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"……What did you say?"

I hesitated and stopped, thinking that my ears were hallucinating.

"I said, the information here could have proved something." He sighed softly, "But it was torn up just now, and you also said that you don't care what is written on it. Just right, from now on we will treat it as if we don't know each other. , let's go."

"Yang Chen, if you know anything, please tell me."

"Who are you?" He said mockingly, "We don't know each other, so why should I tell you?"

I asked, "Do you really want to torture me like this?"

"Torture? You were the one who said you wanted to leave me first, okay, I agree, you can leave anytime." The smile in Yang Chen's voice was gone, leaving only undisguised cruelty, "Whoever wants to leave doesn't You? Xu Junyan, I'll give you a chance. If you stay, I might be able to talk to you about it when I'm in a good mood. As long as you leave this door, we have nothing to do with each other."

His tone was calm, but there was something unsettling in it.

"This is not a choice at all!" My lips trembled, and I couldn't help clenching my fists, "You clearly know that I—"

You know perfectly well that this is the root of all the tragedies in my life, and you know how much I care about it.

What you used to threaten me was the pain I told you personally.

"What do you think? You should ask yourself, what qualifications do you have to negotiate terms with me?!" He approached me, pinched my jaw and forced me to raise my head, "If you manage a small company for someone else, you think you are capable I don’t care to take a look at the little things you did, understand? Just because you want to dump me? Tell me to let go every word, and finally feel proud, how do you feel?"

Yang Chen spoke viciously, and slowly tightened his fingers: "Wait until the day when I don't want to use you, you can get away from me. Now I want to hear you say that you regret betraying me, and you will never do it again. "

I tried to break his wrist: "Get lost..."

"Don't you want to know the truth about what happened to your mother back then? And believe me, with your ability, you will never be able to find out anything in my hands." He seemed to smile coldly, "Xu Junyan, you There was never a choice."

I slumped and let go, Yang Chen caressed my side face.His fingers were slender and strong, with the cold and sticky touch of blood.

Indeed, Xu Junyan's life was nothing more than that.I'm just a marionette in the hands of others, from Mr. Xu to Xu Yucheng to Yang Chen, it doesn't matter who is manipulating it, anyway, it's not my turn to make decisions.

I never... had a choice.

"I'm sorry." I smiled empty-handedly, "Yang Chen, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have betrayed you, I was wrong."

How many times did I say sorry tonight?How many times have I been wrong?

Maybe I really made a mistake, and I'm really sorry for many people.

"You know what to do." He stroked the back of my neck approvingly and led me to the bed.I couldn't tell if he sighed softly, or if it was just my illusion, "Xu Junyan, stay by my side obediently. Others are unreliable, only I will not harm you."

"I was wrong. I'm sorry."

I smiled and knelt down on my knees, even if my vision was blurred, I could skillfully untie his belt, and feel his genitals fully erect in my mouth with my lips and tongue.

Yang Chen grabbed my hair, and his thick penis pierced my brain like a knife.I did the deep throat very hard, not thinking about whether I would suffocate, physiological tears slipped from the corners of my eyes, and even my eyes turned black for a few seconds.

Time passed very slowly, very slowly, my scalp was numb, and I felt that the feeling at this moment was so familiar, as if I had been doing this all my life.

A lifetime... how long can it be?

Finally he gasped when he ejaculated, but instead of pulling it out, he pressed hard on my head instead.I was so choked that my nose and mouth were full of the smell of semen.

After Yang Chen tidied himself up, he didn't know why he didn't like it, so he pulled my wrist away, preventing me from wiping off the smelly liquid that I coughed up with my fingers, and finally dripped down my jaw onto his black suit pants.

I lowered my eyes to look at the off-white carpet in my field of vision, and suddenly heard his voice: "I made a bet with your Song Cheng."

"I heard from him that you are going to have a good talk with him. It just so happens that we are betting on whether you will keep the agreement tonight." He said in a low voice, "He is sure to win, but unfortunately I know you better One chip. You see, I won in the end."

Yes, he won.

Xu Junyan is a liar, an idiot, and a selfish man who has lost a lot.

I couldn't tell whether the bitterness in my mouth was from semen or tears at the moment, coughed and smiled and said, "I'm sorry...I...I was wrong..."

"Don't look so yin and yang, I'm bored just looking at it." Yang Chen pulled me up from the ground impatiently, "Do you really think he's a good thing? Didn't I say that he doesn't love you at all, he and Then what Cheng Heyun—"

"...Yes, he doesn't love me." I knew I shouldn't laugh, but the messy liquid on my face was mixed together, as if to freeze the smile rigidly, turning it into an almost funny expression.I murmured, "He doesn't love me. If you say he loves Cheng Heyun, then love him... I don't care."

I do not mind.

It doesn't matter to me who the true love is, maybe Song Cheng and Cheng Heyun had something, unrequited love, or something else.

I do not mind.

I just...just really like Song Cheng.I like his gentle kiss, I like him to take care of my preferences when cooking, I like him to peel off the fishbone patiently for me, I like him to take my every word into my heart.

Yang Chen's tone was filled with cold anger: "I don't understand, what's so good about him that it's worth posting so cheaply?"

I try to think hard, even when my brain has stopped functioning.

It's not that I didn't realize Song Cheng's weirdness, I had a premonition before Yang Chen said it.

The Song Cheng in front of me may be just an illusion, he is too perfect and gentle, like in a fog, I can't figure it out.But the warmth he gave me is a real lamp in the fog, illuminating my whole body.

Jun Yan is fake, but I was real when I was with him.

The answer finally emerged, and I stumbled and said, "It's been a long time...no one...asked me if it hurts."

Only he remembers.

I knew a long time ago that I didn't deserve my sincerity, and I only asked for a little scrap of love.

The room was silent for a long time.

Yang Chen's breathing overlapped with mine, and he suddenly asked, "Are you in pain?"

I shake my head.Although the mouth is worn out, the entire throat seems to have been burned, and the mouth is full of blood.

"The skin on the lips is broken." He slowed down his voice, "Come here, let me look inside."

I opened my mouth obediently, but what I was waiting for was a soft kiss.He sucked the blood from my lips and put his arms around my waist.

Again.

Useless consolation, perfunctory tenderness of charity.

"If you break up with him, I won't blame you for the past, okay? I will also help you solve the problems at your house." Yang Chen's tone suddenly darkened, "As for that Song Cheng, I Will do you so much better than him that it's not worth remembering."

I didn't speak, and he kissed my cheek again, with expectation in his voice: "Does it still hurt?"

I still shake my head.

My heart was trampled into mud, how could it hurt.

"It's almost enough. To be honest, don't have such a weird attitude." He clicked his tongue and patted my face, "You cheated first, and I didn't do anything particularly excessive. It's okay for you. Be tolerant. Song Cheng is not a good person, I want you to choose the right path."

"……Um."

"It's good to know. Go wash your face and make it look ugly." He probably remembered that I still have problems with my eyes. Serve me, my dad didn't even order me when I grew up. Look at you, you are so stupid, if I don't help you, you will be tricked by Song Cheng and beg me for days."

"I know," I said, "I was wrong."

I know... I was wrong.