It's hard to be a stepmother

The study room is not far from my study room, he has been grabbing me all the time, I didn't make it out forcefully, anyway, it won't be long anyway.

Sure enough, when he reached the door of his study, he let go of his hand and pushed the door of his study open.

I have never been in Huo Hanchuan's study, so the configuration of Huo Hanchuan's study and bedroom is also a bit strange. Of course, many people use the study as their bedroom, and they can rest here when they are tired from work, and he did not marry me at the time. What kind of feelings, I am afraid that I want to live here forever.

So I nodded: "Do you want to sleep here in the future? Actually, no, can't the divorce be settled soon? I can sleep in the guest room during this time, or I can live back in my place."

My house has never been sold, and I may think that I will live in it again one day.

Huo Hanchuan took a deep breath: "Xiao Chen, you are 26 years old this year, a false age, but you are actually 25 years old, right?"

He said that I am cold-blooded, I do not deny this.I didn't feel anything in my heart at this moment, Huo Yunlan had already given me an early warning, and I just sat there for a while that day and accepted this fact.What's more, these days are enough for me to adapt.

Fifteen days together day and night, I have seen enough of his face.

From acne to acne disappearing one by one, I have read it thousands of times.

Xiao Junan said that I am an unfamiliar white-eyed wolf. I have not been raised as a dog in the Xiao family for 15 years, but I only stayed in the Huo family for one year, so my blood is not hot, and I have nothing to do.

I didn't reply to him, he took a deep breath: "I'm going to be mad at you. I, I don't want to sleep here!" His tone is a bit strange, but I have seen his unreasonable troubles in the past few days , as if you didn’t hear it.

He sat down in his chair and held out his hand to me, so I sat across from his desk.

After I sat down, he took a deep breath and said, "I used to live in this study. Qi Xian and I separated within half a year after we got married, and our personalities are not compatible."

Is the personality of the two parties incompatible?The two of them are regarded as a fairy couple by the world. If the two of them are not suitable, then there is no suitable one in this world, right?

So I still looked at him suspiciously: "Aren't you classmates?"

Huo Hanchuan glanced at me: "We are in the same school, but we are also married."

What does it mean?I said, "Isn't this great?"

Huo Hanchuan shook his head slightly at this time, and said in a low voice: "Marriage is greater than being in the same school, and the economic foundation is greater than the emotional foundation. The Qi family and the Huo family are aristocratic families. They decided to marry when they were of the right age. They could climb mountains together when they were classmates. Do a good job." friends, but married life is not so simple, whether it is with my family relationship or with me, mostly me,"

When he said this, he said with some difficulty: "I am not the type she likes. The person she likes is a talented and knowledgeable person, like her predecessor, a gentle gentleman who is humble, eager to learn, and willing to listen. I am not. I am not Such a person, even though I have lived in the UK for many years, looks like a gentleman on the outside, but not on the inside. Both of us knew this when we got married, and we thought that we could run in after marriage and accommodate each other for the sake of the two careers, but in fact it will only get worse The conflict is getting deeper and deeper. Qi Xian is a very calm and rational person. When we have conflicts, she chooses to stop them in time, so that the relationship can be maintained in a state where we can get along peacefully and maintain the marriage together. Because The two of us cannot easily divorce."

When he said this, he smiled wryly: "Marriage is like this. Since you have already enjoyed the huge benefits of economic union, your feelings can be sacrificed. I am a man and these can be sacrificed, but Qi Xian..."

