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Xu Botao sat in the coffee shop, clasped his hands in front of the table, watched the sun disappear bit by bit outside the window, watched the street lamps light up one by one, watched, the time when he met Jiang Wang bit by bit Approaching, thumbs rubbing each other, inexplicably tense up.

With 5 minutes left before the appointed time, his eyes suddenly locked on a tall and slender woman with long hair outside the window.The woman was wearing high-heeled shoes, narrow-leg pants, a white shirt, and a long coat. She walked swiftly and calmly from a distance.Xu Botao immediately stood up, telling him intuitively, this is Yunbo 12 years later...

His intuition was not wrong. The woman was indeed walking towards him step by step, getting closer and closer. Looking at his expression, she was neither cold nor cold, calm and calm, and finally stood still in front of him.

Xu Botao looked at Jiang Wang carefully.

Her appearance is more outstanding than that of many years ago, and her temperament seems to be much softer than that of many years ago, and she is no longer so cold and harsh, but her pair of eyes that cannot see emotions clearly are still the same.

After a moment of murmuring, Xu Botao stretched out his hand, bent the corners of his lips, his usual clear voice was a little hoarse due to excitement, but he said with sincere joy and relief: "Fourth sister, it's really you, you're still here, that's great Yes, that's great..."

Jiang Wangji just looked at the clear, upright, gentle man in front of him for a while, stretched out his hand and shook him lightly and quickly, with a faint smile on his lips, he snorted softly, and said, "Long time no see." ..." Then, he calmly sat down on the seat.

For a moment, Xu Botao was a little embarrassed, and in that light heh, he keenly noticed that his previous perception was wrong.Jiang Wang was not gentler than she was many years ago, at least, she was like this to herself, every word and deed, every frown and smile, consistent, indifferent and slightly ironic.

He didn't guess wrong, indeed, Yun Bai didn't like him many years ago.Because, Yun Bai knew that this boy who grew up with Xu Baihan held a very important weight in Xu Baihan's heart, perhaps, surpassed himself, making her envious and resentful.

Years later, Yun Bai's jealousy towards him only increased.

Xu Botao also sat down, stretched out his hand to call for the waiter, and had two cups of coffee with Jiang Wang.Then, he looked at Jiang Wang, who was holding his chin with one hand, looking out of the window. After a long silence, he said, "Fourth sister, why didn't you come back to us after so many years? You don't know how sad the family is because of you." ?"

As soon as he finished speaking, he saw Jiang Wang turned his head, the smile on his lips deepened, his eyes were sharp and cold, and his voice was flat.But Xu Botao heard the sarcasm inside: "Really? I really don't know. You see, without me, don't you all live well?"

Xu Botao frowned slightly, and immediately retorted: "That's not the case. Uncle has often mentioned you these years, saying that he owes you, and whenever he mentions you, he..."

Before he finished speaking, Jiang Wang interrupted him in a cold voice: "I don't want to hear these things, these things have nothing to do with me."

After she finished speaking, she paused, and said: "I don't have a lot of patience. I want to gossip with you, and please go straight to the point. Just say what you said, your sister is very important."

That father, that family, that so-called kinship that he had ever hoped for had died more than ten years ago, even before her death.That family, except for Xu Baihan, has nothing to do with her.She, at all, doesn't want to know, doesn't want to know.

Xu Botao's throat choked, and the words that he hadn't finished fell silent on his lips.He stared at Jiang Wang for a long time with incredulous eyes, and couldn't help sighing: "Fourth sister, you are more indifferent and ruthless than before."

Coffee is here.

Jiang Wang rested his chin in one hand and used a small spoon in the other to gently stir the coffee. Hearing this, he narrowed his eyes slightly and smiled slightly, unable to deny it.

Xu Botao felt that his heart was gradually getting cold...

After being silent for a long time, he finally found his voice again. This time, there was no smile in his words: "You know my sister waited for you at the hospital gate for a long, long time in the cold wind last night, so that , can't get up today because of the burning?"

