Stop chasing me!Lu Yingdi

Of course Lu Junyao was not in the mood to study, and he couldn't even sleep at night.In the middle of the night, he sat up from the bed again, looked at the night outside the window, and began to feel uneasy in the silence.

Someone sighed in the dark, Duan Shu also opened his eyes, turned over, sounded a little sleepy: "This is the first time you have woken up, although I am very grateful that you took me in today, but if I take your place If you can't sleep, I can sleep on the sofa next to you..."

Lu Junyao whispered: "Sorry, I disturbed you, I just can't sleep."

"Can't sleep? It's understandable. I used to often have trouble falling asleep." Duan Shu also smiled, "But then I learned a fact, so I won't be unable to sleep anymore."

Lu Junyao: "What?"

Duan Shu also put his hands on his head, glanced at him, and said slowly: "You can dream when you fall asleep. Dreams are always better than reality. You can escape for a while, don't you think?"

Lu Junyao suddenly had nothing to say, but he also noticed a clue from Duan Shuyi's low mood.

"Have you been bullied by your brother again?"

"..." Duan Shuyi had his eyes closed, but when he heard this sentence, he opened them again, glared at Lu Junyao, wrapped his quilt and turned his back to him, "Now is my dream time, don't come to talk to me."

Lu Junyao didn't feel sleepy at all, leaning against the head of the bed with his knees hugged, staring at the moon covered by tree tops outside the window in a daze, the room was silent for a while, only the breathing of the two could be heard.

After a long time, when Lu Junyao heard Duan Shuyi's movements, he turned over again irritably.

"Didn't you say you were going to dream, and you couldn't fall asleep?"

"You're always thinking wildly by the side, which disturbs me."

"Do you think..." Lu Junyao hesitated for a while, "Can we get rid of this kind of life in the future? I can take my mother out to live, you can get rid of the faults of the Duan family, and we can be like ordinary and happy peers. , go to college after high school..."

Duan Shu also interrupted abruptly: "If you copy my homework every day, you probably won't be able to get into college, and you can only find a factory to work."

Lu Junyao: "..."

Duan Shuyi: "But you are good-looking, you can consider becoming a star. Didn't scouts hand you your business card when you were shopping?"

Lu Junyao turned his head: "Didn't you also receive it?"

Duan Shu also dismissed it: "I have such excellent cultural achievements, so I don't want to be a star. I want to study hard."

Lu Junyao retorted: "Why do you look down on celebrities, celebrities earn much more than your serious work."

Duan Shuyi: "Then you go, remember to pay me after debut, I want to start a business."

Lu Junyao: "Get lost."

"However, when you have money, won't you be able to take your mother away from your father?" Duan Shu also sat up suddenly, with a serious tone.

Lu Junyao blinked, with an expression of sudden realization: "..."

"..." Duan Shuyi lay down again: "I'll just say it casually, don't go to school to become a star, I think reading should come first."

Lu Junyao couldn't help complaining: "I've never seen anyone who loves reading as much as you."

Finally, both of them fell asleep, Lu Junyao was lying on his back, and Duan Shu was also sleeping on his side with his back facing him.Lu Junyao rested his hands on his head, stared at the ceiling in a daze, and suddenly heard Duan Shuyi's voice slowly: "I have never felt sorry for myself."

Lu Junyao: "Huh?"

"I decided before that I don't need to be happy in my life, as long as I can feel small happiness, even now, I can feel happy occasionally, so even if there are many annoying things, as long as I can slowly solve them That’s enough, I don’t feel sorry for myself.” Duan Shu also spoke calmly and slowly, as if telling a story, “After all, no one in the world can be happy all the time, everyone has their own pain, but others can't see it."

Lu Junyao frowned and thought for a while: "Your words are so difficult to understand, I can't understand."

"Oh, I forgot that you are actually an idiot, so just take it as me to comfort myself." Duan Shu also smiled, and continued to ramble in a low voice, as if talking to himself, "Don't always think about the future. How about, can you take your mother away to make life happier? To be honest, you don’t have the ability to take her away now. If you really love her, just create more happy moments for her right now , Sometimes, as long as a person can grasp a little 'tiny happiness', he can sustain it mentally for a long time."

Lu Junyao: "..."

"Don't underestimate your mother, maybe she will be stronger than you imagined."

