Trying to keep clean every day

However, there is nothing too abnormal in the follow-up, Duan Xiao hides in the corner and closes his eyes, just like the days when he lived in the smoke cage.

Shen Shen wrapped himself in the quilt and thought for a while, um, actually there is nothing wrong with Duan Xiao.After all, he is his own miser, and there is only one guest room, not to mention the only one left in the inn.

Duan Xiao will push him down because Duan Xiao is like a numbness, which reminds him of the symptoms of panic attacks in patients with psychological stress disorder.That's right, the more this is the case, the more care is needed.Xiao Duanxiao suffered serious psychological trauma under the worldview of this garbage book, so he must have been touched by the situation just now. The doctor is kind, and I can't blame him.

From the road to entering the door, and then to simple washing, the wrists have not been loosened. The two of them tugged and tugged, and they were pushed into bed naturally. It was a matter of course.After looking at each other for a while, Duan Xiao took off his coat and fell asleep as usual.

That movement was really awkward and aggressive, but Shen Han thought it was a coincidence and was quite relieved.Even when Duan Xiao was undressing, Shen An took a sneak peek at his thin undershirt, the waistline with distinct texture was enviable, and the knuckles on the back were beautiful, like the wings of a butterfly.

Anyway, wrapped in a quilt, he touched his soft belly silently, because he was lying on his side with his waist bent and his legs curled up, and he could even pick up a thin layer.Shen Han curled his lips, and let go of his hand in dissatisfaction: I'm not very envious either.

From the corner of the eye, he glanced at the person beside him, who was lying quietly, looking obedient.

After wearing a book, not only did I not lose weight due to acclimatization, but I went to the countryside to cure my obsession with cleanliness?

In fact, Shen An is not sure if his cleanliness is really cured. In his previous life, the severity of his cleanliness was close to pathological. Based on the idea of ​​a doctor self-medicating, he has studied related books on psychological correction, and as a result, he has accumulated a lot of knowledge in his mind. But it didn't get better. At present, perhaps, it's just because of special reasons that there is no rejection of special people?

Many medical tests have to go through double-blind experiments. Even if double-blindness cannot be achieved, no matter how simple it is, there must be a control group. Shen An wonders whether it is necessary to try another person, but Shen An cannot think of this world except Duan Xiao. Anyone else, forget it, or think in the long run.

Here Shen An fell into a deep sleep with dissatisfaction with his own body, but Duan Xiao was not so comfortable beside his pillow.

He was facing the wall, his brows were tightly frowned, and his body trembled slightly due to the extreme cold in a half-dream and half-awake state. He struggled to move his limbs and let the blood circulate, but he couldn't even hook his fingers.It was like being wrapped in a hard box, and my whole body was frozen, unable to move.

Until, the weakest consciousness was completely withdrawn from his mind, and he fell into the scarlet roar, and the extremely cold ice cracked and burst into a fire that was better than magma, tormenting each other in his body.

To make matters worse, Duan Xiao was haunted by nightmares at the same time as the chills.

With his ice marrow body, every attack of cold syndrome means that he is one step closer to the gate of hell.

Duan Xiao himself can't remember exactly how many times he had the attack, they all had similar symptoms when they had the attack, only the last attack was quite impressive.It was also at night, when I first met Shen An, on a bumpy prison car outside Yongzhou City.

There is a deep valley away from the mountain, and the wind in the valley is as cold as a thorn.

Duan Xiao couldn't tell whether he was greedily absorbing the heat from Shen An like a snake, or Shen An opened his arms and gave it willingly, just like falling off a cliff, a clean and warm hug.

In the sea of ​​consciousness, Duan Xiao's thoughts returned to the day when he fell off the cliff, but the situation was different from that day.

On the edge of the cliff, Duan Xiao knew that those people were still chasing and killing him. They wanted him dead, and everyone he cared about died.

Duan Xiao was dressed in black like ink, his body was covered with deep and shallow wounds, the black clothes were soaked and stuck to the broken flesh.

The pale face was splattered with red and black blood, as delicate as a piece of perfectly cracked ice porcelain.Duan Xiao vomited a mouthful of blood, it was black and smelly, he looked down and saw that his fingertips were also blood, seeping into the gap between his fingers, no matter what he couldn't get it off.

He anxiously scratched the rocky cliff with his fingers, his fingertips were rotten, blue rocks, red blood.He was too weak, unable to kill his enemies, unable to protect his loved ones, those bloody hands suddenly covered his pale and slender neck, and pinched it down forcefully.

Voices shouted all around:

Go to hell, you can be clean when you die.

Close your eyes, you will never have to run for your life again, and no one will die because of you.

They all deserted you, they will desert you, you don't deserve any good.

Duan Xiao slowly closed his eyes, with a rare relaxed and relieved expression, suddenly another gust of stern wind whizzed past his ears:

No, you have to live, kill them all!You live to kill them, you have to kill them alive... The two voices were entangled, Duan Xiao let go of his neck, his throat was red, he covered his face in pain, curled up Under the rocks on the edge of the cliff.

