salt by salt

I watched Andre drink the last sip of soup, and wiped his lips carefully with a handkerchief.

He raised his face obediently, his eyes didn't look at me, they just opened them in a daze.Now that he doesn't know how to cry out for pain, I am more careful in my movements, not daring to use too much force.The soft and clean veil brushed against the pale rose-colored lips, and I couldn't feel the slightest emotion in my heart, only a burst of affection.

Andre let go of his hand, and the bowl fell to the ground with a clatter.He didn't know where to put the bowl, so he naturally followed his instinct and let go in a daze.Fortunately, all the plastic products have been replaced at home, so that the floor will not be full of broken porcelain.

Xiao Wang heard the sound, came over to pick up the bowl, and wiped the floor with a damp cloth.He is diligent in doing things, and after getting along for a period of time, he is familiar with my temper, and his speech is not as restrained as when he first came: "Mr. It wouldn’t be good if you just throw the bowl away after eating.”

The rehabilitation training given to Andre by the doctor is mainly composed of repetitive actions and simple games, sorting balls of different colors into baskets, scooping up glass balls with a spoon, and stringing colored plastic beads with threads... These trainings are too simple. It's even ridiculous in my eyes.

Xiao Wang brought colored pens and drawing books, helped Andre find a comfortable posture to hold the pen, and then patiently guided him to paint.This process was very difficult, because Andre couldn't understand why he had to color, and it was difficult for him to sit at the table and do things, so he could only be comforted by words and attitudes over and over again.

It's like a tug-of-war with a powerful and incommunicable opponent at the other end of the rope.

I stood next to Andre and ran my fingers through his hair - I stumbled on this the other day to make him feel better, because Andre put his head on my lap every chance he got, letting him I reach out and touch.

Andre finally started to concentrate on coloring the blank pictures.Even though Xiao Wang worked hard to teach for a long time, his pen holding posture is still bad.It is said to be coloring, but in fact he just draws aimlessly on the paper, not to mention making a mess, and often paints colors outside the range of the paper.

On the opposite wall hung a painting of a misty morning in the mountains.The shadows of the trees in the dark green forest are swaying, and there seems to be a new world waiting to be explored in the depths of the mist.This painting not only has an exquisite composition and delicate brushstrokes, but the most rare thing is the sense of mystery revealed in it, which can be said to have both beauty and collection value.

I lowered my head, and the creator of the painting was holding the pen at the moment, and randomly drew a red line, crooked, running through the entire paper.

An unspeakable pain suddenly swept through my heart.

Lu Jingfan lit a cigarette, his knuckles were clearly defined, and he felt a little weak.

I was quite surprised: "Are you still smoking in such a poor health? Smoking a cigarette loses 5 minutes of life."

"Relax once in a while." He lowered his eyelids, "I won't live many years anyway, so why are you afraid of a cigarette?"

I couldn't answer this question, picked up the document on the desktop and glanced at it briefly, raised my eyebrows in surprise: "Your movements are faster than I thought."

"Since you have decided to do it, you have to go to the end. What's the use of dawdling?" Lu Jingfan's tone was a little impatient, "I'm not like you. If I fail, I still have a father-son relationship. The teacher is very suspicious. If Move slowly, once discovered, he will definitely not let me go."

"Yang Chen has already contacted witnesses, and with these evidences, even if Lu Changbai can find someone to take the blame, he won't be able to recover for a while." I took a deep breath, looked at Lu Jingfan's cold face, and pressed down. Excited, "However, there are very few people who have access to these materials. It is only a matter of time before he suspects you. What are you going to do?"

He was silent for a moment, with a look of loss and indifference: "Anyway, it will be exposed sooner or later, and I am going to testify in court."

Lu Jingfan has been by Lu Changbai's side since he was a child, and has handled many shady things for him.If he is willing to testify, it will be a great help for me. I should have encouraged him to do so, but I hesitated for a moment when I said the words: "You...don't be impulsive."

The past criminal evidence was exposed one by one, the trusted students turned against each other, and the company that really brought him benefits was jointly shorted. I can imagine how angry Lu Changbai would be.Although these things can cause him heavy losses, they cannot put him to death.

I didn't participate in the plan on the bright side, Yang Chen's family background and background are strong, only Lu Jingfan became the most obvious target in the whole thing.

Lu Changbai is definitely not someone to be provoked. All kinds of past events have proved that he can bear the burden of humiliation and lie dormant for many years, just to deal the most vicious blow.

"As long as Yang Chen is not stupid, if he makes good use of these things, at least the teacher will have no hope of fighting back in ten years." Lu Jingfan said calmly, "The more the teacher wants to make a comeback, the more he needs sufficient funds. His connections are indeed very extensive. , but only I am willing to dedicate everything to him. Therefore, not only will the teacher not abandon me, but he will pay more attention to me.”

I said: "On the day you are useless, Lu Changbai will take revenge on you immediately."

"I'm 31 years old."

