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Grandpa built a simple kennel for Lele out of cardboard boxes, but Lele didn't want to sleep there, so she climbed out of the cardboard box tremblingly, climbed over mountains and ridges to the bedside, and kept scratching the bed with her paws The corners were scratched so loudly that they screamed mournfully.

Su Zhiyun heard the sound of it scratching the foot of the bed, and looked down to see that the puppy's belly was sticking to the cold floor, shivering from the cold.

Lele was picked up by Su Zhiyun, and squeezed between him and Gu Zehuan to sleep, but now it stopped making noise, curled up under the quilt against Su Zhiyun, and became quiet after a while.

Su Zhiyun's schedule has been reversed for the past few days, and he doesn't feel sleepy even in the middle of the night.

Gu Zehuan closed his eyes, breathing calmly.

But Su Zhiyun felt that he was not asleep.

The air conditioner was turned on in the room, and the temperature was low, making the skin a little cold.

The place where grandma scratched was still a little painful. When he touched the puppy's ear, it was still hot and soft.

The puppy was very sleepy and took a nap.Su Zhiyun kept teasing it, which made it unable to sleep, so it became a little angry, opened its mouth and bit Su Zhiyun gently.

Su Zhiyun pinched its ears, pulled the dog in, and stopped moving.

The body is very tired, and there is an urgent need to rest everywhere, but the brain is awake, and even faintly pained because of being too awake.

Some moonlight fell in through the window, faint white.

"The moonlight was also very bright that night, and I could see people's shadows and the street outside."

Su Zhiyun said that he didn't hear a reply, but he knew that Gu Zehuan was listening.

In fact, the night here is very beautiful and quiet, and it is not as noisy as the city at night.

Su Zhiyun also closed his eyes.

……

It was nearly six o'clock, and Su Zhiyun fell asleep for a while. When he woke up, it was already broad daylight, and Gu Zehuan had already got up before him.

Grandpa and grandma were not in the house, only a note was left, and a large bowl of warm mung bean soup was placed on the table.

"Grandma gets nervous when she sees unfamiliar people. I'll take her out for a walk first, and you take your classmates out to see more."

Su Zhiyun sat down and took a sip of soup.

The porridge is very sweet, probably my grandfather remembered that Su Zhiyun was fond of sweets when he was a child, so he added a lot of white sugar to the porridge, some of which didn't melt, and it made his tongue rustle when he drank it.

Grandpa also prepares breakfast for the puppy. Lele can already eat some meat paste now. She prefers meat to milk, and it is a joy to chew on a bone.

Gu Zehuan seemed to have gone out as well.

It wasn't too hot in the morning, so Su Zhiyun went out to find him, and went out with Lele in his arms. The cherry tree not far from home was still lush and green, and there were sparrows squatting on the branches to comb their feathers, and the mottled sunlight fell , Like patches of warm-colored snow.

He looked at it for a while and felt that his eyes were a little tired.

In the distance, a few young men with nothing to do had been looking here frequently. Among them, the tallest young man in black was walking towards here while bouncing a stone.

"Outlander?"

Su Zhiyun glanced at him.

Although the young man had some bangs on his forehead, he could still see a long and thin scar, like a needle mark. He noticed Su Zhiyun's gaze, and said nonchalantly: "When I was young, I was taught a lesson. of."

"Your clothes and shoes are good, they are all branded goods."

He looked Su Zhiyun up and down, and said so.

"A rich man like you, why do you come to such a remote place for vacation?"

Perhaps it was because the dissatisfied boy had been talking to Su Zhiyun. Although those people didn't come close, they were all calling his name from a distance.

"I know, I know, I'm coming now!"

The impatience on the boy's face disappeared in a flash, he stuffed the stone into Su Zhiyun's hand, put it in his pocket and walked back.

"what is this?"

"I picked it up in the stream. You people in the city must have never seen it before. I will send it to you."

With his back turned to Su Zhiyun, he waved and left by himself.

Su Zhiyun lowered his head to look, and saw that it was a rough stone as crystal clear as pink crystal, a little as big as a fingernail.

Lele also tried to bite with his teeth, but Su Zhiyun refused to let him bite, and held the pink stone tightly in his hand.

"Yunzi?"

Su Zhiyun turned around when he heard the voice, and saw his grandparents and Gu Zehuan standing together.

Gu Zehuan was holding a large handful of vegetables in his arms, and a watermelon in his right hand.

Grandpa said: "I wanted you to go out for a walk with your classmate today, but your grandma ran out just after I finished writing the message. Fortunately, your classmate responded quickly and stopped me."

"It doesn't mean that you haven't been here for a long time, so let's go to the town together to buy some food."

"Why were you talking to that kid from the Lin family just now? He even bullied Xiaohua when he was a child." When Grandpa talked about this incident, his expression was not very good: "But that kid went to visit Xiaohua a few times in secret and brought some things with him. "

He was silent again.

"This time, I may have heard that you are back, so I came here to take a look."

Grandpa was cooking at noon, and grandma seemed much calmer today, sitting in the courtyard and eating watermelon by herself.

It rained a few days ago, and many dandelions grew in the yard, fluffy and fresh white. When Su Zhiyun picked one, grandma blew one, looking very happy.

