salt by salt

I withdrew my hand, Song Cheng's smile faded a little, and his expression became much darker when he lowered his eyelashes.

"We are still friends after all, and I will definitely come to see you." I couldn't bear the expression of the wounded, so I quickly changed the subject, "Are you taking medicine? Did you go to the hospital except for the doctor brought by the program team?" Seen?"

"I went to the hospital in the county that day, and they said it was a fractured calf bone, and it's nothing serious."

"Bone fracture is not a trivial matter. What happened?" I was puzzled. "Dong Xiaoqian said she was filming a reality show in a farmhouse. It stands to reason that it should be safe to be surrounded by a group of people. How could this happen?"

Song Cheng shook his head slightly: "I blame myself for not paying attention to the road under my feet."

We talked a few words without embarrassment like this, and I was afraid of being left alone, so I mentioned to him the gossip I heard in the car before, and he kept watching me seriously.Song Cheng was originally good-looking, with deep eyebrows, and when he smiled, he looked very affectionate and sincere. At this moment, he leaned slightly towards me, as if gazing at his lover.

But now I know that his attentiveness to what is being said is only out of politeness.

I am self-indulgent.

The anecdote that could be said was finally finished, and the atmosphere was inevitably quiet for a few seconds.

I complained secretly in my heart, because most of my daily life revolved around the company, and it was inappropriate to mention interesting things about work here; if I talked about leisure and entertainment with him who is currently injured and bedridden, it would seem like showing off instead of caring; Starting from the book he was reading, I was afraid that I would reveal my ignorance with just one mouthful.

Talk about other topics that Song Cheng can catch up with, but he can't think of it at all for a while.

Fortunately, he seemed to see my embarrassment, and said empathetically, "You've lost a lot of weight."

"It's okay." I breathed a sigh of relief, "Maybe it's because I haven't slept well during this time."

"Don't be nervous." He smiled. "Before we parted last time, you said, let us all show our true selves. At least you can relax a little in front of me, okay?"

Mentioning this, my face froze a bit.His eyes are still gentle, I look away: "Song Cheng."

"You said."

"After I talked to you last time, I thought about it for a long time." I was silent for a moment, "The trust between us has completely collapsed. Some things were wrong from the beginning. It's better not to make mistakes again and again. I don't want to Every time I look at your face, I can't help but think about whether you are real or not. It's very tiring... so tiring."

There was no change in his expression: "I'm listening, you continue to talk."

"As you can see, the real me is selfish and cowardly, a complete egoist. I don't want to waste my energy on things that are not worth the loss, especially at present, it seems that being with you is hard and troublesome. Of course it is my fault There are many, so I will do my best to help you realize your dream of being an actor, which is a little bit of my compensation for you."

In fact, I have complicated feelings for Song Cheng in my heart, and it is not so heartless as in the words.

Just being mean and cold on purpose to sound like an asshole.No matter who listens to it, he will be upset and break off with me completely-I am ready for him to punch me in the face after he finishes speaking.

Although there is still a trace of nostalgia in my heart.

If I were a rich second generation who simply didn't worry about food and clothing, I would definitely agree to him without hesitation, and maybe I can go on for a long time after being honest with each other.

But I'm really tired.Surrounded by the irritable and suspicious Yang Chen, and Andre who goes his own way, it is almost impossible to avoid them and play some love games with Song Cheng to get to know each other again.

He couldn't leave Yang Chen before getting the file, couldn't abandon Andre because of blood relationship, and couldn't betray Xu Yucheng before the plan to fight for the family property was implemented.

Being in prison, I owe everything to others, so I am restricted everywhere.

"... Well said. But I disagree."

It took me two or three seconds to realize that this tough sentence came from Song Cheng's mouth. When I looked up, I found that the smile on the corner of his mouth hadn't changed at all, and his eyes were terribly calm.

"What do you mean……?"

"Is this sentence difficult to understand? I'm not interested in the conditions you said, and I don't agree with you wanting to make a clean break." Song Cheng's tone was still sincere, and even the slightly sarcastic words were pleasant to the ear, "I'm showing you my true side. I won't accept what I don't want to accept, and I will never compromise."

I didn't expect him to answer like this at all, and I came back to my senses: "We have never been together officially, let alone I have been lying to you...Even I feel that there is nothing to keep a bad person like me. What?"

After all, I teased him, and now it sounds like he is accusing him of plotting, and obviously can't wait to get rid of him, which is completely in line with scum.

"I am very happy when I am with you. I have never been so happy." Song Cheng's tone softened, "Because you are very simple, I don't need to think about anything, as long as I stay by your side with peace of mind."