Lu Jingfan looked out of the window, his pale face had ink-colored eyebrows and eyes, which became more and more sickly: "When I was just born, my biological mother threw me in the snow in the middle of the night, and I was not found until midnight. So my lungs There's something wrong with it, and everyone says I won't live long."

Pale smoke spewed out from his bloodless lips: "Even though I am smarter than other children, no one is willing to adopt me. When I was 11 years old, the teacher went to the orphanage to choose me, and the dean told him that my health was bad." , but the teacher didn’t hesitate. Later he took me to see a doctor, and the doctor said that if I take good care of it, I might live to be 40 years old.”

Lu Jingfan twitched the corner of his mouth slightly, pretending to be a smile: "At that time, the teacher patted my shoulder and said, 'Jingfan, I don't expect you to take care of my old age, you just need to live enough for these 30 years'."

I looked at him, and he put out the cigarette butt: "Speaking of which, I'm less conscientious than you. The teacher spent money to keep me alive, and worked hard to cultivate me to become a talent, but I treated him like this."

I can only say: "Everyone has his own way of living."

"After being adopted by the teacher, I sent him a ruthless face. But I have to do my best in everything the teacher asked me to do. The teacher always said that his vision was right, and I was a rare genius. In fact, I I don’t know if I’m born smart, or because I’m working so hard to do everything.”

Lu Jingfan said lightly: "As time passed, I completely forgot what I wanted and what I should look like. When I first came to the United States to study, my teacher told me that I could enjoy life properly. But I couldn't even fall asleep. , because I don't know how to fulfill the command 'enjoy life'."

"In the third year, the teacher asked me to come back, and then showed me a picture of a girl, and asked me what I thought, because he wanted to arrange for me to marry this girl." Lu Jingfan laughed at himself, "I don't want to get married at all, but I said, if the teacher is satisfied, I will be satisfied."

He gently stroked his finger, where there was no trace of wearing a ring: "Less than a year after we got engaged, her father went to jail, her mother went crazy, and the family was in debt. She committed suicide with her wrist. Before she died, she called me and asked if I would marry her, and I said yes, but she cried and said sorry to Brother Lu. She is the only person I feel sorry for in my life."

I asked in a low voice: "Her family went bankrupt... Was it written by Lu Changbai?"

"Only the teacher knows this. If no trace is left, it means it didn't happen." Lu Jingfan closed his eyes, "After this incident, he took me to the funeral and taught me on the way back to learn to accept all kinds of accidents in life .”

I put the documents in my bag, and twitched the corners of my mouth when I heard the words: "Then I hope he can calmly face the accident that happened to him."

"He will. No matter when, the teacher will not be completely defeated. Yang Chen must be careful in the future."

Lu Jingfan's tone was firm, he coughed a few times, and a smile appeared on his indifferent face: "Fortunately, I can't live for too long, as long as the teacher can rely on me wholeheartedly for these ten years, it will be enough."

I had nothing to say, seeing his performance in my eyes, I gradually couldn't tell what this feeling was.

Worship, longing, twisted obsession, or longing that has already deteriorated.

"You don't love Lu Changbai, it's just that there is no one else in your world except him." I said softly, "Why do you have to only look at him? You are an adult, you can start your life again, don't plant everything on him body."

Lu Jingfan froze for a moment, he sat up straight, stared at me without saying a word, until I began to wonder if I said something wrong, he suddenly laughed out loud.

He laughed so loudly and for so long that tears flowed from his eyes.

It was followed by a frenzied cough, and the thin shoulders shook violently, like a toy that was wound up too tightly, and it would collapse at any time, with parts scattered all over the place.

"Xu, Xu Junyan... You really deserve to be the teacher's son, even what you say is ruthless... The teacher said he needed someone to take care of him, so he got married. He said he needed someone to carry on the family, so he brought you back as his own son. Reunion. When I became dispensable, he told me, why not start your own life?"

Lu Jingfan leaned against his chest and forcefully suppressed his cough. He almost yelled at me, his usually bloodless face turned red at this moment: "You are not qualified to lecture me. My life is full of teachers, because the teacher chose me It is the teacher who guaranteed that I will be with him in the future. It is the teacher who deliberately raised me up like this! I know he is not a good person, and I know it is not worth it, but I have obeyed his orders and lived according to his plan for so many years. It's too late!"

I opened my mouth, feeling a little helpless: I intended to persuade him not to adopt such a self-destructive method, but it was misinterpreted to this point.

Lu Jingfan reached out and grabbed my collar, forcing me to bend down and get close to his face.Tears flashed in his eyes, but his tone of voice was gloomy and cold: "I only have ten years to live. Xu Junyan, if you dare to give up halfway, I will kill you."

Is there a normal person around me?

In the long silence in the room, only the sound of Lu Jingfan's uncontrollable rapid breathing echoed in his ears.Since his attitude is so decisive, I don't need to bear the slightest psychological burden when I use him.

I lowered my head, followed Lu Changbai's way, and kissed Lu Jingfan's left cheek lightly.

Am I, who has no sympathy or even joy for this, am I also a lunatic?