I have been a royal these years

Meng Shaoqing and I were classmates for nothing in those years.

He is different from what I remembered, or maybe I never really got to know him.

It was snowing heavily.

I am in a city where it is absolutely impossible to snow, looking at the heavy snow.

Meng Shaoqing's eyes hide the shadow of every piece of snow that flies past him.

After this ambiguous confession, we all remained ambiguously silent.

"Is it cold?" Facing my prolonged silence, Meng Shaoqing asked, "I should have told you to wear an extra dress in advance, but that wouldn't be enough surprises."

I tugged on my coat: "No."

Not very cold, just overly surprised.When you are extremely surprised, your body will feel cold or hot.

It wasn't long before I felt this way, when my lips suddenly touched Meng Shaoqing's lips, which were softer than snowflakes.

Speaking of which, he has been so close to me, but I haven't backed away.Could he just be playing around?

I didn't back away, it was a miscalculation.

I still haven't backed away, it's——

Anyway, I didn't break his kiss, but I didn't respond either.The kiss didn't last long, it ended in just half a minute.

He put his arm around my shoulder and asked, "Do you feel a little hotter?"

I'm only now thinking of backing off.

Take half a step back.

I didn't heat up a bit, but it wasn't as cold as before.Whether this was caused by Meng Shaoqing's kiss, I don't know.

Meng Shaoqing looked at the distance between me and him: "You don't like me."

I kept myself calm all the time: "Shao Qing, I can't like you."

"Can't you like it, or don't you like it?" He seems to be obsessed with figuring out this detail, but I can't give him a definite answer.

Human emotions are complex.People who can clearly and firmly say "I like you" and "I don't like you" either say it casually, or the mechanism of processing emotions in the brain is more agile than others.

In fact, I am not afraid of anything.But in my mind, there is a voice that keeps telling me that I can't like Meng Shaoqing.It's not because he's my boss's boss, it's not because I'm so different from him, it's not because I'm an artist.

It seemed that I was doomed not to like him. There was an invisible, hard-to-describe reason lying between the two of us.I can't see what that reason is, and I don't think the world can see it either.But we clearly know that it exists.

"Let me think about it." I said, "You know, my grades were always bad when I was in school. If there are three solutions to a test, I will struggle with which one to use."

Meng Shaoqing said: "This is different from making papers."

"Of course, it's harder than doing a paper."

"Jian Ming, I actually liked you when I was studying."

Meng Shaoqing's confession, which was many years late, did not sound too surprising to me.Back then, such a handsome young man wasted his time by my side every day instead of picking up girls.Said he likes me, there are still traces to follow.

"At that time, it felt like an illness. A disease. I don't think you understand." Meng Shaoqing seldom said such irrational words, and it surprised me more than when he said he liked me, "You don't dress like other people There is something different, but my eyes are always chasing you. I feel uncomfortable when I can’t see you after school. When I get home, I just want to go to bed quickly, wake up and go to school, so that I can see you. "

Because of good rest, full of energy, early to bed and early to rise, etc., Meng Shaoqing's grades in middle school were outstanding.

Unexpectedly, he was so good back then, and I played a potential role.

"Shao Qing, I... Let me think about it. What happened today happened so suddenly. I can't answer you." I said.In fact, I am not a very decisive person emotionally.

I need to confirm a relationship for a long time.Confirm that I can keep this love for a long time, and confirm that the other party can keep this love for a long time, and then I will make a decision.

I really hate fast food love.What "bold love" and "brave love" that young people pursue is not so easy for me.

"Okay." He seemed to compromise with me, his tone softened, and he was willing to give me time to think about it, "But Shun Ming, you understand me, I am not a person who gives up easily. You...you think about it carefully Bar."

I said "um", turned my back and said, "Then I'll go down first. The managers should still be waiting for me."

The author says:

Recently, my health is very bad, very bad.I really want to update a lot every day, but I have been in poor health recently