It was the last conversation the two of them had this night, and there would be no more nights like it.Lu Junyao couldn't fully understand Duan Shuyi's meaning, but he could barely feel that the other party was trying to encourage each other with a positive attitude.

The next day, when Lu Junyao went to the hospital, he suddenly realized that Lu Yishan's illness was more serious than he thought. ——Because both his grandfather and uncle came to the hospital unexpectedly.

Lu Junyao didn't have a deep impression of his grandfather, he only thought he was a serious old man with a very bad health, but his impression of his uncle Lu Wenkang was more straightforward - he was not a good person.

But the uncle's daughter, his cousin Lu Shiyu is a very good girl, gentle, beautiful and smart, but her mother left the family when she was young, and her father didn't treat her very well. ——This is also one of the bases for Lu Junyao to judge that Lu Wenkang is not a good person.

Lu Shiyu was about two years younger than Lu Junyao, and he was still in junior high school, so he also came to the hospital.It's just that the adults are unwilling to explain the situation to the children. No matter how anxious they are, they can only eavesdrop.

Lu Shiyu held Duan Shuyi's sleeve, looking worried as if he was about to cry: "They said that my aunt had a tumor in her lungs... Malignant metastases, what do you mean..."

Duan Shu also glanced at Lu Junyao, seeing that his expression was not very good, he hesitated a little when he answered Lu Shiyu: "It should mean... cancer."

"Why is this happening... I didn't feel that she was sick at all... She was fine a few days ago..."

Lu Junyao squatted weakly by the wall, lowered his head, even if he couldn't see his expression, he could feel his obvious depression and sadness from the atmosphere.

Duan Shu also shook his head: "Cancer is like this. If you don't have regular physical examinations, by the time you show symptoms, there is a high probability that it is already serious..."

Lu Shiyu squatted against Lu Junyao, hugged his legs and huddled into a ball, his voice trembling: "Brother Yi, can aunt be cured? It should be possible, isn't the current medicine very powerful...Auntie treats me Best of all, I don't want to lose her..."

Duan Shu also looked down at the big and small squatting by the wall, the surrounding air was filled with sadness, couldn't help sighing, squatting down in front of them, patted Lu Junyao's shoulder with one hand, and the other He rubbed Lu Shiyu's head with one hand.

"Aunt Lu is very strong. The current medicine is so powerful. As long as you cooperate with the treatment, the possibility of cure is still very high." Duan Shu also softened his tone and comforted them gently, "Patients' mentality and emotions are very important during treatment. So first of all, you all have to do your own thing well, and don't make Aunt Lu worry."

Lu Shiyu raised his head, his beautiful eyes were shining with tears.She pursed her lips, flung herself into Duan Shuyi's arms coquettishly, and buried her in his shoulder.

"Oh, my good sister." Duan Shuyi almost squatted down, and could only pat her on the back lightly as a comfort.Seeing this scene, Lu Junyao hesitated to speak.

Duan Shuyi: "Why, you also want to hug?"

Lu Junyao suddenly felt disgusted: "Huh? How is it possible."

"It's the end of the term soon, so you should be quiet and don't worry your mother any more." Duan Shu also earnestly said, "Don't fight for a while, and bear with others being mean, at least until your mother's condition improves."

Lu Junyao: "...um."

The days after Lu Junyao were really peaceful, and he even started to do homework by himself.In fact, his study is not bad, it's just that he didn't want to be serious before.It's a pity that until the summer vacation, Lu Yishan's condition has not improved significantly, it can only be said that it has stopped getting worse, and the treatment can barely be regarded as effective.

But Lu Junyao occasionally eavesdropped on the adults' conversations, and found that they said that apart from physical illnesses, Lu Yishan also had some mental problems.He couldn't understand, his mother had always been a very gentle person and treated him very well, how could she have mental problems?

Not long after, in this summer, the Lu family decided to let Lu Yishan move out to recuperate.

It was a nursing home in a place called Ninglangyuan. It was relatively remote and far away from the city center, but the environment was very good and quiet, and the doctors and other treatment facilities were relatively complete, which was very suitable for recuperation.Lu Junyao was on vacation anyway, and his grandfather gave him some money to rent a house, so he moved there too, so that he could see his mother every day.

It's just that Lu Yishan has become more and more different from before. Her temper has become very bad. It may be because the disease is too painful. Her mind and body are very fragile, and her emotions become quite agitated. Shout out.

