It's hard to be a stepmother

He spoke a little slowly: "Your mother...she told me one thing,"

I frowned slightly. I don't think Ms. Su needs any help. She has lived a good life these years. She is almost pinching the Xiao family's internal affairs. The sister-in-law of the Xiao family is not her opponent, and Xiao Nanshan is also old. Now, even if she wants to go out and make trouble, she doesn't have the ability anymore, she won't make a few illegitimate children for her, she just needs to control Xiao Nanshan well, and when Xiao Nanshan makes a will before his death, fill in her name , She has been with him for more than 30 years, even if there is no credit, there is hard work. She cannot share the Xiao family's property, but she can still share some of the inheritance, which is enough for her to support her for the rest of her life.

If she is still worried, is it because she is worried that Xiao Junzhuo will marry another more prestigious wife?

Then she really has a long-term plan. I think Xiao Junzhuo will not be able to marry the wife of a big family in a short time. His scandal has not been eliminated, but any powerful family will not marry their daughter, right?

So what is it for?

If Huo Hanchuan hadn't said anything, I would have been able to think about everything like Sherlock Holmes, and I would have thought of going to the sky. I asked him: "If it is difficult for her to ask you, you don't need to help. You are a son-in-law, an outsider." .”

Huo Hanchuan coughed lightly: "I'm an outsider?"

I smiled: "Now from Xiao's house, you are an outsider."

He didn't smile, but just looked at me with deep and gentle eyes. Although I have seen his eyes many times, I still don't get used to it. Someone once did an experiment to let you and your relatives and lovers look at each other In 1 minute, many people said that they couldn't keep looking at each other, and often tears filled their eyes halfway through.

Experiments have proved that: the eyes of a person are the windows of the soul. Chinese people are reserved and reserved. All the words that cannot be expressed in ordinary times are contained in the eyes. The eyes are the sea. When your lover and relatives stare at you silently, It is like a deep sea, containing infinite love that cannot be expressed.

This experiment is to tell people that if you have love, you must express it in time, express your love to your parents, express your love to your wife, husband, and express your love to your children.

Because a person's life is short, you don't know when your parents will die, and you don't know when your children will travel far away. These two are your close relatives. If you don't express them, they can still understand, but your wife , Your husband does not know, or they need to go through many things to know your love, so the experiment tells us that we must have the courage to speak out our love.

Don't keep your lover waiting too long.

I don't know what Huo Hanchuan is going to do, the look in his eyes just makes me overwhelmed.

Now Huo Hanchuan's eyes seemed to have stars and oceans.

It is the rushing sea, the sea in the middle of the night, reflecting the stars and moonlight in the sky.As if I could see the stars hanging down the sea in the blink of an eye, I saw my eyes flicker in his eyes, and I also felt that my eyes were sore, so I tried to open them, I was afraid that if I blinked, the sea would flow backwards.

It took a long time, I think it should be more than a minute, Huo Baize came back from the side, fluttering butterflies, I could already hear his laughter, I coughed: "What's wrong?"

Huo Hanchuan took another step towards me. I was afraid that he would hug me in broad daylight, so he coughed lightly to stop him, so he stretched out his hand to straighten my neckline, and smiled at me: "It's okay, my aunt told me some trivial matters. , I'll tell you when I get home. Shall we go home?"

I'm going home?

"That's good! Ozawa, we're going home!" I yelled to Huo Baize, and also said to Xiao Yulin: "Yulin, we're going back, come play again next time."

After sending Xiao Yulin into the main house, we left. Xiao Nanshan sent us off, but Ms. Su was on the sidelines this time, she didn't follow, she just glanced at him from a distance.

I didn't ask her any more questions. I thought she should have nothing to do recently, and there would be no serious illness or catastrophe, so I couldn't give her the power she wanted.

Xiao Nanshan actually kept sending us out this time. I think he should be sending Cheng Mingxi and his daughter off. Xiao Junhe finally came out, with delicate makeup and no signs of happiness or anger. Cheng Mingxi opened the car door for her, and she got in too.

Cheng Mingxi and the others left first, and our car was behind. Maybe it was because we were with them and didn't know what to say about them, so the car was relatively quiet. Huo Baize had a chat as soon as he got in the car. Her eyes narrowed.

I didn't speak, just looked out the window, Cheng Mingxi's home was in a different direction from ours, and his car turned at the fork ahead.

