Stop chasing me!Lu Yingdi

After the concert, Xia Shui went back to work step by step as usual. There were no invitations to variety shows for a while, so his daily work became - shooting, dancing, shooting in another location, and practicing with another song .As stable as an ordinary office worker.

But Xia Shui has been in a bad state for a while, and he can't raise his spirits. He seems to be haunted by a nightmare, dreaming every night.Dreaming that I am in a tall building, in the clouds, in a forest full of rusty gears.The only similarity is that there is Lu Junyao everywhere, either quietly, or walking away, or locked in a sleeping box.

This time he dreamed of Lu Junyao again, he was floating in the sea, surrounded by air bubbles that rose and shattered in the light, Lu Junyao closed his eyes in front of him, sinking quietly, into the bottomless darkness.He wanted to open his mouth to shout something, but the sea water rushed into his mouth and nose, making him unable to breathe, and he also sank backward...

Xia Shui was pleasantly surprised by the painful suffocation, and then found that his face was covered in the quilt, got up and wiped his face with his hands, and found that it was full of sweat.

Xia Shui got up and opened the curtains of the room, and the afterglow of the evening burned the sky red. Only then did he realize that he had slept for more than three hours after returning from the company.Today is the practice day. It may be that the load was too heavy during the morning practice. I just wanted to take a little rest, but I accidentally slept for a long time.

There are many unanswered messages on the phone, Xia Shui clicked to check them one by one, most of them were jobs sent by the agent for him to confirm.After Xia Shui replied, Ji Ting immediately sent a message: [The vocal teacher told me that you skipped the afternoon training?How is this going? 】

Xia Shui replied with a guilty conscience: 【I overslept...】

Ji Ting: [Forget it, I've already sent someone to go back straight away, why don't you just rest today. 】

Ji Ting: [Why are you so confused recently, did you not take a break?Make good adjustments, it is best not to have this situation happen a second time, and the industry's evaluation will be lowered. 】

Xia Shui: [OK...]

Xia Shui put down his phone, leaned against the head of the bed, looked at the ceiling, and sighed long.

... Why didn't Lu Junyao contact him?

Xia Shui was taken aback by his sudden thought, feeling as if he had symptoms similar to Stockholm.He was obviously hurt, wasn't he?He should take it for granted that he no longer likes Lu Junyao. Even if he misses it, he should have an attitude of disgust, not like now...

Feel lonely like now.

Xia Shui rubbed her hair, lowered her head and showed a bitter smile, and couldn't help mocking herself in her heart: Why call Lu Junyao sick, I am the one who will never forget him, I am the real sick.

Xia Shui was still preoccupied until dinner time.When it comes to dinner, it's actually a home-delivered bento from a convenience store. After all, it's hard to get up and cook by yourself when you're alone at home, and Xia Shui isn't very good at cooking.He absently stuffed the rice into his mouth with a spoon, when suddenly, the phone rang.

Xia Shui didn't look at the screen carefully, thinking it was Ji Ting's mother who was sick again and worried that he wouldn't be able to eat dinner alone. After clicking on the connection, he subconsciously said: "It's time to eat, I know how to take care of myself..."

"Yo, I'm bothering you then, handsome boy?"

The voice was not familiar, but it seemed that he had heard it somewhere before. Xia Shui looked at the screen again, only to realize that it was an unfamiliar number.

"You are……?"

"Did you forget me so quickly?" The man's voice pretended to be wronged, "We have met before, I am Duan Shuyi."

Xia Shui remembered this man, and frowned slightly: "How do you know my number?"

Duan Shuyi: "This is not difficult, some simple methods, but this is not the point..."

Xia Shui was agitated for a moment: "Why is this not the point? My private information..."

"I checked that you don't have an itinerary out of town, so you are at home right now. You and Jun Yao are neighbors." Duan Shu also ignored Xia Shui's protest, but said his own, his tone was rare and serious, " I haven't been able to contact him for the past two days, but I'm still at the airport in another city, and I may not be able to return to City B until early in the morning, so I have a bad feeling, can you help me see if your neighbor is still alive?"

Xia Shui was stunned for a moment, stood up involuntarily, walked slowly towards the door, and tried to keep calm: "You, you don't want to scare people casually, how can a good adult die inexplicably, he must be very busy, no Do you want to film? You have already joined the group."

"Ah? Don't you know, don't you have a good relationship?" Duan Shuyi said with doubts, "He didn't film, and I don't know why, he pushed all the books, and he should be staying at home for a while Bar?"

