never met lover

The author has something to say: I will rest tomorrow, I have seen everyone’s suggestions and will work hard, thank you.

His coat smelled faintly of guaiac wood.

Lu Yining took off the clothes and hung them on the hanger. After looking at them for a while, he leaned forward and smelled them. It seemed that they were gone again. Is it a psychological reason?

When parting, Qin Yu asked him if he could give him a hug, a simple hug, just like every separated couple, he had seen many on TV.

It was just a hug, so he agreed, a very simple hug, Lu Yining barely moved, Qin Yu stretched out his arms around him, and then patted him on the back lightly.

The whole process only lasted about two seconds, Lu Yining felt that he didn't even have time to react, Qin Yu let go of his hand, smiled and "said", "Be careful driving on the road, remember to send me a message when you get home."

Lu Yining stared at the coat in front of him, took off his gloves and threw them into the trash can at the door, then raised his hand to touch it, the position of the shoulder blade, Qin Yu should have touched this place at that time, his palm was completely attached to the soft On the khaki camel's hair, he is touching the place that another person has touched. It's a strange feeling. It's not that irritating. For example, he wants to throw away the clothes, but it's not that comfortable. It's a feeling of being up and down in mind.

This is the first time I have felt this way, Lu Yining withdrew his hand, he looked down at his palm, he couldn't see anything, except for the lines on the palm and the faintly discernible green blood vessels, he twirled his fingers, this is considered Good sign, right?

The notification sound interrupted his thinking, he squeezed a lump of hand sanitizer on his hands, and wiped his phone by the way.

- Favorite A: Are you home yet?

-LIB: Well, I just arrived and changed my clothes.

-I like A: That's good [Classic Smile.jpg]

- Favorite A: How do you solve your lunch?

Lu Yining went to the kitchen and tore off the post-it note on the refrigerator.

-LIB: Auntie made wontons, I'll make them and eat them by myself later.And you?

- Favorite A: I'm back at the company, and the cafeteria will deliver meals to the office.

-LIB: Do you have any new projects recently?So busy?

- Favorite A: I am preparing for the listing, and there are a little more meetings.

-LIB: [Big White Goose Shocked.jpg]

-Ideal A: It will be listed at the end of this year without any surprises.You should go eat.

-LIB: [big white goose ok.jpg]

-LIB: You go to work after dinner!

-I like A: [The big white goose nods.jpg]

So did Qin Yu take a special day to meet him?Lu Yining felt a little bit sorry for it for a while, after all, compared with himself, who is called a freelancer if you put it nicely, or a vagrant if you put it badly, Qin Yu has a lot of things to do every day, and he has to make up for what is bad today. Now, there is no way to escape, so Qin Yu will probably stay up all night again tonight.

Before getting to know Qin Yu, Lu Yining always thought that the life of the company's executives was very good. How come Qin Yu's life is no different from that of an ordinary social animal?

Simply outrageous.

After taking a shower, eating, and hanging the washed clothes in the drying room, Lu Yining sat at the work table and made porcelain. It was true that his hands hadn't stopped, but his mind hadn't moved much either. Looking at the outline of the character that was drawn out, at first glance, it seems that the protagonist of "Chilling" has changed his hairstyle and changed his clothes.He dragged the painting into the trash can, put down the pen, and leaned back in the chair, shaking.

What those people said is quite right, he is exhausted, and he has nothing more to show.

Thinking about the top cartoonists I like and admire, there are very few who have more than two masterpieces, and most of them are on the list of gods with one work.

So, is it enough for a person to have one good work in a lifetime, and is it too greedy to want every one to be outstanding?Lu Yining couldn't help thinking this way.

But what would you do if you weren't painting?

He doesn't have a nine-to-five job as the main axis of his life. If he doesn't paint, his life will become barren.In that case, he can't even compare to the dogtail grass on the side of the road. The dogtail grass still knows to carry out photosynthesis every day.