I also looked back.

I watched a play at Xiao's house and saw that Xiao Junzhuo was unlucky. I thought I would be very happy, but I found that I was in a bad mood.

I am also a member of the Xiao family, and I have the blood of that family on my body.

Huo Hanchuan glanced at me: "What's wrong? Are you sleepy?"

I hummed along: "A little bit."

He took me under his arms and let me lean on his shoulder: "Go to sleep for a while, I'll call you when I get home, the road is a bit trafficked right now."

I closed my eyes against him.

There was indeed a traffic jam on the road. Zhou Rui drove very smoothly, without stopping, but I still didn't fall asleep. When I got home, Huo Hanchuan didn't call me, so I opened my eyes.

Huo Hanchuan glanced at me: "Tired, aren't you? After dinner, go to bed early."

He seemed to be looking at me all the way, which is why I didn't fall asleep, I didn't open my eyes, I forced myself not to think about Ms. Su, she had nothing to do with me, but I rolled on the bed for a while , still can't sleep.

Huo Hanchuan turned on the bedside lamp and asked me, "What's wrong?"

I also sat up and asked him: "Ms. Su, my mother, what can she do for you?" Don't tell me she is seriously ill, don't tell me she doesn't have many days, I won't be filial to her!

Huo Hanchuan only looked at me, his eyes were the same as in the afternoon, I swallowed dryly, and took a deep breath: "Don't worry about me, just tell me, what happened to her, what's wrong with her?! "

Huo Hanchuan smiled at me: "Where are you thinking, she is not sick."

I turned my head and gritted my teeth silently towards the other side, I really thought too much.That's right, Ms. Su loves herself the most in her life, how could she get sick? I always thought she would be the one who lived the longest.Xiao Nanshan is dead, she can live another 500 years.

I took a deep breath, turned around and asked Huo Hanchuan, "Then why is she looking for you, she's so mysterious."

Huo Hanchuan held my hand, and after a while he whispered to me: "She told me that she was the one who gave us two medicines back then."

I raised my eyebrows slightly, Ms. Su was able to tell Huo Hanchuan this, why did she say this?It's been so long.Huo Hanchuan has shown great respect to her these years. During the years we were outside, he never forgot to give her gifts during the holidays. Didn't her goodwill disappear for a long time after she said it?

I looked at Huo Hanchuan: "Are you sure she's not seriously ill?"

I thought this was the kind of thing she'd take in her coffin.Huo Hanchuan shook his head: "I asked her about it too, and I thought she was... But she said she's fine. If you're worried, I'll have someone take her for a checkup tomorrow."

Since he said it's okay, then no need, I shook my head with him: "Are you angry with her?",

He nodded to me: "I'm sorry, I was very angry when I just heard it, and I quarreled with her a few words, how could she treat you like that, I didn't know at that time that you didn't remember me and didn't like me, but she alone A mother will always know, even if she doesn't know, she can't do such a thing?!"

I didn't explain to Ms. Su that Ms. Su has a purpose in doing things, she doesn't care about emotions, she only seeks the greatest benefit, just like she resolutely climbed up Xiao Nanshan back then, and has held Xiao Nanshan firmly for so many years In the palm of her hand, it's not that she doesn't know how many little lovers Xiao Nanshan has, but she never thinks about those who are useless to her.She knew how indecisive and sentimental Xiao Nanshan was, and how he might change his mind at any time, so she used me.

The benefits she got from me are really good as she thought. With my backing to the Huo family, her position in the Xiao family is as stable as a mountain.Even if I don't have a good relationship with her, even if Xiao Nanshan doesn't take me seriously, Xiao Nanshan will take Huo Hanchuan's face into consideration.

Now I somewhat understand the reason why Ms. Su chose to reveal this matter on this day. She watched Huo Hanchuan beat Xiao Junzhuo. From here, she can roughly see two points. One is that Huo Hanchuan cares about me very much. Second, I am very concerned about my past.

She has also known Huo Hanchuan's personality over the years, and she is sure that Huo Hanchuan will not do anything to her.At most, Huo Hanchuan was angry for a while.

I thought about the length of time they chatted. Huo Hanchuan must have been pissed off opposite her, and Ms. Su would always have her indifferent look of ruling the world, and maybe she would say to Huo Hanchuan: I am here for Hello Xiao Chen.Hasn't he already stood where he wants to be?

