Ayanokoji in Kexue World

Teidan Academy Festival ([-]) "Third Person Perspective"

The Teidan Academy Festival didn't end until nine o'clock in the evening.

The vitality and vitality brought to people by the younger generation are rougher and simpler than those on paper and TV dramas, but they are also more powerful.This is the most original picture without secondary processing.As soon as he met these people, Osamu Dazai suddenly felt that he was only three or four years older than the other party, but when he called them, he subconsciously wanted to refer to those children.

Watching the night fall, Osamu Dazai finally spoke to Ayanokōji who was looking for him but didn't speak.

"Since you asked me to come over, you didn't say a word. You asked you to think about it, and you thought about it for almost an hour. If you don't think about it, I will leave first."

As a result, Ayanokoji said provocatively, "You seem to be more patient than I thought."

"If this is using honorifics to cover up the fact of "let me go", then you are more rude than I imagined. "Osamu Dazai moved his stiff shoulders. He wasn't angry, and he didn't know what to be angry about. It's more comfortable than I imagined to stay so quiet once in a while.

Furthermore, he was inexplicably interested in what Ayanokōji came to talk to him on purpose.

If he saw Ayanokōji for the first time, he would probably think that this is just an ordinary popular student who is popular with the students of the school.Although Ayanokōji himself has no self-awareness about this, but the original student life is so simple - as long as your personality is not too bad, and you are a person with excellent abilities, handsome appearance, and unique temperament, this is already a form of acceptance. conditions of welcome.

But such a person is not so special.

Yes, the existence of Ayanokoji becomes interesting after knowing that the natural-looking Ayanokoji is actually an important figure in an international terrorist organization.This kind of person will mess around with the students, like a child who doesn't know the world.

Such speculation is also interesting.

But because Osamu Dazai's words seemed to be condemnation, Ayanokōji looked up and glanced at him.

If it were someone else, Osamu Dazai would still wonder if the other party was watching his face.However, Ayanokouji is not sure.

Sure enough, he said calmly: "I'm thinking about how I should express it."

He has been thinking for an hour.

Osamu Dazai felt that according to normal standards, this kind of person should be a person with insufficient thinking ability.However, Osamu Dazai still pointedly said: "I think you are just here to amuse me."

"Have you ever thought that you are very good at lying? When you feel the need to say something against your will, your eyes will subconsciously move to other places?"

When Osamu Dazai was talking, he would also imitate Ayanokouji's clumsy lying behavior.

But Ayanokouji was not ashamed about this, and it can be said that he was indifferent.

Osamu Dazai frowned and said, "You don't have anything to say to me, do you?" Although there were some disputes between the two during the day regarding the case, after Ayanokōji knew that he couldn't get the answer, he let go His determination is comparable to his persistent earnestness.

When they asked him to come to the rooftop, Ayanokōji obviously didn't care about the daytime disputes at all.

Ayanokōji is now answering Dazai Osamu's words "he has nothing to say to himself", and replied: "Yes."

"..."

That's pretty brazen.

Ayanokouji hadn't finished yet: "I just want to stay with you."

Osamu Dazai looked around subconsciously, but there was no one around.

To whom did he say this.

Ayanokōji continued to speak slowly, "I can't leave the school for now."

After all, everyone else is still playing, if he tells a lie and leaves, the others will also be worried.

"But I also don't want people bothering me, or having to deal with people."

Dazai glanced down at him.

Ayanokouji, who has always been reticent, actually knows the atmosphere.However, after the recital where the second-year roles were reversed, Ayanokōji felt uncomfortable facing the fact that he had become a popular student, and there were people who wanted to strike up a conversation with him wherever he went.

Thinking that Ayanokouji would be troubled by such a trivial matter, Osamu Dazai suddenly wanted to inform the whole school of Ayanokouji's location.

Ayanokouji still hasn't finished speaking: "And I don't like you, so I don't need to take care of your mood."

Whether it's irritability or disgust.

Anyway, Ayanokōji just used him as a shield to separate those who wanted to strike up a conversation.

but--

"Ha," Osamu Dazai felt that this was too funny. Ayanokouji's self-serving speech was too ridiculous.Because of this speechlessness, Osamu Dazai said: "Then do I have to thank you?"

