai didn't speak.The trembling back looks like it needs a loving hug.

So she did.

Stepping on the container floor, Iwanaga Kotoko wrapped her arms around Dazai Osamu's waist from back to front.The encircled body was a little tense, but after realizing her intention of not letting go, it gradually relaxed.

You even did the thing of pressing someone on the bed, so it's not a foul if someone hugs you.

Mr. Dazai looks thin, but he has abs only after taking off his clothes.That's right, since it's the mafia/hand/party after all, daily gymnastics training is a must.

Yanyong Qinzi took the courage to touch it quietly with her fingertips.

Whoa, warm and a little hard.

Then her hand was caught.

"open."

"No."

Heh, whoever is obedient at this time is a puppy.

Finally a chance to eat tofu.

"Mr. Dazai, do you want to change your mood with a new attempt?"

"What do you want to say?"

"I want to say, add another sentence to the sentence 'There is nothing in this world that can fill your loneliness'..."

Osamu Dazai turned his head and glanced at her out of the corner of his eye.

Waiting quietly for her next words.

Yan Yong Qinzi snorted.

"--except me."

Only I, who is also a different species and has seen all kinds of human and demon worlds, can understand your loneliness.

"Let's continue with what we just did. Didn't you just say you could satisfy me?"

Kotoko Iwanaga said, lost in thought, "But Mr. Dazai is too young now, I still hope to wait until your banana is bigger..."

"..."

Osamu Dazai calmly said, "It's too much, so you're just greedy for my body?"

"Of course not," Yan Yong Qinzi said seriously, "Please give it to me with your heart."

"Dazai, I suddenly remembered something—"

A figure appeared at the door of the container.Oda Saku, who went back and forth, turned around and left when he saw this scene, and almost tripped himself because he turned too fast.

"Sorry to interrupt."