Huo Hanchuan must have been so pissed off by her that he quarreled with her. This person seldom quarrels with his elders.

Huo Hanchuan kept pulling me, looked at me silently, his eyes were like in the afternoon, he looked at me for a long time before softly said: "I'm sorry, I didn't know for so many years, before, I misunderstood you too much, it was too much."

I patted his hand: "It's okay, it's all over, don't think about it, go to sleep." I don't know why I am no longer angry, and I don't know when I let it go.

He pulled me to lie down, this time I was dazed for a while, just when I was in a deep sleep, Huo Hanchuan who was holding my hand moved violently, as if having a nightmare, sat up all of a sudden, and called out my name , he woke me up too, I turned on the desk lamp and looked at him: "What's wrong?"

He reached out and touched my face: "I can't find you anymore. I dreamed that after I got on the sedan chair with you, I blended into the crowd and never looked back. I didn't know me, and it had nothing to do with me..."

His hands trembled slightly, and I held him back: "I'm here, I'm not leaving."

"Aren't you leaving for the rest of your life?" He asked me softly, and I nodded to him.He smiled: "What I just had was a dream, wasn't it?"

I pinched his arm: "Does it hurt?"

He smirked for a while and said to me: "Xiao Chen, I love you."

Because he was half asleep and half awake, he said affectionate and helpless, I smiled at him: "I love you too." He reached out to hug me, put his arms around my back, patted me a few times slowly, and spoke softly to me Said: "Xiao Chen, the luckiest thing in my life is meeting you. Thank you for appearing in my life. Without you, I might still be alone now."

I closed my eyes and smiled slightly, I thought I was the same as him, and I couldn't figure out that if I hadn't met him by accident, I would still be alone now. It doesn't matter if I have always been alone, but once I have My partner, I don't want to be separated again.

Inertia is terrible, but human beings are more complicated animals that gather together. They want to have their own independent space, but they don’t want to be out of the group, because they have to live together in a group. I don’t know if this is selfish.

I thought about the Xiao family again and sighed.

Huo Hanchuan looked at me: "What's wrong?"

I also have something on my mind. I don’t know how to express it, but I just can’t find the words. I took a deep breath and asked him: “Do you think human beings are born with selfishness? Is it genetic?”

"Gene? Why did you suddenly think of this?" He was dumbfounded by my question.

It didn't come to me suddenly, I thought about this question when I was in Xiao's house.

I sat cross-legged and told him a horror story: "When I was choosing a script some time ago, there was a detective book, which said that the genes of mental illness are inherited, so the genes of perverted murderers can also be inherited, through genetic testing It can be detected, so after catching the head hunter, the perverted serial murderer, the police officer did a genetic test on the child in the belly of his wife who was about to give birth at full term, and it was confirmed that the child will also have 99% perversion in the future Killer gene."

The novel was very good-looking, and I read it all. I was very fascinated by it, and it explained the reasoning and the definition of human nature vividly and vividly.

Huo Hanchuan was also attracted by the story I told, and he sat up straight and asked me: "Then, was that child killed?"

I shook my head slowly. If I was killed, there would be no follow-up to the story. I told him: "The child is too old to be killed, so he can only be born."

Huo Hanchuan asked: "And then?"

I looked at him and said word by word: "Then he really became the second generation of perverted killers, and the genes of that headhunter have been passed down flawlessly."

Huo Hanchuan blinked: "I was scared to death, why do we have to tell such scary stories at night? After a while, you won't be able to sleep again, so you lie down, and I'll read Huo Baize's fairy tale book for you, so as to cultivate you drowsiness."

He actually picked up the fairy tale book on the table next to him, and I patted him: "That's not what I'm going to say, I mean, you saw it at Xiao's house this morning, right? .”

The corner of Huo Hanchuan's mouth twitched a few times, probably because he didn't know what to say, so I glanced at him: "I was also born to Xiao Nanshan, and I also have his blood on my body. I think I will become like him in the future." I What I hate the most in this life is to be like him, but I know how powerful genes are, and I hate that I have his blood on my body.

"Don't scare me," Huo Hanchuan stretched out his hand and made a frightened expression. I silently glanced at him. I think I also have the potential to be a pervert. I just finished playing the Demon Lord some time ago. The demeanor has not been forgotten.

