madness

The air has a humid dusty smell, and the autumn is very cold. The temperature difference between day and night is large, and the water vapor condenses into a thick white fog. You can vaguely see the peach trees and weeping cherry blossoms, and every branch is clear and green. It looks like it has been washed in the rain, and it is full of vitality.

The peaches on the table were washed clean, only half the size of a fist, carefully wiped with a paper towel, and placed in a transparent glass container, fresh and beautiful.

Gu Zehuan closed the door and slept in the room, not letting anyone in.Su Zhiyun sat leaning against the door, his head leaning against the cold door, curled up with legs bent, like a puppy crouching loyally at the door waiting for its master to come home.

His hair was disheveled, covering most of his face, he unconsciously gnawed on his fingers, his eyeballs did not move for a long time, and he was not angry at all.

Gu Zehuan didn't let him hug yesterday, let alone kiss him.

Instead, he tied his hands tightly with a rope to prevent him from moving.

Su Zhiyun tasted some fishy smell in his mouth, and he didn't feel any pain when he bit his slender white and slender fingers with blood, and his long eyelashes drooped down, fluttering like a small fan.

The originally stagnant and sluggish brain began to spin after a long absence.

Gu Zehuan ignored him, didn't let him hug, and didn't let him kiss.

Because he is disobedient.

And Gu Zehuan hoped that he would be obedient.

The quartz clock was still ticking on the wall. He wiped off the rusty smell on his lips and teeth, and the door opened without warning. Gu Zehuan was wearing snow-white pajamas and soft trousers. There is a dark red scar from Su Zhiyun's bite yesterday.

With the action of opening the door, the cool air inside also tilted out, flowing through the room.

Gu Zehuan is very afraid of heat, knees, elbows, chin, and knuckles will turn into a light pink color when heated, like melted strawberry ice cream, so every time he sleeps, he turns the temperature of the air conditioner to a very low level.

Su Zhiyun raised his head and stared at him blankly for a long time before stretching out his hands bound by the rope.

"I want to go to the toilet."

He thought that Gu Zehuan would help him untie it.

But Gu Zehuan just turned around, took a change of clothes, and went into the toilet.

Time ticked by, and the light rain began to fall outside the window again. Su Zhiyun's body gradually curled up, his eyelashes trembled violently, his lips turned white from being bitten by himself, his stomach tightened, and his mind began to feel dizzy. unclear.

Want to go to the toilet.

The door of the bathroom finally opened, and the humid and hot mist rushed in, revealing Gu Zehuan's face, which was also wet and dripping with water. When he blinked his eyelashes, round and crystal drops of water rolled from the tip of the eyelashes to his lips.

He lightly licked it off again, and when he saw Su Zhiyun standing in front of him, he should have closed his eyes slightly, because he had to be good at this time.

But he didn't. Instead, he looked straight at the young man, stretched out his hands again, his eyes were splashed by the water vapor that had just covered the sky, and he almost had the illusion of tears.

"Gu Zehuan, I want to go to the toilet."

Gu Zehuan ignored him, and wiped the water stains on the ends of her hair. A large piece of the white towel was soaked in water vapor and became wet and heavy, just like Su Zhiyun's eyes that became wet and heavy because of being ignored.

As if blessed to his heart, he held the young man in his arms and whispered again in a soft and pitiful tone: "Gu Zehuan, I want to go to the bathroom."

Gu Zehuan wiped his hair half dry before looking back at Su Zhiyun: "Why don't you untie it yourself, I didn't tie the knot, if you really want to untie this rope, you should be able to bite it open with your teeth, or break free. "

Su Zhiyun lowered his eyes, his bruised fingers crossed and rubbed each other, and they began to ache again.

He pursed his lips tightly, pressed his wound, felt a little pain, but still didn't answer, his eyes showed a misty daze.

Why don't you break free?

Gu Zehuan just waited quietly for Su Zhiyun's answer, but Su Zhiyun remained silent and silent.

……

A few days later, Gu Zehuan left again, not at home.

He didn't come back for many days this time, and the rope in Su Zhiyun's hand was bitten off by himself.

The passage of time seemed to slow down.

Su Zhiyun carefully counted the days on his fingers.

There are 24 hours in a day, which is 1140 minutes, or 86400 seconds.

And it has been 120 hours, 7200 minutes, and 432000 seconds since the last meeting, which is five days in conversion.

Five days sounds short.

Su Zhiyun liked this statement.

But it seems that only the converted 43200 seconds is enough to describe its length.