He seems to have remembered something, clasped his hands tighter, and lowered his voice: "She's fine, it's my fault, I was young and energetic back then, I didn't understand tolerance, and I didn't do a good job in family mediation... Abroad Life is different from life in China, and there are more trivial matters between the two families. Qi Xian is the daughter of the Qi family. Her father is in poor health and her younger brother is young. All the burdens are on her. When she takes over the family business, she can relax, but she still wants to do it herself. Our two families are married, but the properties cannot be mixed. So she is also very busy. She has the same life philosophy as my mother. Same, the contradiction is getting deeper and deeper, "

When he was here, he paused for a while, his expression was a little low, and his voice was also low: "Before she went to climb the Yunding Snow Mountain, she had an unpleasant relationship with my mother. She has a good eye, and she spotted the bird's nest, which is currently rare in China, but it is Chaoyang." She wants to start her business as soon as possible, so she needs to go to Southeast Asia for a permanent residency. At that time, I had been separated from her for a long time, and the heir had already been born. She thought she should go out and fight for her career, but my mother didn’t know, she The idea is still traditional. She wants Qi Xian to be a husband and teacher at home, saying that she does not care about her family and her children. Qi Xian did not quarrel with my mother. She is a proud and well-educated person. When she is in a bad mood or stressed She would choose to go mountain climbing with her friends, she would not vent her anger on her elders, and never quarrel with me,"

When he got to this point, he seemed to be unable to continue, and after a while he whispered: "I don't know if she was still angry when she was buried under the snow..."

I didn't know what to say, and my heart was cold.I can understand Qi Xian's mood and her situation, because Mrs. Huo once said that to me.I'm still a man, and Mrs. Huo doesn't want me to be too ambitious, let alone Qi Xian, who is a mother.

Huo Hanchuan is still confessing: "She seldom quarrels with me, and she seldom tells me about the trivial matters of my family. If Yunlan hadn't told me, I wouldn't have known about it. I was the one who was sorry for her. I was busy with work at that time. There is no Gu family, if I was at home at that time, maybe I could mediate with them, maybe the tragedy would not have happened."

I don't know what to say, since the tragedy can never be undone.Huo Hanchuan still lowered his head, and his voice was very low: "I thought it would be easy for us to move out of the Huo family's old house. Qi Xian has lived abroad for many years and likes to be independent. She is not used to living with her family, so we moved out. But no Thinking that she and my mother still had conflicts. I tried my best to make my mother come to our house less, but in fact it was my fault. The farther apart, the deeper the gap, and they couldn’t understand each other. Once there were complaints, the misunderstanding would deepen. So much so that it became irreparable..."

He couldn't continue, and after a long silence, he looked at me again: "I'm sorry Qi Xian, even if she doesn't like me, she is still Ozawa's mother. I shouldn't let her bear the pressure alone. But it’s too late to say these things. In order to make up for the guilt in my heart, I made the [Xianyan] that she wanted most during her lifetime. When her younger siblings grow up and can take over the family business, I will hand it over completely. Give it to the Qi family to comfort her spirit in heaven."

He paused for a while and continued: "I am in charge of establishing the [Xianyan] production base and bird's nest processing factory, as a backing, and hand over the brand building to Qi Kai. I want him to learn to take over as soon as possible, but unfortunately he doesn't care about it. , he didn't care about this small brand left by his sister, those slogans hadn't changed for three years, he didn't know what relationship I had with his sister, he always thought we were a couple of gods, and I couldn't tell him at that time , Qi Xian passed away, and I can't mention this after her death.

So I ignored your feelings, sorry. "

He glanced at me and said softly: "When I was on the snow mountain, I wanted to tell you about me and Qi Xian, but you didn't want to hear it at that time. I knew it was my problem, and I didn't solve it completely. 】When it comes to the Qi family, I am not qualified to tell you this, so I speed up the development of this brand and increase her exposure all the time, hoping to hand over this brand to the Qi family as soon as possible, but Qi Kai these years I have always been like a child, unable to bear heavy responsibilities. A few days ago, I finally waited until Qi Lan came back from studying abroad, but she said that she would go abroad again, and she seldom came back, so I had to rush to [Xian Yan] before she went abroad. ] All the work will teach her, I thought I would explain it to you after all the work is handed over, I'm sorry, I solved it too late. I, "

He seemed to feel that the following words were difficult to say, so he swallowed dryly here, and then continued: "Qi Xian and I got married in order to achieve a stable cooperation between the two families. Later, she passed away. She didn't divorce me, so I still want to take over her burden and take care of Qi's family for her, I want to let Qi Kai and Qi Lan grow up and take over the Qi family, so I'm sorry, my complicated family makes you sad."