But Lu Junyao saw that Lu Yishan's hair was cut short and thinned due to chemotherapy, and her skin was haggard and tired due to long-term drug treatment. She could not sleep every night because of the pain, and couldn't eat every day because of her body.He just felt that if it would make his mother feel better, it would be fine to ask him to cut a piece of meat, so what's the point of being scolded.

This time, Lu Yishan's condition seemed to be even worse. When Lu Junyao served the meal, she shouted that she didn't want to eat, and covered her head with the quilt.Lu Junyao put the meal on the bedside, squatted down and continued to persuade, but was slapped by Lu Yishan irritably.

Lu Junyao turned his head to one side, his cheeks ached, his eyes widened, and he was a little dazed for a while.

"Yes... I'm sorry." Lu Yishan poked her head out of the quilt, like a child who has done something wrong, with tears in her eyes, she stretched out her hand with some difficulty to touch Lu Junyao, "Mom really didn't do it on purpose... But I'm annoyed, I want to be angry, I can't help it..."

"It's okay." Lu Junyao held Lu Yishan's hand with both hands, lowered his eyebrows, "It doesn't hurt at all."

Lu Yishan's tears fell uncontrollably, her voice was hoarse and sour: "But I really can't eat, I'm in so much pain... I vomit after eating, I can't feel anything... I always want to fall asleep, but always Can't sleep, intermittent, always woke up by pain, and have nightmares when I fall asleep..."

"Hair... my hair is falling out all the time, and I don't dare to look in the mirror..." Lu Yishan's emotional accumulation has reached the peak of pressure, which is visible to the naked eye. She looks weak and collapsed, as if she is breathing and passing her life, "I I don't want to be treated anymore, it's too uncomfortable, Xiao Yao, if my mother dies..."

"No!" Lu Junyao yelled loudly for the first time, startling himself.

Lu Yishan opened her eyes slightly, showing surprise.Lu Junyao was almost half-kneeling on the ground, holding Lu Yishan's hand and putting it in front of his forehead, lowering his head, as if praying, or as if pleading: "Mom, please don't leave, please, just cooperate with the doctor, It will definitely be cured..."

His voice was so trembling that he could no longer pronounce a normal tone, and every word squeezed out of his throat seemed to be exhausted, as if chanting some spell: "I can't accept it, I can't accept you leaving, stay with me longer, Is it good, is it good..."

Lu Yishan looked at him and remained silent for a long time, until the light of the setting sun slowly disappeared from the window. Lu Yishan looked out of the window, then at Lu Junyao's hair, and sighed softly.

"Then, for Xiao Yao's sake, let's work harder."

Lu Junyao raised his head: "Mom..."

"I can eat by myself, so go back and rest first, you also have homework to do, right?" Lu Yishan smiled wryly, "You can't delay yourself."

Lu Junyao stood up slowly: "Then I..."

Lu Yishan propped up half of her body and leaned against the big pillow at the head of the bed: "Call the nurse for me."

"……it is good."

After Lu Junyao walked out of the room, he realized that it was summer, and he was covered in a cold sweat, mentally and physically exhausted.Not long after, it was dark, and Lu Junyao rented a house next to the nursing home, sitting in the yard on Qianqiu, eating sandwiches and blowing the wind.

I don't know if it's because it's far away from the city center. After dark, this place is not only cool, but also very quiet. There are not many street lights, and it's dark everywhere.Suddenly, there was a commotion on the side of the road. Several people held flashlights and looked around, as if they were looking for someone. When the leader saw Lu Junyao, a light hit him, making him squint his eyes.

The man obviously realized that he was not polite enough, so he hurriedly told him to move the flashlight away, stepped forward, and asked a little anxiously: "Good evening, handsome boy, did you see a child nearby?"

"Child?"

"It's about this tall. I'm in the fifth grade of elementary school. She has fair skin and looks very cute." The man gestured a little, then took out a post-it note and a pen out of nowhere, wrote a phone number and handed it to Lu Junyao, "If I see, please contact us, thank you."

"Let's go over there and have a look!"

"Let's separate..."

After Lu Junyao took the phone number, these people left in a hurry, and their figures and voices disappeared very quickly.Lu Junyao stuffed the post-it note back into his pocket, and just finished eating the sandwich, so he planned to visit a nearby convenience store and buy some ingredients by the way.