"However, when I contacted him by mobile phone before, I also felt that his mood was a bit strange. I wanted to see him, but there were always clients who wanted to talk and I couldn't get away. I will be back tomorrow. You can take a look at him first. Bar?"

For some reason, Duan Shuyi's tone this time was obviously very sincere, but Xia Shui was very upset when he heard it.

"It's as if Lu Junyao belongs to you..." Xia Shui couldn't help muttering.

Duan Shuyi: "What?"

Xia Shui: "Nothing."

Duan Shu also reminded: "Ah, by the way, he has a spare key in..."

"Under the carpet, I know." Xia Shui took out the key from under the carpet at the door, which Lu Junyao told him when he tricked him into feeding the goldfish.

"Kacha", Xia Shui pushed open the door of Lu Junyao's house.

The living room was very dark, all the dark curtains were drawn down, only a faint light came through the gaps, illuminating the dust flying upwards in the air.The whole house is lifeless, as if no one has lived in it for a long time.Xia Shui stood at the door and hesitated for a moment, then called Lu Junyao's name inside, but no one responded after a long time.

Xia Shui thought for a moment, then took off his shoes and entered the house.He tiptoed around the house looking for Lu Junyao, and finally found something unusual in the innermost room.

A quilt was spread beside the bed, and it was dragged to the floor, but when Xia Shui got closer, he realized that it was not a quilt, but a person wrapped in a quilt.Lu Junyao was completely trapped in the quilt, his face was bloodless, and he was lying on the edge of the bed with his eyes closed, as if he had fallen on the edge of the bed.And I don't know if he fell asleep or passed out, when Xia Shui approached him, he didn't react at all.

"Lu Junyao? Lu Junyao! Wake up, are you alright?" Xia Shui quickly squatted down to check on him. After shaking his shoulders to no avail, he patted his face lightly. As soon as he touched his skin, he felt an abnormal feeling. piping hot.

——Lu Junyao has a fever.

Lu Junyao was swayed by Xia Shui, his eyes opened in a daze, and his mouth was vague: "Um... Xia Shui...?"

He propped his elbows on the side of the bed and tried to stand up, but his whole body collapsed and fell to the side, being hugged by Xia Shui.

Xia Shui hugged Lu Junyao, felt his hot forehead pressed against his shoulder, even breathing was audibly heavy and forced, and his body was very thin, as if he hadn't eaten enough for a few days.Xia Shui met Lu Junyao with such a fragile vitality for the first time, and it seemed that he could shatter him like glass with a light drop.

"It's great... I can still see you in my dream... Xia..."

Lu Junyao murmured hoarsely in Xia Shui's arms, as if he was talking in his sleep, intermittently, Xia Shui could only piece together a few words.

"It's not a dream. You have a fever and you need to see a doctor." Xia Shui tried to hug Lu Junyao, but found that he couldn't even move under Lu Junyao's weight, let alone hugging.Although Lu Junyao's body is very weak now, his weight has not decreased at all.

Xia Shui sighed, and gently touched Lu Junyao's forehead: "Can you still wake up? I'll help you sit up first."

"Don't see a doctor...don't go to the hospital..." Lu Junyao was like a child having a nightmare, repeating "don't" in his mouth, raised his head and looked at Xia Shui while moving his face closer.Feeling the heat approaching on Lu Junyao's face, Xia Shui couldn't help becoming nervous, but the next moment, Lu Junyao passed out in his arms.

When Duan Shu also arrived at Lu Junyao's house at [-]:[-] in the morning, he found that the door was not closed. After entering the house, he found that there were obvious traces of someone coming to the entrance, and the light in the living room was also on.He walked to Lu Junyao's room and saw Lu Junyao lying flat on the bed sleeping, and Xia Shui sitting beside him with a worried expression.

"The door wasn't even closed, I thought it was a thief." Duan Shu also looked at the wall and teased.

Xia Shui's tone was light: "My personal doctor just left, maybe he forgot to close the door before he left."

"private doctor?"

"Lu Junyao had a cold and a fever. Before he passed out, he kept saying that he didn't want to go to the hospital, so I called my personal doctor to come, and I hung up the needle for a while at home." Xia Shui leaned forward slightly, and reached out to touch Lu Junyao's chest. Forehead, "Fortunately, the fever has subsided now."

Duan Shu also walked away from the wall, went to the bedside and glanced at Lu Junyao, heaved a sigh of relief, and solemnly said, "Thank you, I owe you a favor."

