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I thought Yang Chen was extremely embarrassed when he was here, but I didn't expect that after he left, Song Cheng and I were relatively speechless, which was very embarrassing.

I just refuted his face, it's not easy to bring up the matter of seeing off guests at this time, I just sat quietly in the study with Song Cheng, and heard the second hand of the clock ticking, and a cup of tea was drunk to the bottom of the cup.

He looked at the photo and said softly: "I came here tonight to talk to you about something. I have reflected on myself these past few days. Your brother has become like that. It is indeed inhumane to ask you to abandon him. I did it a few days ago. No, I shouldn't force you to stay on impulse."

Song Cheng paused for a moment and didn't look at me: "I have another house in the capital. The front and back yards are well maintained, and the patients can often go out to relax. And it's very close to Mingde, so it's convenient for you to go to the company. You pick up Ande Come over Lie... just live upstairs and downstairs, you can see him anytime you want, okay?"

When he spoke, he was the same as usual, but I noticed a slight difference—he was no longer gentle and calm, and he was more like wearing a paper mask at the moment, a thin layer of calm camouflage could not be hidden The bottom is overwhelming, and it will be broken with a light poke.

I got up, walked slowly in front of him, squatted down, and looked up at Song Cheng.He and I looked at each other, with frowning brows, long and thick eyelashes, and brown pupils, so there was always a kind of viscous and sweet affection like honey.

I lay on his lap, knowing that looking up at him from this angle, in the eyes of the person who bowed his head, my expression would appear a little naive.I said, "Aren't you angry when you see me and Yang Chen together?"

Song Cheng stared at me and moved his lips: "If I get angry, will you reject him next time?"

I didn't nod or shake my head.So Song Cheng smiled, and said, "I'm not angry. Always getting angry with you for this kind of thing, I will die of exhaustion."

I put my face on his lap and knelt on the ground in a docile pose.

Song Cheng stretched out his hand and patted my head: "Jun Yan, don't pretend to be sorry, I don't want to act to you anymore. Today I at least understand one thing, you don't have feelings for Yang Chen either. If you treat us both If any one of them cared a little bit, they wouldn't let us meet."

I think of how he always likes to let me lie on his chest at the end of sex, and his fingers run through my hair like this, stroking back and forth gently.This kind of strength is reassuring and full of the illusion of warmth.

Song Cheng continued: "Can't you see everything I have paid for you during this time? The previous way was wrong, and I am willing to correct it, but why did you never give me a chance? For you to tolerate an Andre, I have already given in. It’s the bottom line, what else can I do? Are you satisfied if I accept Yang Chen and get along with him?”

I understand that I am doing a very bad thing. If I were in the past, I would never be so cruel.

"You can try." I said, "Anyway, there is no difference between the two of you to me, why don't you discuss it, one, three, five is your turn, two, four, six is ​​his turn, how about resting on weekends?"

That layer of mask was completely shattered, and Song Cheng's expression seemed to be laughing and crying.His eyes were no longer molasses, but a lifeless brown of a dying tree trunk.

"I can't do it." He stared at me, "I can't accept it. Jun Yan, I don't mind, I just don't want to push you too hard. I don't want to share with others, I'm not that generous, I can barely tolerate a crazy Andre, as for Yang Chen... definitely, no, yes, can."

"There is no way, we have no other way to go. Sometimes Yang Chen insists on entanglement, and I can't avoid it, so I can only follow his wishes. Either you lock me at home and watch me resist to death, or you accept it." The status quo, leave me alone. And even if I am fucked by Yang Chen, you can still fuck me without losing money."

"Don't talk nonsense...it's impossible. It's the only thing I can't back down no matter what." He tightened his grip on my wrist, "Why can't I be single-minded, why must I do this kind of thing to stab my heart?"

The voice in Song Cheng's throat was almost choked with sobs: "Junyan, have you ever thought about my feelings? Wouldn't my heart ache if you just ruined my feelings for you? How much do you really hate me?"

"I do not hate you."

Hatred cannot be my motivation, because sooner or later all feelings will be exhausted with time, followed by wavering and giving up.

I looked up at him, giggling: "I took a lot of medicine in those years, my brain has been ruined long ago, and I don't feel any love or hatred. Song Cheng, I told you that I am a There is no future useless person, and I will only be tortured if you are with me, it is you who refuse to let go."

Emotions burned in the shadows of his eyes, not anger but something sadder.

"You insist on grabbing me, so I have to accept it, but you ask me to love you, I'm sorry, I can't do it, the standard of this request is too high."

Song Cheng was quiet for a moment, and his tone trembled slightly when he spoke again: "I don't believe that things will not turn around."