But Huo Hanchuan was not overwhelmed by me, he looked at me carefully for a while: "You can't fall asleep because of this?" After observing, he said a little bit dumbfounded: "It's not your fault, you won't be our... Someone like Dad."

He never said anything bad about my parents, so he stuttered a bit, coughed a few times before replying, he looked at me and said softly: "Xiao Chen, do you know, you are the most awkward and hearty person I have ever seen But he is the most honest person. If you like someone, you will never leave him. Therefore, if you are half-hearted, it is also because of me. I did not do a good job. I made you like others. True love They are all single-minded and can't tolerate others. If you fall in love with others one day, it must be because I let you down."

I watched him for a while and I haven't heard that I have this attribute yet?What Huo Hanchuan said was to make me happy, right?

He looked at me and continued: "From the moment you know you like me, you don't know how happy I am. I think I'm finally liked by someone, and I will still like it for the rest of my life. I don't have to worry about it in this life, as long as I don't make him angry. , Xiao Chen will not abandon me! He will live with me for the rest of his life, from the handsome young man until his teeth fall out and his hair is gray. When we are both too old to walk, we will sit upstairs and watch flowers together. Watch the sunset."

I was also amused by the scenes he said, and I coughed: "You think so well, why did you still have a nightmare just now?" When I got up, I asked me for a lifetime, although he was affected by Ms. Su's words, When he learned from her that I wasn't trying to push him hard, he started to panic.

Huo Hanchuan looked at me now and smiled: "I was dreaming just now, I have always been very confident." He said as if endorsing me: "In this world, people's feelings are equal and mutual. , although I don't know what kind of relationship can be a couple for a lifetime, but I know that to manage a relationship requires long-term patience. The book "Marriage Like a Rock" said that when the passion fades, love becomes family affection, and the left hand Be patient with the other half when holding your right hand, and every one of the slogans says that love is long-term companionship."

He really studied a lot of books, so when did he read the books on marriage?

Huo Hanchuan was still talking to himself: "I think those long-term loving couples in history must have come down like this. Another expert said that in a marriage, no matter how loving you are, there will always be 50 No matter how many misunderstandings, how many quarrels, how many times you want to strangle the other party, but in the end you will continue to work together, it must be because of love."

He said that he was almost laughing at the end, it was really not easy to memorize so much, he just held back, coughed lightly, and made the final summary: "Xiao Chen, give me a little confidence, the two of us will run in together go on, okay?"

But I still have concerns, I said to him: "I look good now, but who knows what will happen in the future, it's a gene."

He thought for a while and asked: "Genetic inheritance also has a high probability. For example, you just said that 99% are abnormal genes, so what is the remaining 1%?"

The genetic probability is indeed not absolute. It can only be said that 99% of the probability is accurate, 99% sure that he is a pervert, and the remaining 1% is a genius. There is a fine line between a genius and a madman.

Either a pervert or Einstein.

Huo Hanchuan looked at me and smiled: "You are the 1%."

I took a deep breath, and I said that he is very good at talking now, not sweet words, but one word can hit your heart, I don't know what expression to make when he said this, he readjusted for me Pillow: "Okay, go to sleep, don't think so much, we haven't walked the road yet, you can't put things that haven't happened on your head. It's so unreasonable."

He was right, that novel also said this, the son of the perverted murderer is the main character, of course he can’t be bad, he is the 1% gene, but because of the environment in which he grew up and his mother’s fear, The strange eyes of everyone around made him classify himself as a pervert.

I nodded to him: "Okay, don't think about it, go to sleep." Let's talk about the future, I will work hard, and I will work hard to spend the rest of my life with him.

I lay on the pillow and tried to cultivate sleepiness. I changed several positions over and over again. He patted me on the back lightly. When I was so tormented by the script that I couldn't fall asleep, he tortured me and patted me, so I gradually fell asleep.

Just when I was about to fall asleep, he suddenly said again: "Your heart is hot."

"What?" Wouldn't I be dead if my heart got cold?

I grabbed his hand. His hand was originally on my waist, but now it was on my chest. Could it be that he just wanted to touch my heart to see if it was hot?Can't touch it?