He swallowed dryly and continued: "This has nothing to do with Xiaolan or the marriage. You said that my mother wants Xiaolan to marry into our family. Although I don't know the specifics, I can explain to you what I understand. .”

He stretched his hand towards me, looked at me and said, "I think my mother feels the same way as I do, and she also wants to make up for the guilt she felt back then. She couldn't face Qi Xian's mother, so she treated Xiao Lan My mother has responded to every request these years. Xiaolan's boyfriend is British and her classmate, her mother does not agree with her marrying abroad, she sees Xiaolan coming to our house every day, she may think that Xiaolan will like me."

When Huo Hanchuan said this, he didn't know what kind of expression to make. He shook his head and said, "Aunt Qi thinks too much, her daughter won't like me. The reason why Xiaolan often visits Huo Baize is because she will settle abroad in the future. , I seldom come back, so I came to see Ozawa as much as possible before going abroad. I’m sorry, I didn’t make it clear to you. I think you are very tired these days. I, I didn’t talk to Aunt Qi because of guilt. Explain clearly the relationship between me and her daughter, let her guess wildly, and let her hurt you invisibly, I'm sorry. I think this is the marriage she discussed with my mother." He paused here slightly and swallowed dryly After a while, the Adam's apple moved slightly: "I can understand what my mother did with guilt, but she shouldn't make you sad, I'm sorry."

I saw that he didn't speak, and I wanted to hear him continue, and he continued to look at me and said, "I brought you in here to watch, because I want to tell you that I have a bad temper and have many shortcomings, so my The first marriage failed; my family is also very complicated, and I can't give you a relaxed and comfortable atmosphere. I dare not hope that you will still be willing to walk with me after hearing about my past and my complicated family. , and I dare not expect you to be willing to accept me, my family, my family, "

He slowly clenched his hands, looked at me and said softly: "But I still want to have a good time with you, for a long time, I like you, not because of marriage, but because I liked you a long time ago. "He rolled his Adam's apple up and down, looked at me and asked word by word: "Xiao Chen, can you give me another chance?"

I saw that he didn't speak, I was planning to file for divorce today, and all the manuscripts were about saying goodbye, but now Huo Hanchuan has become a confession.

I don't know what makes me worthy of Huo Hanchuan's liking. My personality is even worse, not one-tenth of Qi Xian's. A sense of pleasure.I also seldom call her mom. Calling her mom in the last conversation is like satirizing her. She is very clear about my alienation from her, otherwise she would not let me go.

I don't have Qi Xian's ability and family background, and I haven't done anything for him. If he likes my face, it's okay. There are many good-looking people, especially in the entertainment industry. I'm just one of them. Just one.

So I didn't speak.The shield in my heart is very thick, I am not a person who trusts others easily, not to mention the man in front of me once pried open my armor and hurt my heart.I was sad once, and I don't want to be hurt a second time.

I looked away, I didn't want to look at him, and Huo Hanchuan didn't force me, he just took my hand and held it lightly, as if he was afraid of me walking away when he said next.

Sure enough, he continued: "You heard me right in the conservatory that day. I married you because I thought about it in advance. I chose you."

"Why?" I curled my fingers into Huo Hanchuan's palm, but Huo Hanchuan didn't let go, he held me back, looked at me and said, "From the moment I saw you five years ago, You stood proudly in the crowd, and squatted down to pick up the mask. The contrast made me feel sorry for you. I helped you to the sedan chair and watched your whole performance, from a small supporting role to Neptune, from I am so lonely that I look down on all living beings, I see your efforts, you let me see that life can be expected, you make me feel warm, obviously you are very lonely."

He squeezed my hand a little more, and said softly: "I watched your TV series and other TV series after you, I think..."

