brave and coward

The two fell silent.

After a long while, Hua Lin turned around to leave, and heard Xue Younian say behind him: "Lin Lin, do you agree with my death?"

Hua Lin said indifferently: "This is not a TV show, don't threaten me with suicide, I saved you only because I saw a patient in front of me, if you don't die in front of me, I won't care."

"I know." Xue Younian said, "When Hua Nian is arranged, I will die away from you."

"..." Hua Lin clenched his fists, took a few deep breaths, and turned around to stare at him unbearably, "You are not young, can you stop being so naive? People only play this trick when they are teenagers! Can you be more sober! "

Xue Younian said calmly: "I'm sober. I'm not threatening you, nor impulsive. It's just because you can't imagine my situation. My father told me about my mother's whereabouts before he died, and I went to find her When he said this, he paused for a few seconds, looking down at the white sheet, "...she didn't recognize me, and she didn't even remember me. Of course, maybe it's normal, it's been more than 40 years."

Xue Younian took off his glasses, rubbed his thumbs lightly on the temples, and said softly, "She has been married for a long time. I have a younger sister and a younger brother who are older than you. They are both excellent and have already married. I call her Mom, she looked at me in surprise... I told her that Dad wanted to see her one last time, she thought about it, smiled, and said forget it, it's been so many years, how embarrassing it is.

If she doesn't want to see her, don't.Instead, I started talking to her about me. I haven’t seen her for so many years, and I’m already my age. I thought I had nothing to say, but as soon as I saw her, I suddenly had a lot of things I wanted to tell her. I even want to tell her about me and you. I don't know why, but I want to be comforted by her.Like you said, I'm my age, but I don't know why...

However, she didn't seem to have any interest in listening, and before I could say anything, she interrupted me, her grandson was leaving school and she was going to pick it up.Then, she told me, let me not go to her again, she didn't want to bring up the old memories, it was embarrassing for her. "

Hua Lin looked at him with complicated emotions.

Xue Younian lowered his head, buried his face in the palms of his hands, his body was bent and trembling.

After a long time, Hua Lin said in a hoarse voice: "You still have Jan... As long as you don't have perverted thoughts about him and treat him as your son, you are not as miserable as you think. In fact, you have fallen into this lonely family today. Didn't you make the end, Peter is so good, he likes you so much, and he has a face you like, but you induced him to commit suicide."

Xue Younian laughed softly, the laughter was full of pain and hopelessness instead of joy.Then, he said, "Forget it..." He was silent for a while, and repeated softly, "Forget it."

Like a child, he wiped away the tears on his face with the palms of his hands, put on his glasses, looked up at Hua Lin with a smile, and said softly, "Be careful on the way back."

Hua Lin walked to the door, stopped, and took deep breaths repeatedly.

There was silence in the ward.

Hua Lin turned around and looked at Xue Younian.

About half a minute later, Hua Lin asked: "I'll ask you for the last time, Zhang Bo and Peter, and maybe others... Do their deaths have anything to do with you. Don't rush to answer, think clearly, I want You promise it with your love for me."

Xue Younian looked at him with a sincere and devout face, and said, "I swear by my love for you, the only person I have ever hurt in my life is you."

"..."

Another long silence.

Then, Hua Lin exhaled deeply, made up his mind, walked back to the hospital bed, bent down and kissed Xue Younian.

……

Wen Dong didn't borrow different numbers to call Hua Lin like last time. He only sent a message to Hua Lin, explaining that his mobile phone was dropped by a friend, and asked Hua Lin if he had anything to call him.He didn't say who that friend was, nor did he say what he and that friend were doing before they left their mobile phones at someone else's place.But this is probably what it should be, after all, Hua Lin and him are very ordinary friends now.

So Hualin replied "Nothing" in a very ordinary way, and Wendong replied with an "OK" emoji in a very ordinary way, and then there was nothing to say.

So fine.Hua Lin thought to himself.

Wen Dong felt very bad.

After returning the emoji, he lay on the bed and stared at the chat page for a long time until his eyes were dry, but he didn't see the words "typing".

Hua Lin seemed to really be too lazy to talk to him.

In fact, this is also good... What a fart!

Wen Dong was quite irritable. If he really wanted to describe this state, he could probably call it a withdrawal reaction—he had heard this high-end term from Hua Lin before. A lot of propaganda about drug rehabilitation, especially serious to popularize the horrors of drugs to Wendong, and educate Wendong that he must never touch soft drugs that are called "nothing to do" by chance, let alone hard drugs.

If Shen Weixing were to be replaced, Wendong would turn his back on the spot and leave, scolding him for being sick before leaving.

He is not a fool, he never touched this stuff when his mind was lost in those years, now that his mind is back, he quit gambling, can he still jump into a bigger fire pit?Are you looking down on him?Let's break up.

But the target is Hualin, Wendong’s psychological activities and actual actions are different. He has thoroughly implemented the double standard, and he has followed Hualin’s participation in the exhibition very seriously, and he sincerely promises that he will never touch this thing.Not only that, if anyone he knows touches this, he will quickly stay away and report it, striving to be a small pacesetter in drug control and creating a harmonious society.

Wen Dong turned over and typed in the input box: If you need anything, call me

delete.I have said this many times, and Hua Lin might even be annoyed after reading it.

