brave and coward

The three chatted for a while, and it was indeed not too early, so Hua Lin and Wen Dong stood up and said goodbye.

After entering the elevator, Hua Lin asked casually, "Did you come by car?"

"It's from the subway." Wen Dong said.

"Didn't drive?" Hua Lin continued the meaningless social conversation.

"Green travel, environmental protection." Wen Dong said.

Hua Lin glanced at him: "The car broke down?"

The original condition of Dong Wen’s house was not good. He messed around in adolescence for a while and owed a lot of debts. Now, although he is sober and earnestly working to pay off the debts, it is still relatively tight financially. He bought a dilapidated old car. I don't know how many hands.

Wen Dong himself said that the car actually drove quite well, but Mr. Hua Lin was full of discrimination against the things in N's hands, and suspected that it would fall apart as soon as it was on the road.

Wen Dong protested: "Don't keep thinking about my car falling apart, it's pretty good, I just want to save some gas money. Maybe you will take the initiative to send me back."

Hua Lin said "Oh", "Don't dream."

Wen Dong laughed.

When the elevator stopped, Hua Lin came up with a bold plan while walking out: "Do me a favor..."

Wen Dong waited for him to talk, but after waiting for a long time, there was nothing to say, so he took the initiative to ask: "What?"

"...Forget it, it's okay." Hua Lin said.

For a moment, he wanted Wendong to accompany him to pick up Xue's machine tomorrow, and to pretend to be a couple, but then he thought it was naive and boring.

Wen Dong didn't ask any further questions, just said: "If you have something to say, just say it, I am obliged to do so."

"Okay, then I'll say it." Hua Lin stopped in the shade of the trees in the community garden, looked at Wen Dong, and said very seriously, "Wen Dong, don't chase me, it doesn't work, okay?"

Wen Dong still had that cynical smile: "Okay."

What a fart, what the scumbag said is equivalent to not saying anything, whoever believes is stupid.It's not the first time that Hualin has said this to Wendong, and it's not the first time that Wendong is okay, okay, let's keep chasing after him, and when he asked, he said that the last pursuit is over, that's right, this is not love again Are you on it? This is a new pursuit.A bunch of fallacies.

Scumbags are shameless, anyway, when the sperm is on the brain, it can say anything, the brain is not the brain, and the left chest is not the heart.

Hua Lin ignored Wen Dong, and Wen Dong didn't go upstairs with him. He sent him into the elevator, watched the words jump up, and then turned and left.

Hua Lin returned to the door of his house and was about to unlock it when he looked down at the cuff of his jacket. He froze for a moment, thought for a while, and hurried back to the elevator, went downstairs, and ran out to chase Wendong along the way to the subway station.

I didn't chase very far, because Wendong stopped in the long green corridor outside the community, leaning on the railing near the road, watching the vehicles coming and going.

Hua Lin took two steps closer and saw that Wen Dong was on the phone.

He took two steps closer and heard what Wen Dong was saying.

"...Okay, baby, don't make trouble, I just played mahjong with my buddies...I really can't pass, I made an agreement with my mother to go back to sleep, my mother has a medical examination tomorrow morning, I have to accompany her... When have I ever lied to you... Hey, I will go to you after the physical examination with my mother tomorrow, if I have nothing to do, okay... Sing a song for you, sleep well, okay... Fuck, I'm on the street …Just sing, do you want to listen? If you don’t, I’ll hang up.”

As Wen Dong said, he lowered his head and bit a cigarette, lit the fire with one hand, took a puff, then gently coaxed someone on the other end of the phone for a long time, and then really started singing.It's not professional, but it's not out of tune, so it's still acceptable.

He sang an old love song, very quiet and affectionate.

After all, he is a scumbag, and pretending to be affectionate is a good skill.The scumbag who became the king might even believe that he is really affectionate, so he can't blame being fooled.