When Jiang Wang heard the phrase "I can't get up from the burning ground", the hand stirring the spoon paused slightly, as if she had been stabbed by a needle in her heart, and then, in just a moment, she replied to Xu Botao in a flat tone: "I don't know... ..."

Hearing her indifferent tone and expression, Xu Botao couldn't help feeling a little annoyed. He clenched his fist, trying to restrain his anger, and asked again: "Then you know, that day in Juzhou, she In order to stop you, I rolled down the steps, broke my head, had nearly ten stitches, suffered a slight concussion, and the next day, did I desperately come to Laizhou to look for you?"

Jiang Wang's heart shivered, thinking of that day, Xu Baihan's slightly pale face, and his somewhat hoarse voice... he didn't even notice it.Is it covered by the sea?No, she felt that she was not that careless, Xu Baihan must have deliberately kept her from finding out.

Jiang Wang felt pain and annoyance in his heart, but his face remained calm, he clenched his teeth, and after a while, he said lightly: "Should I know?" After finishing speaking, she raised her eyes, and a faint smile hung on her lips. , sarcastically abnormal.

Xu Botao, what right do you have to question her?As the instigator and winner of that accident, what right does he have to sit here and blame himself for being abandoned?

Xu Botao couldn't bear it anymore, thinking of Xu Baihan's sad and desperate cry yesterday, and the tearful sentence "But, I love her", looking at Jiang Wang who seemed to have nothing to do with him, Anger spewed out uncontrollably, and he yelled angrily, "Yunbo, do you really have a heart?"

Hearing this sentence, Jiang Wang clenched his fists for a moment, almost gnawing his silver teeth, and finally, he laughed out of anger, and said word by word: "Xu Botao, please return this sentence to your sister. , ask her, does she really have a heart?! Ask her, did I, Yunbo, ever feel sorry for her in the slightest?" She said coldly, "It's not your turn to ask me this question!"

She gave everything for this love, and never held back a single bit, but what did Xu Baihan give her in return?She has always regarded Xu Baihan as the most important thing in her life, but what is her position in Xu Baihan's heart?No match for parents, no match for biological brothers, even, no match for those outsiders with long tongues!At that time, she who was dazzled by love could still deceive herself and others, but now, when all the truth is so nakedly exposed in front of her eyes, she has not yet questioned Xu Baihan's words, so why should he, Xu Baitao, Dare to ask her this sentence? !

Xu Botao's eyes were red with anger, and his neck was stuck. After calming down for a long time, he said again: "You don't know anything, Yunbo. During the years when your life and death were uncertain, my sister never had a good day. Over the years , we always thought that she tortured herself like that because of guilt, but it wasn't until she told me yesterday that she loves you that I realized that all these years, she has lived in more pain than we know..."

But Jiang Wangwang categorically denied Xu Baitao in the next second: "No, she doesn't love me!"

At this moment, Xu Botao finally couldn't help but slapped the table and stood up: "Yunbo, don't go too far! You don't know anything! Did you see my sister's legs?"

Jiang Wang's heart trembled, and the hand holding the spoon couldn't hide it any longer, trembling slightly...

Xu Botao wanted to brutally expose the truth, and vowed to tear off Jiang Wang's indifferent and calm mask: "It was for you! After you were swept away by the tide that year, she wanted to go back to save you, but She was held by someone, cried hoarsely, and finally passed out. After waking up in the hospital, she knew that you were gone. While my mother was not there, she jumped down from the hospital with the determination to die! Fortunately, the rescue was timely, and people rescued She came back, but her legs could not be healed. Later, she tried to die several times. The family members were terrified and monitored her 24 hours a day. In the end, they lied to her that you still have a chance, as long as she waits. Then, you will definitely come back, she slowly recovered, and waited. Later, the hospital experts said that her leg, according to the domestic medical level, had little hope, and there was still a glimmer of life when she went abroad, but she But he doesn't listen to anyone, and stubbornly wants to wait for you at home. After such a delay, it will be one month, one year, ten years... Yunbo, tell me, isn't this considered loving you? What do you want her for? Sample?!"

Jiang Wang clenched his fists tightly, his chest was tight like he couldn't breathe, his eyes were so sore that he couldn't open his eyes, because he tried his best to hold back the tears that were about to fall, his whole body trembled faintly.It's not true, it's not true...a lie...it's all a lie!

