Self-cultivation of male support

Cheng Changqing didn't feel that there was anything wrong with what he said, and repeated it: "A Yan, can you give birth to a child?"

Shi Yan blinked, and blinked again, to confirm that Cheng Changqing was serious, and looked at him inexplicably.

I really want to remind him: having a baby is a matter for a young couple, you come to ask me if this child is a little inappropriate?Going to the Songzi Niangniang Temple to worship is better than coming to me to find an explanation, right?Are you going to have the baby or do you want some woman to give you the baby?Doesn't this require the two of you to work together?I can't help even an outsider!

Cheng Changqing was lying on the bed, his eyes were burning, his hands were still warm, and he held Shi Yan's wrist tightly: "A Yan, what I mean is, can you let father have another child?"

Only then did Shi Yan understand what Cheng Changqing wanted to express.

But: "Uncle, he has divorced. If you want to have a child, you must first find a woman."

Cheng Changqing let go of Shi Yan's wrist, lay flat again, and put his hands on his abdomen neatly. He looked like a well-behaved child since childhood. He stared at the roof, and he didn't know what he thought of. He said softly to Shi Yan: " When I was young, I heard my father jokingly said that Abbot Yueshan once made a divination for his father, saying that his father was destined to have no children in this life, and to be lonely and widowed all his life.

At that time, I heard people in the palace say that Abbot Yueshan is a rare divination master in the world, and the people of Qintianjian would bow down to him when they saw him. My father used that incident to warn me that a man should not be wrong about something or someone. If you trust too much, the other party is not a god, but a human being.

It is human to make mistakes. "

Cheng Changqing's eyes were empty, as if he was recalling something, and there was still a slight smile on the corner of his mouth: "I was young at the time, my father might think I don't remember things, I used to think that Abbot Yueshan's divination skills Not so much.

But you also know what happened later.

I felt uneasy, so I went to find Abbot Yueshan in private, and he had confirmed this matter.

Father is now alone, and the marriage has not been settled after several setbacks. He is nearly forty years old, and his knees are desolate. Such a good person should not be like this..."

Speaking of this, Shi Yan was also silent.

Uncle Cheng Lixue said it was really miserable. He was nearly forty years old, his family was gone, his wife was gone, and the son who was carefully raised became someone else's. A very disgraceful way of exposing the truth to the public.

Outsiders just wanted to pretend they didn't know, and it was impossible for Cheng Lixue to save face. Normal people were afraid that they couldn't bear this insult, and they were too ashamed and angry to go out to meet people.

But uncle Leng is very free and easy in front of everyone, and doesn't care about other people's eyes, but can he really not care?In the dead of night, when you can't sleep alone, don't you really think about it?

Shi Yan didn't think so.

Seeing that Shi Yan was silent, Cheng Changqing turned around and met Shi Yan's eyes: "A Yan, I know you have a way. Abbot Yueshan also said that only you can do this."

Shi Yan glanced at it lightly, but he didn't say anything about the purpose of Abbot Yueshan's telling Cheng Changqing about this matter, and only told Cheng Changqing: "The price to pay for this matter is more serious than you imagined."

Cheng Changqing's eyes were faintly excited, and his tone was a little hasty: "I am willing, no matter what the price is, I am willing."

Shi Yan: "Even with your original bright future and good health?"

Cheng Changqing said firmly: "I am willing!"

Shi Yan reminded again: "You may have a short life because of this, and your body will be exhausted, and there will be no turning back when you open the bow."

Cheng Changqing nodded solemnly: "I am willing!"

Shi Yan nodded: "You should rest first, think about it, and wait for your health to recover."

Seeing that Shi Yan was about to leave, Cheng Changqing grabbed Shi Yan's wrist, closed his eyes, and suddenly said: "A Yan, you may not understand, every time I secretly go to see my father, he is alone, what it feels like to drink in loneliness.

In the past, I mean, before my father and my mother reconciled, after my father left the office, he would go to the Liu’s grandma’s pancake stand two streets away to buy two mutton pancakes. We waited for him at the entrance of the Xuji Inn one street away. The two of us sneaked out to eat pancakes, rinsed our mouths with the owner of the inn, and then went home together.Because my mother didn't let us eat outside food, saying it was unclean.

This has been the case since I was a child. Since my father and my mother reconciled, I thought that such a scene would never happen again, but when I lived alone in Zhuangzi, I could receive my father sent me every day. Pancakes obviously look exactly the same as before, but when I eat them, I always feel that they don't taste that way.

Ah Yan, do you know that once I felt so uncomfortable that I strolled to Grandma Liu’s pancake stand by myself, and just happened to meet my father standing there, took out two shares of money in a daze, and then withdrew his hand at a loss , turned around and left lonely, forgetting to take his pancakes, do you know how uncomfortable I felt after seeing that scene?

I want to do something for him, but I can't do anything. My identity is the greatest harm to my father. I can't even walk with him, because my existence is a kind of harm to him.

Ah Yan, I..."

Seeing Cheng Changqing's emotion, Shi Yan lightly tapped the other person's forehead, and he fell asleep in a daze. He still held Shi Yan's wrist while he was asleep, showing his persistence.

Shi Yan sighed silently, and easily withdrew his wrist from the opponent's hand.

Quietly out of the room, sitting on the futon under the eaves quietly looking at the sky, feeling a little complicated.

Xiao Jia took the initiative to speak: "Team leader, can you really change the fate of Cheng Lixue's lonely life?"

Cheng Lixue's fate is not as simple as being childless, and the relationship between husband and wife is also very weak. No matter who he marries, they will not be able to live together.