Grandpa set up a table and stool under the shade of a tree, and Gu Zehuan was reviewing and doing homework there. There was also sliced ​​watermelon on the table. Whenever Grandpa passed by and saw Gu Zehuan, he couldn't help feeling: "Yunzi, you This classmate is really good, he doesn't forget to study at this time, and he is also good-looking."

He was very attentive and careful, never asking Su Zhiyun what his grades were, nor did he ask if he had done his homework.

Su Zhiyun sat in the courtyard for a while, and finally felt a little sleepy, and fell asleep drowsily on the side. In his dream, there was the tender green smell of dandelion sprouts, and the sun set on his thin eyelids, reflecting bright red clouds.

Sunshine, dandelions, watermelons, creeks, cherry trees.

I didn't dream of Tang Hong today.

Nothing today.

When eating, Su Zhiyun was still a little sleepy, with a strand of hair curled up, and he ate slowly, taking a spoon and putting it into his mouth one spoon at a time.

Grandpa couldn't see it, so he took a comb to help him comb his hair, and tied up the other's messy hair: "Why do you sleep in such a mess and don't clean it up? It's a mess like a bird's nest. Boys will be neat and tidy." , you still have such long hair, you look like a little girl, and you are not afraid of being laughed at."

Su Zhiyun's hair is long and short, with different layers. It was tied up and fell down a lot, with one piece curled eastward and one piece westward, which was not docile.

Grandpa babbled on and saw some marks on Su Zhiyun's neck. The other party was very fair, and those scars were eye-catching, and the dark hickeys were also eye-catching.The old man stopped combing his hair, and then continued to chatter as if nothing had happened.

"You, you just don't like to tidy yourself up at all, and you're obviously not bad looking. We, Yunzi, look so good, we must dress up a lot better than boys of the same age, and girls will like you."

Su Zhiyun didn't know if he heard it, but he finished the last mouthful of pork ribs and corn soup.

Grandpa noticed that he had picked out all the green onions and threw them aside, frowned, and heard Su Zhiyun ask again: "Grandpa, where is Xiaohua?"

"You want to see?"

Su Zhiyun said "um", and then said, "I want to go and see it this afternoon."

After a long time, he added another sentence: "Together with my classmates."

The old man was silent for a while, then sighed: "That's fine, after all, Yanjiao stopped you from seeing Xiaohua before, it's good to go and see now, it's been almost five years, if Xiaohua is still here, she should go to elementary school too graduated."

Su Zhiyun stopped talking and lowered his eyelashes.

Xiaohua's tomb is on the mountain, the road is rugged, and there is only one dirt road out. The shadows of the trees are dancing on the road, and you can smell the wet fragrance of pine needles when you step on the fallen leaves.

It just rained last night, and small mushrooms grew in many places. The smell of mushrooms is very strong and special.

Su Zhiyun stomped on one, and the shoes smelled of damp afterwards.

Grandpa had to stay at the bottom of the mountain in order to take care of grandma, so he only pointed out a path for Su Zhiyun, and walked up that path until he reached the end.

In the beginning, the mountains and forests were dense, and the trees became less and less as we walked, but the grass gradually grew, with branches and leaves growing wildly, with sharp edges, which cut Su Zhiyun's ankle and ooze bright red blood.

The closer you get to the little flower, the more flowers on the side of the road. They are colorful and colorful. They are not wild flowers. At first glance, they are sown by someone. If you go up, you can see the flowers blooming along the trail of the road. , as if to lead them to some unknown secret place.

It is very quiet here, except for the sound of two people brushing away the weeds and walking, only the melodious birdsong can be heard.

The two of them walked out of the woods and arrived at the place not long after. Xiaohua's tomb was very simple and uncomplicated. The name and birthday were engraved on the bluestone slab. There were vegetables, fruits and toys in front of the tomb. It looked very new, it should be not long ago left.

Su Zhiyun's gaze slowly moved up from bottom to top, scanning names and birthdays one by one, and finally landed on the photo.

The photo is neither scary nor hideous. It even looks a little old because of the wind and sun, and it is a little swollen and curled after being soaked in water. This is because this is not a new photo printed yesterday or the day before, but from five years ago. Nearly [-] days ago.

It's a long, long time.

Gu Zehuan took out the things needed for worship, Su Zhiyun replaced the joss sticks, lit the yellow paper, folded one by one and burned them in front of the tomb, the yellow paper smelled very fragrant when burned.

It is very different from ordinary paper.

He opened the coloring book he brought with him. The book was very thick. He was very patient and burned it page by page. The bright red flames licked up and swallowed the colorful drawing paper into gray and white without color.

Because those coloring books were too thick and too many, Su Zhiyun burned them for a long time, and the ash from the incense made his eyes ache, and his fingertips became hot from the burning paper.

He burned it until nearly evening, and finally left the stone that the boy gave him in front of Xiao Hua's grave.

The road down the mountain was also very quiet, no one spoke, the weather was not good today, halfway through it suddenly began to rain heavily, and my grandfather did not wait for Su Zhiyun to come back.

When he finally heard the door knock, the old man hurried over and opened the door, only to see Su Zhiyun standing outside the door, drenched all over, he raised his eyes, and a stream of rainwater rolled down from the corners of his eyes, causing Grandpa to be taken aback.

I don't know if it was because he was too embarrassed at that time, or his eyes were soaked with incense ash and rain.

It always feels like a series of tears.

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