After Wendong sang the song, he coaxed a few more words, and finished his cigarette, so he was willing to hang up the phone there. He held the cigarette butt and looked back for the trash can, and met Hua Lin's eyes.

"Brother Lin." Wen Dong smiled.

Hua Lin handed him the coat in his hand: "I forgot to return your clothes, don't catch a cold."

"I'm not cold, you'll be cold again when you go back." Wen Dong stepped forward, put the cigarette butt in the ashtray on the trash can, then took the clothes from Hua Lin's hand, and put them on again for Hua Lin Go up, and before the other person can speak, say, "I'll walk you into the elevator, and then you give me your coat."

"Boring, why don't you give it off?" Hua Lin complained.

Wen Dong smiled and said, "Farewell, Liang Zhu is be."

Hua Linbai glanced at him, wanting to refuse, but thinking that Wendong would definitely insist, he was really too lazy to argue with this person on the street, so he wrapped his coat and walked back.

Wen Dong followed and explained: "The call just now was—"

"I'm not interested, don't tell me. I'm sick of hearing about Dai Xiaojing's love history. No one can tell me about his love history. I don't have any desire for this kind of worldly love." Hua Lin resolutely refused. .

Wen Dong smiled, licked his lips, and said nothing, and walked the distance with him quietly.

When Hua Lin came home, his parents were already asleep, and there was only the dim light in the fish tank in the living room.He didn't turn on the light, and went back to his room in the dim light, locked the door, and fell on the bed, thinking that today was really bad, and what was worse than this would be tomorrow, it was so annoying.

"Why do I only attract scumbags..." Hua Lin said to himself, while taking out his phone, he couldn't help but find someone to complain about.

【private chat】

Hua Lin: What do you think of my physique?

Satellite: If you talk to me about weird topics privately in the middle of the night, I will really block you

Satellite: It’s true that we are best friends, but we must also have a sense of boundaries

Satellite: If you have urgent matters, you can call me. If you don’t have urgent matters, you can talk to me during the day, or you can go to the group to talk, and I will go to the group to get back to you

Satellite: ps didn’t mean you deliberately seduced me, I know you just don’t understand, after all you are Peony

Satellite: But I'm not.So I remind you.

Satellite: [Cheers to our friendship]

"..."

Hua Lin thought about it, but he couldn't figure out why Shen Weixing's righteousness didn't affect Wendong's emotional outlook in the slightest. The two of them had been brothers for so many years, and they seemed to be lonely. irrelevant.

Hua Lin was about to throw away his phone to show his respect for the last good pig in the world, when the other party came with a new message.

【private chat】

Satellite: [Transmission file: Great Compassion Mantra]

Hualin:? ? ? ? ?

Satellite: Read it twice more, cleanse your heart and mind, cleanse your body and mind, there are still many incurable diseases waiting for you to overcome in the world, you can do as many things as you have the ability, you are still so young, you have unlimited possibilities!

Hualin: Are you poisonous?See for yourself [slightly slightly]

Satellite: You are the only one who is poisonous, and I don’t need to be ascetic [slightly slightly]

Satellite: [Photo with his subject (although the subject is smiling at the camera, but his eyes look a bit confused, as if he was suddenly caught and forced into the camera)]

Hua Lin didn't want to respect him for the time being, and was looking for a new emoji to scold him, and a group message popped up.

【Learn to cook with me】

Shen Weixing: [The photo just sent to Hualin]

Hualin: "..."

Okay, this person is not poisonous, but sick.

Then this group full of strange things suddenly exploded, and a new round of unexplained complaints or secret love was started. Seeing that Hua Lin was extremely sick, he threw away the phone and changed into pajamas. Sleep under the quilt.

When Hua Lin woke up, his parents had already left the house, leaving him breakfast and a note, telling him to treat Xue Younian well.

As if to wake up the politeness of a suddenly rebellious guy in his thirties, an old photo album was deliberately placed on the dining table.

