"Slag" is right

The bedroom is brightly lit by incandescent lamps, and high-wattage spotlights are evenly illuminated from all around the suspended ceiling, and there is a large lamp in the middle. All shadows are forced to curl up at the bottom of the object, and the slightest flaws have nowhere to hide.

The two people sitting on the big white bed were paled by the light. They had been swimming in the ocean of love and desire for too long. When they got up, the love and desire faded away, and there was only one body that was soaked white.

The bite wound on Nan's shoulder looked more tragic now, red, purple, and blue, like flowers blooming together, and the petals opened to reveal the bloody pain inside.Wen Jianming felt a little guilty at this time, he hadn't been so demented for a long time, no matter who he slept with, he loved or hated him, and he never made others like this.He carefully sterilized Nan Nan, tore off several bandages and pasted them on the wound.

"Does it hurt?"

Nan Nan squinted at the injury on his shoulder: "If I say it hurts, what should you do?"

"I take it easy."

"...It's boring."

He looked at Wen Jianming's face close at hand again, and leaned closer to his face as he watched, just as his lips were about to touch, Wen Jianming retreated subconsciously.

"..." Nan Nan smiled wryly, "Actually, I felt pity for you for a moment, but not at all now, you are the same kind of person as Lu Yi...I think you deserve it a little bit now."

He didn't know where he got the courage to say this suddenly, maybe he was really too sad, so sad that he lost his mind.He was able to do that, abandoning his personality and dignity, and using himself as a tool and a container to satisfy Wen Jianming, but he was so stingy that he didn't even want to kiss him.

But after he finished speaking, he regretted it, he was afraid that Wen Jianming would tell him to leave immediately, or he would never see him again.Nan Nan is not like Wen Jianming, he doesn't have that much self-esteem, and he can't bear the pain of longing.

He carefully observed Wen Jianming's face, it was not very good-looking, but in the end he didn't say anything to tell him to get out.After the wound on his shoulder was pasted, Wen Jianming threw the quilt over him: "It's late, go to bed early."

After speaking, he went out with his things, and went in to turn off the lights.Nan Nan wanted to keep Wen Jianming to sleep with him, but it was useless to say it, he didn't say anything.It's just that in the dark, Wen Jianming walked to the bed in a familiar way and told him to go to sleep.

It was the first time that Nan Nan and Wen Jianming were lying on the same bed alone, and he was even more nervous than when they had the intimate act just now. He lay upright and did not dare to move.Why did he let him go all of a sudden? Was it because those words just now made Wen Jianming realize how much he was going too far?Or did he finally realize that their situations were so similar and feel a little sympathy?

"Does Lu Yi know that you came to my place?"

"I don't know, I came here because of a sudden thought." It wasn't because I wanted to come suddenly, but because I had already thought about it to an unbearable level.

"Will you come over in the future?"

"Do you want me to come?"

Wen Jianming was silent, but Nan understood what he meant.

Why do some cancer patients believe in some folk remedies that are simply an insult to IQ in the eyes of normal people?Because once a person is terminally ill, even the faintest and most unrealistic hope will be grasped. Even if it is poison, as long as it can relieve the pain for a moment, he will not hesitate to take it.Wen Jianming in front of him was the terminally ill man, and Nan, with Lu Yi's love, became a witchcraft medicine.

"Lu Yi knew that you came to see me secretly, what would happen?" Wen Jianming asked again.

But Nan Nan was a little impatient when he heard this, and today he was especially impatient with Wen Jianming.

"What can he do? I'm not sold to him, I can't do what I want? Can you stop talking about Lu Yi, no matter how you don't care about my feelings, at least let me take a breath, okay?"

Wen Jianming was silent again, Nan Nan thought, if he mentioned Lu Yi again, even if he didn't drive him away, he would not be able to stay here any longer.

"……sorry."

Wen Jianming suddenly apologized, these three words made his heart twitch, and all the anger gathered in his heart was extinguished at once.He turned to hug Wen Jianming, leaning his face on his shoulder, Wen Jianming didn't push him away.

Nan Nan thought, if Wen Jianming's heart softened to some extent because of his dedication and suffering, then let him pay more and suffer more.

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The rising and falling breathing in the darkness is like the tide under the moonlight. The moon gradually fades, the tide recedes, and the breathing of the two gradually calms down.

Lu Yi turned over and put his arms around Nan Nan's chest. Nan Nan pushed him twice, but he couldn't struggle out of his embrace, so he just let it go, thinking that he would fall asleep first, anyway, he always fell asleep quickly afterwards. sleep.

Nan Nan closed his eyes and waited quietly, Lu Yi's face was squeezed together with his head, and the soft hair swept across his face with his breath, faintly itchy, Nan Nan flicked it, but it was like a spider's web I can't flick it open.