At this time, a young man in white clothes appeared behind him, with a simple hair bun with a piece of fallen leaves, and a faint fragrance of flowers and plants on his body, as if he had just run from the forest, reminding him of the spring water of the stream, Fawns and harmless birds.

The young man in white clothes Shengxue, with picturesque eyebrows, smiling eyes, eyes as clear as spring water, stretched out his hand to him:

"Who bullied you? Tell me if you are wronged in the future, and I will protect you."

The boy pulled him up, held his cold hand, hugged him into his arms, turned around and ran towards the cliff, and jumped off.But in the piercing wind, she leaned close to his ear and whispered, "Don't be afraid, I'm here to save you, I'll set you free."

Duan Xiao was extremely happy, his whole body became very light, it's a pity that this extreme pleasure was only for a moment.Before this dream was completely smashed to the ground, he fell into another terrible dream.

The white-clothed boy in the dream was no longer gentle, and the disgust and contempt in his eyes were as cold as ice. The boy closed his eyes and stopped looking at him, as if he would stain his eyes any more.

(The author has something to say, the three chain dreams have explanations, and they correspond to the previous ones. The first dream of falling off a cliff is Duan Xiao's self-loathing emotion and a misinterpretation of Shen An's good intentions. The second dream, Shen An's dislike of himself, is hidden deep in his heart The third is to think of Shen Mu's poisoned sea love flower, and the self-touching appearance can't help but be released.)

The young man's voice was clear, and the words he uttered were like spirit beads that had been bewitched by a demon:

"You are so dirty."

"It turns out that you are just a heartless monster, bloody and cruel, what else do you have besides hatred?"

"You've let me down."

Every word the young man uttered was filled with slow loathing, Duan Xiao seemed to be struck by lightning, he could only stare at the young man's light red lips opening and closing, but he was powerless to change his opinion.

In a trance, Duan Xiao could no longer hear what the young man was saying. There was buzzing in his ears. His eyes passed the pale red lips, slipped over the jade-like earlobes, and landed on the slightly protruding Adam's apple on the young man's neck. superior.The skin around his neck is pale pink, and the skin is so thin that it can be easily broken.

Duan Xiao couldn't help it, he was completely crazy, rushed up, pulled the boy's hair, pushed him against the cliff, let his head fall back deeply, exposing the tender neck and protruding Adam's apple, opened his mouth to bite down, like It is to dismantle him into the belly.

"Hiss..." The boy in white sighed in pain, "That's right, this is you."

Unexpectedly, the boy didn't struggle, but lured him too far into the abyss of the unknown:

"Put harder, break me, destroy me."

The bloody smell on his lips became more and more obvious, Duan Xiao realized what a terrible thing he had done, and suddenly pushed Shen Han away, dripping with cold sweat.

"Destroy me..."

"Do not......"

"Break me..."

"don't want......"

The scene in front of him was suddenly disillusioned, the young man in white and the scene beside him were annihilated together, without sound or trace, leaving only endless darkness before his eyes, and Duan Xiao fell into endless fear.

What is he afraid of?

He didn't care about the eyes of the world at all. When he walked out of Suoqiu Palace, the world was just a puddle of mud in his eyes, and mud was not worthy of his heart.Only Shen An, Duan Xiao is very afraid of Shen An, afraid that he will dislike him, afraid that one day, when he reveals his ferocious nature, Shen An will not want him.

He is still afraid of himself, afraid of himself who is getting out of control, his emotions are getting more and more crazy, and he can't help but want to destroy everything. He is very afraid that he will really go crazy one day, and he will not be able to do things that are sorry for Shen Shen.

Duan Xiao closed his eyes, indulged in the darkness, and leaned back like a mountain toppled: It doesn't matter, I have enough strength to end myself before I completely lose control.

This time, after the Lingtai turned from chaos to Qingming, the scene in front of me was exactly the same as the Pill Cave of the Medicine Sect of Zhehua Villa, where Duan Xiao saved Shen An.

It's still that dark cave, the only source of light is the only source of light in the furnace.The layout of the Dan Cave is not cramped, the aisle is relatively wide and long, and the two sides of the aisle are densely packed with colorful sea love flowers.

The sea love flower itself is non-toxic and can be used as medicine with special medical prescriptions, but the plant itself has a strong effect of stimulating emotions and desires, because the sea love flower is also forbidden to be planted at will.Once the skin is accidentally punctured, the special substance in the flowers and leaves will seep into the blood in an instant, causing the person's emotions to be high and he has to relieve it.

Duan Xiao continued to walk forward, carefully avoiding those sea love flowers.

Suddenly, what made him stop abruptly was the sound of panting from not far in front, the delicate voice was suppressed and restrained, and the traces in the air were about to be concealed.