There are so many trees in this place, small gardens are one after another, and there are few gardeners pruning, and the weeds are reborn, densely packed like a small forest.Lu Junyao wanted to take a shortcut, so he planned to walk through the middle of a forest, but just as he got to the middle, suddenly a slipper fell from the sky, almost hitting his head.

Lu Junyao remained silent for a moment, then picked up the shoe from the ground, it was a very small one.He looked up and saw a rustling on the tree, as if something was hiding in it.

"Who?" Lu Junyao asked loudly.

The tree was quiet for a long time, and a childish voice came timidly: "...meow."

Lu Junyao: "..."

"Where does the cat pronounce it so well?" Lu Junyao turned on the flashlight of his mobile phone and took a photo on the tree, "Don't hide, come out."

"Meow meow meow……"

"Stop meowing, your feet are exposed."

A child's head poked out from behind layers of leaves. His face was dirty, his eyes were round, and his voice was very clear: "Don't take me back, I don't want to go back yet."

Lu Junyao sighed helplessly: "I don't know you at all, and I won't arrest you, but it's dangerous for you to stay in the tree at night, so you should come down first."

"really?"

Lu Junyao raised his head and walked a few steps towards the tree: "You come down first, it's too dangerous for you to fall."

"No, I'm holding onto it." The child leaned forward holding a twig in his hand, trying to see Lu Junyao's face clearly.

"Your branch is so small, it's too easy..."

Before the word "broken" was spoken, there was a click, the child's center of gravity was unstable, and he fell down from the tree in a panic. Lu Junyao hurriedly reached out to catch it, but there was a thud, and Lu Junyao fell backwards onto the grass. Disintegrated in pain, the child fell into his arms unharmed.

"You little brat..." Lu Junyao gritted his teeth in pain, sat up on his elbows, his skin was prickly and itchy from the weeds, and he couldn't help but stare at the little brat in front of him, with a fierce tone, "Little kid, what's your name?"

"My name is Xiashui, the summer of summer, the water of fruits."

"Okay, Xia Shui." Lu Junyao patted his leg, "Get up from brother, I'll take you to find your parents."

"No!"

Lu Junyao was pushed back to the ground with a "slap" by Xia Shui's hands, and was caught off guard.

"You clearly said you wouldn't arrest me, you lied!" Xia Shui looked down at him, with his hips on his hips and puffy face, looking angry.

Lu Junyao saw that Xia Shui was quite cute, so he was a little angry, so he had no choice but to compromise, and waved his hands: "Okay, I won't send you back, then you get up first, let's leave this place first, it's too dark. "

Xia Shui got up from Lu Junyao, picked up the cell phone that had been dropped beside him, and handed it to him obediently.

Lu Junyao scratched the back of his neck and pointed to the front: "Brother is going to the convenience store to buy something, do you want to follow?"

Xia Shui hesitated for a moment, then nodded heavily.

"Then follow me." Lu Junyao said as he walked forward a few steps, and when he turned around, he found Xia Shui was still standing where he was.

"what happened?"

Xia Shui clenched his fists and pursed his mouth, aggrieved: "The grass is too prickly, I don't want to leave."

Lu Junyao glanced at him, and saw that he was wearing shorts and slippers, his white and tender legs were all exposed, and the weeds here were long, which would really hurt his legs.

Lu Junyao couldn't help poking him out: "You were able to climb trees here by yourself before, why are you pretending to be delicate again now?"

"I..." Xia Shui bit her lip, with a coquettish look on her small face, "I'm tired and don't want to leave."

Lu Junyao took a few steps back: "Then what do you want?"

Xia Shui stretched out his hand, concisely: "Hold me."

Lu Junyao: "..."

Xia Shui hummed: "Why are you hesitating? I'm so cute, you won't make any money."

Lu Junyao: "Huh???"

Xia Sailor put his hands on his hips and turned his face: "Could it be that you can't even hold a child?"

Lu Junyao thought he couldn't get angry with the little kid, so he compromised helplessly again: "I've convinced you, young master."

Xia Shui was indeed not heavy. Lu Junyao hugged him in front of him and let him sit on his arm, which was quite relaxed.Xia Shui had been staring at Lu Junyao all the way, and finally couldn't help but speak seriously: "Brother, you are so beautiful, how about marrying me as a wife when you grow up, my family is pretty good, and I won't treat you badly." you."