Xia Shui was a little irritable, gritted his teeth and let out a soft "tow", and frowned: "If you owe it, it's Lu Junyao who owes me, what does it have to do with you."

Surprise flashed across Duan Shuyi's eyes, and he was a little surprised by Xia Shui's reaction. He couldn't help but smile, and just as he was about to speak, he heard Xia Shui ask, "How long have you known Lu Junyao?"

Duan Shu also thought for a while, and replied: "We met in high school for more than ten years."

Xia Shui lowered his head, with an unpredictable expression: "You have known each other for so long, so you should know everything about him."

Duan Shuyi: "What?"

Xia Shui's face was pale, his eyes seemed to be trying to suppress some emotions, and there was an unconcealable sadness in the complexity, he took a deep breath, took Lu Junyao's arm out of the quilt, and slowly rolled up his sleeves.

Xia Shui's voice trembled slightly: "Tell me what this is."

On Lu Junyao's left arm, there were bruises and bruises all over, or bright red pinch marks. He was originally fair-skinned, and this kind of marks made it even more shocking. The blood vessels and veins on his wrist stood out under the scarred skin. It seemed a little more fragile.

Duan Shu was also silent for a moment, he didn't show any surprise, but pinched the base of his nose helplessly, and sighed: "Sure enough, it's like this again."

Xia Shui felt a little inexplicable anger and sadness in his heart, but he still tried to keep himself calm and able to communicate rationally: "You mean you have seen this before, what's wrong? Did someone do something to him? ?”

Duan Shu also said calmly: "No, he did it himself."

Xia Shui was incredulous: "What?"

"It's just an ordinary act of self-mutilation, so there's no need to make such a fuss." Duan Shuyi's tone was as natural as if he was telling a very ordinary thing, and he walked slowly to the bedside, pulling down Lu Junyao's sleeves again, so as not to He caught a cold.

Xia Shui was still astonished by the unknown situation: "Why? Why do normal people hurt themselves?"

Duan Shu also looked back at him, and chuckled mockingly: "Who told you that Lu Junyao is a normal person, is he himself?"

"..."

Xia Shui suddenly had nothing to say.

Duan Shu also sat down by the bed, and thanked earnestly: "Go back, I will take care of him here, thank you very much today."

"I won't go back." Xia Shui had a small face and frowned, "I won't go back until you explain the matter to me."

Duan Shu also shrugged helplessly: "What exactly do you want to understand?"

"Just..." Xia Shui had a question in his head, and suddenly realized that he didn't know anything about Lu Junyao. After thinking for a while, he decided to figure out this first, "Why did he have such self-harm behavior? Is that so?"

Duan Shu also thought carefully: "No way, I was still in college when I saw this last time."

Xia Shui lowered his head and muttered: "Then why..."

"Are you a repeater? Haven't I already said that?" Duan Shu also tilted his head, very straightforward, "Because he is sick."

Xia Shui's eyes widened, he looked at the sleepy Lu Junyao, and then at Duan Shuyi, still a little unbelievable: "...Even if there is a disease, it is impossible to be born with a disease, right?"

Duan Shu also sighed, thinking that Xia Shui would probably get to the bottom of it, so he simply stated directly: "He was stimulated a little in high school, and it hasn't been normal since then, but he still went to see a doctor Yes, most of the time it will be quite normal, probably only when the pressure and emotions are accumulated, it will become very autistic, and then like to self-mutilate, this situation has happened for so many years, only a few times. "

"The last time I saw him like this was when he first entered the industry. Seven or eight years ago, it seemed that a big star plotted against him and drugged him. This person seemed to be the son of a big company, and his family background was very good. , Lu Junyao had just returned to the country at that time, and the relationship with the Lu family was still a little stiff, so he did this kind of thing because he was not afraid of offending the Lu family, but of course he didn’t succeed in the end.” Duan Shu also touched his chin, “This person seems to be called Huo what? ..."

Xia Shui let out a displeased "tss", with a look of disgust on his face: "I should be able to guess who this person is, but he got out of the entertainment industry and went to jail a few years ago. The Internet is full of social news about him, and their company has long been cold."

"According to what I learned later, Lu Junyao seemed to beat him up, but he was probably disgusted by all kinds of things. It happened that my university in the United States was on summer vacation, and I came back. When I came back, I saw Lu Junyao squatting on the sofa wrapped in a quilt. I was scratching the wall with my hands until my nails were covered with blood." Duan Shu also shook his head helplessly, "To be honest, I was not used to it at the time, and I was a little scared, and then I found that his arms were all pinched by himself. and scratch marks."

