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Hearing Song Cheng's words, I was stunned, my heart was full of turmoil, and I almost suspected that I had hallucinations.

However, the astonishment only lasted for a short second. I forcibly suppressed other emotions and asked in a helpless tone of disbelief: "Really? Don't lie to me?"

"Really." He stepped forward and hugged me tightly, and I noticed that his voice was trembling, "For you, I will give anything."

He is very affectionate here, but I was so stunned that I spit out a mouthful of blood.

After all, I was the one who first revealed to him my intention to leave, and in order to make him lower his vigilance, I always acted like I didn't want to be dragged down by various relationships.It stands to reason that such a "wish has come true", even if you are not overjoyed, you cannot categorically refuse.

But not long after Andre recovered, Yang Chen was fighting with Lu Changbai. At this juncture, I couldn't let go of both sides, and I couldn't get away rashly.

I used to think that with Song Cheng's desire to control, he could not be willing to give up the power in his hands, and the possibility of leaving everything with me was completely zero, so I dared to say, "Wait until the day when it's just the two of us and we don't have to entangle with other people. Talk to me about going back in time."

The future, the career, the expectations of his parents, he really can give up all of them.Isn't he afraid of falling out with Hou Guangyue, or abandoning everything and leaving with me, and I'll just dump him?

What I thought was the most unlikely situation was before my eyes, and it was clear that I shot myself in the foot with a rock, and I gradually felt a sense of powerlessness in my heart, as if I had punched the master to death.

Rather than thinking about ways to break the situation, I want to ask: Song Cheng, are you crazy?

But reality tells me that he is not crazy.

For ordinary people, it is indeed very difficult to abandon everything, but I know that this is not the first time he has made this decision.

The "Song Cheng" who fascinated me deeply at the beginning was such a rebellious character without hesitation.In order to pursue his dream of being an actor, he drifted north alone for four years. When he was penniless, he would rather soak in ice water for half a day in exchange for a meager salary than bow to the life arranged by his family.

Facing him for so long, I almost forgot that there is a stubborn, decisive and desperate heart under this exquisite mask.

After taking a few deep breaths, I struggled out of Song Cheng's arms, and said calmly, "You can't just leave, you have to tell me the details. Are the things at hand arranged?"

He nodded and said gently and patiently: "Don't worry, Big Brother Hou is good to me. I'm sure I won't give up halfway and make it difficult for him. When you first told me about this, I went back and thought about it for a long time. you're right."

He smiled at me: "Don't mention other people. With Yang Chen's character, as long as we are still here, he will probably come here every now and then to make things difficult. I don't care. I'm afraid you will always be disturbed, and I feel nervous .Anyway, sooner or later we have to leave, why don't we hurry up and start planning, and we are almost ready now."

I didn't expect him to start making arrangements so early... I was in a daze for a while, and it seemed that my plan to delay for a few days under the pretext of letting him handle Hou Guangyue's affairs was in vain.

Song Cheng looked at my expression and paused: "Jun Yan, you don't seem to be very interested?"

"No, it's not." I quickly waved my hand, "Your news was too sudden, I was a little... overly surprised. Besides, I didn't know you valued my words so much."

Fearing that he would become suspicious again, I asked a series of questions: "Where are we going? How do we avoid people? When is it?"

He seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, his brows stretched, and the smile on his face was very clear: "Where do you want to go? I have ordered a few, all of which are suitable for self-cultivation in the country. Or we can live in each place for a year and a half, and go more often." Check out a few and settle in your favorite spot."

"I... don't have any preference, just listen to you."

"It doesn't matter, we will have plenty of time in the future, the big deal is to choose one by one."

Except for the capital city and S city, I don't have many places to live for a long time. Most of them are for a short period of time on business trips and tourism, so it is difficult to deeply understand the customs and customs of various places.Song Cheng's tone was relaxed, as if we were not discussing how to leave quietly, but going out for an outing.

I asked again: "Are we using our identities outside? Wouldn't they be found out soon? If they can't be used, what about daily expenses? All in cash?"

"I entrusted my friend with two new identities, and the files and resumes are complete. I took it to the public security department for investigation, and I couldn't find anything wrong with it." Song Cheng said, "You don't have to worry about money, I'm not that poor model back then. , it is impossible for you to suffer on this."

He was thoughtful in every aspect, I held back my heart, and pretended to be serious about everything: "You haven't told me how long you will be away, and you won't come back from now on, or in three or four years? It's a big deal, it's not good to be in a hurry."

Song Cheng didn't answer directly, and threw the question back to me: "Junyan, we can stay as long as you want."

"In case I don't want to come back again, you want to remain anonymous for the rest of your life?" I deliberately pulled out a bitter smile, hitting the weakest part of his promise, "I don't care, what about you, don't you care about your parents?"

Unless he lost his mind, it was impossible to abandon the mother who gave everything for the family and regarded her son as a treasure.