Enter: hahaha

delete.It's not that I'm an idiot, who suddenly said a fart.

Input: Are you looking for me?just say something

delete.I said it's okay, but it's too much to ask such a question, and I still look like an idiot.

For the first time in his life, Wen Dong fell into the dilemma of "I really want to talk to someone, but I don't know what to say".He felt that nothing he said was appropriate.Although he can actually talk to himself with a stern face, it's not like he hasn't done it before, but...but he can't say it for some reason!

If Hua Lin had been rejecting him all the time, it would have been fine for him to talk to himself, but Hua Lin had already let go that day, and it was he who "run away"... But at that time, he couldn't do without "running"!

Now he can't rely on others.

He can only hope that Yu Hualin will take the initiative to find him, so that he has a reason to post it for a while.But after what happened in the bar that day, Hua Lin also made a phone call that he didn't receive, and then the short conversation just now...

……

"He's more timid than you."

……

Hua Lin's words played repeatedly in Wendong's head, making him unable to eat well, sleep well, or play well.

Why the hell am I being compared with that pervert? !

He knew that Hua Lin was irritating himself, but he was really irritated!

Wen Dong turned over again anxiously, still feeling uncomfortable, and continued to turn over, over and over again, like a fish in a frying pan.

Suddenly, the phone rang, and he saw that it was a message from Xiao Shu, saying that after much deliberation, he still wanted to surrender to reality and get in touch with Qian Shao further.

You go to contact!Tell me all this?I've already seen that you're going to keep in touch.

Wendong replied with a hug emoji, put down his phone and continued to fry the fish.

Not long after, the phone rang again. He picked it up and saw that it was Li Jin, saying that his birthday was tomorrow, and he wanted him to attend his birthday party.

Wendong sent a 200 yuan red envelope to wish him a happy birthday in advance, saying that he will have to work overtime tomorrow.

Li Jin scolded him for being an overworker for a restaurant head waiter, but he pretended not to see it, and then Li Jin sent a series of messages, but he didn't even click on it.

Then the phone rang again, and it turned out that someone had sent him an intimate photo with the new male ticket.

No way, no way, what age is this, what time is it between the two of us, you don't think I'll be jealous when I see it!And your new boyfriend looks a little familiar... Ah... Forget it, it's not surprising, it's just a circle, and it's not uncommon.

Wen Dong replied "very good match".

After a while, someone sent a message wanting to ask him out.

Wen Dong didn't reply directly.

After a while, someone sent another message wanting to ask him out... Wendong replied this time.

This person is Zhang Zuo's friend, Young Master Kuo, and the appointment is not for guns, but for accompaniment, [-] yuan each time, and when he is happy, he will buy things to send to Wendong or give more money.

If this kind of fool doesn't make money, Wen Dong is afraid that he will be struck by lightning.

A carp in Wendong got up from the bed, took a shower, took care of his personal image, and went out to make money.

First, he accompanied the idiot, ah no, Kuo Shao to go shopping for half a day, helped to choose a bunch of Christmas gifts for Kuo Shao's family, and then accompanied Kuo Shao to play video games for a while, and then went to a nearby revolving restaurant for dinner, and helped Kuo Shao Sort out the emotional issues between him and his girlfriend.

It's not a big problem, it's just that Kuo Shao slept with a girl group member, and his girlfriend found out, and then the girlfriend went to his parents to complain, and then his parents asked him to solve it himself, and then he couldn't solve it.

In his words: "Who in our class doesn't play a little bit? Doesn't she play? Even if she doesn't play, it's her business. What does it have to do with me? What can I do? It’s impossible for me to sleep with her all my life?! She wants to vomit if I don’t vomit! Damn, it’s a marriage, if she does it like this, then it’s just a one-shot and two-shot... But fuck, I want If we break up with her, my dad can kill me! Fuck!"

Kuo Shao cursed for a while, and asked Wen Dong: "Don't talk about me, can you accept sleeping alone for the rest of your life? This fucking man can't do it as long as he is not impotent and frustrated until no one sleeps with him! Does that idiot have watched too many idol dramas, and his brain is too funny! What do you think?"

Wen Dong was about to say that what you said was very reasonable, it was the truth of the universe, when suddenly his eyes were attracted by the people who came in at the door.

Hua Lin inadvertently met Wen Dong's gaze not far away, froze for a moment, then glanced at the young man opposite Wen Dong, and made an elimination method in his heart: that man doesn't look very good, unless Wen Dong's taste suddenly drops .

Xue Younian also saw Wen Dong, and asked softly, "Will you go over and say hello?"

Hua Lin withdrew his gaze, glanced at him, and asked expressionlessly: "Is it interesting to pretend to be generous?"

Xue Younian smiled: "I said before, I have no hostility towards him."

Hua Lin didn't bother to pay attention to him, and went straight to his seat.

The two of them have been in this mode recently. They got back together, but not completely. Hua Lin always had the attitude of being forced into prostitution.

Xue Younian didn't care about this, as long as Hua Lin didn't drive him away, he could beat him, whatever.

This kind of relationship is very deformed, but it is already the best that Xue Younian can get.He only knows how to be grateful, and never complains.

The author has something to say: Wen Dong: Fuck, the boat completely capsized