One day Lu Yi will know about him and Wen Jianming.The two lived under the same roof, and he didn't deliberately hide anything, not to mention that his feelings and attachment to Wen Jianming couldn't be hidden whenever he wanted.Nan Nan didn't know that his unreasonable attachment to Wen Jianming started from the moment he stood on the rooftop, and it might be possible that all this could be ended only by jumping off.

The breathing in the ear gradually became heavy, Nan Nan put aside Lu Yi, got off the bed lightly, picked up the clothes scattered on the floor, and was about to leave when Qingming's voice came from behind: "It's so late, where are you going?"

He froze all over immediately, only his voice was deliberately relaxed, and he even smiled a little: "You haven't fallen asleep yet."

There is no need for one day, Lu Yi already knows.If you know it, you know it, this should have been a tacit matter, just like he and Wen Jianming are now.

He walked to the door and heard Lu Yi say, "Don't go."

"I'll go back to my room to sleep, brother, you can sleep too." Nan Nan said, the hand reaching for the door paused briefly, and finally put his hand on the doorknob, and the latch came out with a "click". exceptionally prominent.

"Nan, you are not allowed to go again, do you hear me?" Lu Yi sat up from the bed.

Na Nan held the clothes in one hand, and slowly opened the door with the other, and looked back at Lu Yi, only seeing the black shadow standing on the bed.

His throat tightened: "I'm sorry..."

Lu Yi jumped up from the bed suddenly, pulled Nan Nan away, closed the door with a "snap", turned on the light in the room, and stood in front of the door.

"Is there any point in doing this?"

Nan Nan put her clothes on her chest, lowered her head and said nothing.

"Wen Jianming won't love you, never will, can you be sober."

Nan Nan suddenly raised her head and looked into Shang Lu Yi's eyes: "I know he won't, I'm sober." It's always you who are not sober and can't figure out the situation, "But what does it matter, I love him That's enough." Nan Nan decisively reached out to open the door behind Lu Yi.

Seeing that he was determined to leave, Lu Yi grabbed his wrist, his hair was disheveled, and his expression was painful: "Nan, don't be like this, don't be like this..."

"..."

"Is it cheap?" Nan Nan said what Lu Yi couldn't say indifferently, and even smiled mockingly, "But I have been like this from the very beginning, brother, you didn't just know it today..."

"Don't say that..."

"I know that I am quite cheap, and Wen Jianming is also quite cheap. Brother, in fact, you are the same, but you don't admit it. You would rather let yourself and everyone suffer..."

"Don't say..."

"Why are you all so cold-blooded, you can treat other people's feelings as bullshit, how can you be so selfish, always only think about yourself, and hurt the people who are sincere to you." Nan Nan started to choke up.

Wen Jianming is cruel, no matter what Nan Nan does, he will always dismiss him.Lu Yi was also cruel, Wen Jianming was so kind to him, but if Na Nan got that one-thousandth of a thousandth of the favor, it would be worth it even if he died, but Lu Yi let him go without nostalgia.Only he can't be cruel, knowing that Lu Yi still needs it, he can't bear to leave him behind, can't bear to let him suffer like himself, and would rather be sad to the point of death in this crack.

Lu Yi stood in front of the door, speechless, just watched Nan crying, and refused to move away.

"Lu Yi, can you stop me? Why do you stop me?" Nan Nan pushed him aside hard, and Lu Yi was pushed aside. He stood there dumbly, as if he couldn't do anything.

The doors closed one by one, and Nan left.

It was as if all the strength in Lu Yi's body was taken away suddenly. After a while, he went out to look at Nan's things in dejection. He didn't take anything away. It seemed that he left in a fit of anger after an ordinary quarrel, and would come back when his anger subsided.

But he didn't feel any more at ease. He realized that Nan Nan had never really belonged to him.He couldn't stop him, and he had no reason to stop him. Nan Nan could leave at any time.

In the end, Lu Yi's place was neither the home that Nan Nan chose on his own initiative, nor even his only foothold when he was desperate. He could leave at any time. The reason why he didn't leave was because of Lu Yi, because Lu Yi still needed him.

Sitting on the sofa, Lu Yipan saw clearly how sad and ridiculous he was for the first time. He had been accepting emotional charity from others. He used to be Cheng Jinwenyu’s condescending greeting, but now it was Nan Nan’s humiliating company. He had nothing. He got it, and he couldn't get rid of anything, just like what he was addicted to, it just changed from alcohol to cigarettes, hurting the stomach and lungs is not as sad as it is.And he actually believed that Nan would not leave him, and he was already planning the future of the two of them, nothing could be more ridiculous than this.