I never thought I was simple, and no one praised me for being simple—if the stupidity and stupidity in Yang Chen's mouth were not counted.

With a calm demeanor, he asked before I could refute, "Do you think Jun Yan is fake?"

"certainly--"

I fell silent halfway through the conversation, and I pursed my lips.

The name Jun Yan is fabricated out of thin air, but it shows part of the real me.I also hope that I am warm and considerate, and I hope that I can be a kind person and be devoted to my lover.

Like him, during the time I was "Jun Yan", I was extremely relaxed.

Song Cheng pointed to my heart: "You know very well that no matter how good a person's acting skills are, you can't always be wary of pretending. What we show to each other is not an illusion, but it's not complete. I want to show you the remaining The next part, I also want to explore all of you."

I opened my mouth, but couldn't think of any strong rebuttal words, and said embarrassingly: "Let's forget it... the best part of me is nothing more than that, and there are only bad aspects."

"How do you know I don't?" His voice was soft, but his tone was unquestionable. "Learning to tolerate each other's shortcomings is what lovers should do."

The only bright light in the dim room fell on his body, Song Cheng frowned slightly, his handsome facial features added a bit of invisible persuasiveness to these words.

I was a little dazed, but when I thought of the big trouble in city B, I suddenly became sober.Even if he and I are happy in the end, what's the use of it? If the whole life is tightly held in the hands of others, how can I have the power to decide.

But facing Song Cheng's eyes, it was difficult for me to say no, so I found an excuse to stand up and said, "You should recover from your injuries first, Xiaoqian hasn't come here for a long time, I'll go to the next door to see if she needs help. "

He seemed to read my mind and was silent for a few seconds.

I was afraid that he would hold on to this matter, and I thought that if it was impossible, I would just leave. Anyway, his leg was injured and he couldn't come after him.Unexpectedly, he didn't force it, nodded and said: "It's okay, you can go."

I am pardoned.Although Song Cheng's expression was gentle the whole time, his imperceptible aura was very strong, which made me feel that I was facing an elder who was not angry and pretentious.

He seldom treated me like this before, and this may be the true side of his mouth.

Before going out, he was suddenly stopped by him: "Xu Junyan."

"Ok?"

"It's not that you hate being controlled, on the contrary, you like the feeling of following the steps." Song Cheng's tone was firm, and he even looked confident when he looked up at me, "If you give the right to choose, you will be at a loss instead."

Being manipulated by others is a pain in my heart. He, who is always considerate, said this kind of thing, and he didn't even want to blurt out: "What do you know, don't think you know me very well!"

He was not angry: "I didn't finish my sentence. If you can get what you want most, even if you don't fight for it but give it to others, you will definitely be happy. What you need is not freedom, but a better arrangement. "

"A better arrangement?" I regretted my indiscretion just now, and couldn't help but smile bitterly, "Do you know my situation? For me, there is no room for decision."

Song Cheng smiled slightly: "What if I say it's right in front of your eyes?"

I froze for a while, and heard him say: "Of course a small actor can't help you much, but my father can still say a few words on it. I ran away from home before, and I almost severed ties with him. But For you, I am willing to go back and give it a try."

His eyes were burning, his words were sincere, and his expression did not seem to be fake.I struggled to digest the information in this sentence, and while I was shocked, I couldn't help but be moved by his determination.

"I have the ability to fight against those people you worry about." I looked at him hesitantly, and Song Cheng stretched out his hand to me, "Xu Junyan, come to me."

come to me.

That time at the premiere, he fought with Yang Chen, and Yang Chen left in anger. I was afraid of offending Yang Chen, so I chased him, leaving him alone to go to the hospital.

On the night when I agreed to be honest with him, I also abandoned him without hesitation because Yang Chen had a piece of information that I didn't know was true or not.

I know in my heart that all this is because he is just a powerless little model, because he has a tolerant personality, and because he cannot easily control my future like Yang Chen.

Even though he later concealed some things, I felt sorry for him more.

Ashamed, how can you not waver?

I hesitated and walked back step by step. He pulled me to sit down by the bed and clasped fingers with me.Facing this pretty face, I whispered, "I'm really bad."

I myself despise the vileness of changing my mind as soon as I hear he offers me asylum.

Song Cheng's brows and eyes were curved, showing a gentle smile: "If you want to get it, you have to give. If I can't stand at the same height as them, how can I be qualified to compete in the game? I don't blame you, I can understand."

"I wish to be worthy of virtue, and join hands with the general." He said, "I will make better arrangements for you."