Ayanokouji was surprised at this moment: "Do you really want to thank me?"

It is also a rare existence that can make people too speechless.

Osamu Dazai put his hands in his pockets, tilted his head and said, "You are such an interesting person."

This is not a compliment, nor is it a disparaging word.

But obviously, Ayanokōji couldn't think about these words.

Osamu Dazai deliberately ignored this point: "According to common sense, if you are not in a good mood, don't you want to stay with people with good relationships? There are very few people like you who choose to stay with people you hate together."

Ayanokouji looked up at Osamu Dazai.But Osamu Dazai knew he didn't want to explain.

Less does not mean no.

What's more, not everything needs to be explained.

What's more, Dazai Osamu remembered a story very similar to Ayanokoji's current situation: "By the way, have you seen the movie "A Game of Cat and Mouse"?"

He raised the corner of his mouth and said with a smile, "Frank, the genius fraudster, makes a phone call to the policeman who arrested him, Carl, every Christmas."

Ayanokōji didn't know much about the movie, but said, "Is this provoking the police to keep failing to catch me?"

"It doesn't matter." Osamu Dazai paused, and said, "It's more because he has no one to talk to in Christmas, a family reunion festival."

Osamu Dazai, like a psychologist who has insight into the psychology of others, gave Ayanokouji an accurate answer: "He is very lonely. Even if he is an enemy, he wants to find comfort and a sense of existence from him." When he finished speaking, he turned to Ayanokouji looked in the direction.

Ayanokouji didn't know if he was looking for approval, or if he was making sure he was listening.

"Do you think I resemble him?"

Inexplicably, Ayanokouji read this sentence from his eyes.

In terms of personality and personality, there are too many differences between Ayanokōji and the genius fraudster.Ayanokouji is not good at disguising and deceiving, and has a relatively closed personality, not the kind of person who can easily gain the trust of others.Therefore, he always needs to spend more energy than others to gain the trust and approval of others.But this turned out to be his advantage.

Because the trust gained through his hard work is stronger and unshakable than the intimacy and trust brought by his kind and gentle words and warm smiles.

Osamu Dazai said: "Of course not, people feel lonely because of lack of love, but you don't lack love."

Osamu Dazai counted Ayanokoji with his fingers, and said, "Look at Dr. Agasa and that little girl who live in your house, Kogoro Mori, who is your teacher, the little girl and that boy from the Mori office, and the little girl in the cafe. Miss Enomoto and another detective, Mr. Ranpo from our agency, and the students in your school are also paying attention to you. But when there are so many people around, you finally choose to sit on the balcony alone."

"In order to avoid people from disturbing you, you even specifically asked me to use it as a shield."

Osamu Dazai paused, and said: "But even so, you still choose to leave. Doesn't this mean that even though people are different, the essence of loneliness is the same."

"you're right."

Ayanokouji gave up thinking.

It doesn't matter if it's lonely or if you need your own space to rest.

Ayanokouji's reaction made Osamu Dazai react immediately.

Ayanokouji is not pursuing loneliness at all, but simply tired of dealing with interpersonal communication.So how did such a person mediate with those high-ranking people?Osamu Dazai began to feel that he didn't understand Ayanokouji even more.However, after these conversations, he always felt that Ayanokouji knew him.It's just that he didn't say it out, and Osamu Dazai didn't want to ask about the source of those feelings.

Osamu Dazai decided to interrupt this topic: "I misunderstood, I was thinking a little too deeply, sorry to bother you."

Just after he finished speaking, Ling Xiaolu asked curiously: "Are you leaving?"

"No ah."

Because of Ayanokouji's reaction, Osamu Dazai became interested in teasing him, and the part of Ayanokouji's dull character is also quite interesting.

Osamu Dazai added a sentence to tease him with a smile: "So you don't want me?"

"No, I'm just thinking about how you're going to leave. If you're going to jump off the building, I'll call an ambulance for you. If you don't die after jumping off the building, you may be paralyzed, or you may be a vegetable, and you will need someone to take care of you for the rest of your life. "

See, this man really knows him.