Duan Xiao recognized at a glance that the person who made these voices was Shen Mu.

He couldn't help being stunned, a little surprised.

He remembered that when he rescued Shen An here, Shen An also fell in love with him, so he had no choice but to solve it by himself, but at that time Shen An was clearly facing away from him, and the noise he made was very restrained. There was also a faint glimpse of the shrugging shoulders.At that time, Duan Xiao had no distracting thoughts and didn't feel anything.

Now the original scene reappeared, but Shen An was facing him blatantly, he could see all the scene in front of him at a glance, and he didn't seem to notice Duan Xiao's appearance.

The ink-like hair was scattered on the shoulders, and the sweat attracted three or two blue strands to stick to the neck. The lacquered eyes were full of water vapor, and they had already bit their lower lip, but there was still a small voice overflowing.

Duan Xiao was about to go crazy, his scalp was numb, and the fireworks from the alchemy furnace around him suddenly exploded, making the person in front of him more bright and moving, and also ignited the heat.

Shen Huan suddenly raised his head and smiled at him, a provocative smile.

Duan Xiao kept his silent gaze on Duan Xiao's face, and casually folded a leaf of Sea Love Flower, looking at Duan Xiao intentionally, chewed it in his mouth, and his porcelain white teeth crushed the bright red flower leaves:

"Come here and help me."

Duan Xiao knelt down slowly, gently wiped off the juice that fell on Shen Mu's lips, and then occupied him almost violently, agreed to his request over and over again, and asked him over and over again if he was satisfied, in exchange for continuous tears and tears. whimper.

In fact, from Shen An's smile, Duan Xiao recognized that this was a dream, a nightmare.But this time, even if he was haunted by the inner demon, he didn't want to leave.

In the inn, Shen An seemed to have a strange dream, and suddenly woke up, and found that Duan Xiao beside him was astonishingly icy, almost air-conditioned.

She quickly turned around and approached him, reaching out her hand to feel the temperature on his forehead, but it was scalding hot.

Shen An panicked, this was a sign of the onset of cold syndrome, Shen An knew that Duan Xiao was suffering from a hidden disease early in the morning, he had seen it once before, but he didn't expect it to be more serious this time.

I remember that last time, Duan Xiao would take the initiative to rub over to absorb the heat source, but this time he was stiff and unable to move. In short, he had to warm up his body first. Medical common sense told him that if a person is in a state of extreme hypothermia for a long time, at least The head becomes stupid, and if it is serious, you can get a box lunch at any time.

Shen Mu picked up the corner of the quilt that was tightly tucked in by him, and the cat went in to cling to him, stretching its arms around it, warming him with the temperature of its body.

In the dream over there, everything was in full swing, and Shen An in the dream suddenly entangled him and hugged him with the same action as before, with the snow-white side of his neck exposed to Duan Xiao's lips.

Duan Xiao showed his white teeth and bit them down unceremoniously, the son in his arms sighed.

In the inn - "Ah -"

"Duan Xiao, are you a fucking dog?"

Shen Mu's arm was originally encircling Duan Xiao's neck, and the back of his hand was just in front of his chin shell. Unexpectedly, this frozen person melted a little bit, and just opened his mouth to take a bite. Who will come? Explain what custom is this?

The key point was that he bit him to death and didn't let go, tears of deep pain were about to fall, he obviously felt that the wound was bleeding, but before the blood beads gushed out, he was wiped clean by Duan Xiao's flexible articulate, it hurt and itch.

Shen An was so angry that he wanted to hit him, but seeing his half-dead appearance, he couldn't do anything, so he could only maintain the original posture, being picked up by a vicious dog like a piece of meat.

In the nightmare, the fishy-sweet thirst-quenching taste was too real, and the person in his arms felt a little weak. He seemed to hear a cry, as if it came from the distant sky, and he heard someone call him a dog.

The pear blossoms rained and the night frightened the cold, and it was even more difficult to break the yellow beams.

Duan Xiao woke up.

Waking up in a gentle embrace, the stiff muscles all over the body instantly relaxed, the buzzing roars in the ears disappeared, the Lingtai was clear, and the mind was as clear as a mirror. (Words: that is, the time of the sages.)

Sure enough, someone behind him was scolding him rustlingly, and he lowered his eyelids to take a look at what he had done, so he might as well continue to close his eyes and pretend to be dead, so he couldn't bear to spit out his hand.

I don't know how to explain it when I wake up, so I might as well continue to pretend to be dizzy.He doesn't talk much, he doesn't like to talk and can't speak, but the desire in his heart can't be expressed no matter what, and it is too difficult for him to explain what he has done against his will.

He wrapped himself even tighter with the quilt without any traces. To be honest, Shen An's clinging to him like this made him very nervous, fearing that the dirty traces would be discovered.

It is the first time in Duan Xiao's life that he is still a teenager, and it is because of some obsessive nightmares that are not too beautiful, but there is silence in the nightmares.