Song Cheng's expression froze as expected, and it took a while before he spoke: "It would be a bit hypocritical to say that I am willing to go out for the rest of my life, and you would not believe it. I didn't intend to never come back, I just wanted to spend a few years with you. If it doesn’t work in one year, then it’s five years; if it doesn’t work in five years, then it’s ten years. Even if it takes ten years, I’ll only be in my thirties by then, and I have nothing to lose.”

"But if I keep running away and lying to myself that I'm fine now, I'll regret it for the rest of my life." His gaze was fixed on me, with firm eyes, without a trace of evasion, and every word was loud and clear, "Junyan, I can wait, wait until The day you change your mind."

If he put me off with sweet words, I would feel better.But he didn't hide it, and directly exposed his true thoughts. On the contrary, I didn't know what to do, so he reluctantly laughed: "Where can it be used for ten years? You can figure it out in your heart. With my personality, it will take a year or two at most." Can be subdued by you."

Song Cheng was stunned for a moment, and a smile suddenly appeared in his eyes: "I've never thought about it like this..."

As he said, he stretched out his arms to wrap around my waist, his eyes were gentle and affectionate, and the heat of his breath fluttered gently against my neck: "However, you have subdued me, and I will try my best to let you be 'subdued' by me as soon as possible." Yes. Toshihiko, thank you for being so—well, recognizing me so much."

I didn't expect my words to be misinterpreted by him in such a way, but I had no choice but to walk down the steps, lowering my head pretending to be embarrassed, and also to hide the cold expression.

Song Cheng obviously has made up his mind, and prevarication will only make him suspicious.

"You are ready, I still have things to do. Andre's condition has not improved at all. I can't just find a nursing home to compete him. At least find a few honest and steady nurses to watch his daily life. With the right medical team ... so much to worry about."

I have made up my mind to send André back to France, but I have to do so some days earlier.Xiao Wang will definitely take him to take care of him, and find a translator in case of emergency, and it will be convenient to report Andre's situation to me at any time.

Fortunately, Andre recovered part of his memory and saved me a lot of trouble.But at this moment, I must use his name to fight for some opportunities for myself.

Song Cheng patted me on the back and said softly, "If you're too busy, I can arrange two people to help you."

When I raised my head again, I was still the same Xu Junyan who had no opinion, was weak and helpless but insisted on being strong: "No, since I am his elder brother, I have to do these things myself to be at ease. Give me some more time. "

Song Cheng was silent for a while, then said: "A week, okay? If it's too late, I'll handle the rest of the problems."

Seeing me nodding, he pondered and said, "Aside from arranging your younger brother, you have nothing else to do. Mingde has Ye Zhifan watching over him, or at least your cousin, so there won't be any major problems. You can buy things anywhere. There is no need to prepare luggage, the sooner the better. As for how to get there, I will arrange it."

In just seven days, how could it be enough to send Andre away and deal with Yang Chen?I was still thinking about how to properly dispel his thoughts, and he said again: "The centipede is dead but not stiff, and I don't know how many contradictions will be in the future. I don't want you to get involved in the Xu family's mess again, and a group of people you hate Your mother...she was never lenient when she used you, otherwise she wouldn't have used you back then—"

I don't know what came to mind, Song Cheng stopped the conversation, his expression darkened: "You went to the hospital to see her today, you should know her condition well. Although you are not targeted for the time being, there is no guarantee that you will not be pressured to sacrifice with filial piety in the future." Why not let me be the villain and completely cut off her thoughts."

The implication is that he knew about my mother's illness, so he hurriedly urged me to leave.My mood suddenly became obscure: "That's my biological mother. You are not afraid that something will happen to her, do I hold grudges against you?"

There was a slight mockery in his words: "Junyan, did she know that she was sick the first day, and didn't know how to plan for a rainy day? What's more, her life is her life, so isn't yours?"

My complexion changed suddenly. Song Cheng was right. My mother had already known about her illness, and it was not because she didn’t have enough money and time to find a kidney source. There was also a butler who cared about her body all the time. How could I be reduced to saving my mother? the point?

Unless... the luck is terrible, and I haven't found a suitable candidate for so many years, so I have to hit my head.

If this is the case, Xu Yan and I, I don't know who is more pathetic.

"Even if you really hate me because of this, I will not change my mind." Song Cheng's attitude was still undeniably tough, but his eyes were soft and sad, as if silently begging me, "As long as you are well, Junyan, I Already lost you once."

The moment I buried my face in Song Cheng's arms, I thought I was luckier than my mother, and I could feel whether the person in front of me was sincere.

I have no expectations for the future he said, but there is always a moment when we face each other.

Maybe, maybe I can win a chance, not only not to destroy Zhao Yuan's plan, but also to leave the capital in a logical way... Biting a piece of soft meat in my mouth, the hand behind my back clenched into a fist.

Song Cheng, you have to cherish it.