He shook my hand and spoke again, saying: "

I mean you have a warm heart, you have a hot heart, people with such a heart are sincere and passionate about their feelings, you are like this, this is what I feel personally. "

I opened my eyes, I didn't expect that Huo Hanchuan could make such textbook remarks with his hands on my chest, I was about to laugh at him, but I heard him say: "Thank you for liking me."

He is really good at tapping my acupoints, I had to swallow his words again, I lightly shook his hand: "What's there to thank?" Isn't it right to like him?Doesn't he like me too?

He rested his chin on my forehead and said softly: "Because you will love me for the rest of your life, and you will treat me well for the rest of your life. No matter what I do to make you angry, you will forgive me..."

I want to get up and look at him, I want to see if his face is getting bigger, or how to feel good about himself

But he wrapped me around, didn't let me get up, and whispered in my ear: "Once you like someone, you will treat him very well, and you won't give up lightly, so, I want to thank you for not giving up on me at that time. "

When he said that, I knew, I looked at the faint light at the curtain and smiled silently, forget it, I won't tell him, I wanted to divorce him at that time.Especially when I heard what he said to Huo Qingzhou in the greenhouse, I think the reason why I endured it at that time was because he was kind to me. His kindness to me was so irritating that I couldn't find a chance to mention it.

I pressed against his neck and closed my eyes tightly. It has been two years, and I can still think of his past with me, feeding, dressing, washing...on the toilet on the snow mountain, I don’t know what he is How can I wipe other people's ass, I want to forget that period of black history, but it is engraved in my heart...

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, and continued to think about it. After returning from the snow mountain, I started to misunderstand. I mediated with Huo Baize, looking forward to my vacation with him, cooking me food, and taking me to the scene when he first met me.

He let me know that there is someone who has liked me for so many years.

He patted me lightly on the back, and I whispered to him, "Thank you for liking me too."

The hand he patted on my back paused slightly, and he hugged me again, and I heard him say softly: "Xiao Chen, do you know that you are the most soft-hearted person I have ever met in my life, the most duplicity people,"

I thought the last sentence was not good, and I wanted to refute him, but he hugged me tightly and continued on top of my head: "You use the coldest face to cover the warmest heart in your body; you Use the fewest words to cover up the deepest love; but you don't know, when you stood on the sedan chair and looked back hastily, when you hit Huo Baize for the first time at Xiao's house, he cried loudly, but you didn't say a word When I was hair, the corners of my mouth trembled several times; when I used your thin hands to dig out the snow nest bit by bit... when... I... knew..."

The second half of his voice choked badly, and the hand holding my hand was shaking slightly. I felt a cool dampness on my forehead. I was a little curious and wanted to look up at him, but he stuck to my forehead. My forehead was not allowed to move, so I had no choice but to endure the growing coolness, which flowed from my forehead to my cheeks, and then to the corners of my mouth. It was a slightly salty taste.

I have never seen Huo Hanchuan shed tears before. These years have been peaceful and peaceful, he only makes me laugh, I have already forgotten what it is like to cry.He probably didn't want me to know, so there was no sound at all. I only felt his chest rising and falling, and his hands were getting closer and closer. It took him a while to continue: "You know, you plan That snow pit in my heart has always been in my heart, he will run out from time to time, making me feel so distressed that I can’t breathe every time I dream about it, I can’t forget your teary eyes and those scarred hands, When I warmed it on my chest, it was so cold that my heart almost froze. Xiao Chen, "

His voice was so hoarse that it seemed to be softly shouting from his chest. It was the same as what I heard on the snowy mountain that year. At that time, I couldn't see, I could only hear his voice, so I also hummed. Voice: "What's wrong?"

His hands stopped shaking now, and he groped for my fingers one by one. After a while, he said: "I love you, they don't love you, I love you, I will love you with my life, with I love you in this life. If there is a next life, I must meet you earlier. No matter what method I use, I am willing to be your brother or your parents. I will take good care of you every day, love you, and never let you go. A little wronged by you, I'm sorry, you forgive me, I met you too late in my life, and made you suffer..."

I can feel the tears on my face are warm, because there are too many, I can't open my eyes, I waited for a while, when his chest didn't rise and fall so badly, I stretched out my hand and patted him gently His back is the same as the days and nights he took pictures of him, I whispered to him: "Okay, I will wait for you in the next life, now I am fine, don't be sad, go to sleep."

He wrapped his arms around my back and hummed very softly: "Okay, let's sleep together."