I interrupted him: "Did you intervene in my previous TV series?" Was it because he intervened that I became popular before? !Is all my hard work a back door? !

Huo Hanchuan quickly shook his head: "I didn't interfere!" He said affirmatively: "It's your own efforts, don't you believe in yourself? After three years of acting, I have played no less than a hundred roles, and each of them is dedicated. Who is popular if you are not popular?"

I still looked at him suspiciously, it's not that I don't believe in myself, I know the power of capital.I believed him when I was on that holiday island before, because I thought he was purely admiring my acting skills, but now it is worth scrutinizing.

Huo Hanchuan smiled wryly: "Believe me, I'm really not that despicable. Although I had no relationship with Qi Xian at that time, we were still marriage partners, and we must be loyal to both marriages. Apart from watching your TV series, I , I have never seen you, I have never looked for you. I know that your acting career is very hot and you are doing well, it is very good for me, I was really your fan at that time. I, "

He took a deep breath and continued: "The closest I was to you was on the mountain. That year, Qi Xian said that she wanted to have an heir with me, and wanted a test-tube baby. She didn't because she liked me, but because she had to. I don't know. I don’t know if this child who was born out of profit has love, and I don’t know if the sacrifice Qi Xian chose is worth it. If the two families are married, then every move of the two of us will involve the careers of the two families, and the stock market will follow the direction of the two of us. The feelings of each individual change, which is related to the interests of millions of people, which weighs heavily on my heart.

That time when I went to climb Glenn Peak, when I stood on the top, I looked at the sky full of stars, and I thought that Xiao Chen, who was thousands of miles away, was struggling. , Give him enough fatherly love, this is the reason why I can't be cruel to Ozawa.And except this time I missed you, the others really didn't blaspheme you, really!I was really your fan at that time, and I would really like to watch you stand on the top from a distance. "

What he said was a little pitiful, I took a deep breath and motioned him to continue, I was in a hurry just now, I didn't want to accept that the person who held up an umbrella for me was a jerk.

In fact, I know that although he is sometimes irritating, his character is not bad.

Huo Hanchuan probably saw that my expression was relaxed, he held my hand and smiled: "I said it's all true, the scenes you filmed are all beautiful, not at all hypocritical, you and the actresses are very polite, Cough, I mean, the plays you act in all emphasize the plot, not the love of children, this kind of beauty."

I think he talked too much nonsense, and he didn't get to the point for a long time, so he frowned slightly, so he quickly sped up his speech: "

"I've watched all your TV dramas, and I know you like men, but I also know that your acting career doesn't allow you to be public or get married. Later, when I returned to China, I didn't have to marry your Xiao family, so I just married you Now the Xiao family doesn't need you to get married. The marriage between the Xiao family and the Huo family has no benefits other than checks and balances, and I don't want another marriage without feelings. When I danced with your sister Xiao Junhe for the third time, I tactfully told her Having said that, I can develop together with the Xiao family and let her marry someone she likes. I know that my character is not to be liked by girls, and of course no girl likes me, she will definitely understand. "

I don't know what kind of expression to make. Is there any difference between his and Xiao Junhe's tactful reminder and acquiescence?Let Xiao Junhe marry someone she likes, hehe, she likes him, can't he see it? !I don't want to slander his EQ anymore.I think there is something wrong with his thinking, doesn't he know how popular he is in girls' hearts?

No one told him that it was because he had been married for many years, and his partner was Miss Qi's family, and they were still a fairy couple, so no one wanted to destroy it.I didn't want to wake him up, so I let him continue talking.

He also glanced at me and continued: "But I didn't expect that after seeing you again at Xiao's house, you drugged me in the wine, I thought you liked me, I thought we could..."

He didn't go on.

I watched the corners of his mouth move, and I thought I didn't like him at the time.

Huo Hanchuan put the other hand on mine as well, and after clenching both hands, he whispered to me: "I thought you liked me at that time, so you didn't hesitate to drug me."

