Zhangjia Hundred Ghosts

It turns out... have you thought about cherishing me?

Su Shaoyan hugged his big hands, which were very hot. He didn't know what expression to use to express his mood at this time. In an instant, all the problems that he had ignored popped up in his mind. Zhang Li's anxious heart just wanted to find out the reason for the current situation as soon as possible.

With tired eyes staring at the big hands around his waist, Zhang Li hesitantly asked Su Shaoyan: "...who are you, why are you approaching me? What kind of relationship do you have with me... "exist?"

Zhang Li asked the three most difficult questions that he wanted to know the most. Su Shaoyan's entire face was sunk in Zhang Li's neck. These three questions were really heart-warming questions, and he choked up speechlessly. With a sound, Su Shaoyan answered the first question with a hoarse voice and a sneer: "Hehe, who am I? The answer to this question... I think only the word "executor" is enough to describe it..."

Executioner?After being silent for a few seconds without understanding, Zhang Li looked at the drooping head on his shoulder and asked suspiciously, "...for example?"

The expression on the face was not clear with the drooping head, this may be Su Shaoyan's deliberate action, the breathing of the person on the shoulder became a little disordered, the hot air sprayed on Zhang Li's neck, making his shoulders also heat up, Feeling the hot lips of the person on his shoulder move, Su Shaoyan's muffled murmur came from Zhang Li's ear: "For example... I knew I would hurt you, but I still made up my mind to take advantage of your feelings." , Another example is that I knew that you, who are innocent, would never doubt anything, and deliberately lied and deceived you, just to satisfy my ungrateful ambition... It was I who drove the naive you to a dead end step by step, and it was I who drove the innocent you to a dead end. You who are evil have polluted the color...in the end...you even closed yourself up in despair and reincarnated in the human world, so I... am I not an executioner?"

Su Shaoyan told the "past" crimes one by one in a hoarse voice, his tone was sincere as if he was confessing to Zhang Li, and also as if he was praying for Zhang Li's forgiveness.Or in fact neither of them, but using the power of words to bind the mistakes of the "past" tightly in the spirit, so as to warn and remind myself at all times, not allowing myself to forget everything that happened, so that This invisible sense of guilt and remorse deeply tortured and punished myself.

It turns out... isn't the relationship between the two of them the kind of "accidental" that I thought it was?There are so many "befores" that I don't know about... Su Shaoyan pampered and indulged himself for no reason. Purpose" meeting?

After listening to Su Shaoyan's confession of guilt, Zhang Li understood a little bit. It turned out that the love for no reason was not true. It contained the man's guilt towards him. Suddenly, the pain in his heart was very tearing. Zhang Li thought of There is a sentence: A person treats you for no reason, either for a purpose or because of guilt towards you.

And Su Shaoyan happened to occupy all these two points, with a broken heart showing a bitter smile, he had no memory of the things Su Shaoyan said at all, and didn't know whether his words at this time were sincere or false, Zhang Li only knew that he The pain in his heart at the time was not because of the "actions" that Su Shaoyan had said to him. The reason why he felt the unbearable pain was the sad tone of self-blame Su Shaoyan whispered in his ear.

Feeling hopeless towards himself who was still unruly, Zhang Li smiled self-deprecatingly with bloodless lips, and said under cover: "You're talking like I'm an idiot who doesn't want anything in return."

"No", the eager and affirmative tone rejected Zhang Li's self-contempt, Su Shaoyan slightly raised his head to look at his tense side face, and said with a pair of eyes fixedly: "I am the idiot you said... until you lose It's only because of you that I realize how wrong I am, a bastard..."

It wasn't until I could no longer touch the person in front of me that I became curious about the word "love" for the first time, but I couldn't figure out the true meaning of the word just because of curiosity, and I enjoyed Zhang Li's love for himself unconsciously. Well, at that time, he only saw power and profit in his selfish eyes, but didn't see that little fool who devoted himself wholeheartedly to him, so... Of course, he didn't know that he actually had love for Zhang Li long ago.

"Pfft...hahaha..."

I don't know why, the low tone of the people beside him made Zhang Li burst out laughing, not knowing whether he was feeling happy or sad at the moment, Zhang Li couldn't stop smiling, covering his face and shaking his body, jokingly said: " Then according to your description, shouldn't I stay as far away from you as possible now?"

"Hehe..." With a sarcasm expressing his approval, Su Shaoyan carefully observed all the emotions on Zhang Li's face with sharp eyes, and slowly pulled out a hand, Su Shaoyan caressed Zhang Li's pale face with some fear, until Feeling that Zhang Li did not continue to resist him, the outstretched hand calmed down slightly, touching Zhang Li's smooth face, Su Shaoyan felt a icy chill.