Xia Shui's expression became lower and lower as he listened: "...and then."

"What else can I do later, just call a doctor, a psychiatrist and a private doctor to come to my home for treatment, and then I will stay with him all the time to prevent him from hurting himself, and he will be back to normal after a few days of self-isolation." Duan Shu also Glancing at Lu Junyao, "But this time, I still have a fever. I guess it's because the weather has changed recently, and I just happened to catch a cold. It seems to be quite serious."

Xia Shui hesitated: "Then this time..."

"It's probably because of you." Although Duan Shuyi was smiling, his eyes were not warm at all, even a little cold.

Xia Shui turned her head: "Are you blaming me?"

Duan Shu also shook his head slightly: "Of course not, don't get me wrong, I'm not so unreasonable. I can probably guess what happened between you, your reaction is normal, and you didn't do anything wrong. The problem is Lu Junyao."

"..." Xia Shui stared blankly at Lu Junyao, hesitated for a moment, and asked involuntarily, "Do you like him?"

Duan Shu also frowned slightly: "Hmm...?"

Xia Shui raised his head and asked seriously: "You have done so many things for him, do you like him?"

"This question is unexpected." Duan Shu couldn't help complaining, "What kind of relationship are you asking about?"

Xia Shui said: "Since I asked specifically, do I need to tell you what kind of relationship I am asking?"

Duan Shu was also silent for a while, and couldn't help chuckling.

Xia Shui was inexplicably annoyed: "What are you laughing at?"

Duan Shu also smiled and fooled: "I just like to laugh for no reason, please bear with me."

Xia Shui: "..."

Duan Shu also thought about it carefully, and replied: "Although I have slept with other men, but only with Lu Junyao, I really don't have such a thing as lust, so I may really care about him purely. "

Xia Shui was a little skeptical: "Really? But..."

"There's nothing wrong with it." Duan Shu also interrupted him, with a hint of grievance in his self-deprecating tone, "Although I know I'm not a good person, even a person like me will have a friendship that he simply wants to protect. Is it difficult to understand that your feelings are complicated?"

"..." Xia Shui was speechless, "Sorry, I have no other meaning..."

"It's okay." Duan Shu also softened his expression a little, "You ask that, it means you still like him, doesn't it?"

"Hmm..." Xia Shui sighed and had to admit it.

Duan Shu also asked: "Even if he is such a person?"

Xia Shui lowered his head slightly, weakly: "Mmm..."

"Why do you have such an inexplicable attachment to him?" Duan Shu also felt incomprehensible, "Now it's hard for me to think that you are a normal person. Normal people should avoid dangerous things. Rather than rushing over.”

"I don't know either..." Xia Shui lowered his head, his fingers clenched the fabric of his trousers, his voice trembled, and all the emotions this night gradually accumulated to the peak, "But I'm sad, I'm really sad, I Seeing Lu Junyao like this, my chest feels like it's blocked, it's really painful..."

Tears hit the back of Xia Shui's hand, and by the time he realized it, tears were already covering his face.He raised his hand, tearing at the clothes on his chest: "Even if I don't want to admit it, how can I explain this feeling other than I love him..."

The room was silent for a long time, only the sound of Xia Shui weeping and sniffling.Xia Shui wiped his face with his hands, feeling a little ashamed, but the tear glands are not something he said he could control

Duan Shu also silently handed him the wrapping paper, and teased gently: "Don't cry suddenly, it scared me, if others saw it, they would think I was bullying you."

"Thank you." Xia Shui wiped her nose with a tissue, "Actually, I think you are different from what you said, you are a good person."

"You are too simple, you just saw my side as Lu Junyao's friend." Duan Shu also couldn't help laughing, "People have many sides, don't define others so quickly."

Xia Shui said solemnly: "I want to know what happened to Lu Junyao before, do you understand everything?"

"Probably." Duan Shu also said, "But this is a long story."

Xia Shui: "Are you in a hurry to go somewhere now?"

Duan Shu was also choked suddenly: "..."

"I've convinced you, okay." Duan Shu smiled wryly, "The night is still long, and we probably won't be able to sleep, so why not go to the living room and have a good chat, and let Lu Junyao sleep well by himself."

They chatted for so long just now, but Lu Junyao was not woken up, it seemed that he was really lethargic.

Before leaving the door, Duan Shu also took a look at Lu Junyao and turned off the light.

"Have a good dream,... although I feel that you may be having a nightmare right now."

"Reality is sometimes better than dreams. Wake up early, friend."