Does he know that I don't like him?I looked at him, his expression was a little stiff, he held my hand slightly tighter, looked at me and said softly: "You called someone's name in your dream that night, it wasn't me."

I slowly took a breath, I don't need to ask him whose name it is anymore, I knew it from behind him when I faced Ruan Lejiedi, that's why he said those words, since he knew why he told me What about marriage?

I looked at him, I got to know him a little bit during this year's relationship, plus what he said just now, he is a very tempered person as he said, and I will never find someone who doesn't love him. his people.

Huo Hanchuan also glanced at me, and the corners of his mouth moved a few times, probably thinking about what to say, his thumb rubbing back and forth on my finger, is it difficult to speak?

He rolled his Adam's apple a few times, and finally spoke: "I'm sorry, I was very sad and very angry at that time, I think even if you worked hard, you can't count me in for the sake of climbing up, if you like me, that's fine , but you are not."

I still looked at him, waiting for him to continue, and he continued: "I haven't given you news for three days, because I have been thinking about it for those three days, and I have thought a lot,"

He glanced at me: "I think maybe you called it wrong, maybe... In the end I decided to fulfill you, you want my backstage, I promise you, as long as you don't think about others after you marry me."

I opened my mouth and wanted to say that I didn't force him, and he didn't have to compromise, but he didn't let me say it, and added: "I checked the name you called, he is straight, you like him It's fruitless."

I had to swallow those words back, I don't know if Ruan Le is straight or curvy, because I never thought to tell him, I just thought in my heart.But it's meaningless to say these now, and I want to ask one thing now.

I looked at him and asked, "Since you know it's my medicine, why did you drink it?" Is it true, as he said in his garden, that it's already done?Am I the only one in the dark?

This is a deep knot in my heart that I can't solve. At first, I couldn't explain it to him, so I kept knocking out my teeth and swallowing it in my stomach. Then I heard his conversation in the garden, and I completely gave up the idea of ​​​​speaking. , but I know I've been minding.

I looked at him hard, I wanted to see how deep this man's heart really is.I can accept that he hides from me, but I can't accept that he designs me.

Huo Hanchuan also showed me, he held the hand I was about to withdraw, and whispered to me: "Because you drank."

I was speechless at this moment, I had a lot of negative words of resentment against him in my heart, but because of his words, all of them were beaten back, I was speechless for a while, I can't describe the heat that surged up in my heart at this moment. What, I just felt my chest swell, I turned my head away from Huo Hanchuan's staring eyes.

I want to be more hard-hearted, I don't want to trust him so easily, I don't want to face my heart, I don't understand why I like such a person.He is not at all the same as the Ruan Le I used to like.

I slowly let go of my hand, and Huo Hanchuan also loosened it a bit, and said softly, "If you give it to me, I can drink with you no matter what it is, and I want to accompany you through all your future journeys."

I didn't speak, and he continued to speak softly: "I went to the snow mountain later, and I was going to visit you at that time. I didn't feel at ease when you were filming on that mountain, even though I asked Zhou Rui to follow you, even though he would report to me every day. Your safety, but I still can't feel at ease."

When he said this, he looked at me: "I went to pay homage to Qi Xian on the third anniversary of her death. It was to clear up my guilt. Your eyes can't see. I'm sorry, Xiao Chen, from that moment on, I swear that I won't hurt you again in this lifetime."

I looked at the safety clasp on the pen holder of his desk and didn't say a word. I gave it to him on the snow mountain. I thought I lost it, but I didn't expect him to take it back.

The plot was not at all what I expected, and I couldn't adapt for a while, so I kept silent and didn't speak.Huo Hanchuan was also silent here for a while, as if he was thinking about that avalanche, he stroked my fingers for a while before continuing: "The marriage checks and balances I said in the garden will make our family accept you the fastest. method, although they won't stop the person I like, but I also want you to live in Huo's house more easily. "

I looked up at him. What I did had a bad effect. I was still wondering why his mother didn't blame me.