She bit her lip so hard that blood could be seen, her voice was low and hoarse: "No, she doesn't love me, maybe it's just because of guilt and debt, just to make my heart feel better..."

In the next moment, a warm and viscous liquid splashed on Jiang Wang's beautiful and delicate face.

Xu Botao finally ran away, picked up the coffee on the table, raised his hand, and splashed it on Jiang Wang's indifferent and mean face. He yelled at her angrily, "Yunbo, you are not human. So, are you worthy of my sister? Are you sorry?" ..." At the end of the words, there was a faint cry...

Jiang Wang propped himself up vigorously, stood up straight, looked at Xu Baitao coldly with the same red eyes, picked up the coffee in front of him, and similarly stretched out his hand violently, splashing Xu Baitao all over his body and face. , her voice was low, hoarse, and cold: "Xu Baitao, it's not your turn to pour this cup of coffee on me. You are not qualified. If it weren't for you, we wouldn't be where we are today."

At that moment, this big boy who had never cried since he was an adult, Xu Botao, finally let tears fall from the corners of his eyes.In the past ten years, seeing Xu Baihan's guilt and self-sufficiency, he couldn't hold on many times. He hit sandbags in the gymnasium until his hands were covered in blood and he collapsed to the ground. He asked himself, if he hadn't insisted on going to the beach that year Well, it would be great if, back then, I was the one who died...

However, if Xu Baihan had given up on him back then, would he have blamed her for hating her?

Xu Botao didn't know, so he didn't dare to answer...

He knew that, in fact, that year, no matter what kind of decision Xu Baihan made, she would not be able to live well, nor could she be relieved.His poor sister...

He lowered his eyes, as if he was extremely tired, he was depressed, and said in a weak voice: "Fourth sister, I secretly sent my sister's information to an orthopedic specialist in the United States to read, and he said, if it continues, My sister really can't stand up again in this life. In these years, no one in our family has had a good time. My parents sighed and shed many tears because of my sister. When we Please, please? If you still love her, forgive her, and go on with her, and if you really don’t love her anymore, then let her give up completely and don’t wait any longer. From now on, The bridge returns to the bridge, and the road returns to the road. I owe you a life, and she will pay you back with her two legs and 12 years of youth.

He didn't see that Jiang Wang's body was shaking so badly that he was on the verge of falling.With one hand, she pressed hard on the table to support herself from collapsing.

After a long time, Jiang Wang didn't say anything, didn't respond to him, just turned around, one step at a time, walking slowly, staggeringly, desolately, out of Xu Baitao's sight...

In the car in the parking lot, Jiang Wang couldn't hold on any longer, lay on the steering wheel, burst into tears, and cried for the first time, crying so hard that he was heartbroken.

In these years, no matter how wronged she was, no matter how painful she was, no matter how hard she endured, she never cried wantonly like this...

In this life, almost all her tears were shed for Xu Baihan, and now, she still...

And in the first half of her life, almost all of her smiles were due to Xu Baihan...

Xu Baihan, tell me, how can I not love you?

But so what if I love you, so what if you love me too?

I only love you alone, but you still love thousands of people in this world.You have to be a well-behaved and obedient daughter in the eyes of your parents, you have to be a good example of excellence in the eyes of younger generations, and you have to be a well-educated lady in the eyes of outsiders.How can you do it, what I expect, only love my lover Xu Baihan who is my favorite and my favorite?

She cried until she couldn't breathe, cried until she was exhausted, and could no longer lift her head...

I don't know how long it took, Jiang Wang finally raised his head from the steering wheel, bit by bit, wiped away his tears, started the car, and drove into the distance...

Xu Baihan, I am 27 years old, and I am no longer naive.I know your fear, your hesitation, I know, I am not enough, let you love me the most.

Whether it's guilt or love, I still thank you for letting me understand that everything is not my wishful thinking, and I attended it alone, a one-man show.

So, now, let me love you one last time, to fulfill you, to fulfill your blue sea and blue sky.