Gently pinching the thin chin, Su Shaoyan turned Zhang Li's stubborn face to himself, and his black pupils instantly turned into dazzling gold. Su Shaoyan forced a tangled smile on his face and said, "What did you say?" It's not wrong, leaving me is indeed a very correct choice, but Zhang Li... I'm afraid I can't let you do this."

A proud face was gloomy, Su Shaoyan stared deeply at Zhang Li, there was no murderous feeling in the golden pupils, the tangled smile at the corner of his mouth contained unspeakable pain, fingertips lingered on Zhang Li's lips Touching back and forth, Su Shaoyan's tone was full of sadness, as if speaking to himself or to Zhang Li, he said lightly: "I never thought that feelings can make people so..." Bitter", maybe you think I All the words I said were inconsistent. One moment I promised to treat you well, and the next moment I cruelly ravaged you, but Zhang Li, I have worked hard... I have really worked hard to change, although this This kind of change may not be obvious, but I have let go of your defense that you will never allow others to break in."

The person in front of him had a sincere tone. His words of "self-change" hit Zhang Li's heart heavily. This can be said to be an extremely selfish confession. Still feel sad for being taken care of by such a man with too strong self-awareness.

The man in front of him made Zhang Li understand that "in the past" he must have been a very arrogant person, and his strong sense of superiority made him unable to give up his self-esteem and love someone without hesitation.His gaze was slightly turned to one side, Su Shaoyan's tightly locked gaze still made Zhang Li dodge for a moment, he struggled secretly before Zhang Li turned his gaze back, and it fell on those beautiful golden pupils and could not move away for a long time.

A strange feeling suddenly flashed into his mind, Zhang Li stared at the dazzling golden color and murmured: "Su Shaoyan, you are actually not a gentle person, are you?"

Yes, such a man should never have a gentle and tolerant character. Arrogance, conceit and ruthlessness should be the true nature of the apologetic man in front of him. I don't know why, but Zhang Li has such a feeling from the bottom of his heart. Ideas come.

Looking into Zhang Li's eyes, Su Shaoyan calmly nodded and replied, "I am indeed not a gentle man."

"Sure enough... that's the case", Zhang Li's eyes were lost for a moment, Zhang Li felt that looking at his golden color was extremely dazzling, sobbing in his throat, Zhang Li asked Su Shaoyan uncomfortable: "So you said that you put yourself away because you want to get close to me." Pretending to be gentle?"

After being silent for a few seconds, Su Shaoyan replied with mixed emotions: "...Yes...Nor..."

Zhang Li questioned his "subconscious" actions before recovering his memory, but Su Shaoyan did not feel hurt, but admitted his "nature" in front of Zhang Li without hesitation.

The word gentle has never appeared in his heart. Although "before" he had treated some men and women tenderly, it was all just an illusion made up by himself. His purpose was nothing more than to take advantage of the relationship between men and women. The convenience of time is just for those who play tricks to get benefits from it.

He doesn't know how to be gentle, "in the past" there were very few times when he was sincerely gentle to Zhang Li, but in this life, he sealed his memory and assembled everything from scratch. This was not his deliberate arrangement.

It can only be said that perhaps because of the influence of the "memory" of the previous life, in this life in the human world, he will be tolerant and doting in every possible way to Zhang Li who meets again, and subconsciously want to treat him well and make up for his "before" The harm to him, the subconscious desire for the two of them to have an ordinary encounter, and then be together peacefully as Zhang Li expected, all these words and deeds are subconscious behaviors, and are the deepest wishes in my heart. So it can't be called cheating.

After thinking about it, Su Shaoyan said to Zhang Li: "Believe it or not, my gentleness to you before was not fake."

It is impossible to tell whether it is true or false at this time. I don't know how to describe the relationship between the two of them now, Zhang Li sighed and said: "I have no memory of the things in the last life, but I can hear it from your words. I chose to leave on my own initiative, so why don't you just end our relationship? This kind of relationship... feels too heavy..."

Zhang Li's words made Su Shaoyan restless. In this cold room, he knelt alone for 1000 years, and he also thought about it for 1000 years. The thousand years of time are long and lonely, which made him feel regret and know After experiencing pain, I also understand love.It is precisely because he has penetrated through these regrets and pains that he realizes that what he wants is actually that little fool who loves him for nothing, so what he is most afraid of now is the word "giving up" from that fool's mouth .

He didn't want to hear what he didn't want to hear from Zhang Li's mouth, and knew that he was not qualified to ask for anything, but the unwillingness in his heart kept clamoring, and he lowered his head suddenly to seal Zhang Li's lips, Su Shaoyan suddenly He kissed him hard.

"Well…"

Su Shaoyan's kiss was bitter, and his weak body was powerless to resist. Zhang Li could only wait until Su Shaoyan took the initiative to let him go. After the tormenting kiss was over, Zhang Li replied with displeasure in his red and phoenix eyes. : "You can kiss a face like mine."

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