Lu Yining swiped the mouse, looking at the things that have been drawn one after another over the years, most of them are commercial manuscripts, and there are some short comics. The mouse arrow stopped on a star map, which was drawn for Distance back then. The painting, until now, is still the startup screen of Distance. When you open the app, the star map will be played from far to near, and then two lines of words will appear in the middle, the first line is Distance, and the second line is Anyone&Someone.

When reading the contract, he probably knew what Distance meant, but he really didn’t know about Anyone&Soneone. When communicating with the other party, he asked this question specifically, and got an answer like this: Anyone can find someone.

An unbelievable answer.

After he was discharged from the hospital, he has been painting in the room, constantly changing the painting, and almost forgot that he had registered with Distance until he chatted with the staff of Distance that day and got the hope painting He didn't think of it until he could reply more in the reply that reflected the concept of "making friends".

Since he was a child, he was not good at making friends, and he did not want to have too much contact with the crowd, but sometimes when he saw other children playing in the playground, he was very envious and strange, why they got all covered in dirt and Khan can still smile so happily, so many people are crowded together, why do they show such expressions, why are they so happy?

Even for one day, just one day, he also wanted to know what it was like.

Lu Yining doesn't know what wishes other children will make on their birthdays, but he always makes one wish firmly: I hope to know what it's like to play with everyone.

This desire continued until he received a psychiatric diagnosis that he suffered from obsessive-compulsive cleanliness, a type of OCD, and his brain's frontal lobe and orbital cortex could not communicate like normal people.He then gave up that wish.

But wishes can be given up, but yearning and envy cannot be controlled.

Not being able to make friends doesn’t mean that you don’t want to make friends, it’s just that you’re trying to curb your thoughts and bury your thoughts deeply, deluding yourself into thinking that I don’t need friends, so I don’t need to have friends. After a long time, I really believe it.

But a lie is a lie after all, as long as one point is suspected, the remaining 99 points will fall like dominoes.Lu Yining turned on the Distance that had been on the phone for a long time.Registration, real-name authentication, security detection, preference settings, privacy settings... After a series of operations, he thought about many vague questions that he hadn't thought about before, such as what kind of person he likes and what he wants to keep with the other party What kind of distance, what gender do you want the other party to be... and so on, things that he didn't have a chance to think about before, he thought about them one by one that night.

I don't know if it's because his requirements are too many and too detailed, or for some reason, I haven't received the notification of a successful match for a long time.When the little flame that was finally ignited in Lu Yining's heart was about to be extinguished, he finally received a small bell to remind him that the match was successful, and then excitedly bumped directly into the table leg, squatting on the ground to slow down for a long time.

Now thinking about the first day I met Qin Yu, it was actually not very smooth.Except for the bruised little finger, the chat between the two of them was also stumbling, and the preschool children chatting by the sandpit in the park were more nutritious than the two of them.

What were we talking about?Lu Yining turned on the phone and clicked on Distance's personal backup file. The file was a bit large and it was not convenient to read it on the phone. He directly aired it to the computer.

2014年9月14日3：32PM

-Q: Hello, I am Q

-LIB: Hello, I am LIB

The simple nickname, dry greetings and self-introduction, put it on ordinary people, it is absolutely impossible to chat immediately, but the two of them still chatted firmly, it will look at the past, quite a kind of speechless To find meaning.

-LIB: Why is it called Q?

-Q: Take whatever you like, how about you? liberation?

-LIB: No.

Lu Yining has used this name since he had his first social account, but almost no one has asked what it means. Some people are perfunctory and even think it is his abbreviation, such as the big devil.

-lib:yesLiveInBubble

This was the first time he explained it to others, thinking that Q was far away from him anyway, so it wouldn't matter if he said it.

-Q: oh

-Q: So, don't you like being in contact with other people?