Lu Junyao froze, and almost couldn't resist throwing the little kid out.

He said patiently: "I am a man, and you will be a man in the future, how can I be your wife?"

Xia Shui couldn't help reaching out to touch Lu Junyao's face: "But you look good..."

"Touch what, touch what." Lu Junyao patted Xia Shui's little hand away, a little irritated, "Your parents never taught you not to touch others randomly, this is considered sexual harassment."

Xia Shui tilted his head in doubt: "I know what harassment is... Mom said that you can't touch girls casually. This is wrong behavior, but brother is a boy?"

Lu Junyao educated him earnestly: "Boys can't do it either, it's considered harassment if a boy treats a boy like this."

Xia Shui asked the bottom line: "Since boys can harass boys, why can't boys be their wives?"

Lu Junyao: "..."

For the first time in his life, he was rendered speechless by a schoolboy.

"Anyway, I can't be your wife in the future, you have to treat me like an older brother." Lu Junyao cleared his throat in embarrassment, intending to fool around casually.

When the two arrived at the convenience store, Lu Junyao bought some food for him and Xia Shui, and asked while eating, "Why did you run away from home?"

Xia Shui was sitting in front of the convenience store, holding the packaging bag and gnawing on the iced glutinous rice balls, puffing his cheeks and answering: "They always make me do things I don't like, I can't bear it, so I ran out."

Lu Junyao thought that the child would not be abused, so he became cautious and asked carefully, "What's the matter?"

Xia Shui raised his head with a serious face: "Math problem."

Lu Junyao: "..."

——Bai was worried, too, just by looking at his appearance, he could tell that he was a pampered young master, how could he be abused.

"You are in school, of course you have to do math problems, children should study hard."

Although Lu Junyao understands the truth, he has never done it himself, so it is inevitable that he will feel a little guilty when he says it.

Xia Shui drooped her eyebrows and looked depressed: "But I really don't like it. Whenever I do something I don't like, I feel very uncomfortable. I want to be happy, so no one can force me !"

Lu Junyao knelt down in front of Xia Shui, and with the same eyes as him, began to reason gently: "However, you will encounter many difficulties when you grow up, can you escape by saying 'I don't like' every time? When encountering difficulties, you have to bravely solve them to become a stronger person. If you avoid it every time because you don’t like it, won’t you become a waste?”

"..." Xia Shui stopped chewing slowly, looked at Lu Junyao and blinked, thinking half-understood.

Lu Junyao continued: "Besides, elementary school mathematics is actually very simple. If you can't overcome this difficulty, then you are a little waste. Brother can look down on such a small waste."

Lu Junyao's tone was very gentle. It was obviously a provocative method, but it made people feel a little pampered and could not be provocative at all.

Xia Shui was full of grievances: "I'm not a waste, but I really don't want to do any more questions. I just want to run out to play for a while, and I'll go home..."

"Then brother will take you home later, okay?" Lu Junyao pinched Xia Shui's face lightly, but found that it felt so good, he couldn't help pinching it again.

"Ah!" Xia Shui seemed to have discovered something suddenly, frowned, and slapped Lu Junyao's face with his small hand, "You didn't let me touch your face just now, but you pinched me, it's not fair! Bullying!"

Lu Junyao blushed: "Okay... Whatever you want..."

The two debated for a long time, Xia Shui finally agreed to go home, but he didn't allow Lu Junyao to call, he had to let Lu Junyao carry him to see him off, and Xia Shui knew the way by himself.

"Beautiful brother, do you live near here?" Xia Shui was a little sleepy, and asked in a low voice while lying on Lu Junyao's shoulder.

"For the time being."

Xia Shui was a little happy: "Then can I still come to play with you in the future?"

"Yes, but you can't run away from home again."

Xia Shui smiled cheerfully: "Brother, you are so gentle, I like you so much."

Lu Junyao: "..."

It was the first time someone associated the word "gentle" with him. Although the other party was a child, Lu Junyao was inadvertently stunned, and then couldn't help laughing.

...It is absolutely impossible for him to be a gentle person, but whoever holds such a soft and cute little boy in his arms should be gentle.

Lu Junyao suddenly felt better.