Lying on the sofa, looking up at the ceiling, this is the only thing he does.

In fact, you can go, of course you can go.

Gu Zehuan did not restrict him.

Just no where to go.

Su Zhiyun was trapped in this newly built apartment, isolated from the world, and the only link with the world was artificially stretched, and the only link left went far away.

Can't follow.

The strong wind blew his hair into pieces suddenly, and his vision was divided into fragmented pictures. Everything downstairs was placed very small, as far away as pixels.

His heartbeat quickened, and he could still hear a thumping sound as he tightened his collar.

But he didn't jump off.

Su Zhiyun lay back on the sofa and closed his eyes.

Until the phone rang, he fumbled to open it, and saw an unknown number.

The phone was also heavy and cold to the touch.

This is not his phone, but Gu Zehuan's.

He swipe to answer, and the person on the other end teased, with a familiar tone: "Why haven't you replied to my message for so many days, how was that girl last time? I think she seems to like you very much, why don't you take the opportunity to accept it?" chant."

"drop."

Before Su Zhiyun could react, his fingers had already hung up the phone first.

The other party's voice also stopped abruptly.

It seems to be a black and white mime that was forced to stop halfway through the performance.

Time passed so long.

Even too long.

Su Zhiyun thought to himself, clenched the phone little by little, the hard edges and corners hurt the soft flesh of his palm.

He will definitely go crazy for a long time, just to find a little trace of Gu Zehuan.

……

The room was as unsightly as a gust of wind had swept through it. All the flower pots, porcelain, and glass were smashed and mixed with the cloth that was also torn to pieces.

After the sound of the door opening, the figure curled up on the ground seemed to wake up from a dream, and he gradually got up. In the beautiful moon shadow, his outstretched arm was dripping with blood from top to bottom.

Gu Zehuan turned on the light, and Su Zhiyun walked towards him stepping on the fragments of hibiscus flowers and foreign roses.

Gu Zehuan was wearing that soft black top, showing his collarbone like a puddle of honey, and looked at him quietly.

This kind of obedience that seems to allow him to do whatever he wants almost makes Su Zhiyun's teeth itch, his blood spurts, and the pounding of his heart beats loudly in his chest. .

The young man who fell to the ground still did not act or resist, as if he could accommodate all his unexpressed high emotions.

Su Zhiyun bit Gu Zehuan's collarbone forcefully, licked his shoulder blade with the tip of his tongue, dripped his own blood from the crook of his arm and melted into Gu Zehuan's skin, making him taste some overwhelming sweet smell.

But not enough, not enough at all.

Desires are hard to fill.

He reached out and grabbed Gu Zehuan's neck tightly.

1 minutes.

2 minutes.

3 minutes.

His fingers trembled more and more, and the hot sweat moistened his skin, which was so slippery that he could hardly hold Gu Zehuan's neck.

Those eyes seemed to know everything, staring at Su Zhiyun.

Su Zhiyun's body trembled more and more, more and more trembling, and finally he let go in the great pain in his heart, buried his head in the other's neck, and hugged him.

Reluctant.

The admiration and hatred almost consumed his sanity, and even his bones creaked and creaked because of the high temperature.

But what he remembered more at that moment was the sizzling sound of the old TV in the middle of the night, the scent of green lemon washing powder lying beside him, and the deep kiss in the rental house covered with posters during the high school summer vacation .

Intertwined, crushed, and destroyed.

Gu Zehuan is the epitome of all his feelings and memories, an old disease that cannot be cured.

Can not be eradicated, unforgettable.

The wet water droplets slowly wet Gu Zehuan's collar one by two.

Su Zhiyun gripped him tightly, but his arms were weak, trembling like chaff.

"I don't want anything."

"It doesn't matter if you kill me or leave scars on me, hit me, or scold me. Please don't ignore me, leave me, I will be very obedient, very obedient, very obedient."

"I will become what you want."

His body trembled violently, like a moth that fell into a spider's web and died completely, willing to be bitten through the neck by the spider's venom and blended into one.

Su Zhiyun lowered his head and carefully kissed Gu Zehuan's ear.

Give up fantasy.

"So give me a hug."

"I would do anything for you."

It's useless to be awake, and it's useless to resist. All his self-righteousness fell apart in an instant in front of Gu Zehuan, and he threw away his helmet and armor.

He should have known that he was hopeless, that he was already in danger, that he would be tortured by this so-called fate to the point of being completely defeated and defeated.

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The timeline of the next chapter will be recycled.