Osamu Dazai was silent for a while, skipped the topic, and said with a gesture of comment: "To be honest, you really don't know how to answer."

"...What is a pick-up?"

"That's what I said "reluctantly", you have to express your feelings appropriately and positively to keep me.Although the listener knows it's fake, it makes the conversation interesting. "

"..."

Ayanokouji couldn't cope with this sentence, so he changed it again.

"By the way, how did you suddenly see that I'm not the one on the stage?"

Because she is not interested in women's clothing on stage and wants to observe the surrounding situation, Ayanokōji asks Otoko Yuta to take the stage instead of herself.He has always been confident in the disguise technique he stole from Belmode.Zhu Fu Jingguang's disguise technique was also taught by him.If it was seen by Ranpo, Ayanokouji didn't think there was any problem.

After all, Edogawa Ranpo's ability is more like "God's perspective" to Ayanokouji than "super reasoning".

"Do you want to improve after getting the answer from me?" Osamu Dazai said.

"Ah."

"Are you sure I will give you the answer?"

Osamu Dazai is so good at pushing and pulling policies that he doesn't give direct answers.Even if the answer is given, it is true and false.

As soon as Osamu Dazai finished speaking, "No" was already written on Ayanokōji's expression, but he felt that Osamu Dazai would definitely say some meaningless education, so Ayanokōji said casually, "Not necessarily."

Osamu Dazai showed a dissatisfied expression, and said: "At this time, in order to make the conversation more interesting, you should give me an absolute answer. This is called stalking. Don't you usually say this kind of thing very well? Come on. , I’ll give you another chance to perform.”

At this time, Ayanokoji received a text message from Dr. Ali calling him home.Ayanokouji stood up, planning to leave.He just wanted to talk about the text message, but found that Dazai Osamu's expression was already clear, and there was no need for him to say a few more words.Because Dazai also made a gesture of getting up and preparing to leave.

Ayanokōji said to Osamu Dazai: "British female poet Stevie Smith once wrote a poem, in which there is a line like this: "My life is so far away from the shore that when I ask for help, I seem to be waving my hands." "

"

"..."

Osamu Dazai suspected that Ayanokouji was metaphorizing something.

Ling Xiaolu asked back: "Aren't you going to pick up the joke? Didn't you ask me to show it?"

"Take the lead?"

Osamu Dazai obviously didn't understand what Ayanokouji said.

"That's it—" Ayanokōji shook his hand at Osamu Dazai and said, "Goodbye. "

"...This is not a catch-up."

If it is really counted, then this kind of connection is really too nine twists and eighteen turns.

Osamu Dazai laughed a little.

"what is that?"

"You say goodbye to me, say goodbye to people, and make this kind of behavior that shows "reluctance", this kind of behavior can already enter the category of "flirting" rather than intercourse. Osamu Dazai said seriously, "Do you understand?" "

Total nonsense.

"...if you want to silence me, you've succeeded."

Ayanokōji had already discovered that playing this language game with Osamu Dazai was very difficult for him.

Osamu Dazai laughed, "Indeed."

Before Ayanokōji left the school, he saw Osamu Dazai standing on the edge of the roof.He was so blurry that only a black shadow remained, but he could still be seen looking at the school gate from afar.If Osamu Dazai wanted to be a gregarious person, it would be easy for him, but he always has his own ideas.

Ayanokouji didn't delve too deeply into it.

But it's also strange to leave directly, after all, I saw the other party.Then, Ayanokouji waved his hand in Dazai Osamu's direction.

The figure of Osamu Dazai moved because of Ayanokouji's movement, and then made the same movement.

If he could hear the other party closer, Ayanokōji might still be able to hear Osamu Dazai complaining about him.

"It's really wasting a lot of time with a boring person, which makes me not even in the mood to commit suicide."

Osamu Dazai stretched his waist after speaking, and the corners of his mouth bent unconsciously.

Just go, why don't you wave your hand...

Just like a kid.

——The end of the school festival