At a glance, Hua Lin saw the photo of himself and Xue Younian at the kindergarten performance.At that time, it seemed that both his parents were busy, so Xue Younian went to support his fairy tale drama instead of his parents, and then took a photo with him in the background.

Although the pervert claimed that he had no extra thoughts before he was in college, Hua Lin didn't believe him at all, so now when he saw this photo and recalled all the memories of his childhood, Hua Lin felt like vomiting.

It's not an exaggeration, it's a real nausea, a physiological instinct, a rapid heartbeat, blood rushing to the brain, and wanting to resort to violence.Simply put, it is a post-traumatic stress response.

Hua Lin closed the album, closed his eyes and took deep breaths repeatedly, and it took him a long time to calm down.

"...I am a doctor, I know pathology, I can cure myself, I can, I am a doctor, I am very good, I am fine..." Hua Lin covered his face, talking to himself, hypnotizing himself.This is also a way of treatment, giving yourself psychological hints.The human body is amazing, and positive psychological hints can have a positive impact.

……

Hua Lin said yesterday that he was going to visit Wendong's mother, he was talking nonsense. He went out in the morning, went to the city library for a while, and went to a nearby museum to see that the time was almost up, so he drove to the airport.

Along the way, he kept thinking about whether he should run away.If he really finds a decent excuse to run away—for example, he lied that Dai Xiaojing suddenly fell ill at home and waited for him to go to the first aid, his parents couldn't really do anything about him, so they just talked about him for a while afterwards .

However, he also felt that perhaps what he should do was not to escape, but to face it and fight it with fire.

Since he had already decided to keep this matter from his parents forever, and he couldn't let them see the clues, then he couldn't fall out with Xue Younian on the bright side.Then occasional contact is inevitable.Maybe, maybe, try to face it yourself, and gradually get used to it.

At any rate, I am a doctor myself, right, there must be a way to be autonomous.

Hua Lin almost stepped on the airport that he had arrived at. He had just arrived at the pick-up gate when the people from Xue Younian's flight came out.

He looked at the person who came out expressionlessly, but he didn't see Xue Younian, but he saw a young man with a good figure with a complete hat, sunglasses and mask coming out, and then he didn't know if it was real or a fan who bought it. Excited cheers rushed up.

Hua Lin backed away silently, leaving the stage to them, but unexpectedly bumped into a fan who was rushing forward behind him. The fan exclaimed, Hua Lin was startled, turned his head to look and dodged to the side, staggered and fell to the ground go--

Then, in a very old-fashioned way, someone held her waist.

The reason why it is old-fashioned is that when Hua Lin raised his eyes, he saw Xue Younian who was supporting him.

Based on his understanding of this pervert, he now has a 50.00% suspicion that Xue Younian hired even the starlet with fans, just to hit him and then Xue Younian to help him.

Hua Lin quickly stood still, without opening his mouth, Xue Younian consciously let go of him, and in the next second, he unconsciously handed a bunch of beautiful white roses to Hua Lin, smiling. Said: "Thank you for coming to pick up the plane. I am not on this flight, because I know you like to check in, so I made a half-hour time difference to buy this bouquet of flowers."

Hua Lin looked at the bouquet, but didn't pick it up, and said, "It's a bit greasy."

Xue Younian smiled with a good temper: "Really, then I will treat it as a gift from you for picking me up at the airport."

Hua Lin slowly shifted his gaze from the bouquet to Xue Younian's face.

Time has always favored Xue Younian.

Xue Younian is not much younger than Hua Lin's father, but he looks well-maintained on the outside, like a male star in an idol drama who is over-age and plays a young male lead on TV, but he won't be complained too much, only when he laughs There are slight smile lines at the corners of the eyes.

His skin is very tight and clean, but if you look at his eyes, you can still tell the age of this person, because there is a calmness and elegance that is difficult for young people to possess, and it is something that needs to be truly and accurately precipitated by the years .

To be honest, it is a very high-end skin.

Hua Lin looked down from Xue Younian's face again.

