salt by salt

While waiting for the meal, I looked out the window. City S is as prosperous as the capital city. Looking down at the brightly lit night scene from the window, I had the illusion of going back to the past.

Sun Ning rested his chin with one hand, his expression was relaxed and happy, and he didn't know what he was thinking.From this angle, her face was very similar to Ye Jiajie's, but it was less delicate and more vivid.

Speaking of Ye Jiajie, when we met a few years ago, she still hoped to climb the third line of the relationship between Yang and Chen, but now she has become popular all over the country.Turn on any TV program and you can see the advertisement of her new variety show. The young face with white skin and red lips on the large poster outside the mall is wearing a confident and charming smile.

I took off my glasses and rubbed the bridge of my nose tiredly.

After I left, I deliberately avoided all sources of news about City B. Both Wu Mian and Sun Ning tactfully stopped bringing up any information about the Xu family and those three people, so that I could continue to qualify as a person who had nothing to do with the past. A dead man without care.

In fact, there is no need to be so cautious, neither Andre nor Song Cheng are people who will appear in front of the public with great fanfare, and with the Yang family's decision-making mistakes, Yang Chen, the only one who may be exposed to the news, also fell silent.

Three years is enough for an impetuous young man to mature and re-examine his past.

I think they will find that what they did was nonsense, and then put all their body and mind into their future careers, marry wives and children, gain power, live a life that most people in the world admire, and let the "Xu Junyan" who is lying underground Become an understatement symbol in memory.

Resentment?

They lived their original life happily and continued the trajectory of high and high, but what was left to me was a broken body, a crippled leg that could not be recovered, and a timid life of hiding.

The glass in front of him was not a pre-dinner drink, but hot water that Sun Ning specially asked the waiter to change, and the cold fingertips touched the warm touch of the glass wall.

I think, there is no resentment or no resentment, it is just that we cannot escape the cycle of cause and effect.

Because of the quick glance under the tree, I have been obsessed with Yang Chen for several years, and because of a sudden mistake, I agreed to his request to go to bed without thinking.If Yang Chen had really cared about me for a long time, and I hadn't acted too rashly that evening, everything that followed might not have happened.

I envied Andre's easy performance of excellence, envied his beauty and dazzling light, hated that he was the apple of my mother's eye, so I seduced him with complicated feelings.If there is no such evil beginning, maybe he will be very indifferent to me, maybe we can become a pair of ordinary brothers, and we will never be burdened with a distorted relationship of suffocation and deformity like we are now.

As for Song Cheng - if I hadn't told him that lame lie, would everything have been different?

cause and effect.

Wrong causes bear immediate fruit, and I have no choice but to taste its bitterness as a costly life lesson.

People have to move forward, clinging to the past is meaningless.Three years didn't teach me how to let go, at least taught me how to forget.

While I was in a daze, the appetizer had already been served to me.The piano music was flowing slowly in the space. Sun Ning was used to my long-term daze. Seeing me recover, he said helplessly: "Eat something, I will be hungry if you are not hungry."

Thinking that today was her birthday, but I didn't have the courtesy to snub the other party, my heart was filled with apology, and I quickly made amends: "I forgot to say happy birthday to you, I will buy you a big cake later, and I have to give you a gift in a few days. "

She waved her hand indifferently: "It's not a little girl. I used to have birthdays, so I don't care about the form. I heard from my colleagues that the taste of this restaurant is good. It just happened to catch up with the date. I will bring you to improve the food."

"It used to be in the past. At that time, I didn't know, and my brain was not clear, so I couldn't pass it on to you." I shook my head, "How many anniversaries can a person have in a lifetime? You should take it seriously, I will write it down, and I will give it to you next year." Have a good time."

Sun Ning smiled, his eyes narrowed like a sly cat, showing a rare innocence: "The tone is quite loud, okay, I'll wait."

Seeing her smile, I couldn't help raising the corners of my mouth too.

cause and effect.

When I was at Xu's, Sun Ning made things difficult for me several times. Even though I learned that she joined the company as a relationship with Xu Yuzhong, I never thought of using my status to suppress or take revenge.After a heart-to-heart conversation in the elevator, she once invited me to watch a movie, dance together, and ran errands for me on the Songcheng matter.

It was also because of this inadvertent kindness that she drove to the suburbs of the city on a whim and saved my life.

I am not an elm-headed person. In the past three years, Sun Ning has worked tirelessly and painstakingly to take care of me, a patient with limited mobility, and deal with my uncontrollable amnesia and the pressure of being found at any time. At the same time, I have to go to work to earn money. The "relatives" are more conscientious.

She could obviously let go of it, but she never gave up.I don't know whether this persistence is out of sympathy for the same patient, or out of the goodwill between the opposite sex.

