long time bitch

Returning to my bedroom from the guest room, I felt back pain and my head dizzily swollen.It wasn't a cold, either, but she was very tired and annoying. After lying on the bed for a while, she couldn't fall asleep. She got up and sat for a while, then she was stunned, and then got up to look through the cabinet under the desk.

Rina Ogawa was born in July, a cancer who is sentimental and nostalgic.She was reluctant to throw away all the homework books, gifts, certificates, received gifts, used small scarves and gloves since she was a child, and put them away in the cabinet, neatly packing several drawers.

She sat on the ground and looked through one by one. There were gifts made by Yuta before, gloves replaced by Fujisuke, and small objects made by her first handicraft class. Something that can be easily recalled at a glance.

She folded out the certificates, and she has turned them out many times in the past years. There is only one thing at the bottom, which she is reluctant to throw away, but she has never been willing to take it out to look at it.

It was placed at the bottom, a thick little envelope filled with letter paper.

It was something from her childhood.

Rina Ogawa took out the letter paper and read it one by one.The writing on it was big, ugly, crooked.The content is similar, and the beginning is uniformly "To Yuta's brother".

She was awkward and shy at the time, and she didn't want to write his name, so she just started with this title.There are many letters, not long, and the ugly words have been copied over and over again, and revised countless times, but——

Not even once.

Rina Ogawa tried many times.

A few of them were wrinkled badly, and they were stuffed in their schoolbags and wanted to be sent out, but they regretted bringing them back.Annoyed, he kneaded it into a ball, picked it up again, and put it together with the previous one.The days of secretly writing letters at the desk lasted for a long time, until she was stimulated and teased by a female classmate in the same class, and she rushed to him in a fit of anger and said that sentence, and she gave up completely after receiving the obvious answer from the other party.

Rina Ogawa touched the crumpled little red heart on the paper and sighed slightly.

At that time, when she was young, although she didn't talk about love like an adult, but the precocious feeling of being close to the opposite sex was real, and it kept her awake at night many nights.

The love letter that has been brewing countless times has never been sent, and I thought over time, let's forget it.I have been ridiculed so many times for my not-so-great grades and face. After a long time, I also feel that this is the way it is.As they said, Rina Ogawa just relied on her early acquaintance with Fuji Shusuke, so she was so arrogant, it was really annoying.She also felt that from the beginning to the end, it was all because... she came too early.

As the pages of the letter paper turned over, it was like a dream of innocence and arrogance of a young boy replayed before his eyes.She put away those messy things and put them aside, the rain outside the house was heavy again.

I wrote the letter to Fuji Zhouzhu for half a year, even after being rejected, I still couldn't bear to tear it up.Fuji Zhousuke's name used to run through her diary as a child who was young and ignorant of the world, and when she was a young man who was passionate about herself, until she put away the diary and did not want to write another word.

I have dreamed for too long because it is too far away, so that I have no reason to resist that mood and experience.

She was so glad he said he liked it, but she was also terribly afraid.

She remembered that in the old days, many people had mentioned to her, explicitly or secretly, that Rina Ogawa really thought that there was something special about herself, but in fact she was just relying on her good status.She felt that Bu Er Zhou Zhu was special to her, and that was because she spent more time with him.She was really aggressive and wanted to take down the other party, tsk tsk, look at that face, what is she worthy of the other party, she really overestimated herself.

Those words cut through what I thought I didn't care about like a sharp knife. As time went on, the once delicate and shy secret love was suppressed, and it turned into sour and bitter vinegar.He had given her too many hints before, and after that, he acted as if that hint...was just her wishful thinking,

Rina Ogawa buried her head in her knees and took a deep breath.

Don't blame her, if you have been dreaming for more than ten years, and the person who has been as far away as the clouds in the sky suddenly falls into the clouds, is close at hand, and has a hand with you, you can't help but worry about gains and losses.

She was really... too afraid that this was another dream that was too good, so good that she didn't want to believe that it was indeed a real dream.

I thought the night would be over like this, but I didn’t expect that at four or five o’clock in the morning, I rolled out of the bed and fell so badly that my forehead was hot to the touch, and my hands and feet were so weak that I couldn’t even stand up.

I don't know if it was really infected, or if I forgot to turn off the air conditioner and didn't put on the quilt last night, Rina Ogawa didn't expect that she was so weak, she would laugh to death if she said it.Fuji Zhousuke next door knocked on the door when she heard the sound, and she locked the door. She barely got up and opened the door for him, propped against the wall, gasping for breath, unable to move for a long time.

In the first half of the night, I take care of patients with fever, and in the second half of the night, I have a worse fever than the other party.He helped her to the bed, took her body temperature and saw that it was a little over 39 degrees, and was shocked. After making an emergency call, he wrapped her up, touched the keys and carried her downstairs, and finally sat in the ward in a hurry. It was already five or six o'clock in the morning when I got the drip.