"Maybe. If you can tolerate me hurting you for more than ten years, squandering your patience recklessly, entangled with Yang Chen, or others. Maybe one day I will find out with conscience that you are true to me , I can love you on that day. But can you wait until that day, do you have that kind of perseverance?"

As I spoke, I unbuttoned my shirt, undid my belt, and dropped my trousers.

The naked body was illuminated by bright lights, the piercings on the nipples had healed and left dark marks, and long scars snaked around the crippled leg.The blue and black tattoos on the lower abdomen penetrated into the muscles, and there were many flowers on the top of the penis, carrying a different kind of eroticism.

The thin and pale body is covered with gaps and damages, this twisted and sickly condition can indeed be regarded as another kind of beauty.

I licked my lips, took Song Cheng's hand, and covered my neck.

"You can't wait. Song Cheng, there's no need to lie, we all know the answer. Once you thought I fell asleep, and you held my neck in the middle of the night, trying to strangle me. I'm afraid you can't tell yourself. A lover, but a hard prey."

We are all not normal, how can there be a normal relationship?

Song Cheng didn't speak, and silence was the best answer.

He slowly let go of his hand, and the former controller lowered his head, his forehead resting on my bare chest, in a position of painful repentance.

I lowered my eyes and was completely naked, but I didn't feel anything in my heart.Now I understand that as long as the mind is on the winning side, the body doesn't matter.

After a long silence, I pursed my lips and softened my tone: "Song Cheng, I admit that you are very considerate to me, but the premise of falling in love is that two people stand at the same height. You are much better than me, family background, Connections, background, you can press me down with a finger."

"You gave me money and the company, you gave me a lot of energy and effort, and you gave me a certain degree of freedom, for which I am grateful. However, we have not been equal from the beginning to the end, and you can take back the reward at any time. And I will have nothing, how can I love you in this situation? You think your feelings for me are love, but that is no different from giving to a beggar. When can you stop treating me so high, there will be love between us. future."

Song Cheng asked softly: "Junyan, what do you want me to do?"

Occasionally I feel like, after jumping off that cliff, I haven't stopped falling.

I took a deep breath and said with great difficulty, "If you can give up everything in the present for me, I can also sever everything from the past, including Yang Chen and Andre. Don't you be this Song City who calls the wind and rain, I am no longer Xu Junyan. No one controls anyone, we are all ordinary people, going to a place where no one can find us."

Although he deliberately concealed it, apart from being surprised, Song Cheng still had a trace of doubt in his eyes: "Are you willing to abandon everything to live that kind of life?"

"Of course, we can be more prepared and deal with other things, such as Andre's illness." I smiled, "I just thought that the half a year of pretending to be Song Cheng and Jun Yan was a little bit hard. The relationship between the two is very good. Besides, my body has become like this, and I can't do anything I want. It's no fun to be an empty-handed president, but I start to miss the past... Forget it, let's stop talking nonsense."

Song Cheng raised his head and stared at me, without saying a word for a long time, a look of struggling pain flashed across his face.

Of course he will not easily believe that it is not an easy and easy thing to abandon his status; but he is not willing to let go of this opportunity, after all, the days of wearing a mask to love each other is really an extremely rare beauty between us time.

I lowered my eyes and carefully traced the outline of his eyebrows and eyes with my fingers. His straight and tough facial features, deep and bright eyes, showed a unique desire in his maturity.

How beautiful, how dazzling, should have a bright and noble life, but I was dragged into the abyss together.

Song Cheng, are you planning to trick me into believing that you are willing to go far away with me?Then live in a certain place for a while, wait for me to let go of my hatred and fall in love with you again, and then get back what belongs to you?

Lie to me as much as you want, I am waiting for your trap.

After a while, he said, "Junyan, give me some time."

I shook my head: "I'm just thinking wildly."

Song Cheng bent his eyes, and quickly returned to his calm and gentle appearance, only the corners of his mouth still had a bitter taste: "I dare not ignore any of your thoughts, I will consider this matter carefully."

The tense atmosphere that was tense just now gradually subsided, and now I am standing naked in front of him, the two of us are very close, and the atmosphere suddenly became ambiguous.

Fortunately, the sound insulation in the study room is good, and I put my arms around his shoulders sensibly: "I haven't lubricated, so I can only do it once with your legs."

"You and Yang Chen didn't do it?" Song Cheng's eyes lit up, his wide and dry palm pressed against my back, and the rest of the words were sealed into his tightly pressed lips, "Junyan..."

Oxygen was taken away, and the movement of lips and tongue brought waves of suffocating dizziness.I heard him murmur love as his hot cock penetrated between my clenched legs.

Is love such a dirty thing, I don't understand.