Xue Younian's dressing style hasn't changed. It's very delicate and petty bourgeois. Even if you take a plane, you will be meticulous. The three-piece suit and vest with cuff buttons are woody and light, very tasteful, low-key and luxurious, and have a nice belly on the outside. Poems and books are full of energy.

Too bad it's a pervert.Hua Lin thought to himself.

Hua Lin withdrew his gaze, didn't bother to talk to the pervert, turned around and pointed to the signpost, and then headed towards the parking lot on his own.

Xue Younian pushed his luggage and followed behind him, his gaze was always on his back gently and intently.

When they arrived at the parking lot, Hua Lin opened the trunk and left it alone. He just sat in the driver's seat and played with his mobile phone with his head down.

Xue Younian put the suitcase away, closed the trunk, went around to the front and opened the door of the passenger seat, looking at the messy things on the passenger seat, toilet paper, change, water cups, umbrellas, invoices... …

He just stretched out his hand to tidy up, but Hua Lin said without raising his head, "Know yourselves and count, sit in the back."

Xue Younian smiled and shook his head, put the bouquet on these things, then closed the car door, and went to the back seat knowingly.

After people got into the car, closed the door and fastened their seat belts, Hua Lin started the car and drove out of the parking lot. Not long after getting on the road, he stopped at the side of the road again, picked up the bouquet of flowers on the passenger seat and stuffed them into the trash can next to him. , and then continue driving.

Xue Younian watched his actions softly. After a while, he took off his glasses, wiped them, put them back on, and said, "Linlin..."

Hua Lin interrupted him: "I really beg you to know something, my parents are not here, I am too lazy to pretend to be at peace with you, you still have a little bit of conscience, so don't open your mouth, I have to wash the car when I spit it out, it's very annoying. troublesome."

Xue Younian was silent for a while, then took off his glasses again, lowered his head and stroked the temples with his thumbs for a while, his eyes fell on the several protruding scars on the inner side of his wrist, after two seconds, he calmly moved the Both the strap and the cuffs were pulled down to block it.

After a while, the phone vibrated, Xue Younian put his glasses back on and turned on the phone: "...your father is calling."

Hua Lin didn't hear it.

Xue Younian took it.

Even if it is not released publicly, Hua Lin's father's enthusiastic voice can clearly radiate from the phone: "Get off the plane?"

"Yeah. In Linlin's car, go back." Xue Younian said.

"He's been rebellious again recently, is he okay?"

Xue Younian laughed, opened his eyes and said nonsense: "I didn't see it."

"Forget it, asking you is tantamount to asking in vain, you just let him go."

Hua Lin sneered again in his heart.

Hua Lin's father didn't say a few words, and hung up the phone after confirming that Hua Lin hadn't suffered from a second-degree illness.

Xue Younian raised his eyes to look at Hua Lin in the rearview mirror, looked at it for a long time, opened his mouth, and was about to speak when Hua Lin suddenly stopped the car on the side of the road, opened the door and went down.

"Pro-"

As soon as Xue Younian finished speaking, Hua Lin ran to the trash can by the side of the road and retched.

Hua Lin vomited for a while, but nothing came out.

He felt that it was thanks to his professionalism that he reminded himself not to eat today, otherwise he would vomit all over the floor and embarrass the cleaners.He is a civilized person with moral cultivation, he tries to avoid increasing the workload of innocent cleaners, who will feel uncomfortable facing the sudden filthy garbage.

After finally calming down, Hua Lin squatted on the ground gasping for breath, his eyes still darkened.

"...Sorry." Xue Younian stood behind him and said, handing him a handkerchief.

Hua Lin weakly raised his hand and waved it: "I beg you, stay away from me, if you really want me to die, you can change the method."

Xue Younian was silent for a while, and when he spoke again, his voice was a little hoarse, which easily gave people a feeling of affection.He said, "I want to save you."

"Hey——" Hua Lin started to vomit again.

Xue Younian: "..."