If it is the former, I admire Sun Ning's self-improvement and self-motivation, and I regard her as a friend from the bottom of my heart.Although I don't have any skills, I can usually do housework and cook to repay her for helping me.

For the latter - it is completely cranky and self-indulgent.

A man who is physically disabled, mentally weak, or even has no normal status, let alone her who has a successful career and good looks, even ordinary people can't look down on her.

More importantly, as Wu Mian said, I have... been unable to establish a deeper connection with people.

If human feelings are likened to an endless box of building blocks from which blocks can be taken out at will, then the process of building a castle is equivalent to building a relationship.My natural personality and childhood experience made me have fewer blocks than others, but the buildings in my hands are stronger and harder to change than theirs.

In the past, Wu Mian worked hard to let me let go of my guard, change this pathological stubbornness, and maintain a healthy emotional state.The things that happened to me knocked down the house I had built and destroyed all the blocks in the box.

Sun Ning encouraged me that feelings change with people's mentality, and one day they will return to normal.But the checklist made it clear that somewhere in my brain had been damaged by overdose and mental damage, and emotions were being built on this fragile hormonal level.

Despite the bottom line that a lack of endorphins and such is an insignificant thing, behavior is still inevitably affected.

I became very peaceful, and the emotions that once filled my body seemed to be separated from me by a layer of glass.The last time I felt their existence clearly was about two years ago during a hysterical fit.

Since then, these things have seemed to drain, disappear from my life, and never come back.

When I got the report, Wu Mian's face was heavy, and I joked to him: Although the results of most projects are much lower than normal, but now I will not easily hurt the spring and autumn, and not easy to get angry, which is good for my health.

He said softly: Toshihiko, you will no longer feel the so-called "love".

good thing.I insisted that this is a good thing.

The dinner tastes good and the atmosphere is very warm.Sun Ning and I were about to leave after eating when a crisp female voice suddenly sounded from behind: "Little brother?"

I was very slow to this popular address, and I didn't even realize that it was me, or that Sun Ning poked my shoulder to remind me to turn around: "Someone is calling you."

I turned around, and a girl ran up to me in two or three steps.She has short hair cut to the ears, and her pretty face is a little immature, with a hint of surprise in her eyes: "It's really you! What a coincidence! Do you eat here too? I'm a student of Experimental Middle School, and I often go to that convenience store Buying snacks, last time you helped me get water."

I tried hard to recall, but now my memory is not as good as before, and there are so many students shopping in convenience stores, their youthful faces are all similar in my eyes.

Sun Ning watched from the side, and several people in the restaurant cast their gazes here, and the girl's cheeks flushed slightly: "You, you taught me German, really don't remember?"

This happened last week, so I still have a little bit of an impression.

At that time, there were three or four students sitting at the bar. They were probably going to participate in the next Model United Nations event, and they discussed for a long time where a certain point of view came from.When I was in college, I was entrusted by someone to translate the original script where that sentence was written, so I told them about it.

Teachers all over the world would be pissed off if this could be called "teaching".

"It's you." I didn't want to embarrass her, so I smiled, "It's really a coincidence."

She glanced at Sun Ning, pursed her lips, and asked in a low voice, "Did you come with your girlfriend?"

"I'm his friend." Sun Ning said with a playful look in his eyes, biting the accent, "Ordinary friends."

"Oh...then little brother, can I add your WeChat?" The girl's eyes lit up, and she took out her phone expectantly, "You know a lot, and I want to ask you about related questions in the future, can I? "

I had a question mark all over my head, thinking that the current students are really interested in studying, so I added friends with her in a daze.When she was called away by her father and I sat in Sun Ning's car, I realized that I had been accosted.

Still by a little girl in high school!

This kind of slowness made me feel ashamed, no wonder Sun Ning's expression of crossing his arms and watching the show the whole time.Seeing that I finally came to my senses, she chuckled: "Peach blossoms will bloom wherever gold is."

"This is so strange. I work in a convenience store, why does she..."

"What's the point? You haven't lost your looks and temperament. Besides, adolescent girls like you, who are older and have a good personality. They can take care of others and feel safe."

The girl sent cute emojis one after another, asking me if I would go to work on weekends, and she wanted to invite me to watch two musical theater tickets.I have never dealt with such clear and straightforward feelings without a trace of distraction in my student days, and I shook my head repeatedly: "I don't understand."

"The times are different. Some families have an open-minded environment, and children can be blatant in their early love, and ask for contact information in front of their own family members." She glanced at the screen of my mobile phone, "If you don't mind, you can go there once, just take the opportunity to explain clearly , save trouble."

"No." I politely rejected the girl and said to Sun Ning, "After all, I have already dated a beautiful woman this weekend."

She tilted her head in doubt: "Who?"

"Kid Wu Yanrui."