Yes don't like it, the body doesn't like it, but what about himself?Lu Yining used to think that he was just not good at it, but now he can't tell whether he doesn't like it or not. It's more like a vicious circle, with instinctive rejection, which makes him unable to integrate and be excluded. Self-protection leads to alienation, and then even more rejection. , even worse.

-LIB: Well, I don't like it, and I'm not good at it.It's hard to get in touch with people.

-Q: I'm not good at these either, more precisely, I'm not good at communicating with people face to face.

-LIB: Oh, so you make friends online?

-Q: Well, the Internet is amazing, isn't it?There are many opportunities for people like us.

-Q: Nice to chat with you, I'm going to work.

-lib: ok.

-Q: Looking forward to chatting with you next time.

Short, hasty, formal chat, but indeed a start.I don't know if Q is the same as him. I didn't match anyone, so I can only chat with him.

Gradually, Q became the person with whom Lu Yining chatted the longest. Their chats were trivial and scattered, and most of the time they chatted because they wanted to find someone to share something with, such as a book, a song, a News... It seems like I finally found someone who can talk to me at any time. Although there will be a delay in replying to the news, I will always receive a reply. Every time I finish sending a message, Lu Yining feels that he has something to look forward to in the next period of time It made him feel like he had something to do.Before putting down his paintbrush, he couldn't help cleaning up, but now he can sit quietly on the sofa and wait for Q's reply message. The longer he sits on the sofa, the less time he spends running to the sink.

Then as the chat time got longer and longer, Lu Yining found that Q is actually a very interesting person, who knows a lot of things but does not show off, is good at listening, and gives good opinions. More importantly, there seems to be a relationship between them. There are more and more things to talk about, unknowingly, Lu Yining spends more and more time chatting, and can't help but want to know more about Q, he takes a step forward, a little nervous waiting for a reply.

2015年4月21日7：09PM

-LIB: I don't want to call you Q, and you don't want to call me LIB, how about it?

-Q: What is that called?

-LIB: Call the name.

-Q: Are you not afraid?

-lib: what?

-Q: Like Pandora's Box, the box opens when you say your name.

-LIB: A little bit, but I want to know what your name is, that's all.

-Q: Qin Yu, my name is Qin Yu.

A box has been opened, but it's definitely not Pandora's box.

Lu Yining just found Someone, and then walked down step by step. Like every couple who met, knew each other, and then fell in love, he also walked these roads slowly, but walking on the clouds, separated by screen and network.

"Ha." Lu Yining yawned, there were five years of chat records in the backup, he looked at them for a long time and only saw the records of less than one year, he raised his hand to rub the center of his brows, and touched the phone.

-LIB: Qin Sir

- Favorite A: Why haven't you slept yet?

-LIB: Didn't you sleep too?work overtime?

- Favorite A: Yes.

-LIB: What shall we do next, still dating online?

- Favorite A: What do you think?

The intention was to ask the children what to do, but the children kicked the ball back.Lu Yining turned the pen, thinking about this question, what does he want?It's quite simple. I want to see Qin Yu again. Although I haven't been seriously marked, I have been injecting Qin Yu's pheromone for the past two years. When I was in the teahouse, although it was very faint, I was caught by my own pheromone. The feeling wrapped in Alpha's breath... was very comfortable, and made him relax unconsciously. All the previous tension and worries disappeared when he touched him.

-LIB: I want to see you again.

-LIB: Just wait until you're done with this period of time.

-LIB: I'm going to J city to attend the signing event in two days.

- Favorite A: Good.

-LIB: Why do you feel so reluctant

-LIB: [Big White Goose Greetings.jpg]

- Favorite A: No, I am looking forward to meeting Ah Ning.

- Favorite A: Really. [Classic big eyes.jpg]

-LIB: I am looking forward to it too

Looking forward to it, very much looking forward to it.Lu Yining stood up and stretched, and began to think about where to go when we meet next time. Is the coffee shop I usually go to okay?But it seems that because I always order coffee but don't drink it, the boss seems a little angry.

Where to go?