Huo Hanchuan really explained to me: "My father knew what happened that night. He wants to investigate the cause and effect. I don't want you to be involved. If there are some things that cannot be concealed, then it's better to take the initiative."

The corner of my mouth twitched: "I'm sorry." Anyway, the bad influence has already existed.I don’t even know how to think about his father now. His father’s eyes have always been sharp when he saw me, probably because of this.

Huo Hanchuan looked at me and smiled: "No need to apologize, I said I recognized you."

Well, since he didn't care, so be it, everything has been solved, and one of his worries has been settled, and there is no need to toss and turn from now on.

I didn't tell him that the medicine was given by Ms. Su. He couldn't say anything about his happy family, let alone my family. I was even more ashamed. I couldn't tell him that I had such a mother.

I think he should have finished talking and was about to take his hand back, but he still held it. He is sick like his son these days.

He shook my hand and, like his son, began to show off their family's property: "You have read the prenuptial agreement I signed with you carefully, right? There is a sentence at the end, except my Huo family's property, I The creation is the joint property of our husband and wife, and most of the current properties of the Huo family are created by me. The Yunjing Hotel is now mine, and it is yours. My Huo family’s old house, you have worshiped with me during the Chinese New Year After offering sacrifices to your ancestors, you have become a member of my Huo family, so you have a share in all the Huo family's properties, you are mine, and your position is the same as mine. "

It seems that Huo Hanchuan knows me very well, I like money, fame and fortune, so he put this out.

I took a slow breath and was able to speak: "No."

It's too easy to get, and it makes people feel uneasy. Besides, I never thought about wanting the property of the Huo family. yes.

I don't have much self-confidence. I have stayed in Xiao's family for 15 years, and I haven't won half of the property, let alone the Huo family's.It's not mine, I can't have it.

Besides, I am a man, and I want to earn what I want by myself.

Huo Hanchuan froze slightly, and tightened his grip on my hand: "I don't want to limit your work, although I really want you to work with me in the company, but I know you like filming, and you still want to film in the future , I will support you. I am still waiting for you to stand on the highest position and become the brightest star."

Is he nervous?

Doesn't this guy who feels like he has everything under his control get nervous too?

If it's nervous, then I'm relieved.Because this is equal, my job is something I cannot give up, and I hope there is someone who agrees.

I glanced at him: "You let me think about it."

The smile in his eyes became apparent all of a sudden, his Adam's apple rolled down, and he said slowly: "Since you don't have anyone you like anymore, can you like me instead?"

What he asked me just now was originally used here. I said that he is too deep in the city, and he was so plain just now, just to get out my words.

I laughed silently, this person is not only rich in the city, but also has a lot of self-confidence, how could he be sure that I would like him.

And I was right, I laughed at myself thinking about the days when he was ill, so I was soft-hearted, so I was so anxious to leave because I was afraid of falling in love with him, so I liked him too.

Probably seeing me smile, he also laughed: "I knew you liked me." Some people say that extreme joy begets sadness, because it is easy to make mistakes if you are too complacent. It is now so cast.

I saw that he didn't speak, he coughed and recovered: "I mean, I know you will like me sooner or later, I..."

I shook my head, and he said in a broken jar, "I can sense it. I know how good you are to me. I know you like me, so I dare to analyze my own shortcomings here. I'm sorry, I Not honest enough, I used to be afraid that you would hate me, I know I'm not likable..."

He is really contradictory, at one moment he is confident, and at the other moment he is frightened. Is this a matter of gain and loss?Is it because of me?

He looked at me and blinked: "Can you give me another chance to confess your love again?"

Seeing that I didn't speak, he clasped my hand and made a gesture of interlocking fingers: "During the days when I was sick, you stayed with me day and night, can I change to accompany you every day from now on? "

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Remarks: There are other parts about the medicine that have not been explained clearly. I will explain it later. I want the person concerned to speak out by himself, so if you still want to see it, don’t worry, I will solve it later.