After hanging for more than half an hour, the temperature of Ogawa Rina's body finally dropped a little.Fuji Zhouzhu bought her breakfast, ate a little bit and drank a glass of warm water, feeling much better than before.

She looked at the boy in front of her who was slightly tired under his eyelids but had gentle eyes, and suddenly felt that she was really lucky to have Buer Zhou's help.Especially remembering that the two of them had just finished their quarrel yesterday, and asked him to wait here with her early in the morning, I felt even more sorry.

...Damn it, why did she reject him back then? She had been looking forward to it for so long. Could it be that she was too happy and said something ironic?

She was suddenly very upset.Then he pretended not to care and tried to test the other party: "Hey, you were sick yesterday, go back and have a rest first, I will go back by myself after the injection, or...you can come again at that time?"

Peeping at the other person's expression, he couldn't help but licked his lips again.She had a high fever and her mouth was a little dry, and she wondered if what she said was too unreasonable. When he stood up, she almost thought he was going to make a move, she shrank her neck and didn't dare to poke her head.

In the end he just brought the water over and handed it to her.

Holding the water at just the right temperature for a while in his hand, Ogawa Rina was momentarily absent-minded.

"I'm not tired. I'll accompany you. If you're tired, go to sleep for a while. When you're done, I'll call the doctor to change the medicine. Is there anything else you want to eat? I'll buy it for you."

The expression and actions of trimming her quilt are very similar to a boyfriend or something. The little girl in the next bed looks at her enviously, but Ogawa Rina is treated so tenderly by the other party as if nothing happened before. , made me stutter and nervous. "...No, I'm not hungry, so I'm going to bed... Have you eaten? If you haven't eaten, go and have breakfast while I'm asleep."

"Okay." He replied with gentle eyes.But she somehow felt that he would not go.She still wanted to say something, she gritted her teeth and held back, turned her head slightly to the side, closed her eyes and fell asleep.

Squinting and squinting, I really fell asleep.When I woke up, it was because of the walking and talking of other people. When I opened my eyes, I found that the boy beside me was no longer there.

She felt a little inexplicably lost, and felt that she had done too much.Before, she pretended to be stupid and rejected him, but now she still acts like this.The needle in her hand was pulled out, maybe she got up too much, the girl on the bed next to her saw her staring at the back of her hand, and said in a half-envious and half-joking tone: "Are you looking for your boyfriend? He's going to get you medicine Yes. He has never left by your side, and often takes your temperature. He pressed the needle on your hand for you. When the nurse took the needle, he reminded the nurse several times not to hurt you. The nurse always looked at him I'm blushing haha... Well, I really envy you, your boyfriend treats you so well."

"..." She moved her lips dryly, unable to smile.The words of defense were blocked in his mouth for some reason, and when he turned his head and saw Fuji Zhousuke who happened to walk over, he was embarrassed and afraid that the other party would hear the conversation just now, so he had to put his head down and put on his shoes so as not to answer.

I heard that Fuji Zhouzhu seemed to have said a few words to that girl, to the effect that he was still talking about him just now.In a panic, she stood up abruptly, feeling dizzy with qi and blood, and was immediately supported by the other party.

"Hey, don't worry, the doctor said the fever is gone, if it doesn't come back, you'll be fine. Let's go home and take the medicine. Is there any other discomfort?... Um, do you want to go to the bathroom?"

Why did he say so clearly... She blushed, glanced at him, lowered her head like a mosquito and said, "...Go."

Soon Zhou Zhu laughed.

Rina Ogawa kept thinking when she was squatting in the bathroom, why was she so afraid of having anything to do with him, obviously he was very happy to confess to her, but at the same time, there seemed to be something pressing on her, telling her that she must never agree ——

She once thought it was the shadow left by her elementary school days, but it seemed to be the one she had done before. She dreamed that she liked the other person very, very much, but after chasing him for more than ten years, she lost everything and died suddenly.There seemed to be two potential forces fighting in her heart, one half yelled not to agree, and the other half wanted to rush to him quickly, she was almost divided by herself.

Coming out of the bathroom, he didn't mind seeing the other party waiting in such an awkward place, and the expression on his face didn't have the slightest shadow from before.His body has grown solid and grown a lot, and he is no longer what it used to be.

She remembered the scene when the other party went downstairs with her back in the morning, remembered his farce-like confession yesterday, that kiss, those details, and the countless times that he could not express his thoughts on the tip of his tongue, and even more what the girl said. I can't help but ask myself, do I believe that the other person believes in me or in that illusory dream?

She struggled and hesitated, she clearly hadn't made up her mind yet, but when she walked to his side, somehow, suddenly nervous, she stretched out her hand unconsciously, and held his hand loosely——

Her palms were wet with sweat, but his palms were wide and warm.

He only stayed for a moment, and Rina Ogawa, who lowered his head, didn't even dare to look up at the other party's expression. When he received the other party's strong grip a second later, he obviously chose to follow his own intention and was very happy, but he couldn't help but sucked. Nose...then weep with joy and help...