Shi Yan said affirmatively: "I can't, maybe only Cheng Changqing can do it in this world, I'm just a tool person without emotion, the person who has the deepest bond with my uncle in this world is none other than Cheng Changqing, if others do this, they may not be able to succeed , and do more harm to oneself.”

Xiao Jia was puzzled: "Group leader, haven't you been troubled by this matter recently? You also said a few days ago that when you saw Cheng Lixue staring at other people's children in a daze, you looked like an old man longing for a home.

You agree to Cheng Changqing's request, and the matter is just resolved, and both of you can be happy and satisfied. "

Shi Yan shook his head: "You don't understand. In the future, when my uncle finds out about this, he will definitely feel uneasy. Changqing is willing to sacrifice and wants to do something for his uncle, but according to his character, if he knows the truth, he may not Accept the offer.

A tough man might rather shed blood and tears himself, and doesn't need his favorite junior to make sacrifices for him.If he wants to, there are many people who are willing to enter his backyard, but he has his own insistence and doesn't want to delay the girl from a good family.

Secondly, I will be contaminated with the cause and effect of my uncle and Changqing. I am not sure what will happen in the future. "

Xiao Jia said indifferently: "Then don't let him know. If Cheng Changqing doesn't do this, he will feel uneasy and unhappy for the rest of his life. The more he sees Cheng Lixue, a lonely father, the more tortured he will be.

If this move allows him to let go of the past, stop the pain, embrace a new life, face a brand new future, and live happily for decades.Team leader, you and Cheng Lixue are doing good deeds.

Thinking about things like mother-in-law and mother-in-law, have you read too many gossip scripts?

Is it time to consider whether Cheng Lixue can accept this gift?Didn't you see that Cheng Changqing was going to be driven mad by this guilt?Today is a high fever, tomorrow may be dead!The first problem is to make Cheng Changqing no longer feel guilty!

Let’s talk about cause and effect, the big deal is to stay in this world for a few more decades, and completely eliminate cause and effect before walking. For those who practice, it’s only a blink of an eye for a few dozen years, so what are you afraid of?

Anyway, I think life on the mountain is pretty good. When I'm bored, I go to the front hall to play tricks on the monks. It's also interesting to watch them panic. "

For the first time, Shi Yan felt that Xiao Jia's words were unexpectedly reasonable.In my mind, I felt as if I had touched some untouched area.

Shi Yan closed his eyes and slowly fell into another world that no one else had ever reached.

With Cheng Changqing's illness, he lay on the bed for half a month without getting up. After communicating with Shi Yan that day, he fell asleep until night. When Abbot Ming Chen felt his pulse, he couldn't help shaking his head: "Excessive worry, age Gently, why be too persistent."

Apparently this person knew Cheng Changqing's family background well, maybe he guessed a little bit, and tentatively said: "Brother Mingguang thought about it in the Bodhidharma Academy, if not, wait for Master Cheng's health to recover, then go and have a look."

Cheng Changqing lay weak on the bed, opened his mouth, wanted to say something, but didn't say it.

He wanted to refuse, but when the words came to his lips, he sighed insignificantly, nodded to Abbot Mingchen, and said softly: "Thank you, Abbot, for your kindness."

At this time, he can still be polite and not embarrass outsiders. He has to make Shi Yan, who is watching, sigh his good education.

Mingchen knew at a glance that Cheng Changqing's anxiety was not caused by Mingguang, but as a monk, there was only these things he could do, and there was nothing else he could do.

Cheng Changqing has been in a daze for a while, and when he was awake, he told Shi Yan some things about his childhood, most of which were related to Cheng Lixue's father. It could be heard that Cheng Changqing really admired Cheng Lixue, and in his life, his mother The frequency of occurrence is not high.

As a mother, the second princess was not careful enough, and she never put all her energy on her children.

Cheng Changqing said softly to Shi Yan: "I remember things early when I was young, maybe they all thought I didn't understand anything, but in fact I can still remember every key point clearly.

Perhaps from her point of view, when I was young, I had two wet nurses, four first-class maids, eight second-class maids, and six servants to take care of me. If you care about this child, just let the people below dare not neglect.

This is already considered a conscientious mother in the entire royal family.

But compared with her father who does everything by himself, she seems very unreal. She looks at me on the surface, or in front of outsiders, and cares for me. Whenever I am praised by the gentlemen, she is also proud on the surface, but she subconsciously , Many times they are unconsciously alienating me. "

Cheng Changqing let out a heavy breath: "Now that I think about it, she is also guilty inside."

Shi Yan said softly: "Why are you bothering? Turning over these memories over and over again to torture yourself, worrying too much, you are sick, when will you recover?"

Seeing that Cheng Changqing was unmoved, Shi Yan said again: "I don't know what kind of errand my uncle has received recently. I heard from He Er that sometimes the day is numb after busy work, and there is no time to rest, and I have to rush Go to court.

That's it, I still have to find time to go up the mountain to see you. "

Shi Yan pointed to Granny Liu's pancakes that had cooled down on the table: "Just to give you a bite to eat, saying that you are picky, and you only eat pancakes from this store when you are sick!"

Cheng Changqing fell into silence, closed his eyes, and said softly to Shi Yan: "I will get better."

Shi Yan watched in amazement, and had to sigh to Abbot Mingchen: "The patient's mentality can really affect the recovery of physical health to a large extent.

You look at the days before, you drank the medicine and ate the porridge, but the sickness got worse day by day, and you were just about to take your last breath.

Looking at it now, I figured it out, my mental head has improved visibly with the naked eye. "

Ming Chen smiled and said: "It's a heart disease, if you think about it, it will naturally heal without medicine."